The Dominator (44 page)

I tackled her to the bed and kissed her all over her face, a succession of powerful smooches all over her gorgeous face. I expected she’d be all loose and covered in an awesome sex glow but instead she was crimson and shaking her head and her hand was over her mouth. Tears unshed filled her eyes. They looked so green. So shiny. So fucking sad.

“You squirted,” I told her matter-of-factly, looking down at my wet chest. She looked at me like I was speaking Greek, “Women can ejaculate, too, you know.” I added.

She shook her head. She had no idea what I was talking about.

“Baby, it takes a very skilled lover to pull that off. Many try and fail. Many women never get to experience it. Congratulations.”

My cockiness did nothing to help my cause. She hid her face, mortified. I got up and grabbed her wrist and tugged to get her to follow me to the shower. She wouldn’t look at me in the eyes. I knew that other than getting to watch her fall apart completely that my efforts hadn’t given me a damn thing.

Tia

When I’d woken up at the wrong end of the bed with him all over me, I wanted to die.  I’d climbed down there when I couldn’t get to sleep in his arms. I needed space. I had contemplated sleeping on the sofa but suspected he’d be pissed and be more than happy to dole out another punishment if I dared sleep somewhere else. After he washed and shampooed me, trying to be all sweet and attentive again in the shower, he got washed and shampooed and then he left me in there. I stayed in there until I was pruny. When I finally got out, he was gone. He wasn’t in the sitting room or the bathrooms either. I checked the stupid iPhone and there was a text from him.

“Baby, gone to a meeting. See you in a few hours. Order breakfast. Go down to the spa too (take Nino & Jimmy) and I’ll text you in a bit with the name of who to see at a boutique for you to pick a dress, shoes, and whatever for tonight. We have a dinner and show thing with my associates. I left a credit card for you. Pin 5683. Get whatever you want! Text me when you get this. Xo. ”

I replied, “Ok.” Then I knocked on the adjoining room’s door. Nino opened it. He eyed me warily. I was surprised neither of them was stationed in here with me after yesterday.

“I’m about to order room service. Do you two want anything?

“No,” he grunted.

“I’m sorry.” I said, looking him in the eye, “I’m sure I put you in a bad position yesterday and I’m sorry about that. I let my, uh, emotions get the better of me. I hope you didn’t catch too much slack.”

His mouth turned up into a smile, “It’s okay, doll. And no, we’re good.” He winked. I think I garnered some respect by speaking up and apologizing. Then I saw his eyes land on my throat, “You alright?”

I nodded and pulled my robe tighter, “I’ll be booking a spa appointment and” I heard my phone ding, “some visit to a dress shop or something. I’ll let you know about that?”

He smiled and nodded, “I’ve already got the details. Get breakfast. Then let us know when you’re ready to go.”

I nodded.

It was already 11:45 and I wasn’t surprised, since I saw the sun rise before I finally fell asleep. I looked at the phone.

Tommy had texted a boutique name and address and the name Suzette and wrote that I should call down to the hotel spa, that they had an appointment for me.  I replied with a “Thanks” He replied back with three x’s.

I headed to the bathroom to examine my throat. It had a purply and fairly distinct handprint on it. There would be no hiding that I’d been choked. Nino hadn’t looked pleased when he saw it. But what would he do about it, right? Nothing, likely, except pity the boss’s poor stupid girlfriend who’d gotten herself in trouble.

I ate some oatmeal and fruit while watching the news on TV and tried to get my mind straight. I pondered things, wondering if I’d kept his dominance cravings at bay after Mexico with the games we’d played at the farm but in the past few days since then there hadn’t been any games but there had been stress. Oodles of stress.

He’d warned me after Mexico that he might take his frustrations out on me in the bedroom. I had no idea what that meant, really. Did he need me to be stress relief? Maybe if I played the kinds of sex games with him that we’d played at the farm, that’d help. That’d give him the thrill of the chase and so forth. Maybe if I made sure I did that, it’d be enough and he’d keep the necklace on.  And maybe if he didn’t have the necklace on I’d know to be extra careful. I’d do my best to make him not want to take it off and if it was off I’d make sure not to provoke him.

