The Good Terrorist
DORIS LESSING
THE GOOD
TERRORIST
Doris Lessing is the author of numerous award-winning books of fiction and nonfiction, including
The Golden Notebook
and
The Grass Is Singing
. In 2007 she was awarded the Nobel Prize in Literature. She lives in London.
Also by Doris Lessing
Novels
The Grass Is Singing
The Golden Notebook
Briefing for a Descent into Hell
The Summer Before the Dark
Memoirs of a Survivor
The Diary of a Good Neighbour
If the Old Could …
Playing the Game: A Graphic Novel
(Illustrated by Charlie Adlard)
Love, Again
Mara and Dann
The Fifth Child
Ben, in the World
The Sweetest Dream
The Story of General Dann and Mara’s Daughter, Griot, and the Snow Dog
The Cleft
“Canopus in Argos: Archives” Series
Re: Colonised Planet 5
,
Shikasta
The Marriages Between Zones Three, Four, and Five
The Sirian Experiments
The Making of the Representative for Planet 8
The Sentimental Agents in the Volyen Empire
“Children of Violence” Novel Sequence
Martha Quest
A Proper Marriage
A Ripple from the Storm
Landlocked
The Four-Gated City
Operas
The Marriages Between Zones Three, Four, and Five
(music by Philip Glass)
The Making of the Representative for Planet 8
(music by Philip Glass)
Short Stories
Five
The Habit of Loving
A Man and Two Women
The Story of a Non-Marrying Man and Other Stories
Winter in July
The Black Madonna
This Was the Old Chiefs Country (Collected African Studies
, Volume 1)
The Sun Beneath Their Feet (Collected African Studies
, Volume 2)
To Room Nineteen (Collected Stories
, Volume 1)
The Temptation of Jack Orkney (Collected Stories
, Volume 2)
London Observed
The Old Age of El Magnifico
Particularly Cats
Rufus the Survivor
On Cats
The Grandmothers
Poetry
Fourteen Poems
Drama
Each His Own Wilderness
Play With a Tiger
The Singing Door
Nonfiction
In Pursuit of the English
Going Home
A Personal Voice
Prisons We Choose to Live Inside
The Wind Blows Away Our Words
African Laughter
Time Bites
Autobiography
Under My Skin, Volume 1
Walking in the Shade, Volume
2
FIRST VINTAGE INTERNATIONAL EDITION, MARCH
2008
Copyright
© 1985
by Doris Lessing
All rights reserved. Published in the United States by Vintage Books, a division of Random House, Inc., New York. Originally published in the United Kingdom by Jonathan Cape Ltd, London, and subsequently in hardcover in the United States by Alfred A. Knopf, Inc., New York, in 1985.
Vintage is a registered trademark and Vintage International and colophon are trademarks of Random House, Inc.
This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.
The Library of Congress has cataloged the Knopf edition as follows:
Lessing, Doris May.
The good terrorist.
I. Title.
PR6023.E833G66 1985 823’.914
85-40214
eISBN: 978-0-307-77765-2
v3.1
Contents
Cover
About the Author
Other Books by This Author
Title Page
Copyright
First Page
Also by Doris Lessing
T
he house was set back from the noisy main road in what seemed to be a rubbish tip. A large house. Solid. Black tiles stood at angles along the gutter, and into a gap near the base of a fat chimney a bird flew, trailing a piece of grass several times its length.
“I should think 1910,” said Alice. “Look how thick the walls are.” This could be seen through the broken window just above them on the first floor. She got no response, but nevertheless shrugged off her backpack, letting it tumble onto a living rug of young nettles that was trying to digest rusting tins and plastic cups. She took a step back to get a better view of the roof. This brought Jasper into vision. His face, as she expected it would be, was critical and meant to be noticed. For her part, she did not have to be told that she was wearing
her look
, described by him as silly. “Stop it,” he ordered. His hand shot out, and her wrist was encircled by hard bone. It hurt. She faced him, undefiant but confident, and said, “I wonder if they will accept us?” And, as she had known he would, he said, “It is a question of whether we will accept them.”
