The Rain (26 page)

In a weird way, I wished he hadn’t. For as long as you couldn’t see that silent kid, she was just a thing. What was under the plastic . . . it broke my heart.

Tearstains on her cheeks. I’d imagined a mini female Darius Spratt, but she was beautiful. A solemn-faced, sad kid. An Asian kid, maybe Indian? And beautiful, so beautiful. A skinny kid in
leggings and a sun-dress, with a mop-top of matted curls, a little bow on a clip half buried in them. Her face, it was studded with tiny scars, tiny scabby scratches.

‘I think she was in a car crash,’ said Darius.

The car. My driving. She must have been terrified.

The kid shuffled closer to him.

‘There was glass, little bits of it, in her hair,’ he said, ‘but I think we got it all out.’

Really? It didn’t look like her hair had been brushed for a week.

The kid was looking up at Darius. Seemed like maybe she was older than I thought too – not six or seven, but eight or maybe even nine? Maybe. Maybe not. She scratched at her face, little
fingers scab-hunting.

‘Don’t,’ I said. ‘You’ll get scars.’

She wouldn’t look at me. (But she did stop scratching.)

‘I think she’s a bit scared of you,’ said Darius.

Huh?!
Kids LOVED me.

‘I mean, you sort of shout a lot,’ he said.

I felt so terrible I could have burst into tears on the spot . . . and that kid, she’d wet herself. You could see it on her leggings.

‘She needs a change of clothes,’ I said.

I heard my own voice . . . It sounded dead and cold – when what was in my heart so wasn’t. What was in my heart, it was red and hot and alive and it hurt so bad for that little
kid.

‘We haven’t got anything,’ said Darius.

I took off my hoodie for her – the kid shied away. I nudged Darius, who offered his sweatshirt.

The kid just stood there . . . then she kind of wriggled a tiny bit, frowning.

Aaaah!
I
got it! So, old enough to be bothered about being seen in the nud? How old were kids when they started to be bothered about that? Dan was twelve now and he still didn’t
seem to care sometimes . . . but he was a boy and my brother and a show-off (when he felt like it). So when had I started being bothered about things like that?

Darius seemed a bit awkward himself; he folded his lanky arms about his lanky chest.

‘Turn round,’ I said to him.

We turned away to give the kid some privacy.

‘Tell her it’s OK,’ I said. ‘We won’t look.’

‘Get changed,’ he told the kid.

Out of the corner of my eye, when she had done, I saw her nudge him and hand him her clothes. I took them off him and hung them from the table with plant pots for pegs.

I turned round. You could see the kid didn’t like that one bit, me touching her stuff.

‘It’s OK,’ I said. ‘We’ll get them nice and dry . . .’

The kid in the Star Wars sweatshirt looked away from me. Not like I wasn’t there . . . like she didn’t want me to be there.

OW. And Darling seemed to prefer her to me? Yeah. Nicer to have someone quiet who pets you and gives you treats than a shouty ogre who drags you about all over the place and has thrown you into
the back of the car. But I could win that kid round . . . like I said, kids LOVE me. I could be great with them . . . when I wanted to be . . . so: I saw a massive roll of that stuff they cover
plants with – fleece, it’s called, like my mum puts on her most delicate, precious plants in winter. Right. I ripped off massive armfuls of the stuff.

‘I’m gonna make you a nest,’ I told her.

She edged up against Darius. It was going to be hard work, but I WAS going to win her round. I chattered on – quietly – to the kid while I assembled a nest, telling her all about my
brother Dan and how he could sleep anywhere because he always built himself a little nest just like Fluffysnuggles – who was safe in his bed and fast asleep already (I added, quickly, because
really I’d totally forgotten about him and had left him in the car). I told her how maybe we could build a little nest for Darling too, thinking that was bound to get her interested. It
didn’t, but I went ahead and made one anyway, chattering on about how maybe Darling would like a bedtime story and shall we tell her one and which one shall we tell her? I even put pretty
pots of flowers around the nests.

NOTHING. The kid still wouldn’t look at me; the kid still wouldn’t say a word.

‘So maybe Darius would like a story too?’ I said.

‘Hn,’ said Darius.

I eyeballed him viciously and he came and sat down next to the nest. I sat down too, trying to ignore the waft of stink now his pits were fully exposed.

