The Godspeaker Trilogy (34 page)

Its touch made her shiver, it made her think of Zandakar . . . and the brother she must give him, in her service to the god.

How long must I wait, god? When will you send a man to me?

The god did not answer. She would have to be patient.

Nagarak permitted no dissent, Raklion accepted he could not ride to Et-Banotaj. After a full highsun of rest and healing he rose from his bed, closer to himself again, and walked slowly on his own feet from the godhouse to the barracks where his warhost greeted him with shouts of joy. Hekat walked with him, she was his warleader. The warhost shouted to see her as well.

After wandering through his busy barracks, making sure to thank Tuglia for Zandakar’s bridle, he sat with her and the shell-leaders in the warlodge, a small stone building filled with plans and secrets, and they talked of many warhost things, the new shells, the new barracks. The remaking of Mijak, and the mighty warhost they would create.

He told them he was not riding with them upon Et-Banotaj. “The god has made its desire known to me. I must remain in the godhouse, I must spend much time in prayer. To be warlord of Mijak is a solemn, sacred thing.” He took Hekat’s hand, he raised it to his lips. “Here is my warleader, she will lead the warhost to that wicked place. Nagarak will ride beside her, he takes the god to a godless land. You are my godgifted warriors, you will bring Et-Banotaj to its sinning knees.”

Arakun and the other shell-leaders pressed their fists to their breasts, they were pleased to hear Hekat would lead them into battle. They knew they could trust her to give them the victory.

Raklion said, “The warhost will number ten thousand warriors. Hekat, with them you will take those fallen warlords. They must see in blood and fire, for they might still have doubt in their secret hearts, that their old lives are finished. They serve Raklion now, no man serves them.”

Hekat looked at him, he sounded weary. He should not appear weak before the shell-leaders, it was too soon for him to fail. She said, “The god speaks through you, warlord. Your commands will be obeyed. Ten thousand warriors in the warhost, I will ride with those of the fallen warlords myself. Do you have any other commands for your shell-leaders? They must prepare the warhost to leave in two highsuns.”

Raklion pushed himself to his feet and looked at the shell-leaders in turn, round the table. “No. I am pleased with each of you. I am well served. I return now to the godhouse, to pray for the god’s smiting of wicked Et-Banotaj. Hekat . . . walk with me to the barracks gates.”

They made slow progress, Raklion was often stopped and blessed. Still he managed to say to her, in private, “I wish you had not given Zandakar such a penance, Hekat. Five highsuns on his knees in the godhouse shrine garden? I think he was already punished enough.”

Aieee, he was stupid. If she left Zandakar’s raising to him her son would grow into a soft, weak man. “I do not think so.”

“How can you say that?” Raklion demanded. “He lost his pony . . . he lost Hanochek, his friend . . .” His thin, aged face tightened, it hurt him to say that sinning man’s name.

Let it hurt him, I do not care. His blind trust of Hanochek nearly killed my son . “Warlord, Zandakar is no ordinary boy. Zandakar will be Mijak’s warlord. He cannot sin and escape the god’s wrath.”

Raklion sighed. “I know. But Hekat, I remember what it was like, to grow up in a warlord’s shadow, knowing my life would never be my own, knowing I was not an ordinary boy. I was Zandakar’s age when my brother died, when I learned I would be Raklion warlord. Do you know, I wanted to be a winemaker? Even so young, I knew I wanted that. I never wanted to be a warrior. I never wanted to hold so many lives in my hand. The god decreed otherwise, I am obedient to its will. I have served Et-Raklion, I will serve all of Mijak. Zandakar will serve it after me. That is also the god’s will. But there is time yet for him to be a boy. Let him be a boy, Hekat. He will be a man a long, long time.”

Tcha, he was as bad as Vortka. “He will be a man, yes, but to be a strong man first he must be a strong boy .”

Raklion laughed, he kissed her cheek and took her hand. “I sometimes think you should be warlord, Hekat. You are stronger than any man I know.”

