The captain cleared his throat. “As soon as we've cleared the Norwegian basin we should be out of immediate danger. Their search packs should be ranging the Iceland passage now and they won't be expecting someone from behind them. Our chief worry is picket tugs, line replacements moving up: the chance passerby.”
“I've decided I'm going to die of old age,” said Garcia. “That's my chief worry.”
“You're getting old before your time,” said Bonnett.
“One degree left,” said Garcia.
“One degree left,” acknowledged Bonnett.
Deep in the underwater canyon, the
Ram
coursed generally westward. At the sill of the Norwegian basin, they lost the gut as it shoaled, crept along the basin rim, course 276 degrees. The bottom depth crept upward. They were in 200 fathoms when they swung south to parallel the Norwegian coastline, course 201 degrees.
Eighty-one hours, fifty-eight minutes from the well, still two degrees above the Arctic Circle. Ramsey said, “Signal!” and slapped the switch which silenced their motors.
“Course, distance, and direction?” asked Sparrow.
“Southeast, ranging westerly and maybe a bit south. I'm just getting them on the outer limits of the long-range system: say thirty-five miles.”
“Resume speed,” said Sparrow. “They have nothing that'll reach that far.”
“They'll be off my board in a minute at present course,” said Ramsey.
“We'll play it safe anyway,” said Sparrow. “Ten minutes run due east, then resume course.”
Garcia at the helm, acknowledged. The
Ram
changed course.
“Lost them,” said Ramsey.
“Resume course,” said Sparrow.
Again they came around to parallel the Norwegian coast. South they went, and then west-southwest to gain greater distance from the shore stations along the southern reaches of Norway. And again bearing to the south, and again westerly to give the Faeroes a wide berth. Now they were at the edge of the deeps southeast of Iceland. Watch and standby: Ramsey and Sparrow on the control deck.
“You certainly called the shot,” said Ramsey.
“Don't brag your luck,” said Sparrow. “It'll change.”
“What makes mariners so superstitious?” asked Ramsey.
“Awareness of the limits of our knowledge,” said Sparrow. “And experience with the reality of luck.”
“It's a wonder we don't have government-issue rabbits' feet.”
“I'll suggest it when weâ”
“Pack!” Ramsey slapped the silencer switch. “They're onto us, Skipper! They were lying doggo!”
Sparrow kicked the alarm buzzer, brought the engines to life.
“They're right in our path,” said Ramsey. “Range fifteen miles.”
“Sure-kill range,” said Sparrow. He brought the subtug and tow around to the northeast, pulled the power bar to its last notch.
Bonnett and Garcia hurried into the control room.
“A pack on us,” said Ramsey.
“On the controls, you two,” said Sparrow.
Bonnett and Garcia moved into their battle stations, Bonnett at the helm, Garcia on the torpedo board. Sparrow stepped to Ramsey's side.
“There's bottom at 8800 feet,” said Ramsey.
“We'll have to chance it,” said Sparrow. “Les, take us down. Johnny, monitor the atmosphere.”
Ramsey opened the control valve on the anhydrase generator one notch.
The subtug's deck slanted downward.
“Joe, call the depths,” said Sparrow.
“Sixty-eight hundred feet and 2880 pounds ⦠7000 feet and 3010 pounds ⦠7500 and 3235 ⦠8000 and 3440 ⦠8500 and 3655â”
“Coast in,” said Sparrow.
Bonnett silenced the drive.
Garcia's voice continued: “â8600 and 3700 ⦠variation, Skipperâ”
“Noted.”
“â8700 and 3750 ⦠that's nine pounds over normal, Skipperâ”
“Noted.”
“â8750 and 3780 ⦠that's eighteen pounds over ⦔
“Noted. Les, flatten the glide angle and give us the bow eye on the main screen.”
“Bottom is forty feet,” said Ramsey. “The pack is closing fast. Range about eleven miles.”
The big screen above their heads showed its pie slice of light and, abruptly, bottom mud.
“Drop the slug in first,” said Sparrow.
Bonnett brought up the bow planes until they felt the drag of the slug behind them. The
Ram
settled onto bottom mud in 8800 feet. The big static pressure gauge read 3804 pounds even: twenty pounds above normal for the depth.
“Pack range nine miles and fanning out,” said Ramsey. “I count sixteen of them.”
“Fanning out,” said Sparrow.“That means they're confused by ourâ”
“Two breaking away toward the surface,” said Ramsey. “They think we've floated up.”
“Over normal pressure,” said Sparrow. “There's a cold density layer above us confusing our sound pattern. Unless they detect metal, we're safe.”
“Unless we implode,” said Bonnett.
“If we had some ham we'd have some ham and eggs if we had some eggs,” said Ramsey.
Garcia chuckled.
“The important thing is for us all to relax,” said Sparrow. “We don't want the same complications we had lastâ”
“Complishmashuns,” said Garcia. “Alla time talk-talktalk-talk. So he can psycho ⦠psyâSo he can find out what makes us go tick-tick-tick-tick-tick-tick. Don't y', Johnny boy?”
Ramsey raised his eyebrows, looked at Sparrow. Sparrow shrugged, said, “Come along, Joe. You need a shot.”
“Need a whole bottle,” said Garcia. “Need a shycoan' lyst like Johnny boy here. Don' I, Johnny boy?”
“I'm ordering you to come with me, Joe,” said Sparrow.
Tears welled up in Garcia's eyes. “I need a conscience,” he sobbed. “I wanna confess, but no oneâ”
“Come along!” Sparrow grabbed Garcia's arm, jerked him toward the aft door.