Right now I wasn’t thinking like a girl happy to be with her fiancé on a trip; I was thinking like someone who had to find a way to survive. I resisted the urge to crawl back into bed and cry some more over the lost love of my life that I now knew was just a mirage and decided that I just needed to get through the rest of this trip and when we got back I’d try to figure out what to do next. When we got back home, he wanted me to start planning our wedding. At that thought, ice pierced through my veins. I looked down at the engagement ring on my finger. It was beautiful alright, and right now it felt like it weighed a thousand pounds.

** ** **

By 7:00 I was ready for him, as ready as I could possibly be to go on a date and pretend that I was okay with it.

I was in a knee-length sleeveless fitted short-sleeved gold dress with a high lace neck. I had stammered to the dress shop lady about wanting something with a turtleneck and she laughed asking how I could think of wearing such a thing in the desert in June but then I pulled my hair back and showed her my throat and she didn’t even flinch, just strolled over to the rack that had this beautiful dress.   I kept on my new diamond earrings and wore a pair of gold strappy heels that had been paired with the dress. Thanks to the spa, I had freshly done fingernails and toenails already with perfectly shaped brows, and I was ready to go. I’d foregone the bikini wax today. My girlie parts had seen enough action in the last 24 hours, thank you very much. My trip to the dress shop in a cab with my two bodyguards had been uneventful but they seemed to be very alert, probably figuring their balls were on the line if I managed to give them the slip.

When I got back to the suite I was surprised when he came out of the
His
bathroom ready, dressed, looking dapper, in a tuxedo. Dapper wasn’t an adequate word, actually.  He looked like a movie star heading to the red carpet. He was freshly shaven, his hair had been trimmed just a touch, and when he opened the bedroom door he smiled and his whiskey-colored eyes twinkled.

“You’re gorgeous,” he breathed, opening his arms, “Come here, please.”

I went into his arms and said, “Not so bad yourself,” but I couldn’t look him in the face.

He inhaled my hair, “Orange blossoms?” he asked.

I shrugged, “I guess?”

“Nice but I love what your hair smells like best at home,” he whispered.

“When are we going back?” I asked in a returned whisper.

“Tomorrow,” he answered and passed me the little gold clutch purse that I’d packed with the iPhone, a lipstick, a handkerchief, and the remaining cash from the wad of tip money he’d given me.  I noticed this morning that he’d topped it up.

“Ready?” he asked.

“You were going to, ah, brief me?”

“Ah,” he sat on the sofa and patted his knee. I leaned to sit beside him instead but he caught me by the waist and pulled me onto his lap. Figures; control freak. I sat and stared at my hands in my lap.

“Ben Goldberg is a real estate developer who looks like a CPA but throw in a heavy dose of kink. He’s getting in with some grey area and wise guy types to finance a project. He’s a little out of his element so he’s trying too hard, trying to show everyone a real good time, hence the hookers the other night. Earlier he met with me, an associate and friend of mine, John Lewis, and a local Vegas guy, Leo Denarda, who’s a real sleaze ball. Leo has similar interests to Juan Carlos Castillo; suspected pedophile. The only reason no one has taken him out is because a) no concrete proof yet and b) he’s very well connected in these parts.

The reason I tell you this is so you know he’s not a friend, be polite, of course, but know he’s not a friend. We’ll be doing a dinner and a show thing with them and a few other couples. A little bit of business is going to be discussed but very little. The project is a legal brothel just outside of town. He wants to expand, make it into an adult theme park and fetish club and we’ve all gotten the pitch and seen the financials and business plan but tonight’s his last kick at the can through schmoozing all the potential investors with their wives or girlfriends. He’s doing this dinner and then we’re all going to a show and then we’ve been invited to his club to check out a show. I suspect you and I will be done after the show, the Blue Man Group.

I’m here representing the Ferrano family and this is an area my father wants explored. It’s probably the last major project he’s delegating to me before retirement. I won’t bore you with any other details and in general you don’t need details as I do not plan to bring you into the fold with business but for this, appearances are important and I wanted you to know the backstory so you’re not unprepared. Okay?”

