The Outlaw Demon Wails (25 page)

My sarcastic smile went annoyed.
What does he want, anyway?
I thought, wondering if this was about his little vacation into the ever-after; if so, he was going to be sorely disappointed. I wasn't going to work for him, but irritating him was right up on my list of favorite things.

Smirking, I glanced at Marshal. He was going to be there awhile, so when Trent came forward with an intent pace, I simply pushed off the carpet and back onto the boards.

“Morgan!” Trent exclaimed, and I spun to skate backward, giving him a cheeky bunny-eared kiss-kiss. His brow creased, so I started dancing to the music. Oh, God, it was “Magic Carpet Ride,” and the entire place was emptying onto the rink.

By the time I had done a circuit, Jon was with him and Trent was lacing up. He was going to come out here? Holy crap, he must be pissed. It wasn't unusual for Trent to track me down when he wanted to wave money at me, but he usually had his act more together than this.

I made another circle, my mind going over our last meeting. I hadn't done anything to tick him off too badly, had I? I mean, irritating him was fun, but the man could kill me if he really wanted. Of course, the nasty little secret of his illegal genetic labs would come out and his empire would come tumbling down, but hell, Trent might do it just to spite me.

My third circuit found Jon standing alone. I quickly scanned the rink, but it wasn't until I looked behind me that I found Trent moving easily and comfortably.
He can skate?
I toyed with the idea of making a race out of this, but there were too many people out there in unsafe costumes, and besides, I'd probably already pushed him to the limit. The guy was a drug lord after all.

Curious, I checked to make sure my scarf was in place, then slowed to let the underweight Arnold pass me so Trent could catch up.

“Rachel,” he said as he settled in beside me, and I felt uneasy when he looked at my scarf as if he knew what lay under it. “You are unbelievable. You know I want to talk to you.”

“So here I am.” I smiled and tucked a curl out of the way. “Besides, I've always wanted to see a world power on skates. You skate really well—for a murderer.”

His green eyes squinted and his jaw tightened. I watched him force the tension out of himself. God, I enjoyed pushing his buttons. That he even cared what I thought said volumes.

“I need you to come with me,” he said as we took the turn, and I laughed, the sound lost in the boom of the speakers.

“On your suicide mission?” I said. “I'm glad you finally got smart and asked for help, but I'm not going into the ever-after for you. Forget it.”

He went to say something, his emotions showing more than usual, but it was cut short as the lights dimmed and the disco ball lit up.

“Couples' skate,” Chad said over the loudspeaker in a bored tone. “If you don't have a partner, get off the damned boards.”

My eyebrows rose in challenge, but Trent surprised me, sliding closer and looping his arm through mine. His fingers were cold, and my smile faded. Something was seriously wrong. I loved irritating Trent, and I honestly got the impression that he put up with it so he could irritate me back, but this? I'd never felt his skin so cold.

“Look,” I said as the music turned slow and the skaters moved closer. “I'm not going into the ever-after. Al is hot for my soul again, and the last thing I need to do is get on his turf, so forget it.”

Trent shook his head in disbelief. “I can't believe you call him Al.”

“Well, I'm not going to use his summoning name,” I said, affronted. We were passing the rest area, and I caught Marshal's eye. He was standing at an empty booth with a concerned look and two slushies. He straightened as he saw me, and I gave him a “just a minute” gesture.

His confusion and disappointment were clear despite the whirling disco lights, then he blinked as he realized who I was with. And then we were past him, headed for the other end of the rink.

“This isn't about the ever-after,” Trent said, bringing me back to our conversation.

My lips pressed together, and I wondered if they would ban me again if I ran Trent into the wall. “Yeah, I know, it's for Ceri and her baby. God, Trent. If it had been anyone but Quen.”

Trent almost pulled out of my grip, but I held tight, not wanting to look at his face. “Ceri told you?” he said, sounding embarrassed and mak
ing me wonder if he had been going to marry her and try to pass the baby off as his own.

I turned, letting him get a good look at my disgust. “Yes. She told me. She's my friend.”
Or used to be.
Trent's face went empty of emotion, and I felt a pang of guilt. “Look, I'm sorry. If it means anything, I think Ceri and you look great together and would have really pretty babies, but you and her? Who would be happy there? Really.”

He looked away, watching the couple before us dressed up as Bonnie and Clyde. “Rachel,” he said as the song went into the last, barf-o-matic romantic verses, “I need you to come to my house. Tonight.”

