Authors: Lisa Sandlin
“Yeah, thanks, I'm 'bout finished here.”
Procrastinating, Delpha walked for a while. A cloud above the downtown was trying to shed the rest of its water but clumsily. A few drops fell and slacked off. St. Anthony's bells were sleeping. She brushed rain from her hair and scanned for the deacon but didn't see him. She walked on. A man with roses sprouting from his arms hurried into the florist shop managed by a lady with a black mask. Delpha liked flowers. Drawn into the shop once, she'd spoken to the woman, asked how she learned to place flowers in vases so they looked pretty. The mask covering the spot where the woman's nose had been ruffled at the edge when she spoke about horizontal and vertical, oval, S-shaped floral arrangements.
Delpha nodded through the window to her now, as the manager brought a rose up to her mask.
In a few more minutes, she stopped at the payphone by the library. The smile fell from her face, she took a breath, and dropped in a dime. A female voice said hello.
“Mrs. Robbins?”
“Yes. Who is this?”
This was it. This was the voice she'd heard before. “My name is Delpha Wade.”
Satin quiet the background at Mrs. Robbins' house, no music, no television. On Delpha's side not much noise, car every now and then. Twelve forty-five on a sweltering day, air steaming, streets wet.
A tight, coiled silence persisted. Delpha wiped her neck.
Finally the woman said, “If Isaac had answered, what would you have done?”
“Hung up.”
“Well, that's something. You received my letter.”
“I did.”
“Will you do itâlet my sonâ¦get on with his life?”
“There's a bench in front of the City Hall and Auditorium. Pearl Street. Across from the library. Can you meet me there tomorrow evening? Won't be that much traffic on a Saturday.”
“Why not tonight?”
“Cause I'm still thinking.”
“You want money.”
“I want a little of your time.”
“But will you do what I asked?”
“First tell me what ânecessary but regrettable' means.”
Sound of an indrawn breath, then one breathed out into the receiver. “What time?”
“Eight, eight thirty. That work?”
“I'll be there.”
Delpha hung up and walked toward the office. Their phone might be ringing with fresh business and her not there to answer it, “Good afternoon, Phelan Investigations. How may we help you?”
PHELAN POPPED A Tums, pulled into a Texaco. He threw his jacket on the seat and filled up the tank. Sixteen gallons,
Jesus Christ
, almost seven dollars. He accepted his measly change and fed it to the pay phone.
Half a ring and a gasp.
“This Ricky?”
Nothing.
“Mrs. Toups, that you?”
Sobbing.
Phelan touched the ear part of the receiver to his throat and paced as far as the phone cord would let him. Swiveled up the earpiece.
“Mrs. Toups, this is Tom Phelan.”
“I know who it is.” Snuffling. “I need you to help us, Mr. Phelan, but I was fraid to call you. Ricky's at it again.”
“Deeterman?”
“Yes. Ricky used to take up for him, say that man fixes sick animals, that he cured a hurt raccoon. Said he just got mad that last time. But now Ricky doesn't like him. Goes because that man gives him money. Ricky's not the same boy. Not my boyâ,” Mrs. Toups broke down again.
“Call the police and tell them just what you told me. They're looking for Deeterman. Seriously looking. You want Ricky safe, you have to call the cops. He's not at home now?”
“No.”
“Where's Georgia Watson live?” Phelan jotted down the address. “I'm gonna be out of my office. But I'll call you back. Need to talk to Ricky.”
“Will you scare him, please?”
Mrs. Toups. Caroleen
.
Way, way too late for that
.
Maybe scaring would be a workable plan for Georgia Watson.
A van in her driveway advertised P&C Karpet Kleaning. Jacket on again, he rang the bell at the small house, got a paunchy man in a tan T-shirt didn't open the screen door. Said nothing.
Phelan showed his card. “Could I talk to Georgia, sir?”
The man studied the card through the screen. “No. My wife's about to cook supper.” He said it with just a little reluctance.
“I'm sorry to interrupt, Mr. Watson, but I got reason to believe your daughterâ”
“Name's Prewitt. She's my stepdaughter.”
“All right, Mr. Prewitt. I believe you should know that your stepdaughter and her friend Ricky Toups are hanging around with dangerous companyâ”
“Hold on now. Where you getting something like that?”
“Ricky Toups' mother.”
Mr. Prewitt's brows drew down. He cracked the screen door and took the card. “Georgia!” he yelled. “Get your butt out here!” He lowered his voice. “Investigator. You stake guys out, catch 'em catting around. That what you do?”
“That's one type of case. There's others.”
“Yeah? What other kinds?”