She had withstood the test on her, that bony pain, and he let her wrist go and went on to the door. It was a front door, solid and sure of itself, in a little side street full of suburban gardens and similar comfortable houses. They did not have slates missing and broken windows.
“Why, why,
why?”
asked Alice angrily, addressing the question, probably, to the universe itself, her heart full of pain because of the capacious, beautiful, and unloved house. She dragged her backpack by its strap after her and joined him.
“Profit, of course,” he said, and pressed the bell, which did not ring. He gave the door a sharp push and they went into a large shadowy hall where stairs went strongly up, turned at a wide landing, and rose out of sight. The scene was illuminated by a hurricane lamp that stood on the floor, in a corner. From a side room came the sound of soft drumming. Jasper pushed open this door, too. The windows were covered by blankets, leaving not a chink of light. A black youth looked up from his family of drums, his cheeks and teeth shining in candlelight. “Hi,” he said, all his fingers and both feet at work, so that it seemed he was dancing as he sat, or was perhaps on some kind of exercise machine.
This smiling jolly black boy who looked like an advertisement for an attractive holiday in the Caribbean struck Alice’s organ of credibility falsely, and she tucked away a little memo to herself not to forget a first impression of anxiety or even sorrow, which was the real message her nerves were getting from him. She found herself actually on the verge of saying, “It’s all right, it’s okay, don’t worry!” But meanwhile Jasper was demanding, “Where’s Bert?”
The black youth shrugged, nonchalantly, still smiling, and did not for one moment stop his energetic attack on his instruments. Jasper’s tight grip on her upper arm took her out of the room into the hall, where Alice said, “This place smells.”
“Well,” said Jasper, in the clumsily placating way she knew was meant as love, “I suppose you’ll put a stop to that.”
At once, feeling her advantage, she said, “Don’t forget you’ve been living soft for four years. You’re not going to find it easy after that.”
“Don’t call me soft,” he said, and kicked her on the ankle. Not hard, but enough.
This time she went ahead of him and opened a door she felt must be to the kitchen. Light fell on desolation. Worse, danger: she was looking at electric cables ripped out of the wall and dangling, raw-ended. The cooker was pulled out and lying on the floor. The broken windows had admitted rainwater, which lay in puddles everywhere. There was a dead bird on the floor. It stank. Alice began to cry from pure rage. “The bastards,” she cursed. “The filthy stinking fascist bastards.”
They already knew that the Council, to prevent squatters, had sent in the workmen to make the place uninhabitable. “They didn’t even make those wires safe. They didn’t even …” Suddenly alive with energy, she whirled about, opening doors. Two lavatories on this floor, the bowls filled with cement.
She cursed steadily, the tears streaming. “The filthy shitty swine, the shitty fucking fascist swine …” She was full of the energy of hate. Incredulous with it, for she had never been able to believe, in some corner of her, that anybody, particularly not a member of the working class, could obey an order to destroy a house. In that corner of her brain that was perpetually incredulous began the monologue that Jasper never heard, for he would not have authorised it: But they are
people
, people did this. To stop other people from living. I don’t believe it. Who can they be? What can they be like? I’ve never met anyone who could. Why, it must be people like Len and Bob and Bill,
friends
. They did it. They came in and filled the lavatory bowls with cement and ripped out all the cables and blocked up the gas.
Jasper stood and watched her. He was pleased. This fury of energy had banished
her look
, which he hated, when she seemed, all of her, to be swollen and glistening, as if not merely her face but her whole body filled with tears, which oozed from every pore.
Without referring to him, she ran up the stairs, and he followed slowly, listening to how she banged on doors, and then, hearing nothing, flung them open. On the first-floor landing they stood looking into order, not chaos. Here every room had sleeping bags, one or two, or three. Candles or hurricane lamps. Even chairs with little tables beside them. Books. Newspapers. But no one was in.
