comforting in the darkness, easing the
chaotic beating of her heart.
“I don’t want to be dreaming,” she
whispered. “I want you to be real.”
“I assure you I’m real, my gel,” he
said.
He was close enough now that his
warm breath sent thrilling quivers down
her spine. Within moments he was
stretched out beside her, removing her
shift. His hand roamed over her body
awakening the part of her only Thomas
had been able to reach.
“Why do you taunt me? I’m so very
sorry — ”
His fingertip stopped her from
voicing her concerns. “Don’t speak of it.
It is done and I am here. You are in my
blood,” he insisted huskily. “I should
never have left you.”
She sighed, rolling her head back,
allowing him access to her neck. “Now I
know this is a dream.”
“I assure you I am here — with you
— in this bed. Quite a fine bed it is, too
— with you in it.” His lips brushed her
forehead, his hands smoothed hair away
from her face. Tingling sensations
awakened her nerve endings and
everywhere his hands crept across her
body. She arched toward him, writhing
closer, wrapping her leg around his
waist, aching for him to make her his, to
erase the worry that someone might
come between them and ruin their union
before it had even started.
Was it wrong to think this way?
Was she beyond wanton?
His fingers curled in her hair as he
kissed her mouth. His lips were clean
shaven, smooth, persistent. She opened
her mouth, welcoming his tongue, the
dueling clash that fired her insides into
molten lava. Her heart beat a wild
staccato pulse as he suckled first one
breast, then another, bathing her in
kisses.
She wanted him, ached for the
security being his wife would provide.
He was as solid as he was real and she
raked her nails across his back to mark
him as her own. What a treacherous
woman she’d become. How vile and
low she was, to desire his complete
manhood.
“I prayed you would come,” she
whispered. “You don’t know how much
I have prayed for it.”
“Perhaps not,” he said, kissing her
lips. “But you could spend a lifetime
showing me.”
Oh God, she could not stop wanting
him if she tried. Her desire threatened to
swallow her whole and she was at a
loss as to understand why. Because of it,
a burst of decency flooded over her.
What she was doing went against
everything she believed in. She hated
lies as much as she hated being lied to.
Though she desperately needed to make
sure Percy accepted her child, she could
not dupe this wonderful man who’d
given her more than she’d ever dared to
hope for.
“Stop,” she said, wrenching her
lips free from his. “There are so many
things you do not know, so many things I
must tell you.”
He laughed, burrowing his head
into her neck like a rooting child. “I
know all I need to know.”
“Stop,” she pleaded. “You must
listen. We cannot do this. I must tell you
— ”
“Tell me what?”
“I’m not who you think I am,” she
said.
She focused upon his face in the
darkness but his body communicated
what he did not say. He pressed his
arousal against her, teasing her, moving
slowly, heightening her desire for him.
“You’re my wife,” he whispered.
“That’s enough.”
“Yes. Yes, but … ” she could not
think of the words to finish her sentence.
He’d entered her, slipping inside her
with silky smooth grace. Fire engulfed
her, and with each thrust, he stirred her
to move with him, for him.
“I must tell you … ” She moaned
again as he rocked slow, ratcheting up
her need, forcing her to relinquish her
body, her will, her spirit, giving
everything to Percy, her heart, her soul.
Nothing existed but his touch, his voice,
the musculature of his body molding,
grinding, satisfying. She explored his
toned flesh with eager hands and
moaned, again aching more than ever for
the ecstasy he brought her. Together,
they were bound by primal elements,
man, woman. With each stroke and
rhythmic
drive
of
Percy’s
hips,
Constance shot to the stars, higher than
she’d ever dreamed possible.
Yes, she thought. This
was
a dream.
It had to be. Only a duke was not
normally part of her dreams, but a rogue
who’d taken her heart and soul by night.
• • •
her sleep. Morning light flickered
through the drawn curtains, forcing
Constance to open her eyes, however
much it pained her. A movement caught
her attention. Seeing she’d finally
awakened, Mrs. Mortimer stood over
her, arms crossed, brows arching
quizzically.
“You’re a lazy one this fine
morning. I thought I’d never get you up in
time to breakfast with your husband.”
Constance bolted upward. “My
husband?”
“Lord Stanton, of course. I mean,
His Grace.”
“His Grace?”
Morty covered her mouth. “Oh,
dear! You don’t remember, do you?”
Eyes blurry, her head beginning to
throb as she remembered vaguely the
dream that wasn’t a dream and the
reasons Percy would have risen to his
current status. Constance’s attention
riveted to Mrs. Mortimer. “Percy’s
father
is
dead.” It was a statement, not a
question.
Fluffing up the pillows behind her,
Morty answered. “’Tis a sad state of
affairs, Constance. Jeffers informed me
about His Grace’s passing. He also told
me the duke returned during the night and
wishes for you to join him posthaste.”
“He wishes to see me?” she
exclaimed, laughing at the absurdity.