Phelan was half-choking on his impatience. He coughed, calmed down. “Industrial sabotage case.”
The stepfather's resistance wavered. He motioned toward Phelan's tie. “Wouldn't like dressing up ever day. You mind it?”
“Helps. Some people”âhe glanced around like those people crowded Mr. Prewitt's porchâ“suit makes 'em feel at home, you know. They need this kind of apparel.”
“Apparel.” The man was with him now. “Bosses, you dealin with them.”
“They got the money. You know how that is. Listen, Mr.â”
“Oh yeah. Man, I got this one office managerâ”
“What d'you waaant, Glen, I'm hungry.” Georgia Watson flounced to the door, a fist already stuck to her hip. Her eyes flicked wider as she recognized Phelan. The brass attitude retracted like a pair of balls from chilly water.
“I see you remember me. Came over here to warn you to drop whatever you still got going with Dennis Deeterman.”
“Whatever you say, sir.”
“Not working, Georgia.”
“Aw, he's just an old weird guy that likes animals, and I don't hang out. I leave pretty much right away. He doesn't like having girls around.”
“Old and weird. Right. You leave right away after what?”
Her dish-face fell into a careful nonchalance. Phelan continued to stare her down.
“After we get there, me and some boy, I leave, OK?”
“He hurt Ricky once before. You remember that.”
Her eyebrows quirked upward, and her lips parted.
Well, look at that, maybe she didn't. Maybe Ricky hadn't confided that part of his very tough day
. “You got a new address for Deeterman, a number or way to reach him, tell me.”
Dark brown knowing lowered into her eyes. Now she had something Phelan wanted.
Prewitt tugged on her plump, freckled arm. “Who the hell's he talking 'bout?”
“Shut up, Glen.” Georgia wrenched away from him and shot Phelan the bird. The door slammed.
Cussing this clueless little bitch he'd failed to terrify, Phelan drove back to the office, called Mrs. Toups. No Ricky yet.
Friday night, close to eight o'clock, his professional deck was cleared, but his brain was still zipping around. Tried to leave the phone alone. Night's second failure. He called E.E. at home and reported that “Once bitten, twice shy” did not apply to his former client. The teenagers were back in business. The office was hollow without Delpha there, his footsteps loud. Heedlessly, he asked that E.E. call him if he heard anything about Deeterman.
“Call you. Like you was a cop. Mr. Hawaii-Five-O. Mr. Mannix.” E.E. read him the sorry-nephew code for a minute, finishing with, “You're family but don't mess in police business, you hear?”
“All right. But you have cases you can't let go of?”
“One or two.”
“Me too.”
E.E.'s shout of a laugh tripped over itself making more laughing. Bounced like a trampoline for ten seconds. “Thank you, Tom, bless your heart, I needed that. Oh, my. Get over yourself, boy. How long you been in business? All we know, this your summer job.”
Phelan sat down, face heated. He hung up before E.E. could bust out laughing again.
Dug the bottle of whiskey from his bottom drawer and was about to pour a glass, but thenâ
hold up, have a Technicolor life here, Tom
âhe tucked it back. Switched off the fan and
the straining AC units. Tugged his tie loose, tossed it onto his desk, locked the door and walked down the stairs.
Twenty minutes and two shots later, he was bossing some emotional leeway. Owning some perspective. He'd bypassed Crockett's outdoor street fair and chosen the relative quiet of a bar, heels hooked over the rung of a bar stool. He was letting his vision blur out on neon, savoring the wide sweep of breeze from a big ass ceiling fan. The bartender had just rescued his loyal constituents from Top Forty and delivered them into the deft hands of a KJET jockey spinning this week's Jet Set of Soul Sounds. Phelan was ready to sip properly from a Jack on the rocks with a twist.
“You Tom Phelan?”
He angled his stool around to see a twentyish blonde in a yellow tank top. “My friend,” she pointed her cigarette over her shoulder, “she told me your helicopter crashed in Viet Nam. What was that like?”
Phelan looked past her to a table where two other young women sat with fresh drinks, empty glasses, and a full ashtray, one of themâ¦yes, indeed, Debbie from State National. She scrunched up her face in contrition, mouthed “Sor-ry.” He angled back to the vision of yellow. A snub-nosed girl riding into the night on her mother's opinion that she was pretty, who hadn't learned yet that she was just bright-acting.
