The Queen's Lady (66 page)

“N
o! It is not fit for human consumption!” For most of his seventy years the renowned scholar Desiderius Erasmus had battled parochialism, intolerance, tyranny, and salt fish. Why, Honor thought with a sigh across the supper table, should today be different?

“No better than the slop they used to poison us with at the monastery!” Erasmus cried, his Latin vivid as always. He poked the plate away from him using one finger as if to protect the other digits from contamination.

His housekeeper, a thick-waisted, formidable daughter of the Black Forest with a face like a pork chop, stood glaring over him, the mortal sin of murder simmering in her eyes. “That’s good pike, you old fart. A whole pfennig I saved on it! Anyway, what can you expect with the pittance you give me for marketing?” Her German, while every bit as vivid as her master’s Latin, was wasted on him. For four years the two had lived in the same house as if in some cell of the Tower of Babel; neither understood a word the other said.

“You thought you could hoodwink me, didn’t you? Hide the putrid stuff under one of your noxious sauces. Woman, you underestimate
this
!” he crowed, tapping his nose as he thrust it triumphantly in the air. It was a long, pointed nose, a sharp triangle, and Honor had to laugh at the way it transformed his pale, upturned face into a sundial.

“It’s alright, Marthe,” Honor intervened, lifting the offensive dish from Erasmus’s place. “We’ll send it over to the Frobens. Pieter will love it.”

Honor sympathized with Erasmus, for Marthe’s cooking was abysmal and her housekeeping just a step above slovenly. Her continued employment with him was a testament to his generous nature; she had come with the house and had no place else to go. “Like you and me,” Erasmus had once told Honor with the sigh of self-pity he had perfected to elegance, “the woman is a refugee. From different cities each of us fled to Freiburg, seeking sanctuary from the savagery of the Protestants.”

“Though I doubt, sir,” Honor had teased him then, “that she had first rejected invitations from the King of France, Mary of Hungary, and Sigismund of Poland, all begging her to make her home with them.”

He had fluttered a hand disdainfully. “To be a puppet at their courts, you mean.” Pretentiousness was not among Erasmus’s many foibles. He had finally accepted the modest house in Freiburg, placed at his disposal by his friend King Ferdinand, the Emperor Charles’s brother, mainly because the climate agreed with his delicate health.

Marthe snatched up the plate of fish. “Starve, then, you miserly bag of bones!” she shouted in German.

Not understanding, Erasmus huffed in Latin, “I’ll
starve
before I eat such dregs!”

Honor looked from frazzled housekeeper to pouting academic. It was difficult to know to which unlikely creature she owed more. Though he had known Honor only through her letters, the fastidious old bachelor had taken her in, a penniless, pregnant woman with a hungry boy in tow, and had asked no questions. And when she finally came to explain that she had been hunted out of England as a criminal against church and state, Erasmus, who had made non-partisanship an iron principle of his life, merely nodded, offering no recriminations. But Marthe had a strong claim on her too, for it was thanks to her calm midwifery six months ago that Honor, after a difficult labor, had been safely delivered of a healthy daughter.

“Just bring fruit, please, Marthe,” she said, entreating peace. “We’ll have it in the garden. And bring Isabel out too, if she’s awake.” Grudgingly, Marthe accepted Honor’s arbitration and flounced into the kitchen.

“Did you really have to eat slop in the monastery?” Honor asked with a smile as she and Erasmus rose. They spoke in Latin, for although Erasmus had once taught at Cambridge—a stint, he assured her, that he had barely endured, aghast as he was at the filth of English houses, and depressed as he became at the backwardness of English letters—Erasmus knew no more than a smattering of the English language.

“Gray salt fish, day in, day out,” he answered. “And around us, moldy walls and stinking privies. And a flogging for any infringement of the myriad rules.” He shuddered. “Thus are those of callow and tender years disfigured under the pretext of religion.”

“Whyever did you stay?”

“As an orphan I was shunted into the monastic life. Once there, and finding a friend or two to lighten my misery, I made the hideous mistake of taking the vows. It was a coarse and frigid life,” he concluded mournfully, and tugged his heavy furred robe closer to his throat, though the evening was balmy.