True, true, Raklion, that is true. And I would be the greatest warlord Mijak has ever known . She smiled. “You flatter me. I am the warleader and Zandakar’s mother. I am content, do I need more? I think I do not.”

They reached the barracks’ gates, she stopped and slid her fingers from his grasp. “I will lead the warhost to victory in Et-Banotaj. The god is in me, I cannot fail.”

Raklion kissed her again. “I believe you, Hekat. The god is deeply in you. So deeply I think my prayers are not urgent. Something else is urgent. I think it past time we gave Zandakar a brother. He needs a closer friend than the warriors’ children he trains with in the barracks. He needs blood of his own to bond with, to play with. It is not good for a boy to grow up alone.”

She looked at him. The marks of his suffering had not faded from his face, he was thin, no longer robust. His eyes were sunken, he was not a well man. Did he have the strength to fuck? She could not ask him, he would take offense. And even if he did, nothing would come of it. He was destined never to sire a son.

She did not want to fuck him. She did not want to fuck anyone, not even the man the god would send her in its time. She did not like fucking, she thought she never would. “And the warhost, warlord? There is much to do, with little time before we ride to Et-Banotaj.”

He recaptured her hand. “There is time enough for you to lay with your warlord. My warhost is long-trained to ride out at short notice. And a good warleader trusts her shell-leaders, Hekat. They can manage without you. I cannot.”

He would not be dissuaded. Resigned, resentful, she let him lead her away.

Later that night, after lowsun sacrifice, Nagarak brought the chastened warlords down to the palace. Raklion waited for them in his torchlit audience chamber, shadows flickered its cold stone walls. Hekat stood by his right hand, Zandakar at his left. The warlord was dressed in his finest wools, crimson and dark blue and rich Et-Raklion green. His breastplate was new-made, its snake picked out in rare diamonds. Emerald snake-eyes stared unblinking at the world. Zandakar’s clothing echoed his, for this important moment he was excused his penitent linen and leggings.

Hekat wore her training tunic. Her only decoration was her well-blooded snakeblade, she held it naked in her fist.

The godforsaken warlords knelt before Raklion’s great chair. Their godbraids were silent, no bells to lament. Except for their loincloths they were naked. They bowed their chastised heads at Raklion’s feet, all their arrogance was sweated out of their skins. Nagarak stood close behind them, his scorpion pectoral fully revealed. Three lesser godspeakers stood behind him. Vortka was not one of them, Hekat felt no surprise.

Raklion said to his fallen brothers, “You must know I did not seek this. I did not know this would be my life. But the god has spoken, I must obey. Mijak is whole again, I am its warlord. Nagarak is its godspeaker, no voice but his now speaks for the god. Hekat is my snakeblade, the god dances in her. She is Zandakar’s mother, Bajadek’s doom and the doom of Banotaj, his son. Hekat is the warleader of Mijak’s warhost, there is no-one more powerful after me. Here is Zandakar, my son in the god’s eye. Your sons will obey him, as all men’s sons will obey him, as all men breathing now obey me. Zandakar will be warlord in his time. Say his name. I would hear it on your lips.”

“ Zandakar ,” said the kneeling men in a ragged chorus.

“And who is he?”

“ Your son in the god’s eye. He is the warlord after you.”

“And who am I?”

One by one, the warlords looked up. Each face was a wasteland, their eyes were full of tears. Hekat examined them, she searched them for demons. Her amulet stayed silent, she could sense no sin. Nagarak had done what was needed, these proud men were indeed chastened.

“ You are Raklion ,” they said, they sounded humble. “ Warlord of Mijak, in the god’s eye .”

Raklion nodded. He was tired after fucking, he did not show that in this room. “I am Raklion, warlord of Mijak. Banotaj is dead, he defied the god. You five are chastened men, the god has thrown you down. It has thrown down your high godspeakers, they will never rise again. If you once disobey me, you will join them in hell. I warn you, do not tempt me, do not tempt the god. The past is the past, I am your future.”

“He is your future,” said Nagarak, echoing. “And the god will be watching you. It knows all your hearts. If you are sinful my scorpion will wake.”