I just laughed and looked at the clock. “No way in hell.” Then, deciding that if I didn't give him a reason, he might drug me and cart me off, I added, “Trent, I can't. If I'm not on holy ground by sunset, Al will know it and show up. I won't take the chance. Tell you what, though. I'll come out to see you tomorrow afternoon with a big,
fat
consultation fee, and you'll still get a no out of me.”

Fear crossed his face, hidden too quickly for me to think he was trying to manipulate me. “Tomorrow might be too late,” he said, his soft voice clear in the cessation of music and rumble of wheels on wood. “Please, Rachel. I couldn't care less, but Quen has asked, and I'll beg for him, not me.”

Whoa, wait up a fairy-flipping moment.
Suddenly unsure, I halted our motion, dragging Trent to the back corner of the turn where we'd be out of everyone's way. “Quen?” I asked. “Why does Quen want to see me?”

The lights brightened and the popping of the loudspeaker made both of us wince. “It's five straight up, skaters,” Chad's voice rumbled out. “Time to award the daywalkers' best costume. Line up, and Aston and his beeyotch will award the lucky dick or dickette a year's pass to the rink.”

The people in costume cheered, more than a few patrons falling as they shifted direction to line up. I wanted to get off the boards, but everyone was in the way. Marshal was standing beside Jon, both of them watching us with the attitude of not wanting to be seen together but trying to get information from each other. Marshal looked almost short next to the unearthly height of the obnoxious elf Trent had handling
most of his office affairs, and I spared him a glance to try to tell him this wasn't my idea.

“Why can't Quen just come out to see me?” I said when I could hear myself over the excitement, and then it came together. “Damn it, Trent!” I almost hissed. “You stupid businessman. You sent him into the ever-after, didn't you, when I said I wouldn't go.”

Anger marred Trent's usual calm. Behind him, Aston, the owner of the rink, skated onto the boards with a dark, wasp-waisted, buxom woman hanging on his arm, clearly under the influence of a bust-enhancing charm. They'd both been drinking, but Aston was a past Olympic skater, and by the looks of it, his companion had been a Roller Derby queen and could probably skate better drunk than sober. Pain charms were illegal in derby competitions; alcohol wasn't.

The noise of the crowd rose and fell as they passed the costumed patrons, people shouting their opinions as to how the contest should end. I rounded on Trent before he could take the opportunity to slink out without hearing my thoughts. “Did Quen go into the ever-after and come out cursed?” I accused. “You don't know what you're doing. Leave the demon stuff to the professionals.”

The blood washed from Trent's face, and his chin trembled in anger. “I would, but the professionals are afraid, Morgan, too cowardly to do what needs to be done.”

Furious, I got in his face. “Don't you
ever
talk to me about cowardice!” I exclaimed.

But Trent met my anger with his own. “I didn't send Quen into the ever-after,” he said, wispy hair floating. “As far as I know, he's never been there. What happened to him is a direct result of your incompetence. Maybe that's why he wants to see you. To tell you to your face that you need to stop trying to live up to your father's name and open a nice charm stall down in Findlay's Market and quit trying to save the world.”

I felt like I'd been socked in the gut. “You leave my dad out of this!” I almost hissed, then nearly fell when a spotlight hit us, hot and heavy.

“Congratulations!” Mr. Aston slurred, and I realized everyone was staring at us, cheering. “You've won the daywalkers' best costume!”

He was talking to Trent, and the angry man caught his emotional balance with an enviable quickness, shaking the rink owner's hand with a practiced ease, smiling as he tried to realign his thoughts and figure out what was going on. I could see his fury at me simmering under his pleasant expression. The buxom-spelled beauty giggled, draping a ribbon of entry coupons around his neck, startling me and shocking Trent when she gave him a sloppy, red-lipsticked kiss on his cheek.

“What's your name, Mr. Kalamack?” Aston was saying, gesturing grandly to the watching people.

Trent leaned past Aston to me. His green eyes were almost black with anger. “Quen is asking for you.”

Fear slid through me at his formal words. Oh, God. I'd heard that only once before. It had been in the nurse's office at school. I don't even remember the ride to the hospital to find my dad gasping his last.

