Authors: Dan Poblocki
who bothered to crane their necks and peer
into the dusty heights of the classroom’s
shadowy wal .
Until today, Timothy had taken no interest in
them. No one had, not even Mr. Crane,
Timothy’s seventh-grade history teacher, over
Timothy’s seventh-grade history teacher, over
whose classroom the specimens watched
silently and who was presently providing
instruction for the next day’s field trip.
“You’l work in pairs,” said the teacher
evenly, pacing in front of the long green
chalkboard. “Together, you wil choose a single
artifact to study. I want ten pages from the two
of you, il ustrated in the manner of your choice
—col age, drawings, charts, graphs, whatever—
describing where your artifact is from, how it
compares to the art of the era, and how …”
Timothy was not paying at ention. Something
in one of the jars was staring at him with a
glassy black eye.
Stuart Chen leaned across the aisle and
nudged him. Timothy jumped. “This is so
lame,” Stuart whispered. “I thought eld trips
were supposed to be fun. I can’t believe he’s
actual y going to make us do work.”
Timothy glanced at his friend and distractedly
grunted in agreement before turning back to
the specimen in the jar. It’s funny, he thought,
the specimen in the jar. It’s funny, he thought,
how things that were once invisible suddenly
become visible. The black-eyed creature
continued to watch him, silent and unmoving,
as if waiting for him to turn away so it could
shift position … or maybe unscrew the lid.
Timothy shuddered with the sudden thought
that there might be countless other invisible
things out there in the world that he’d never
noticed before, watching him al the time.
“The whole idea is dumb,” Stuart quietly
droned on, speaking over Mr. Crane’s speech. “I
mean, how are we supposed to know what to
pick? Anything in the whole museum …?” He
glanced at Timothy. “You’re going to have to
choose for us. I don’t real y care.”
Timothy nodded. “I don’t care either,” he
whispered.
To his right, he heard a strange clicking
sound. For a brief moment, he thought the
thing in the jar had actual y moved; then he
quickly realized that the sound had not come
from the shelves above but from two rows
from the shelves above but from two rows
away in the back corner. The new girl was
hiding something underneath her desk. She
rested her left ankle on her right thigh and
stared at something she held in the crook of her
knee. Timothy heard the clicking sound again
and watched as a smal ame from a silver
lighter burst at this new girl’s fingertips.
“Let’s get you paired up,” said Mr. Crane,
taking a notebook and pen from his desk.
As the teacher began to ask each student
whom they would like to work with, Timothy
watched the new girl in the last row continue
to quietly ick the lighter open and closed.
Like the specimen jars above her head, he’d
never real y paid at ention to her before. She’d
only been at the school for a month. She was
quiet and didn’t speak to anyone. She wore
gray—sweatshirt, jeans, sneakers. If it weren’t
for her thick, messy red hair, she might have
faded entirely into the wal . The next time she
lit the lighter, to his surprise, she held it against
her ankle. The ame raced up her white sock
her ankle. The ame raced up her white sock
before extinguishing itself. Timothy couldn’t
have been more shocked if the thing in the jar
had leapt o the top shelf behind her and
landed in her lap.
“This is going to stink,” Stuart said, not
noticing the pyro in the corner. Timothy was
too fascinated by what she was doing to pay
any at ention to his friend. Stuart poked
Timothy in the shoulder and said, “Right?”
Suddenly, her brown eyes shifted toward
him, and Timothy realized that he’d been
caught.
“Abigail Tremens?”
The girl cupped the lighter in her st and
looked to the front of the classroom, where Mr.
Crane was staring at her. “Yeah?” she said.
“Who would you like to work with?”
“Oh.” Abigail let her eyes fal to the desk. “I
… uh … don’t know.”
Mr. Crane peered across the blank faces of his
students, who waited in silence for him to
students, who waited in silence for him to
continue. “Would someone please volunteer to
be Abigail’s partner? We’ve al got to have a
partner.”
Abigail seemed to shrink into her seat with
embarrassment.
The class did not answer.
Timothy absentmindedly scratched at his ear.
Mr. Crane suddenly exclaimed, “Timothy July!
Good.”
Surprised, Timothy managed a weak
whisper. “But—”
Mr. Crane didn’t seem to notice. “Abigail and
Timothy,” he said pointedly, writing their
names down in his notebook.
Timothy turned around. The girl stared at
him, her mouth open in shock.
“Moving on. Stuart Chen, who would you
like to work with?”
Timothy glanced apologetical y at the boy
who had been his usual partner, whenever
they’d been given the opportunity, since
they’d been given the opportunity, since
kindergarten. But Stuart’s mouth was pressed
tightly shut; his face shone faintly red through
his olive skin. He glared at Timothy, sending a
dif erent type of fire across the three-foot aisle.
2.
After sneaking away from the history classroom
without speaking to Stuart, Timothy gathered
books from his locker for his next class. His
friend was angry, and Timothy knew he had
every right to be. If their places were switched,
he would have been just as upset.