The silence between them paid out until she began to question her mother's opinion and her face turned a color he liked: rose. All rose over the cheeks and the neck. He didn't like that she was uncomfortable, even if she didn't know her nose from a drill bit. Maybe he was supposed to come up with a fun anecdote for her when a hazy glimpse had shimmed itself in, hills and mist, tumble of faces and soaked uniforms, oven-heat, the blowback of a chopper, stumbling stooped over
at the head of a bloody stretcher. Roar and churn of blades above his ducked head, grit blown in his teeth, embedding in his skin, writhing of the man on the stretcher, the weight, the shifting twisting living weight. Lift-off, up, up, noise, smoke, door gunner's face as he pitched back, clawed at the metal insides of the lurching chopper. The glimpse flared into a black, breathless fear-wall that was himself body and mind, and the wall rammed forward, crushing.
Then something clicked in, and the fear cleared.
Snap
, packed away.
In its place, beige calm.
The wide breeze brushed his sweating cheek. Music sluiced by.
If you want me to stay I'll be around todayâ¦
Someone screamed in a modified fashion. Horsing around, not meaning it.
Oh whoahh
.
Good
Wish I could
Get this message over to you now
. A better scream this time.
“Fast,” he said to the girl, about the plunging chopper, and swung the stool away from her. Chugged his gleaming Jack on ice cubes from his clean glass. Time to go. He was over himself.
A BLACK LINCOLN ruffled the skirt of a woman crossing the street. She abruptly sat down on the bench.
“You're her, aren't you,” the woman said.
“Yeah. I'm her.”
Mrs. Robbins angled toward Delpha, taking her in.
Looking into the woman's eyes, Delpha thought,
I'm dead wrong. Those words
, prurient, perhaps,
anybody can write them
.
No makeup, light lines at the eyes, one tracing up from the chin without reaching the corner of her lip. Nose like Isaac's now that it was healed straight again, not much of a dip at the brow. She wore a baby blue oxford shirt with the sleeves rolled and a khaki skirt. Loafers. With spatter-spots.
Paper-bag brown hair in an untended pixie cut.
Didn't rule out Isaac's mother as their client, a wig would fit over the short hair. But unlike their client, who Mr. Phelan had described as having dirty-brown teary eyes, Mrs. Robbins sported clear lamps there behind her metal-frame bifocalsâoutsize, blue, almost purple. And turned on Delpha.
“You have a delicate face,” Isaac's mother said, with surprise. “After fourteen years in prison. My god. I thought
up-close
you'd beâ¦blowsy. Harsh.” Mrs. Robbins sat straight again, turning her head left away from City Hall.
Up-close. Did that mean Isaac's mother had seen her from far off? Must have. She too looked away, fixing her eyes on the
greened copper trim of the library, the stained glass images of wheat and scythe, of bound sheaves.
“You thought blowsy is what Isaac would like.”
“Not at all. But he's always been shy andâ¦I thought you'd have brought yourself to his attention in some obvious way.”
“The regular obvious way. I didn't do time for prostitution.”
“I know what you served time for. It's not difficult information to find. The law serves man, not justice, and frankly, I'm not unsympathetic to you.”
“Unsympathetic enough to threaten me.”
A braless girl in a gauzy white sundress halted by the bench. She twirled an unlit cigarette backward into her palm. “Wow, hi! Dr. Robbins. I thought that was you. Y'all fixin' to go down to the Crockett Street fair?” She smiled expectantly.
“No, how are youâ” Isaac's mother said.
“It's Susan.” The smile dimmed a notch then brightened again. She raised on her toes and signaled toward the street, breasts bobbing. A motorcycle showoff-skidded to the curb.
“I mean to take Bio-Chem again. Hope I can get a better grade in your class this time.” The girl's hopeful gaze overflowed onto Delpha, drenching her in good intentions. “Nice to see you, Dr. Robbins.” She ran on tiptoe to the motorcycle.
Though light was leaching from the sky, Mrs. Robbins produced clip-ons from her purse and was about to fix them over her glasses, disappearing the wild-indigo eyes. “So. My language. It offended you?”
A beat in Delpha's throat, then she realized the woman meant the language in her threat, not the language that had led Delpha to call her. Not
prurient
, not
perhaps
.
“That's the sticking point, isn't it?” Mrs. Robbins expelled
a breath. “It wasn't personal. I'd have written the same to anyone in Isaac's way. That's all you want, the threat removed? Not money?” The dark lenses left off scanning Orleans Street, amber-gold in sunset light, and focused on Delpha.
You brought what you had to the fight. Delpha decided to ruin that scrutiny. “Sorry about your husband. Isaac loved his dad a lot.”
The straight nose flooded red at the tip, her lips clenched. Trembled and opened. “Oh, yes. Yes, he did, yes. Yes.” Mrs. Robbins' wrist touched her forehead, the pose of a silent-movie actress, but effortful, as though she were propping herself up.