He’d done more than see her. He’d spent
the entire night exploring her body in this
very bed.
“You are the parrot today, my dear.
I would think a smile might suggest in
some small way you’re excited to see
the man you married. After all, he’s
going to be the father of your children,”
she emphasized with a smile tugging the
corner of her lips.
“Children?” Lord, she was going to
be sick. Her morning sickness had
subsided somewhat, but guilt, or was it
exhaustion, seemed to bring everything
up. She went to the sideboard and
splashed cold water over her face.
Toweling off, she gazed into the mirror,
noting the rings framing her eyes. She
frowned, disgusted with her image. She
wanted to look as beautiful as possible
for her husband today. Perhaps then,
when she told him about the baby, he
would find a way to forgive her.
“You look a fright, Constance.
Didn’t you get any sleep?”
She prayed Mrs. Mortimer could
not read her thoughts but that was always
a vain hope. “Why do you ask?”
Morty
laid
her
hands
upon
Constance’s shoulders and Constance
turned to face her dearest friend. “The
truth is under your eyes, my pet.”
If she only knew the truth. “I must
admit, I did not sleep much at all.”
“At least we agree on something
this morning,” she noted.
Would it hurt to tell Morty the
truth? She would be overjoyed to know
that their futures were secure.
“Well,” she clucked, “let’s put a
cool compress over your eyes.” Morty
guided her toward the bed. “Lie back
and lay still. I’ll see you to rights soon
enough. You’ll want to impress your
husband, not depress him after all he’s
been through.” She chortled and hummed
as she moved about the room.
No. It was better not to burden
Morty with the truth. Percy had suffered
enough. The death of his father, and his
new duties as the Duke of Blendingham,
were burdensome in and of themselves.
Not to mention strapping to himself a
wife on the cusp of scandal.
Constance placed a trembling hand
over her heart. Once she had led an
irreproachable life. No more. In just a
few
weeks,
she’d
become
unrecognizable.
Mrs. Mortimer sat down beside her
and placed a cool compress over her
eyes. “Darling, what has happened?”
Constance stared into the woman’s
middle-aged eyes, noting a mixture of
genuine love, admiration, and curiosity
reflected there. “How many years have
we known each other, Morty?”
The woman wrinkled her nose. “I’d
rather not count,” she said. “But every
one of them have been the best years of
my life.”
“I think of our first meeting often.
You were wearing a gray gown, which
completely hardened your eyes and
soured your skin.” She couldn’t help but
giggle.
“Oh!” she exclaimed. “The styles I
was forced to wear as a widow.” With a
wink, she added, “They were not
fashionable or flattering, to say the
least.”
Constance
giggled.
“But
they
enabled me to see you for who you
were,” she said.
“A bothersome nosey body?” she
asked, slinging her own words back at
her.
“No.” She sighed. “Never that.”
Silence drifted between them. Mrs.
Mortimer had never really spoken of her
husband openly, unless it was to discuss
the merits of marriage. She’d never had
any children of her own, which had
made her a perfect candidate to raise her
after her own mother’s death. But she
had dealt her a firm hand, sparing the
rod, lavishing her with love and
reassurance when her father had
recoiled from life. Throughout every
nuance of her life, Morty had been by
her side. She was her trusted confidant.
She’d been there to calm her when
nightmares had awakened her during the
night. The woman had been a godsend
and she’d been humbled beyond measure
when she’d agreed to accompany her to
Spain.
Constance hesitated to speak into
the great pause that seized the space
between them. “The day I met you was a
momentous day, Morty. You taught me
that no matter what fate places in your
path, life goes on. While you mourned
your husband, you found the courage to
live. You helped me accept the pain of
my mother’s death and my father’s
estrangement. You passed onto me a
strength that will guide me as I mother
my own children.”
Mrs. Mortimer stroked her hair, her
eyes brimming with tears. “You were as
skittish as a mouse, all ears, unkempt
hair, quick to take flight at the slightest
provocation. I thought I’d never make a
lady out of you.” She laughed. “Of
course, I never expected to be with you
this long, either. Now look at the two of
us. You’re married and expecting your
first child.” She sniffled. “I couldn’t be
prouder than if I was your real mother.”
“You are my mother,” she admitted.
“I would not be who I am today without
you.”
A tear slipped down Morty’s cheek
and her lip quivered slightly. She rose
from the bed in an attempt to regain
control of her composure.
“It’s been ages since you’ve been
this insufferable, Constance. What are
you trying to do? Distract me?” Was she
that transparent?
Constance sat up and rose from the
bed, suddenly bearing the weight of
every woman ever born. She placed her
fingertip on the clothing Morty selected
and worried her lower lip, before
disappearing behind a screen to change.
She had made a horrible mess of
her life, deserting her father and running
away to Spain only to be captured by
cutthroats. Falling in love with her
captor and then marrying a wealthy