Authors: Linda Lael Miller
A pang of guilt struck Wyatt, square in his middle, strong as the blow of a fist.
Rowdy had entrusted the town to him.
And there, still smoldering a little, was the proof that his brother's trust had been sorely misplaced.
A
LL DURING THE LAST
mile of the ride to the old Henson place, Wyatt knew he wouldn't find Paudeen there. It was something about the silence, undisturbed and longstanding. Contrary to the dime novels, the average outlaw was neither brave nor honorable, let alone heroic, but flat-out stupid and usually vicious. Still, even the idiots among them occasionally got things right.
Wexler and the other members of the posse, all of them still wet behind the ears, for all their bold confidence, were plainly disappointed when they drew up on the ridge Kitty had mentioned to look down on the homestead.
The roof of the house was caving in, and the barn had fallen long ago. Old wagon wheels, rotted harnesses and broken barrels littered the ground. Wyatt had a strange feeling, looking at it. He wanted to dismount, push up his sleeves, and set the place to rights.
He even imagined Sarah inside that tumbledown hut, walls and roof restored, and real glass in the windows, and himself chopping wood in the dooryard, Lonesome near at hand, too, playing tag with Owen.
He shook his head, but the pictures stuck in his mind.
“Damn,” Jody Wexler said. “They're gone.”
“They were never here,” Wyatt said, wondering if Kitty had sent him on a wild-goose chase, as a favor to Paudeen, or if she'd really been trying to help. With a woman like Kitty, practiced at playing situations to her best advantage, it was hard to know.
Wyatt reined his horse around to head back to Stone Creek. The town was unguarded, and there were three men to bury. Paudeen might be long gone, but then again, he could just be lying low up in the hills somewhere.
“You just going to give up?” Wexler asked, catching up with Wyatt and Sugarfoot on his own sure-footed pinto pony. The kid wore a blue corduroy jacket, and his hat was set at a jaunty angle. He'd been looking forward to wrangling outlaws, that was clear.
“We'll find them,” Wyatt said. “Maybe not today, though.”
“Me and the boys could go looking on our own,” the boy said.
“No,” Wyatt answered, a little sharply. “The last thing I want is to ride out and tell all your mamas that you're laid out on a slab at Doc's place because you ran into something you couldn't handle.” Paudeen and his men were no geniuses, having destroyed their own guns, as well as the jailhouse, in an effort to reclaim them. But they were hardened and bitter and probably drunked-up good, and they wouldn't hesitate to pick off five kids on cow ponies and field horses, likely to ride right into their midst.
Wexler sat up straighter in the saddle, clearly affronted. “I'm a fair hand with a gun,” he said. “And so are my friends.”
“If you're smart,” Wyatt said, feeling weary and a lot older than his thirty-five years, “you'll hang those guns up for good and live by your wits instead.”
Wexler's gaze dropped to the Colt on Wyatt's hip. “Like you did?”
“If I had my life to live over again, I'd do things differently,” Wyatt replied, and grinned a little, though it felt more like a grimace from the inside. Now
there
was an understatement, if he'd ever uttered one.
If.
What a useless, empty word that was.
“A man needs a gun out here,” Wexler insisted.
Wyatt wondered how long the kid had been shaving. A few years at most, if not a few months. Wexler and the others thought they were men, because they could shoot, swill whiskey and perform well upstairs in a whorehouse. In Wyatt's mind, being a man meant hard work, facing down trouble when it came, no matter how bad the odds were, loving one woman, protecting and providing for a family.
Once, though, his definition would have been about the same as young Jody's. Raise hell, chase women, and delude himself that he was safe in a dangerous world because he had a pistol on his hip and knew how to use it.
“I reckon hard experience will bring you around to my way of thinking, eventually,” Wyatt said. “I just hope you live long enough to figure out what really matters.”
“Rowdy wouldn't just let those outlaws ride free,” Jody protested, reddening up a little. It was meant as a jibe, and it found its mark, just as Kitty's remark about Sarah being more comfortable with lies than the truth had done. The thing about jibes was, they hurt, but they didn't do any lasting damage.
“Maybe not,” Wyatt agreed. “But he sure as hell wouldn't let you and your friends go off beating the brush for Paudeen on your own, either. If you want to be of some real help, Doc and I could use grave diggers right at the moment.”
Jody sighed. “We'll help,” he said, and Wyatt silently put a mark in a mental column, under
character.
“While you're digging,” Wyatt advised, “keep in mind that it was packing a gun that brought those men low.”
Grudgingly, Jody nodded. He didn't think death could happen to himâthough if challenged, he would have claimed that any fool knew it could. He was too young, too full of sap and piss and vinegar to truly understand that all that could stop with one bullet.
When they got back to Stone Creek, Wyatt led the way straight to Doc's house. He tried not to look at the ruins of the jail as he passed them, but the smell of burned wood was acrid in his nostrils and the place itself seemed to tug at him, demanding his attention.