I nodded, absorbing all he was talking about. Brothels? Pedophiles? Nice. And what he’d said about Juan Carlos? That made the pink basement prison bedroom make so much sense and sort of told me what I’d refused to acknowledge while I was down there. I cringed. I wanted to cry imagining a child being locked in that bedroom with those cameras and that vile man.

“I know what you’re thinkin’. Ben tried that the other night, brought escorts in for all the potential investors. I told you I didn’t partake and I was honest. Tonight it’s wives and girlfriends. The only way it’s anything less than wholesome is if we opt to go to the club and the after party. I don’t think we’re doing the club and we’re definitely not touching that after party. Kay?”

“Kay.” I hadn’t been thinking what he’d thought I’d been thinking but I already wanted this evening over and done with.

“Tia?”

“Hm?” I didn’t look him in the eyes. I just…I couldn’t.

“I know things aren’t ideal with you and me after last night. I’ll work on that and believe me, baby, it’s a priority. I know I fucked up. I fucked up huge. But we need to put it aside tonight. We’re an engaged couple getting married in a few weeks, happily engaged. That needs to be the tone this evening. Got me?”

I rolled my eyes and then my filter obviously malfunctioned as I said, “Yeah, gotcha. Don’t worry, damn fine actress over here, remember?”

He chewed the inside of his cheek and let out a “Baby,” like I’d wounded him. He looked at me for a minute with pain in his eyes. I tried to soften my features so I wasn’t frowning or grimacing at him.  He reached up toward my face and I flinched. Pain on his face intensified with my flinch.

His hand landed softly on my cheek in a caress. He let out a slow breath, “Fuck, baby, you’re killin’ me here,” then his hands were on my hips as he eased me off his lap and then took my hand and headed toward the door.

I don’t know what he expected, really. Did he expect me to act like nothing had happened last night?
He
certainly wasn’t acting like nothing had happened. He’d been giving me long stares, seemed like he was thinking about things he said before he said them, had been sort of acting like he was treading in uncharted territory with me. We were both lost.   I didn’t know how to behave tonight. I wasn’t feeling like myself and this was uncharted territory. I guessed I’d just try to blend in and observe and if he was sweet to me in public, I guess I’d try to behave like I was receptive.

We took a limo a short ride to a restaurant, riding in silence, and we were met by five other couples. I held his arm and was introduced to all of them including Ben and his wife Olive, they were probably late 30’s / early 40’s. They both looked like accountants and I found it confounding that they were looking for help from ‘wise guys’ to fund a brothel and sex fetish club. Leo Denarda was probably in his 30’s (wearing a cheap-looking suit and too much jewelry) and his date, Heather, most definitely looked like a hooker. She probably was one. I was glad Tommy had me see Suzette today as she’d professionally styled me. If I’d gotten ready myself, maybe I’d have been mistaken for an escort. Among the other couples were a good-looking couple just a little older than Tommy and the others were anywhere from a bit older to quite a bit older.

The dinner consisted of fancy good food and plenty of small talk among the women at the table and talk of politics, current events, and sports among the men. Tommy was pretty knowledgeable in all of those areas and it was interesting to see him in this element, a business type of thing. I could see that it’d be very possible for him to be a traditional business man as men he met with could definitely see him that way. This was in stark contrast to Leo Denarda who was pretty clearly a thug in a not-so-nice suit but by the way the guy handled himself I didn’t think an Armani would make an iota of a difference.

After the meal we were all taken together in a stretch SUV limo to see Blue Man Group. We had great seats and the show was unique. Comedic elements, great music. I’d seen them on late night talk shows before and wasn’t sure what to make of them but I enjoyed the show a lot. My mind was never too far from my troubles but I think I was handling myself okay outwardly.

When it was all over, Tommy was about to hail us a cab but Ben and another of the men, a good-looking guy in probably his early to mid-30’s, John, I couldn’t recall if his wife’s name was Kathy or maybe Katie, I think, but her husband John just kept referring to her as Cupcake so I was thinking of her as Katie Cupcake. They kind of reminded me a little of Posh Spice and David Beckham. She showed me pictures of their cute kids, six of them, toddlers to tweens, and did a lot of fashion name dropping in conversation) John nudged him and tried to talk him into attending the club.