The Madam (12 page)

She remained speechless.

“And it’s not even the marriage that gets to
me, Madam! It’s the fact that you were IN LOVE! The one thing that
you have told me all these years is to never fall in love, to never
give myself to someone. Love is weakness and I. Do. Not. Show.
Weakness! Isn’t that it? I’m supposed to be your motherfucking
prodigy and here I find out that my Madam is just another goddamn
statistic!” I screamed.

“The big, almighty, powerful, bow down to me
Madam is a fake, a phony.”

She crossed her arms and slowly cracked her
neck. “Believe it or not, Lilith, I don’t have to explain myself to
you or anyone else, and that is the beauty of being in charge. I
sit at the throne, people answer to me, I am the one, and until I
say so you have nothing to do but to wait in line,” she calmly
spewed.

I grabbed the picture and placed it on her
desk right in front of her.

“Was it a beautiful wedding? Was it
everything you ever dreamt of and wished for? Did you get his and
her towels, Madam?”

She picked up the photograph of their wedding
day as if it was a disease-infested object and ripped it in half;
not giving it one second of recognition, and threw it in the
garbage.

“You still don’t get it, Lilith. I don’t give
one flying fuck what you think of me. It doesn’t faze me, it
doesn’t hurt me, and it most definitely doesn’t change the fact
that I own you.” She stood up, grabbed her suit jacket and purse,
and walked over to me.

“I have some business that needs my immediate
attention. Go home and clean yourself up, you look like shit. You
have a date tonight,” she said before kissing the tip of my nose
and leaving.

I don’t know how long I stood there
contemplating everything that had happened in the last few hours. I
should have known that my mother wouldn’t answer or explain
anything. That’s not who she was. All my life I wanted to be just
like her, I wanted everything that she was, everything that she
stood for. It took me almost a quarter of my life to realize that
she was a fraud.

I would let her train me, mold me, and teach
me everything I needed to know.

But...I would never be like her.

I would be better.

I walked over to the garbage and pulled out
the torn photograph. I taped it up, looked at it one more time, and
placed it in my back pocket.

My father was right about one thing, power
and control does change people, he just forgot to include
greed.

In greed we trust.

I proceeded to sit in Madam’s chair, and from
that moment, I knew what I wanted.

There is a fine line between loving life and
being greedy for it, and I just crossed that line. I would take VIP
when I wanted to, not when I was told.

I conquered myself that day, and it was only
a matter of time until I would preside over VIP.

The eighties were some of the best times of
my life; I was in my twenties, able, free, rich, and fucking
fabulous. I enjoyed all VIP had to offer, private planes, five-star
hotels, endless amounts of jewelry, countless amounts of adoration
and attention. Alcohol and drugs flowed loosely everywhere I went.
I didn’t know anyone who didn’t have a party favor on them at any
point in time. During the mid-eighties, there was a little blue and
red pill that hit the scene. Ecstasy became the miracle drug to
make it all go away; problems, drama, hatred, stress…all of it gone
with the swallow of one tiny pill.

There was peace, tranquility, love, unity,
and sex…lots and lots of sex.

The year was 1984; I was 24 years old, and on
a date with James Jones. JJ was a bit of a wild card, though that’s
what I liked about him. Why be boring? It’s my worst fucking
nightmare to fade into the crowd. JJ and I seemed to have that in
common. He requested my presence for the entire weekend, stating he
wanted to party. Like I needed a warning label, I am always down
for whatever. As a VIP, we were made like that.

We were in New York City, the island of
plenty.

“I have a few friends that we’re meeting up
with at The Underground, is that all right?” JJ asked with
excitement in his eyes.

“Of course, the more the merrier.”

We made it to The Underground club a little
after midnight and the place was already packed. There were people
everywhere, both men and women. Now, I had been around my fair
share of fucked up people, but this crowd took the cake. I made my
way to the bar and I was about to get my drink when someone tapped
on my shoulder from behind.

I turned and smirked.

“Well, well, well, lookie who I found. Isn’t
this place a little out of your scene, Angel?” Mika questioned with
a sexy as hell smile that made me want to sit on his face.