They were strolling arm in arm into the small walled garden, moving slowly, the pace ordained both by Erasmus’s arthritic joints and by a mutual wish to savor the golden, early evening light. It gilded everything—the broad leaves of the chestnut tree, the cherry blossoms floating down from frothed branches, the fiery red flowers on the climbing beans.

“Ah,” Erasmus smiled as they came to a table where a canvas pouch lay, “Pieter has been feeding the birds again.”

“And left the seed out. Again.”

“No matter. See? They have come for their supper.” He tugged open the pouch’s drawstring and scattered a handful of seed. Birds fluttered out of branches and drifted down around their feet. “Is he staying at Froben’s again tonight?”

“Yes.” Honor smiled. Pieter, now fluent in German, had become entranced with the printing press at the home of Erasmus’s publisher and his wife. “And it gets harder to scrub the ink off him each time he comes home. Oh, I haven’t told you yet. They’ve offered to take him on as an apprentice.”

“Ah, that’s good,” Erasmus said. “He’s happy there.”

“Happy? He’s ecstatic. He talks of nothing but tympans and friskets. And he’s positively poetic when he sighs to me of half Gothic and Italic type styles.”

Erasmus chuckled. “Just like young Froben’s father. Revolutionized the trade. If I did not love that man for introducing Roman type, I positively bless his memory for making my books small and inexpensive. Even a baker’s son can afford them. Do you know, when I was a boy—before the printing press—it took twenty-five sheepskins to make enough parchment for a two hundred page text. A fortune! And a scribe needed five months to copy it out.”

They sat down together on a bench under the cherry tree. Erasmus flung out another handful of seed.

Honor watched the birds peck in the grass between the flat stones. “You love this place, don’t you? This garden where cardinals and princes and learned men come to visit you.”

“Most of them strangers, and too many of them fools,” he said, eyes twinkling. “But yes, this garden is my blessing. My favorite spot on earth.”

“And mine,” she said softly. “An island of sanity in a world gone mad.” She stretched her legs and her neck, cramped after the afternoon spent at the desk where she was helping Erasmus compile a new edition of his Latin
Adages
. She took a deep breath of the blossom-fragrant air. She had found contentment here. Isabel was her joy. Pieter was thriving. And the sorrow over Thornleigh’s death she was trying with all her will to put away, as friends here told her she must. She tried to imagine grief one day coming to an end, like a wound finally run dry of blood. But still, some nights, the flow was impossible to stanch, and came in hemorrhaging tears. However, she was trying to force herself to think of the future for her daughter’s sake. To imagine, one day, even going back to England. So far, she had not even written home. Adam, she knew, would be well taken care of by his aunt. For now, it was safer for him, for everyone, if they knew nothing of her whereabouts. Yes, here she’d found security and comfort and, in assisting Erasmus, fulfilling work. Why not peace, then? She rubbed her neck, evading her own question, for she knew that, quite apart from missing Thornleigh every hour of every day, the answer had to do with Sir Thomas. And she did not want to think about Sir Thomas.

“Epicurus would have us spend all our days in gardens,” Erasmus was saying.

Honor smiled. “But only with friends. And definitely no fools.”

“Then on both scores I am blessed, my dear, since your arrival,” he said, patting her hand.

She was moved. “Sir, you honor me.”

“Most fitting,” he chuckled, “since you are Honor itself.”

She leaned back against the tree trunk. Somewhere, far beyond the ivied walls, a woman was singing a lullaby. “Your Garden of Eden,” she murmured.

He frowned. “Oh, I hope not. That garden of the Old Testament is a terrifying place. A scene of suspicion and dread, of deceit and fury. And of no turning back. It makes me quite nervous,” he said seriously, and Honor laughed. “No,” Erasmus said with a smile, “I prefer a quieter garden. Something like More’s setting for his
Utopia
is the ideal. His affable storyteller, Raphael, sat on a bench much like this one, I imagine.”

Honor ran her fingers along the stone seat. Memories flooded back, despite her will to dam them. “And I first read that tale sitting on a bench under Sir Thomas’s own oak trees by his pond,” she said.

“That is charming.” But Erasmus’s smile had already faded at his own inadvertent injection of More’s name. These days, they both avoided speaking of him. The news from England was too distressing.

For thirteen months More had been a prisoner in the Tower of London. The day after Honor had arrived in Freiburg, Erasmus had told her all he knew about it. They had been sitting over dinner in this very garden.