“Easy, Skipper,” said Ramsey.
Sparrow took a deep breath. “Right.”
“I'll come quietly,” said Garcia. “No need get excited. I don' wanna be any trouble. I been enough trouble. I been terrible trouble. Never forgive me. Never.”
He allowed himself to be led out the door, still mumbling, “Never ⦠never ⦠never ⦠never ⦔
“Quoth the raven,” said Ramsey. He rubbed absently at the still-sensitive bruise on his jaw where Bonnett had hit him.
“That figures,” said Bonnett.
“Huh?”
“Head thumper. BuPsych rang you in on us.”
“Not you, too, Brutus,” said Ramsey.
“Sure it figures,” said Bonnett. “Hepp went loco, so they rang you in on us to find out why.”
“What?”
“Sure. You want to see which of us is next.”
“Me, if I hear any more of this nutty talk. I'veâ”
“Otherwise you're a spy,” said Bonnett. “I guess you're not that.”
“Of all theâ”
“I'm trying to apologize,” said Bonnett. “It isn't easy.
Basically, I don't like head thumpers. You screw doctors are all alike. Superior ⦠know-it-all. Explanations for everything: Religion is a manifestation of deep-seated anxieties whichâ”
“Oh, knock it off,” said Ramsey.
“What I'm trying to say is that I've felt better ever since I pounded you. Call it a cathartic. For a minute I had the enemy in my own hands. He was an insect I could crush.”
“So?”
“So I've never had the enemy in my hands before.” He held up his hands and looked at them. “Right there. I learned something.”
“What?”
“This may sound asinine.”
“Say it anyway.”
“Maybe I'd better not.”
“Nothing was ever more important than for you to focalize that thought,” said Ramsey. And he thought:
No matter what I do, I'm cast in the role of analyst!
Bonnett rubbed his hands against his shirt, looked at the control board. “When you meet your enemy and recognize him and touch him, you find out that he's like yourself: that maybe he's part of you.” He shook his head. “I'm not saying this right.”
“Try.”
“I can't do it.” Bonnett lowered his head, stared at the deck.
“What's it like? Try a comparison.”
In a low, almost inaudible voice, Bonnett said, “It's like when you're the youngest and weakest kid on the playground. And when the biggest kid smacks you, that's all right because he noticed you. That means you're alive. It's
better than when they ignore you.” He looked up at Ramsey. “Or it's like when you're with a woman and she looks at you and her eyes say you're a man. Yeah, that's it. When you're really alive, other people know it.”
“What's that have to do with having the enemy in your hands?”
“He's alive,” said Bonnett. “Dammit all, man, he's alive and he's got the same kind of aliveness that you have. Each of us is the enemy”âBonnett's voice grew firmerâ“to the other and to himself. That's what I mean: I'm the enemy within myself. Unless I master that enemy, I always lose.”
Ramsey stared at Bonnett in amazement.
“Not the kind of thinking you'd expect from me,” said Bonnett.
Ramsey shook his head.
“Why not? I feel things just like anybody else. So I hide it most of the time. Who am I hiding it from?” He sneered. “Me. That's who.”
“What set you off?”
“I found someone I could talk to, someone who had to keep his professional mouth shut becauseâ”
“Just a minute.” Ramsey's gaze, never off the search-board instruments for more than a few seconds, had caught a sharp needle deflection. “Sonic search blast. There's another. If they're spaced on us, our hull will stick up like a sore thumb: a fat metal finger.”
“They won't look for us down here.”
“Don't count on it. There's anothâ”
“What's going on?” Sparrow ducked through the door into the control room.
“Sonic search bombs,” said Ramsey. “The EPs are looking for a metallic bounce labeled
Fenian Ram.
”
Sparrow moved closer to stand at Ramsey's shoulders. “And here comes one ranging over us.”
“Fast,” said Ramsey. He put his hand on the anti-torp volley switch.
“Leave that alone,” said Sparrow. “They won't use a fish on an unidentified bump.”
“He's inside of a mile,” said Ramsey. “In the six-thousandfoot level. There goes another search bomb.”
They felt the dull bump of it through the hull.
“If one of our external fittings implodes, the shock wave'll crack us likeâ”
“We've all read the manual, Les,” said Sparrow. He turned away from the board, bent his head. “Lord, we who have no right to ask it, do plead for your mercy. Thy will be done ⦠. Whatever.”
“He's turning away,” whispered Ramsey.
“Lord, turn not away from thyâ”
“That EP sub,” said Ramsey. “He's turning away.”
Sparrow lifted his head. “Thank you, Lord.” He looked at Bonnett. “Joe's under sedation. Go back and stay with him.”
Bonnett went out the aft door.
Sparrow again moved to stand beside Ramsey. “That was a good thing you did for Les.”
Ramsey stiffened.
“I stood outside the door until he'd shed the load on his chest,” said Sparrow. “You're a much deeper man than I'd suspected, Johnny.”
“Oh, for Heaven's sake!”
“Yes, for Heaven's sake,” said Sparrow. “You're a devious one.”
Ramsey closed his eyes in exasperation, opened them.
I'm
the father-confessor whether I like it or not
, he thought. “Garcia is off his rocker,” he said.
“I've shipped with Joe for quite a number of years,” said Sparrow. “I've seen him drunk before. Pressure drunkenness is no different. He's not the kind to make false accusations. That would be bearing false witness againstâ”