The kneeling warlords shuddered, remembering, they moaned in their throats and rocked on their heels.

“Listen to me, you fallen warlords, as I tell you what your lives will be,” said Raklion. “In this whole Mijak, ruled by Raklion warlord in the god’s eye.”

Hekat listened, but she had heard it already, as she lay in bed with Raklion after fucking. Mijak’s future had been swiftly decided between Raklion and Nagarak in the godhouse healing chamber. She could find no fault in their plan for Mijak, the god had guided them. She must be content.

The fallen warlords’ mastery of their territories was ended. No longer would their sons succeed them, their sons and their daughters would serve Raklion in Mijak’s warhost. They would live in his city, far from their own blood, away from temptations. The warlords’ cities would still be cities, they could keep their names and the fallen warlords could rule them as governors, for as long as they remained obedient to the god and Raklion warlord in its eye. The cities must lose their warlord prefix, no longer Et -Zyden, but Zyden plain, and the same with all the rest. Nor would their godhouses remain independent. Godspeakers from Et-Raklion would be sent to those godhouses. Each city’s godspeakers would come to Et-Raklion, to be examined in Nagarak’s eye. If they harbored demons they would go to hell.

The fallen warlords’ sad faces grew slowly more sorrowful, but they said nothing. What could they say? The god had spoken. Their time was done.

Raklion told them more of Mijak’s warhost, that their warriors were his now and Zandakar’s after. Hekat watched those words strike them, they were proud fighting warriors who would never again fight. She saw their eyes again fill with water, they grieved for their losses, they were wounded men. The god did not see them, they were blind in its eye.

Should I feel sorry? I think I should not.

At a signal from Nagarak one of the three godspeakers departed the chamber, returning with a gold basin full of sacred blood. Nagarak took his sacrifice knife, he cut Raklion’s hand and bled it into the basin, he cut each kneeling warlord’s hand and added their blood to Raklion’s. Last of all he cut himself, his blood mixed in the basin, he took a cup, filled it, and the fallen warlords drank. That was their oath to Raklion, and the god. Then Nagarak whipped them with a scorpion flail, it was the god’s promise of retribution should they break that oath. After the beating Nagarak healed them, that was the god’s protection against demons.

The audience was over. Nagarak led the five silent men from the chamber, they were chastened, they were broken, they walked like slaves in heavy chains. Raklion turned to Zandakar.

“You see, my son, how a warlord deals with his people.”

Zandakar nodded. “Yes, warlord. I see.”

“Zandakar,” said Hekat. “It is time for your bed, you have not finished your penance in the godhouse shrine garden. A godspeaker comes for you at newsun, and you must be ready.”

“Yes, Yuma,” said Zandakar. He saluted her, he saluted Raklion, he left the chamber. He was a good boy.

“Aieee, Hekat,” Raklion sighed when they were alone. “This task the god gives me, I fear for my strength.”

“You are foolish, warlord. You are chosen, the god will not let you fail.” Not until it requires your failure . “Now we must sleep, too,” she added, and helped Raklion down from his warlord’s chair. “I ride for Et-Banotaj with the warhost at newsun.”

Aieee, how it pleased her to say so.

I am the god’s knife-dancer, I hunger for war. Come the newsun I will worship with my blade.

V
ortka concealed himself in the godhouse shrine garden and watched the smiting warhost depart, Hekat and Nagarak side by side in the lead. He wondered which of them chafed most at that, and had to smile at the thought.

They are unlikely oxen, yoked by the god.

He stifled a yawn, after another night on the streets of Et-Raklion seeking out sinners he was so weary. He had attended sacrifice, he was free to sleep, but how could he shut himself away in his cell when Hekat was riding to smite Et-Banotaj?

The warhost was vast, thousands of warriors, slaves to see to their needs, five carts full of living sacrifices and three hundred godspeakers. So many had never ridden into battle before. They rode behind Nagarak, surrounding the fallen warlords who were being taken to see the fate of cities seduced by demons. They were already chastened, those warlords, he had heard snatches of gossip in the kitchens as he ate his quick meals. Nagarak had shown no pity, they were wicked sinners.