“More has refused to swear some reprehensible oath,” Erasmus had explained. “The King is calling himself Supreme Head of the Church in England—vanity of vanities!—and Secretary Cromwell has decreed that every man in the kingdom must swear to acknowledge him as such. But More will not do it.” He had irritably batted away a fruit fly as if it represented the tyranny of monarchs. “Now More and Bishop Fisher are being held without trial, and accused of misprision of treason, whatever that odious phrase means.”

Honor had tried to clamp down her shock at the news. “It means criminal resistance to the government short of conspiracy or rebellion,” she had explained, as steadily as she could. “The penalty is imprisonment at the pleasure of the King.”

“A shameful king!” Erasmus had said with feeling. “More has served that prideful man for almost twenty years.”

Honor had struggled to grasp the scope of Cromwell’s gambit. She had suggested this oath to him only as a means of quieting Sir Thomas. But the whole realm made to swear?—it was extraordinary. No, she thought, she should have anticipated Cromwell’s thoroughness, she who knew his zeal for efficiency. But Sir Thomas’s response had been even more extraordinary. Who could have foreseen it? Indignation had risen in her, sudden and sharp, but unlike Erasmus’s hers was not directed at the King. “Why would he take such a reckless stand?” she had said. “How can he be so foolish?”

Erasmus had shrugged. “More is a man of passions.”

And then, one drizzly day in November just after Isabel was born, the house in Freiburg had received a further shocking report. Cromwell and King Henry had pushed another Act through Parliament, a new Treason Act. In a stroke, this statute made it high treason to deny the King any of his titles, or to speak or write a word against him. And the penalty for high treason was death.

“How can Englishmen allow it?” Honor had cried. “Making treason out of words alone.”

“Still, such words must be
written or spoken
for a man to be in jeopardy, and if I understand this correctly,” Erasmus had said, tapping the letter from a former student in England, “More has refused to say
why
he will not take the Oath. As long as he says nothing, it seems he is safe. They cannot execute a man for silence.”

After that, they had heard no further news from England until two weeks ago, the first of May. Four Carthusian monks had been executed for refusing the Oath. And Sir Thomas More still lay in the Tower.

From the kitchen came the clang of pots, and the birds foraging in the garden rose in a cloud and hovered in an undulating layer like a shaken blanket, waiting for what would follow, crisis or calm. The blanket broke apart, some birds fluttering again to the ground and some, too timid, spiraling into the cherry tree. Petals drifted down on Honor and Erasmus.

Erasmus spoke up brightly as if to dispel the gloom he had invoked with More’s name. “Epicurus’s school in Athens was called The Garden, you know. And unlike Plato’s Academy and Aristotle’s Lyceum he admitted women students. Yes,” he said, brushing petals from his lap, “Epicurus’s vision is a fine one.”

Honor spelled out that vision with mock earnestness, like a pupil reciting a lesson. “Practice of all the virtues, from which pleasure is inseparable. A simple life, quiet and withdrawn, where philosophy becomes the art of living, and where human relationships find their highest expression in friendship.”

He smiled. “You have been reading your Lucretius.”

“
Your
Lucretius, sir, for I never read his philosophy until now. Your library holds treasures that Sir Thomas’s and the Queen’s did not.”

Erasmus folded his arms contentedly and closed his eyes against the slanting, golden rays. “Epicurus is a perfect example of the immortality men enjoy through books. For what would we know of Epicurus’s thought without his student Lucretius’s great poem,
On the Nature of Things
?”

“That’s the only immortality available, according to Lucretius,” Honor teased. From the bench she picked up a cherry blossom, freckled with decay, and twirled it in her fingers, musing. “That dread of God’s wrath in Eden that you spoke of—it’s really the dread of death, it seems to me.”

“Hmmm,” he murmured, considering the idea.

“A hard punishment, don’t you think, that God should turn his wrath on man simply for tasting of the tree of knowledge? Lucretius suggests that knowledge can dispel the fear of death. If we can understand that the soul dissolves with the body, he says, and that nothing of us exists after, then death is nothing to us.”

“So he did,” Erasmus nodded dreamily, the master mildly encouraging the student. “The very idea of
not existing
instills the fear that he considered to be the cause of all the passions that disorder men’s lives.”