“Let's all have a round of applause for Mr. Quen, here,” Aston shouted, the speaker squealing with feedback. “Winner of this year's daywalker costume contest. If you're afraid of the dark and those who walk in it, go home! The rest of us want to par-ty!”

The music started up, and people began moving to it, round and round in useless circles. I stared at Trent. Quen was dying?

“Sorry, miss,” Aston said as he put a hand on my shoulder and sent his bourbon-scented breath over me. “You almost had him beat, but you went overboard with the hair. Rachel Morgan's hair isn't that frizzy. Have a g-good night.”

The woman on his arm crooned as she led him away. The spotlight went with them, leaving only Trent and me in the small corner of the rink where the dust bunnies gathered. Looking tired, Trent removed the necklace of coupons and wiped away the lipstick with a white linen handkerchief.

“Quen is asking for you,” he said, chilling me. “He's dying, Morgan. Because of you.”

I loved my church, but being confined to it sucked dishwater. Up in the belfry, I shoved the last of my spell books onto the shelf with enough force to threaten to knock over the freestanding bookcase I'd found there. Adrenaline struck through me, and I reached for the nicked mahogany wood to keep it from tipping. Catching it, I exhaled, glad Ceri wasn't back from her search for spelling supplies to see my sour mood. Misplaced anger born in guilt accounted for most of it, and as I stood and tucked my complexion amulet back behind my shirt, I resolved to let it go. I wasn't going to go see Quen. It might have been a trick, it might not have. I wasn't going to risk it. It was a good decision, but I wasn't happy with it, adding credibility to my new philosophy that if I didn't like a decision, it was probably a good one.

Thunder slowly grew, rolled, and died, echoing against the surrounding hills that sheltered Cincy to fade into the soft, hissing rain. Exhaling with a deliberate slowness, I sat on the edge of the elaborately carved fainting couch to rest my chin in my cupped hands and look over the small, sparse space. My blood pressure started to drop as the sound of the rain became obvious, shushing against the shingles and dying leaves.
The small, hexagon-shaped room had a feeling of open airiness and smelled like coal dust, which was odd seeing as the building had been constructed long after coal was abandoned as fuel.

I'd gotten home before sunset, and guilt had pulled me across the street to Ceri's to apologize. When Marshal and I had gotten back to my mom's, he had seemed relieved to get in his truck and drive away, pensive and deep in thought, and I vowed to back off lest I turn into a needy wanna-be-your-girlfriend twit. I wasn't going to call him, and if he didn't call me…it would probably be for the best.

My intent in visiting Ceri had been to apologize for losing my temper and to make sure she was okay. That, and to dig for information about Quen's condition. She was going to see him tonight but said she wanted to teach me how to make a light before she left. It was probably her way of apologizing, seeing as she couldn't say the words. I didn't care if she said them or not, knowing they would come out when the hurt I'd caused her eased enough.

I still didn't agree with what she was doing with Al, but she was trying to live her life the best way she knew. Besides, I made far worse decisions than she did with a lot less power to back them up. And I wasn't going to lose another friend because of stiff-necked pride and a lack of understanding caused by silence.

Ceri was currently looking for a ring of metal for a ley line charm she wanted to teach me, but until she returned, I had nothing to do but stare at Jenks's gargoyle, still not awake but hiding high up in the rafters and out of the rain.

I had seen the quiet, unheated space last winter while avoiding Jenks's brood—before that Ivy's owls had been up here, briefly, but I'd avoided them, and thus the belfry—but it wasn't until summer and the first rains that I found the beauty in it. Jenks had forbidden his kids from going near the gargoyle, so they wouldn't bother me. Not that it was likely they would venture out of their stump and into the rain. Poor Matalina.

Looking away from the gravel-colored, foot-high critter hunched on a support beam, I quietly moved a folding chair to look out one of the long windows. They were slatted to keep the vermin from getting in and to let
the bell's music out. How the gargoyle got in was a mystery that was pissing Jenks off. Maybe he was like an octopus in that he could squeeze through anything.

Hunching to pillow my chin on my arms, which were folded on the sill, I tilted the blinds to see the shiny black night, breathing in the damp air tainted with the scent of roof shingles and wet pavement. I felt warm and secure, and I didn't know why. It was peaceful, almost like a memory was wrapping itself around me. It might have been from the gargoyle—they were said to be guardians—but I didn't think so. The feeling of peace had been there long before he showed up.