(WHOA – NO, NO, NO – WHOA: NO. NO WAY. NO. If Leonie was still alive and if mobiles still worked, I would have texted her immediately to tell her the freaky animaly sweat thing was
true – or not; the horrific, sinister enchantment of the Spratt’s pits had to fall into the category of things that were TOO weird and TOO disgusting to tell to anyone, even your best
friend.)

‘It’s bedtime,’ he told her.

She got into the nest and put Darling down in hers. Whitby tried to muscle in on the whole snuggly-bed thing, but I pulled him back and he flumped down on the floor next to me. At least someone
liked me.

I chose
Rumpelstiltskin
. I don’t know why, because I could hardly remember it, so I kind of made it up a bit. The miller’s daughter became a princess and nothing too
horrible happened to anyone – including Rumpelstiltskin, who said he was sorry and got taken on as a nanny because although he had seemed horrible to begin with and shouted a lot he was
actually really REALLY nice and very VERY good with children.

When I got to the end I had a total Ruby genius moment.

‘Well, now, I wonder what your name is?’ I said.

I reeled off the name of every Asian girl I knew, then any old name at all: crazy names, pretty names, boys’ names, pets’ names . . . i.e. the kind of thing that would have any other
kid in stitches – or at least force them to squeal out, ‘No! I’m not Malcolm!’ – or whatever. Even Darius joined in a bit, starting with ‘Thingy?’ and
‘Whatsit?’ and then chucking in weirdy names that sounded pretty much like the sort of fantasy-hero characters Dan gibbered on about; ‘Are you Thorgarella, daughter of
Kriksor?’, that kind of thing.

Finally . . .

‘You know what?’ I said. ‘Until we know your name, I think we should just call you . . . ‘

‘Rumpelstiltskin,’ muttered Darius.

I slapped him – then smiled sweetly to make it look playful, because the kid was there.

‘Princess,’ I said.

I was pretty sure it couldn’t have been her name, but I saw her little nose twitch and the tiniest of tiny nearly-a-smile smiles flicker about her lips.

‘Night, night, Princess and Darling,’ I said, and blew them both kisses.

‘Go to sleep,’ instructed Darius.

The kid tucked herself up in the fleece; Darling – the traitor – nestled in with her.

If this all sounds kind of sweet to you, it really wasn’t.

I felt awful. Really, really awful. That kid . . . that kid being like that, not being able to speak . . . in a weird kind of way it got to me as bad as anything I’d seen – and it
made me wonder what she’d seen, and what had happened to her, because I sort of had the feeling that she could speak, but that whatever had happened was so hideous it had turned her mute. And
. . . you know what else? It made me think of Simon, of all those years he’d spent trying to be sweet to me and me giving him back nothing but a snarl, not wanting to have anything to do with
him. I’d had – what – not even an hour of that from a kid I didn’t even know and I felt useless and frustrated and exhausted. And very, very sad.

So I couldn’t leave it there, could I? I insisted we sing. Darius said he didn’t want to do that. The kid – obviously – didn’t say anything, but you could tell she
didn’t want to either. So I sang.

Did I say already? I can’t sing.

As soon as I’d got the first warbling word out, I knew I’d made yet another horrible mistake. Not because of the not being able to sing, but because the song was the song my mum sang
to me when I was little, the one she wouldn’t sing that night when she sat outside the door: ‘Dream a Little Dream of Me’. It was the song her mum had sung to her when she was
little, that’s what she always said. (My mum, she used to change the ‘me’ to ‘Ruby’ . . . and like the whole thing with the fairies at the holy well, it took years
before I realised the truth: the song wasn’t actually about
me
.)

Every lovely, pretty thing in it felt wrong:

The next bit is supposed to be really sweet, about how you’ll dream of the people you love. It doesn’t say anything about ‘EVEN THOUGH THEY’RE PROBABLY
DEAD’. I couldn’t go on. Not because I was worried the kid would dream about me (or that Darius Spratt would), but because I got all choked silent. I wanted my mum.

Genius, Ruby. You really are a genius.

The killer rain applauded me, drumming down harder on that thin plastic roof. Now everyone definitely for sure felt like rubbish; you could just tell. The kid had shut her eyes. She’d shut
them like all kids shut them when they’re just pretending to be asleep. Like: go away. A lonely little tear squeezed out between her eyelashes.