The smell on this floor was strong. It came from upstairs. More slowly they went up generously wide stairs, and confronted a stench that made Jasper briefly retch. Alice’s face was stern and proud. She flung open a door onto a scene of plastic buckets, topped with shit. But this room had been deemed sufficiently filled, and the one next to it had been started. Ten or so red, yellow, and orange buckets stood in a group, waiting.
There were other rooms on this floor, but none were used. None could be used, the smell was so strong.
They went down the stairs, silent, watching their feet, for there was rubbish everywhere, and the light came dimly through dirty windows.
“We are not here,” said he, anticipating her, “to make ourselves comfortable. We aren’t here for that.”
She said, “I don’t understand anyone choosing to live like this. Not when it’s so easy.”
Now she sounded listless, flat, all the incandescence of fury gone.
He was about to start a speech about her bourgeois inclinations, as she could see; but the front door opened, and against the sunlight was outlined a military-looking figure.
“Bert!” he shouted, and jumped down the stairs three at a time. “Bert. It’s Jasper.…”
Alice thought maternally, hearing that glad voice ring out, It’s because of his shitty father. But this was part of her private stream, since of course Jasper did not allow her the right to such ideas.
“Jasper,” acknowledged Bert, and then peered through the gloom up at herself.
“Alice—I told you,” said Jasper.
“Comrade Alice,” said Bert. His voice was curt, stern, and pure, insisting on standards, and Jasper’s voice fell into step. “We have just come,” he said. “There was no one to report to.”
“We spoke to him, in there,” remarked Alice, arriving beside them, indicating the room from which came the soft drumming.
“Oh, Jim,” dismissed Bert. He strode to a door they had not opened, kicked it open since it had lost its knob, and went in without looking to see if they followed.
This room was as near to normal as they had seen. With the door shut, you could believe this was a sitting room in an ordinary house, although everything—chairs, a sofa, the carpet—was dingy. The smell was almost shut out, but to Alice it seemed that an invisible film of stench clung to everything, and she would feel it slippery on her fingers if she touched.
Bert stood upright, slightly bent forward, arms at ease, looking at her. But he did not see her, she knew that. He was a dark, thin young man, probably twenty-eight or thirty. His face was full of black shining hairs, and his dark eyes and a red mouth and white teeth gleamed from among them. He wore new stiff dark-blue jeans and a close-fitting dark-blue jacket, buttoned up and tidy. Jasper wore light-blue linen trousers and a striped tee shirt like a sailor’s; but Alice knew he would soon be in clothes like Bert’s, which were in fact his normal gear. He had had a brief escapade into frivolity due to some influence or other.
Alice knew that the two men would now talk, without concerning themselves with her, and set herself to guard her interests, while she looked out of the bow window into the garden, where rubbish of all kinds reached to the sills. Sparrows were at work on the piles, scratching and digging. A blackbird sat on a milk carton and looked straight at her. Beyond the birds, she saw a thin cat crouched under a hydrangea in young green leaf and slim coronets of pink and blue that would be flowers. The cat was watching her, too, with bright, starved eyes.
Bert reached into a cupboard and took out a Thermos the size of a bucket, and three mugs.
“Oh, you do have electricity, then?” she asked.
“No. A comrade in the next street fills it for me every morning,” he said.
Alice, watching the scene with half her attention, saw how Jasper eyed the flask, and the pouring of the coffee. She knew he was hungry. Because of the row with her mother he had slammed out of the house and not breakfasted. And he had not had time to drink the coffee she had taken up to him. She thought, “But that’s Bert’s supply for the day,” and indicated she only wanted half a cup. Which she was given, exactly as specified.
Jasper drank down his cup at once, and sat looking at the Thermos, wanting more. Bert did not notice.
“The situation has changed,” Bert began, as if this were a continuation of some meeting or other. “My analysis was incorrect, as it happened. I underestimated the political maturity of the cadres. When I put the question to the vote, half decided against, and they left here at once.”
Jasper said, “Then they would have proved unreliable. Good riddance.”
“Precisely.”