I'd moved the folding chair up here this past summer, but the shelf, the fainting couch, and the dresser had been here when I'd found it. The antique dresser had a green granite top and a beautiful, age-spotted mirror behind it. It would make a great spelling counter, easy to clean and durable. I couldn't help but wonder if the space had been used for spelling before. There were absolutely no pipes or wires above or below the high room—which was why I was using candles to light the place—but even so, I was tempted to make this more than a temporary spot to store my spelling books and stir charms when I had to stay on hallowed ground. Dragging everything down to wash it would be tedious, though.

Fortunately Ceri's spell didn't involve much in the way of paraphernalia. The ley line spell wasn't in any of my books, but Ceri said if I could start a fire with ley line magic I may be able to do this. If so, I might take the time to fix it into a one-word quick-spell. Pulling myself up from the slatted window, I wrapped my arms around myself in the damp, candlelit chill and hoped it was easy. The cool factor alone would be enough reason to fix it into my memory.

Ley line magic wasn't my forte, but the idea that I might be able to make a light whenever I wanted had a definite appeal. I'd once met someone who could use ley lines to hear people at a distance. A faint smile curled the corner of my mouth up at the memory. I'd been eighteen, and we were eavesdropping on the I.S. officers interviewing my brother, Robbie, about a missing girl. The night had been an utter disaster, but now that I thought about it, maybe this was the root of the I.S.'s dislike for me.
Not only had we shown them up by finding the missing girl, but we had tagged the undead vamp who had kidnapped her, too.

The faint sounds of Ceri's steps crossing the tree-hidden road drifted through the slatted windows, and I sat up. Ivy was downstairs with her computer and spreadsheets, trying to use logic to find Kisten's murderer. She had gone very quiet at the sight of my complexion amulet, her tight face telling me she was not ready to talk. I knew better than to push her. If she was here, then we were doing okay for now. Jenks was with Matalina and the kids, avoiding the gargoyle. The church was quiet with the three of us doing our separate things. Peaceful.

I heard Ceri come in and call to Ivy, and I rose to pretend to dust the shelves. A fast skittering on the stairs turned into Jenks's cat, bounding in and sliding to a stop when it realized I was up here, standing with her tail crooked and staring at me with black eyes.

“Hey, Rex,” I said, and the cat's tail bristled. “What?” I snapped, and the stupid feline darted back out the door. There was a feminine murmur of surprise in the stairway, and I smiled.

Ceri's light steps on the stairs grew loud, and chalk in hand, I looked at the unfinished ash floor to decide how big a circle I wanted to draw. The door to the stair creaked, and I turned, smiling. “Find a ring?” I asked, and she smiled as she held up a flat ring of gray metal. “Found it in Keasley's toolbox,” she said, handing it over.

“Thanks,” I said, feeling the weight of it in my palm. Rain glistened on her fair hair and spotted her shirt, and I felt guilty for making her come up here. “Really. Thank you. I wouldn't even try this if you weren't helping me.”

Her green eyes glinted in amusement in the light from the candles, and something about her tonight flipped my warning flags up. It was as if she was up to something. Her voice was casual, but my instincts had been pinged, and I was watching her.

“I'm going to set a circle,” I said over the hush of rain. “Do you want to be in or out of it?”

She hesitated as if to tell me I wouldn't need a circle, then nodded, probably remembering the first time she had taught me how to scribe a
demon calling circle and my aura had unexpectedly pooled out. “In,” she said, and when she stood to move, I gestured for her to stay. I would draw it right around the couch she had gone to sit on.

“You're fine there,” I said, starting my circle a foot inside the hexagonal room's walls. My hair made a red curtain between us, and the feeling of wrongness coming from her strengthened. The hiss of the chalk mixed with the rain, and the breeze slipping past the open slats was chill. I couldn't shake the feeling that there was something she wasn't telling me. Finished, I stood straight and blew my hair out of my way. I met her gaze and narrowed my eyes in challenge. Sure enough, she glanced away.

My heart did a little flip-flop of fear. I wasn't going to do another charm Ceri taught me unless I knew exactly what it was
before
I did it. Finding out belatedly that the spells I'd used to go wolf and turn Jenks human-size were actually curses had been lesson enough.

“This isn't a normal charm, is it,” I stated, and she looked up.

“No.”

I sighed, slumping to sit backward in the folding chair. My gaze went to the chalk in my hand, and I set it on the green marble top of the dresser with a tap. “It's demonic, isn't it?”