Me and Darius, we divided up the rest of the fleece and wrapped ourselves in it (SEPARATELY). It wasn’t cold, not really, but the fleece was comforting. There was this kind of awkward few
seconds about where we were going to sleep – well, there was for me – but Darius just cleared himself a space among the flowerpots and lay down on one of the long table things, so I
cleared myself a space on the table on the other side of the walkway. I made a little wall of plants so I wouldn’t actually have to look at him, but I felt like I really wanted to talk, to
talk like I’d talk to Leonie, or how I did with my mum sometimes, before Henry was born. To just pour my heart out . . . but no words would come. The rain died down and we lay in the
silence.

‘It’s a shame it’s not a zombie attack, isn’t it?’ said Darius, after a while.

‘
Excuse me?
’

‘You know, because if it was zombies – or vampires – we’d sort of know what to do, wouldn’t we? Well,
I
would.’

‘
I
would too,’ I said.

He was right. We would have known exactly what to do. If only it was that simple.

‘Or even aliens,’ said Darius after a bit. ‘Then we’d just have to locate the mother ship and destroy it. Although I suppose the bacterium is an alien. A very small
one.’

‘They don’t know it’s that space-bug thing,’ I said. ‘Not for sure.’

‘Yeah they do,’ said Darius.

Rain fell steadily on the roof, millions of little wiggly micro-murderers sliding down the plastic.

‘Still, I suppose you’ve got to look on the bright side,’ said the Spratt.

‘
What
. . . bright . . . side?’

The only – THE ONLY – thing I could think of was . . . that phone bill under my bed? That premium rate rip-off line I called? I am NEVER going to get into trouble for it. Somehow, it
didn’t exactly seem like a bright side.

‘No more school,’ said Darius.

‘No exams!’ I said. Now
that
was good. First time that had occurred to me. Every cloud’s got a silver lining. Ha ha ha ha ha.

‘I didn’t mean that. I was looking forward to them,’ said Darius Spratt.

DO YOU SEE? DO YOU SEE WHAT KIND OF A FREAK I WAS STUCK WITH? I sat up so I could get a better look at it too, the Darius freak, but it was too dark to make out anything more than the rough
shape of it.

‘You’re kidding me, right?’ I spoke at the shape.

‘No. I’ve worked hard for two years for those exams. I was going to do civil engineering at uni.’

‘Wow,’ I said, and laid back down. ‘Great. That’s just great.’ I didn’t actually know what civil engineering was, but honestly . . .

‘See: that’s what I mean about school,’ said Darius Spratt.

‘Huh?’

‘It’s full of people like you, isn’t it? Clueless bullies.’

‘
What?!
’

‘Well, you’re more of a snob,’ he said, and yawned. He ACTUALLY yawned.

‘
Excuse me?!
I’m not a snob!’

‘Yeah you are. You and your mates. You’re, like, sooo super-cool, aren’t you? Urh. That Caspar kid; he thinks he’s James Dean or something.’

I didn’t know who James Dean was either, but I did not like the sound of that. I sat back up to glower at the shadowy blob of the freak in the darkness.

‘My
mates
are all dead, Darius Spratt. So’s my mum. So’s my stepdad. So’s my little baby brother. So is . . .
my boyfriend
, Caspar.’ I’d
never called him that, ‘my boyfriend’. I’d never had the chance to. I caught my breath. ‘Probably.’

‘Yeah, everyone’s dead,’ he mumbled sleepily.

He rolled over and fell asleep . . . or at least I think he did, but he could have just been doing some more advanced version of the pretending-to-be-asleep thing.

I lay back down, my brain buzzing, fizzing,
infected
with rage and sadness.

I dreamed about my mum.

Does that happen to you? You dream about the people who have died – only they’re still alive, and everything is lovely, or at least normal. And then you wake up, and you wonder how
it can be that you saw them, that you heard them, that you touched them . . . They were there, and now they are gone again. And realising that makes the hurt stab knife-sharp. I truly don’t
know what is worse: the nightmares or those dreams.

When I woke up and realised it was a dream, it made me sob. I struggled out of my tangle of fleece. The others were still asleep: Darling with Princess; Whitby, also a traitor, had crept over
under Darius’s table (probably attracted by the stink). I got up and – truth? I checked on Darius Spratt. I just looked, like you can’t help but look at a person sleeping.