“And what exactly is my scene? The dungeon?”
I teased.

He grabbed the back of my head moving me
toward his body.

“Don’t say things like that when I feel like
this, Lilith. I’m hard just thinking about it,” he whispered
seductively in my ear. He wasn’t lying, I could feel his erection
on my leg, but that’s not what I wanted to feel. At least not
yet…

I didn’t hesitate. “What are you on?”

“Ecstasy.”

“What’s that?”

He licked his lips. “It’s anything you want
it to be. Looks like I’ll be taking away those wings again
tonight.” He pulled out a circular blue pill that had a pinup girl
stamped on it.

He brought it up to my mouth and I gladly
opened, he stopped right before he placed it on my tongue.

“Remember, Angel, if you ever get asked to
choose between the red pill and the blue one,” he paused, placing
it on my tongue, “always take the motherfucking blue one.” I
swallowed it with no hesitation.

It took exactly thirty minutes to hit my
system and it was like a tsunami of emotions, sensations, thoughts,
and feelings. I had never experienced anything even remotely close
to what I was feeling.

JJ stared into my eyes. “What did you
take?”

“What makes you think I’m on something?” I
babbled teasingly.

He shook his head laughing, which made me
laugh. “Only you would get ecstasy before I had a chance to offer
it. Is there anything you can’t do on your own?”

I put my finger up to my lips in a thinking
motion. “No.”

He laughed again. “At least we’re both on the
same page. Have you ever done this before?”

I shook my head and it made my whole body
feel amazing, so I kept doing it until JJ grabbed my head.

“You are so fucked up.”

“Guilty.” I smiled enticingly.

The night progressed with dancing and
talking. I don’t think I had ever talked that much in my life, but
even that felt amazing. JJ would rub my shoulders and neck and it
was as if I was having an out of body experience. Every part of my
body had tingles and was screamingly alive. Everything around me
shimmered; it was surreal. When his hands would rub the nook of my
neck, I swear I felt it everywhere. Prickles and shivers down my
arms, my back, and my legs.

I heard Mika’s voice from beside me as he put
his arm around my body, bringing me close to him. I involuntarily
put my head on his shoulder. Just the feel of his body touching
mine was incredible. I didn’t care that JJ was right beside me, and
I could feel all that negative energy radiating off of him.

“Who the fuck are you?” JJ shouted over the
music in the club.

“Her prince charming. Who’s asking?” Mika
calmly replied.

“Her date.”

“You’re dating now, Angel? Here I thought you
were a bad girl. Didn’t think you’d ever go vanilla on me,” he said
into my ear.

I laughed. “Boys…there’s plenty of me to go
around.”

“So, JJ, you could either join, watch, or get
the fuck out of the way. The choice is yours.” I watched his eyes
widen at the proposition.

“Your place or mine, Mika?” he asked without
hesitation.

“Most definitely mine,” he replied with the
same enthusiasm.

Once we arrived at our after-hours
festivities at Mika’s, things took an unexpected turn. I undressed
myself slowly and provocatively before lying in the middle of the
bed with my legs spread.

They both were grinning from ear to ear, Mika
whispered something in JJ’s ear that I couldn’t hear, and it made
him smile wider.

They both took their clothes off leaving only
their boxers on. “You coming down, Angel?”

I nodded, pouting like a child. I knew how to
get what I wanted.

Mika crawled over to me and kissed me from my
ankle to my mouth, leaving a trail of desire and willingness in his
wake. He got close to my face. I perched myself forward to try to
kiss him, but he teasingly moved his head away. He grabbed the back
of my thighs and roughly flipped me over, making me yelp. I was now
laying on my front. He grabbed my hips and made my ass stick up in
the air.

“I do believe I made you a promise, little
girl, and I always keep my promises,” he threatened in a
domineering, yet sexy voice that sent shivers down my spine.

JJ came up from behind him and it looked like
he handed him something.

“Do you trust me?” Mika inquired with lust
and determination in is voice.

“Mmm hmm,” I moaned, closing my eyes.