“What was the question?” enquired Alice. She used her “meeting voice,” for she had learned that this was necessary if she was to hold her own. To her it sounded false and cold, and she was always embarrassed by it; because of the effort it required, she sounded indifferent, even absent-minded. Yet her eyes were steadily and even severely observing the scene in front of her: Bert looking at her, or, rather, at what she had said; Jasper looking at the Thermos. Suddenly he was unable to stop himself, and he reached for the jug. Bert said “Sorry,” and pushed it towards him.
“You know what the question was,” said Jasper, sour. “I told you. We are going to join the IRA.”
“You mean,” said Alice, “you
voted
on whether to join the IRA?” She sounded breathless; Bert took it as fear, and he said, with loud, cold contempt, “Shit-scared. They ran like little rabbits.”
Alice persisted, “How was it put to the vote?”
Bert said, after a pause, “That this group should make approaches to the IRA leadership, offering our services as an England-based entity.”
Alice digested this, looking strained because of the effort it cost her to believe it, and said, “But Jasper told me that this house was Communist Centre Union?”
“Correct. This is a CCU squat.”
“But has the leadership of the CCU decided to offer the services of the whole CCU to the IRA? I don’t understand,” she said fiercely, not at all in her “political” voice, and Bert said, curt and offhand, because, as she could see, he was uncomfortable, “No.”
“Then how can a
branch
of the CCU offer its services?”
Here she observed that Jasper was seeking to engage Bert’s eyes in “Take no notice of her” looks, and she forestalled him. “It doesn’t make sense.”
Bert admitted, “You are correct, in a way. The point was discussed. It was agreed that, while approaches could not be made as a group of the CCU, it would be permissible for a group of CCU members to make the approach, as associated individuals.”
“But …” Alice lost interest. They are at it again, she was thinking. Fudging it. She returned her attention to the rubbish pile a yard beyond the dirty glass. The blackbird had gone. The poor cat was sniffing around the edges of the heap, where flies were crawling.
She said, “What do you do for food here?”
“Take-away.”
“This rubbish is a health hazard. There must be rats.”
“That’s what the police said.”
“Have they been?”
“They were here last night.”
“Oh, I see, that’s why the others left.”
“No,” said Bert. “They left because they got the shits. About the IRA.”
“What did the police say?”
“They gave us four days to leave.”
“Why don’t we go to the Council?” said Alice, in an irritated wail; and as Jasper said, “Oh, there she goes again,” the door opened and a young woman came in. She had short shiny black hair that had been expertly cut, black quick eyes, red lips, a clear white skin. She was glossy and hard, like a fresh cherry. She looked carefully at Bert, at Jasper, and at Alice, and Alice knew she was being seen.
“I’m Pat,” she said. “Bert told me about you two.” And then, “You are brother and sister?”
At once Jasper snapped, “No, we are not!”
But Alice liked it when people made the mistake, and she said, “People often take us for brother and sister.”
Pat examined them again. Jasper fidgeted under the look and turned away, hands in his jacket pockets, as if trying to seem indifferent to an attack.
They were both fair, with reddish gleams in hair that wanted to go into little curls and wisps. Jasper’s was cut very short; Alice’s was short and chunky and serviceable. She cut it herself. They both had pinkish freckled skin. Jasper’s little blue eyes were in round white shallows, and this gave him an angelic, candid air. He was very thin, and wore skin-tight clothes. Alice was stocky, and she had a pudgy, formless look to her. Sometimes a girl of twelve, even thirteen, before she is lit by pubescence, is as she will be in middle age. A group of women are standing on a platform in the Underground. Middle-aged women, with carrier bags, gossiping. Very short women, surely? No, they are girls, of twelve or so. Forty years of being women will boil through them and leave them as they are now, heavy and cautious, and anxious to please. Alice could seem like a fattish clumsy girl or, sometimes, about fifty, but never looked her age, which was thirty-six. Now it was a girl who returned Pat’s look with friendly curiosity from small blue-grey eyes set under sandy lashes.