After Et-Banotaj they will not dare sin again.

He was not sorry to see Nagarak ride away, the warhost would be gone for more than a godmoon. A whole godmoon free of Nagarak and his suspicions, aieee, it was a blessing. More than ever, Nagarak terrified him. He knew now what had happened at the Heart of Mijak. The chosen warriors who rode there had spoken in the barracks of Nagarak’s scorpion pectoral coming to life and killing the high godspeakers of those warlords. The barracks godspeakers had heard the stories and repeated them in the godhouse. It was gossip, it was forbidden, but it spread even so.

If ever I speak with Hekat again I will ask her if that gossip is true. I have never heard of a stone scorpion killing, I—

Aieee! Except he had. Once. Abajai and Yagji’s deaths in their villa. The scorpion scarring on their chests. Hekat had told him her scorpion amulet had killed them, the god in her amulet had sent them to hell. He remembered that day, how could he forget? He had touched Hekat’s godspark and nearly burst into flame.

The god in Nagarak’s scorpion pectoral, the god in Hekat’s scorpion amulet. Both made of the same stone, sacred and rare. Both wielded by people deep in the god’s eye.

I think this is too much for me. I think I am a humble man. In my heart I remain a potsmith.

He did not like walking Et-Raklion’s streets in the quiet time, seeking out sinners. The first time he found a man breaking the law, the first time he smote someone with his bare hand, he had fallen to his knees after and vomited in the road. He thought the god would strike him dead for that, how could he be a proper godspeaker and have no heart for the smiting of sinners?

The god had not struck him dead, it did not smite him at all. Perhaps it was busy and had not noticed his weakness.

He did not vomit again after that first time, but he still heard the smitten screams in his uneasy sleep. Hekat was right, people were stupid. They knew the godspeakers walked the streets in the quiet time, they knew if they were found sinning they would pay a heavy price. And yet they took that chance, they risked the god’s wrath. With Raklion’s elevation to warlord of Mijak it seemed many folk had lost their wits.

They think because Raklion is godchosen, then they are too. They think the god’s laws can be broken because their warlord is special. When will they learn? No man can break the god’s law and escape unpunished. Not even a warlord.

The warhost was leaving by the main city gates, as Vortka climbed up the Pinnacle Road to the godhouse that newsun he had left hundreds gathering in the streets to praise it and cheer. He thought Hekat would like that, hundreds of people, perhaps thousands by now, waving and cheering as she rode to war for the god.

And may the god help those foolish warriors in the city of Et-Banotaj. If they do not throw down their snakeblades at the sight of her eyes she will slay every one of them, she will drink all their blood. Then Nagarak will scorch their godsparks, together they will send those sinners to hell.

Vortka shuddered. At first he’d been sorry Nagarak had not chosen him among the three hundred godspeakers to ride with the warhost in the smiting of Et-Banotaj. Now he was relieved, not only because it gave him time free of the high godspeaker’s merciless scrutiny, but also because he had no stomach for slaughter. Even the slaughter of sinners. It just made him sad.

Another yawn overcame him, weariness was in his bones. He would sleep for three fingers, then rise to serve in the library. Or kneel before a taskmaster, Nagarak would be certain to discover if he had done so and punish him personally if he had not.

Aieee, god. It is not easy, serving Nagarak. I know he has his purpose, I know he is in your eye. I just wish, sometimes, I was not in his.

It was so early the shrine garden should be empty. He turned away from the sight of Hekat’s warhost, departing, and slipped between the high hedges that turned the open ground into many small, private sanctuaries. First he inspected the half-dead tree where his proper sacrifice knife slept. It was still there, safe and undiscovered. Then, acutely aware of every rustle in the trees, every stirring in the godhouse, he sought the place where he had buried the large crystal, that would one day, somehow, be a weapon for the god.

The ground in that sanctuary remained undisturbed. He had buried the crystal beside the shrine’s godpost, certain the god would keep it safe. This was the third time he had risked coming to see its hiding place, he felt light-headed knowing he had not failed.