“Just break it off like I asked. Please. Allow Isaac to resume his education.”
Delpha intended to do just that. She had never intended otherwise. But she had to know. “If I didn't agree to break it offâ¦what is it you have in mind to do?”
Mrs. Robbins glanced at Delpha and rapidly away. “This is a problem. I know what happened to you. I understand precisely why you did what you did.” Her voice dropped. Her head was shaking in stern disagreement. “I've no wish to hurt you.”
“Really. How would you?” This was it, the information Delpha wanted, did she have her plan ready?
“Miss Wade, Miss Wade. Hypothetically, any number of ways. Other than with my son, you're not a powerful person. I could interfere with your parole officer, bring some sort of complaint. Or perhaps your employment. The latter. Interfering with your employment would violate the terms of your parole. You have to hold a job. You're a convict. Whereas I supervise a hospital laboratory and teach a class at Lamar College. Hardly Harvard, but respectable. You appreciate the leverage.”
“Oh, I do.” Delpha shifted away from her. “Isaac tell you what my job is?”
“It's hard to get much out of him. Except your name, he seems to like to say it. I gathered you're some kind of nurse aid.”
“I did have two jobs, just one now. When you checked up on me, you didn't find out who I work for?”
“My research took another direction. Quite another. Direction. I discoveredâ¦well, let's wait a minute for that.” Isaac's mother's mouth stayed open, she hesitated, as though about to reverse herself and spill whatever she'd discovered. But when she went on, she said only, “That minor point, where you work, that wouldn't be difficult, either.”
“I work for Tom Phelan. The private investigator. Funny, you and me talked on the phone before I ever met Isaac.”
Mrs. Robbins's head jerked around to Delpha, her gaze alarmed. Isaac's mother knew instantly what she stood to lose.
“I am not an extortionist. Sending those photographs, without any message, isn't a crime. I refer you to Black's Law Dictionary. I had no expectation of any gain but harm. Harm, like they had harmed us.”
Delpha watched her steadily. “Why'd you want to hurt Elliott?”
“Monstrous. They were monstrous.” Her fists beat against her knees. “My husband's work should have earned him international recognition and made us comfortable for life. They cheated him. His logbook disappeared, the notes he kept in the files disappeared, and Charlieâ¦Charlie was undone. So angry and already ill. His strength justâthey stole it from him. They took his character. Oh, he'd have regained it if he'd had time. Charlie would have gotten hold of himself, I know that. But Iâ¦we only had two months left. And they ruined
our precious time together. Lloyd and Wallace saw Charlie would die before⦠It was an unbearably cruel betrayal. But not illegal. Not against the
law
. Miss Wade, please don'tâ”
“The police ain't in this.”
Mrs. Robbins sat back. “My god.” Doubt flickered across her face. “Areâ¦are you sure?”
“Sure. The police are not in this.”
“Thank you. Butâ¦don't tell Isaac. Don't make my son lose regard for me.” Below the dark glasses, the bottom half of her face sagged, adrift.
“Oh, come
on
.” Delpha herself was unlucky but not the kind of blind fool who would try to tie a twenty-year-old. The deal was this: she didn't want to go back to prison. How hard was that to understand?
Isaac, he was separate. He was a whole other matter, and hell if she was gonna discuss that with his mother. What she'd wanted from Isaac, she'd had. An ironed handkerchief and genuine respect. Some traded sweetness, some fun and companionship and cunt-jarring, brain-jarring, heart-nudging sex. She'd had a timeâa time while he was still in her and a bright voice spread outward, filled her to the skin announcing
This, this is everything
âshe'd had that. Being a woman who could choose a man, say yes, not the kind of woman who broke her fingernails clenching a desk-edge while her cheekbone scraped against the wood. Could go with a woman free-choice too, if she wanted. If she chose.
Same for Isaac, in Delpha's estimation. What he'd needed of her, it had been a fair and willing and joyful trade. He would know that a week or two after he went back to Princeton, went out with his buddies to bars, to city parks, sat in classrooms alongside long-haired girls, and that life sealed around him like he'd never left it. Just like, she knew to the
soles of her black flats, if she went back, prison would seal around her like she'd never left it. And she never would.
“Only reason I told you about working for Tom Phelan is because in prison it's not smart to play like you didn't hear a threat. Need to keep your ducks where you can see 'em.”
She didn't expect Mrs. Robbins to seize her upper arm, painfully, to press in close, but it seemed Mrs. Robbins had expected to do this all along. The woman talked fast directly into her ear. When she'd said it all, she released Delpha's arm and stood.