She nodded. “There is no smut for this one,” she offered. “You're not changing reality, you're just pulling on a line. It's similar to how you almost threw raw energy at Ivy. If you can do that, and pull it back into you without hurting yourself as you did, then you should be able to do this….”

Her sentence trailed off at the end, and I flexed my fingers, remembering the pain had lasted only a moment before vanishing in the chaos that had followed. Demon magic.
Damn it back to the Turn.

“You might not be able to do it,” she said, sounding as if she hoped I couldn't. “I simply want to know, and if you can, then you have something that might save your life someday.”

My lips pressed together as I thought about it. “No smut?”

She shook her head. “Nothing. You're just modifying energy, not changing reality.”

I was tempted, but there was still something she wasn't telling me. I could see it in her subtle motions, my runner training screaming at me. I thought of Quen on his deathbed, and why Ceri was sitting here in my damp belfry instead of with him. It made no sense. Unless…“You want to know if I can do this so you can tell Quen. That's it, isn't it?”

Ceri actually flushed, and a pulse of fear slid through me, pulling me straight. “I shouldn't be able to, should I,” I demanded, and when she shook her head my gut twisted. “What in hell did Trent's dad do to me?” I said, panicked, and her eyes flashed.

“Rachel, stop,” she said, rising and coming to me with the scent of damp silk. “Trent's father didn't do anything but keep you alive. You are you.”

Her hands hesitated a bare second before taking mine, but I saw it and the fear slid deeper. “You are the same person you were when your mother birthed you,” Ceri said firmly. “And if you can do a magic that no other witch can do, then you should become skilled in it so you can go where others fail. Great power does not corrupt a person, it only brings their true self into the light, and Rachel, you are a good person.”

I pulled away from her, and she took a guilty step back. Mistrust, ugly and unwelcome, trickled through me, and I vowed to purge it right now. I couldn't lose her as a friend. I couldn't. “Promise me you won't tell Quen,” I said. She hesitated, and I added, “Please, Ceri. If I'm different, I don't want anyone to know. Let me tell who I want, if I want. Please. Otherwise, I'm just…a pawn in someone else's game.”

Looking miserable, she clasped her hands before her, and then slowly she nodded. “I will tell no one,” she whispered.

Immediately my tension dropped to my gut like lead. I looked at the dresser top where the charm's tools were assembled, and with a tired regret for the lost chance that I could ever live a normal life, I stood. My reflection in the age-spotted mirror above the dresser stared back at me. I took a slow breath. “Do you want to show me first?”

Ceri moved so I could see her reflection behind me. “I can't do it, Rachel.”

Swell.

It was as if a door had closed behind me. Before me was a great blackness, but it was wide and sweeping, and I had to believe that somewhere in my future was a happy ending.
This is who I am
, I thought with an overpowering sensation of finality. Wiping my hands on my jeans, I resolutely went to the dresser.
Time to find out what I can do.

The candle on the dresser was reflected in the mirror, making two. Set to the side was the chalk, the metal disk, a spool of twine, a finger stick, and a vial of grapeseed oil. I had my ley line textbook there, as well, open to the dozen blank pages at the back for notes. At the top of one was a messy
LIGHT CHARM BY CERI
and the pictorial representations of the hand movements and phonetically spelled Latin that went along with them. I knew Ceri was disgusted that I didn't know enough Latin to read it normally, but I'd been focusing my attention on other things for the last few years—and I didn't expect that to change. But a class in hand gestures might have been in order.

“Well, then,” Ceri said as she nervously eased up behind me. I eyed her candlelit reflection in the mirror, wondering how she was going to teach me a charm she couldn't do herself. The scent of cinnamon and silk mixed with the bayberry candle and the scent of iron from the bell above us. That reminded me of the gargoyle, but he was still sleeping when I glanced up.

“We should tie your base ring up so we get a nice sphere instead of one half inside the dresser,” she added with a forced brightness that made my head hurt. “Once it's set, you can't touch it, or you'll break the spell.”

“Like any circle?” I guessed.

She nodded, blinking in surprise when she looked up and saw the gargoyle. “Is that…,” she stammered, her expression showing wonder.

“It's a gargoyle,” I finished for her. “He showed up yesterday. Jenks is ticked, but all he does is sleep.” I hesitated. “Should we do this somewhere else?”