You see it, god, the crystal lives in your eye. Let it remain there, let your powers thwart demons who would pluck it from your sight.

His knife was safe, the crystal was safe. Now he could sleep, he was desperate for bed.

As he turned to leave the shrine garden he heard a sob, coming from the other side of its hedge. He stopped. A heartbeat’s silence, then another sob, anguished and incompletely stifled. He frowned.

I know that voice, I know the sound of those tears . . .

“Zandakar!” he said, standing in the hedge’s narrow opening. “Zandakar, what is it?”

His son knelt before the sanctuary shrine, it was a carved scarlet scorpion with a raised, stinging tail. At the sound of his name Zandakar wrenched around and nearly fell. His expression was shamed, his face was wet. His beautiful eyes were full of woe. “Vortka godspeaker! I am sorry, I am sorry.”

“No!” he said, and stepped further in. “Do not be sorry, tell me why you weep. Tell me why you are here , so early in the shrine garden. Does your mother know you pray here at this time?”

Zandakar dragged his forearm over his face, the rough movement made his godbells shiver, a muted chime. “Yuma sends me, it is my penance for sinning. I have prayed here four days with only flatbread and water, godspeaker. After today my penance is done.”

“I see,” said Vortka. He had not known. She had not told him, though there had been the chance. She guards him so jealously. There is no need . “And you weep because you sinned against the god?” Zandakar hesitated. “You can tell me, Zandakar. I am a godspeaker, what you tell me is private.”

Zandakar looked down, he smoothed a hand over his blue-striped horsehide leggings as though they were warm living skin. “It is nothing, godspeaker,” he whispered, brokenly. “I am sorry, I must pray to the god.”

“ Zandakar . . .” Vortka moved closer, he dropped to one knee. “You are too young to weep like a man. Let me help you.” Let me help you, my son .

Zandakar’s breath caught in his throat, he could not stop fresh tears from falling. “I lo— loved Didij—ik,” he said, almost incoherent. “I did not mean—mean to hurt him, I did not think it was a—a sin to ride like a warrior. I wish Yuma had told the taskmaster to whi—whip me ten times. He could have whipped me till I bled on the scorpion wheel, I—I would not care.” He sucked in a shuddering breath. “But she gave me these leggings and I have to wear them.”

The leggings. Blue-striped horsehide. Newly tanned, they had lost none of their color. Vortka felt his belly lurch, saw a beautiful pony in his mind’s eye. “ Didijik ?” he whispered, incredulous.

Zandakar nodded. “Yuma said now I will never forget.”

Never forget? Their son would be scarred for life, like her knife-slashed face this memory would sear him forever.

Hekat, how could you? You make him wear the hide of his beloved dead pony? You had him whipped on the scorpion wheel? He is only a child, how could you do that?

He remembered, aching, his own happy childhood, his ordinary life before the god intervened. He had loved his father and loved his mother, they expected obedience but he was never whipped . Never starved of food, never forced to pray. He remembered laughter, he remembered joy, he remembered games and tickling and praise and forgiveness. They were strict, they were never harsh, harshness had come only once his father was dead.

What do you remember, Hekat, that you could so punish our precious boy?

“Zandakar,” he said, and though it was dangerous, forbidden, he pressed his palm to his small son’s cheek. He had no choice, his child was suffering. He would have done it if smiting Nagarak were in the godhouse. “Hekat warleader is a fierce, proud woman. She burns in the god’s eye, she is unique. She loves you as she loves the god, whatever she does is because she believes it is right. When you fell and hurt yourself, you frightened her badly. She is trying to make sure it never happens again. You must wear the horsehide leggings, do not wear them with pain. Didijik was always going to die before you, you lost him a little sooner but the loss was waiting. When you wear your blue-striped leggings, Zandakar, do not think of it as punishment. Wear them with love, remember your pony. Show the world his beauty, and do not weep.”