“You have my phone number. There are arrangements to be made, so talk to Isaac before August 15. Call me at noonâAugust 15, have you got that, noon?âand inform me how you want me to proceed. Are we agreed? I know you understand what I mean.”
Delpha understood, but it was too powerful to think about all at once. She said, “Wait.”
The woman's eyebrows raised hopefully.
“Tell me how you make those eyes of yours brown.”
The brows fell. She reached into her purse, brought out a round plastic container, pried it open, and displayed the contact lenses floating inside. Mrs. Robbins squatted, tipped it so the lenses dropped onto the sidewalk, stood and ground them under the ball of her foot.
“I tinted them, but the tint aggravated my eyes. One last thing. It should go without saying, butâ¦I feel I must say it. If by August 15, Isaac still refuses to go back east on your account, you'll hear from me thereafter. Indirectly, of course.”
Her black lenses held Delpha's gaze.
“A paradox. I so deeply abhor cruelty, Miss Wade. I'm afraid it's made me cruel.” She swiveled and headed into the street. A rocket-looking red Pontiac punched its horn
and swerved around her without her missing a single stride. Isaac's mother stepped into long shadows. After a while, her straight back was gone.
Delpha pushed herself up from the bench, crossed her arms, and walked slowly toward Crockett's lights.
Paradox
     Â
you'll hear from me
     Â
indirectly of course
That she would cut Isaac loose, that there was ever a question about that, was insultingly obvious. But Isaac's mother hadn't got that at all. Cast in her own turmoil, she had communicated what she'd discovered. Quickly, as though she was unburdening herself. Roughly, getting rid of that knowledge. That other research Mrs. Robbins had done, in case it became necessary.
She'd located the man Delpha had stabbed.
Still alive
, did Delpha know he was? She'd thought Delpha would know because if she had been in Delpha's position,
she
, Mrs. Robbins, Dr. Robbins, she would have known.
Oh yes
, she would have
made a point of it
. Furthermore, that man's
pitiful
adult daughter had two children. Two
deaf
daughters. Very possibly not a biological coincidence, in Mrs. Robbins's scientific opinion. One of them perhaps but not two. Recipients of
an autosomal recessive
gene, a
mutated
gene carried by
both parents
, Mrs. Robbins had
inferred. Perhaps Miss Wade was aware
of these children? Had she inquired? Did she
comprehend
the most likely agent of those two children's deafness?
They were fathered by that old man
âpossibly some other close male relative. But Mrs. Robbins thought the old man the most likely, given what he was capable of. Didn't Miss Wade? A waitress at a café near the store they ran had refused to speak frankly. However, she was quite comfortable
insinuating
that this
intolerable situation
was suspected
locally. There was disgust
in her innuendos
. And here was Mrs. Robbins'âDr. Robbins', Isaac's mother'sâvery last offer, the one in reserve.
That man could be gone. A distinct benefit for several parties. Mrs. Robbins wouldn't even have to risk her person, it would not be a difficult thing. And it would be just.
Just.
Just
four more years,
just
three hours till lights out,
just
let him pass me by,
just
don't get into it with her,
just
keep your mouth shut.
Just
go to sleep. That's the kind of
just
Delpha knew best. Meant “do this little thing and ward off bigger trouble”âthat's what “just” meant.
But to Mrs. Dr. Robbins,
just
meant
right
. She had rights. She was used to having rights. She had always lived in a land of rights, they had worked for her. Until suddenly they hadn't.
A crescent moon rested in the blue layers over the red simmer of sunset. The end of the block pulsed a lively reach. The Crockett Street merchants had rolled out rows of multicolor flags to attract anybody driving by. They had Christmas lights strung. A band tuned as people drifted through a gate. It was a parole-breaker to patronize any of the establishments where alcohol was served, but she could stand back and watch their party. Tables, waitresses, pitchers, paper plates. Smoke and beer and laughter.
On the stage up ahead, faint call from the drummer
Uhune deux trois quatre
â¦and like a party barge cutting loose from a dock, the band sailed into “Diggy Liggy Lo.” Guitars rang, the loose-elbowed fiddle player thrust, accordion player squeezed, the spoon player rubbed knuckles to vestâhollers, whistles, and applause, two bobbing couples took to the portable dance floor.
Delpha lingered beyond the lights and flags, slapping
mosquitoes, dread ticking inside her, taut shoulders not quite touching a creosote light pole that would smudge her shirt. After the band blew through the Big Bopper's “Chantilly Lace” and some jumpy number about when you're hot, you're hot that she'd never heard, they hailed up a boy singer. Crowd noises died as the husky towhead delivered “Belle Lousiane” in the voice of a stone angel come awake at midnight to sing to the souls in the graveyard.