After a moment, he decided it would be best
to explain that it had been an accident. And if
Stuart didn’t get it—wel , too bad.
Something was happening in Timothy’s life
that Stuart could not possibly understand,
something his parents had made him promise
to keep secret, a task he was nding more and
more dif icult with every passing day.
He’d just taken his hand out of the locker
when the door slammed shut. Timothy leapt
backward to nd Stuart standing beside the
locker, smiling strangely. After a few silent
seconds, Timothy managed to say, “Hey, I’m
seconds, Timothy managed to say, “Hey, I’m
real y sorry about the whole partner thing. It
was—”
“A lit le late for that now,” Stuart interrupted.
“You could have said something to Mr. Crane
during class.”
“I—I said I was sorry,” said Timothy. “We’l
be partners next time. Promise.”
“Fat Carla,” said Stuart, his eyes darkening.
“How would you like to be working with Fat
Carla?”
“I’d like it al right.” This was what he’d been
afraid of.
“Liar.”
Timothy felt his face start to burn. “You’re
kinda being unfair, don’t you think? It wasn’t
my fault. Plus, during class, you kept saying
how lame the project was going to be.”
“That’s ’cause it is going to be lame,” said
Stuart. “But at least we would have been in it
together.”
Something was bubbling deep inside
Something was bubbling deep inside
Timothy. Something he’d wanted to say to
Stuart for a while now. “Maybe it’l be good to
try something dif erent.”
“Dif erent? What do you mean—dif erent?”
“Stuart,” Timothy whispered. “Sometimes
you can be …”
“Be what?” Stuart’s smile nal y dropped
away.
“Not everything is lame. Not everyone is ugly
and stupid. In fact, I think the eld trip
tomorrow might be fun. You’re always so … I
just think … maybe it would be a good idea
…”“What would be a good idea?” Stuart’s voice
hardened.
“To work with a di erent partner on this
project,” said Timothy, clutching his math
book. “That’s al I’m saying.”
“Oh, that’s al you’re saying?”
“I got a get to class.” Timothy started to back
away, heading toward the math wing.
away, heading toward the math wing.
“You wanna talk about dif erent?” said
Stuart, fol owing him. “You should know.
You’ve been acting di erent ever since … I
don’t know when.”
Timothy felt his face ush deeper. He knew
why he’d been acting di erently lately, but he
hadn’t gured out a way to tel Stuart without
breaking his promise to his parents. “Look, just
forget it,” Timothy said. “I’l see you later.”
“Whatever,” said Stuart, before turning
around and walking away.
Timothy closed his eyes for a moment, trying
to shake away the horrible sensation in his
head. But he didn’t have the energy to think
about Stuart and al his stupid crap.
He was about to head into his math class
when someone grabbed his arm, jerking him to
a stop. Abigail Tremens stood behind him,
glaring with her deep brown eyes. She quickly
crossed her arms over her chest.
“So … you think you’re, like … my boyfriend
now?” she mumbled.
now?” she mumbled.
Timothy felt like she’d slapped his face. “Uh
… no.”
“Good. ’Cause I don’t need a boy to rescue
me or anything. I don’t need a boyfriend. I
don’t need a friend. I don’t need anything.
Okay? I’m fine by myself.”
“Mr. Crane said we al needed a partner.
Now you have one. What’s the big deal?”
Abigail stared at him for another moment
before saying, “Just stay away from me.”
3.
At the end of the day, despite the drizzle
spit ing against the school’s front doors,
Timothy purposely missed the bus home. He
simply waited in the boys’ bathroom until a
lit le after three o’clock, when he knew the
long line of buses would clear away from the
main entrance of the school. He couldn’t
imagine sit ing next to Stuart for the entire ride
back to Edgehil Road.
For a while now, their friendship had felt
weird; the shape of their history was a puzzle
piece that no longer t the empty space
Timothy knew was inside him. It was odd—
they both stil liked to play video games. They
watched the same television shows. Their
comic books had become so mixed-up over the
past few years, it was no longer possible to
distinguish which belonged to whom. Together,
the boys at ended swim-team practice three
the boys at ended swim-team practice three
nights a week and every other Saturday
morning. And their parents had always been
close, at least until recently.
Everything had changed when Timothy’s
brother Ben’s unit had been sent away. The
Chens didn’t understand how the Julys could
let Ben enlist during such dangerous times. The
Julys didn’t think it was their neighbors’
business.
When Timothy asked his brother about his
decision, Ben explained that, though he was
terri ed to go, it was his way of nding a sense
of order in al the world’s chaos. This was
something Ben could do: nd a lit le light in
the darkness. Make a decision. Accomplish
something. It was Ben’s way of dealing with his
fear, with the uncertainty of war and politics
and al those other big ideas that Timothy
hadn’t yet begun to think about.
After Ben went overseas, those words had
become like a mantra to Timothy. Find order
in chaos. The lit le light in the darkness. The