Zandakar’s eyes were wide, and surprised. After a moment he nodded, slowly. “Yes, Vortka godspeaker. I did not think of it like that. I will do what you say. When I wear these leggings I will think of all the times we galloped together, me and Didijik. I will not weep. I will thank the god I had such a pony.”

Vortka kissed him on the brow. “Good. That is good. Zandakar . . .”

Trusting, so trusting, Zandakar looked at him. “Godspeaker?”

He lowered his voice. “I must tell you, we are not supposed to speak together. I am a godspeaker, my duties are in the godhouse. You will be the warlord, your world is in the palace. If someone asks you, you must not lie. But if nobody asks, it would be better if you do not mention our meeting here.”

“If nobody asks, I will not tell,” said solemn Zandakar. Then he smiled, unexpectedly, he was so beautiful. “We have a secret, Vortka godspeaker. Secrets are what friends have. Does this mean we are friends?”

Aieee, god , thought Vortka. He could have wept. “Yes, Zandakar,” he whispered. “We are friends. If you are ever in trouble, you can come to me. I want you to know that. You can come to me.”

Zandakar nodded. “You are not so thin now,” he said, considering. “But your hair is still fuzzy. When will the god give you back your godbraids?”

“I do not know,” he said, his voice uneven.

“Perhaps the god likes them so much it keeps them for itself.”

“Perhaps,” he agreed, and for the second time—most likely the last—he kissed his son, and held him close. “I must go, I have duties. And you have prayers. Be in the god’s eye, Zandakar. Be a good boy. Grow a strong man. You will not see me, I will be watching you.”

The god saw him safely out of the shrine garden, safely into the godhouse and up to his cell. He closed the door, he lay down on his mattress. He covered his face and cried till he slept.

Hekat led her warhost to Et-Banotaj. Nagarak rode beside her, they rarely spoke. The chastened warlords rode behind her, she felt their gazes on her back, she never looked at them. Like Hanochek, they were unknown.

After each day’s riding the warhost stopped for lowsun sacrifice. When it was done, as the slaves cooked the night’s meal, she danced with her warriors under the sky. She danced to remind them she was their warleader, she danced to remind the fallen warlords that she was with them, and watching. If once the warlords forgot who she was, what she had done, if they forgot she had danced two warlords to death, they might also forget to be afraid.

Her warriors were beautiful, dancing with their snakeblades in the god’s eye. The ground drummed with the sound of their disciplined feet, they trampled the grass and summoned the stars.

See your warriors, god, see them knife-dancing for you. See me dancing, I am your slave. Will you send me a man for fucking soon? If he does not come soon, does it mean you will not send him? Does it mean Zandakar is safe from demons until he dies an old man?

The god did not answer, it was silent in her heart, it slept in her amulet. She clutched the stone scorpion till her fingers hurt.

I wish you would answer, god. I grow weary of waiting.

The journey to Et-Banotaj continued. When the warhost reached the border godposts on the main road to the city Nagarak sacrificed two grown bulls, one black, one white. Their gushing blood dyed the brown soil red. Their heads were left at the base of the godposts, the god ate the bodies’ flesh so the bloody bones could be piled as a warning.

Two fingers’ riding from the city the warhost caught sight of Et-Banotaj warriors, galloping ahead as though demons snapped at their heels. Hekat let them go, she did not send warriors in pursuit. It was not possible to hide her warhost, and she did not want to.

Let them know we are coming. Let them tremble on their feet and in their sinning hearts.

Dead Banotaj’s defiant warhost rode out from its barracks to meet the warriors of Et-Raklion on the open land before the city. Hekat met three of its shell-leaders in the middle ground with Arakun beside her, and one of Et-Banotaj’s warriors taken at the Heart of Mijak.

“Surrender,” she said, staring into the shell-leaders’ faces. “Banotaj is dead, I killed him with my snakeblade. He was a sinning man, he burns in hell. Raklion warlord is your warlord now, he is warlord of Mijak. You will kneel to him. You will kneel to me , I speak with his voice. I am Hekat warleader, warleader of Mijak. Bajadek’s doom and the doom of his son. I will smite you to death if you do not kneel.”