I felt someone bite my ass cheek and then
lick toward the pucker of my anus. They pushed their tongue into my
pucker and I stretched my arms out in front of me to enjoy the
sensations that were to come.

“You smell like you want to be fucked,
Lilith, do you want us to fuck you?” I heard JJ’s sinful tone
behind me.

“Badly,” I shamelessly replied.

“We will make you feel so goddamn good,
Angel. You won’t want us to stop.” Mika spread lotion on my anus
and I wiggled my hips. He pushed his finger in and out, stretching
me, filling me, making me feel whole.

“You will keep coming and begging for more.
Every fucking part of you will be touched in more ways than one.” I
whimpered at the loss of his finger, but it was replaced with two
fingers pushing into my sex right toward my g-spot. I wiggled,
trying to relive the ache that they were creating. I felt something
being pushed into my anus. I opened my eyes and turned my head to
see what was going on.

“What are you doing?” I asked with some
hesitation.

“Making you a very happy girl. Ecstasy up the
ass is like taking three of them orally, and it will hit your
bloodstream in fifteen minutes. You’re in for a wild night, little
girl.” The pill burned for a few seconds; nothing uncomfortable,
just a stinging sensation. I let Mika’s words sink in, it hit the
bottom of my core and I shivered in expectancy of the sensations
that I was about to feel. Mika and JJ took two more each and it
didn’t take the full fifteen minutes for me to be knocked on my
ass.

The first pill crept slowly, this one decided
to detour and went full fucking force. My whole body from the tips
of my toes to my hair follicles felt tingles, like raindrops were
falling on every part of me. I had intense rushing sensations and
it was exhilarating. It was euphoric and I was having a full-blown
body orgasm and no one was even touching me.

As I lay there, looking at the ceiling, I had
full mental clarity. I had insight, a bursting holistic high; my
vision was blurry, but heightened along with my tactile senses. My
perception of everything around me would shift from second to
second, and out of nowhere, I wanted to love and be loved. I looked
over at the men whose eyes were black irises; there were no color
in them. They were dilated, pulsating, and beautiful.

I smiled high from ear to ear.

“Angel, you are rolling your balls off. You
have no idea what you just signed on for, little girl.” Mika’s
voice intensified the tingles throughout my body, especially
throughout my pussy, as I watched him leave the room.

“You ever done a Nuru massage?” JJ whispered
in my ear, bringing my thoughts back to what they had in store for
me.

Mika entered the bedroom with a blow up
mattress and placed it on the floor next to the bed, and then
placed a large bowl that looked like it had oil in it next to
it.

JJ grabbed my hand and escorted me to the
mattress where he laid me down in the center, my head on a
makeshift pillow of a towel.

“You want us to fuck that beautiful
glistening cunt, don’t you, Lilith; you’re dripping wet just
waiting for it. You want us so deep in your pussy and ass that you
won’t be able to walk for days, and every time you do you can still
feel us there. That’s what you want…isn’t it, dirty girl?” JJ
expressed to me, making me crave exactly what he was saying.

They both dipped their hands in the bowl and
brought it to their bodies, slathering and smearing it all over
their chests. The substance was thick, and honey-like.

“What is that?” I questioned as I admired
their glistening, toned bodies and their rock hard cocks standing
at attention.

“It’s Nuru gel, you’re next,” JJ
responded.

They continued to gel every inch of their
bodies until I couldn’t take it anymore and started to crawl over
to them. The gel had fallen onto the mattress and it made crawling
over to them a little difficult. Once I reached the edge of the
mattress, I cupped my hands into the bowl and proceeded to do
exactly what I just saw them do. I provocatively began at my neck
and worked my way down to my breasts, making sure to caress and
entice my body as I went. My eyes closed with a flutter and my
hands took on a life of their own.

I was
in my own little world where all my senses were active and aching
around me. I didn’t have to open my eyes to know that JJ and Mika
were staring and stroking themselves to the vision of me applying
the gel over my breasts, stomach, legs; purposely making them wait
to see me touch myself where they wanted me the most. I didn’t give
them what they wanted, what I wanted, I teased my lower abdomen and
my inner thighs just inches away from my sex, making the build up
for all of us more explosive.