The bodies were laid out in coffins, in Doc's office, all wearing donated clothes. Doc had stitched their eyelids down, and they all had a blue-gray pallor. Wyatt would have sworn they were breathing.
“Fast work building those caskets,” Wyatt remarked to Doc, who was signing papers at his cluttered desk, taking off his hat because he was in the presence of the dead. Wexler and the others, crowding in behind him, followed suit.
“I keep a few on hand out in the shed,” Doc answered, turning around, his smudged spectacles barely clinging to the tip of his long nose. He took in Jody Wexler and the boys. “Somebody sick?”
Jody and his chums gathered round the coffins, swallowing and silent, fidgeting with their hats.
“Nobody's sick, Doc,” Wyatt said. “I recruited them to dig graves.”
Doc nodded, huffed out a sigh. “Good,” he said. “I'm not up to the job myself, and most of the townsfolk are probably tucked up in their beds, spent from fighting the fire.” He turned to the boys. “Grave digging will pay a dollar apiece. You'll find shovels in my shed, and I'll show you where the holes ought to be.”
None of the boys spoke. They were staring at the stitched-up eyes and the hard, waxen skin of the dead men.
“Look your fill,” Wyatt told them quietly, after exchanging a glance with Doc. “That's what comes of living by the gun.”
Doc's glance slipped to Wyatt's .45, just as Jody's had earlier.
“Isn't there going to be a funeral?” one of Jody's friends asked. He was a redheaded kid, skinny and freckled, probably no older than Carl Justice. His name, if Wyatt recalled it correctly, was Clarence.
Doc shook his head. “If they've got folks, it'll take time to find them. We have to get them in the groundâfast.” He paused, looked the boys over with a benign expression of weary resignation in his eyes. He was probably thinking the same thing Wyatt was, that it would be a shame if these young fellas ended up in pine boxes before their time. “You get shovels and go on over to the churchyard and wait for me. I'll make arrangements at the livery stable for a wagon to haul these coffins, and then meet you.”
The boys nodded and trooped outside.
“They think they're a posse,” Wyatt said to Doc. The conversation had reminded him of the letter they'd found in Carl's pocket; he had yet to read it, what with all that had been going on of late. Now, he handed it over, unopened.
Doc accepted the missive, glanced at it, then set it aside before hoisting himself out his chair; Wyatt almost expected to hear his bones creak. “They're the future of this town, those young men. Good boys, all of them. I hope they'll pay some mind to what you said, but I don't reckon they will.”
“Seemed to bring them up short a little, seeing these bodies.”
“They've all seen death before, and plenty of itâmothers, fathers, sisters and brothersâbut as far as I know, nobody who got himself shot for nothing but too much whiskey and a hand of cards.”
Wyatt helped Doc center the lids over the coffins, nail them down. It was solemn work, but it had to be done. Doc chalked a number on two of the boxes, probably corresponding to the ones he'd inscribe on the back of the men's pictures, once the photographer had them developed. He wrote
Justice
on Carl's.
While the graves were being dug, under a high, hot and merciless Arizona sun, Doc sat in the shade of an oak tree, carved those same numbers into slabs of rough wood, using his pocket knife. He was determined to keep the bodies straight, in case kinfolks came to mourn.
Wyatt helped with the digging, rode back to Doc's place when it was finished, along with Jody and the boys. They loaded the coffins, one by one, and brought them to their final resting places. Carl's marker at least had a name on it; the other two men had only numbers.
It was, Wyatt thought, a sad way to wind up.
Once the coffins had been lowered, on slings of rope, into the ground, there was more shoveling to do. Doc stood by the whole time, retreating to the oak tree again, as soon as he'd made sure the markers were right, puffing on a pipe.
A few townspeople gathered, keeping their distance, but no words were said, so it wasn't a funeral.
The blisters on Wyatt's hands had broken open, with all the shoveling, and Doc said, “Come on back to the office. I'll put something on those sores. Hell of a thing if you got infected.”
Wyatt nodded. The skin on his hands burned like fire, but the heaviness in his heart was worse. Doc gave Jody and the boys a dollar each, as promised, and they headed straight for the Spit Bucket Saloon.
Doc shook his head, smiling a little.
“Things all right over at the Tamlins'?” the old man asked, as they walked back toward his place, Wyatt leading Sugarfoot behind him. “I noticed Ephriam opened the bank all by himself this morning.”
“Far as I know,” Wyatt said, offering no comment on Ephriam or the bank. “I'm rooming with them now,” he added, in case Doc thought there was anything amiss. He was a sharp-eyed old coot, and he'd surely noticed the tensionâor whatever it wasâbetween Wyatt and Sarah.
“I'd have said Sarah was too proud to take in a boarder,” Doc said. “I reckon you must be special.”
Wyatt felt a slight rush of blood up his neck and hoped it didn't show under all the dirt and sweat from the day's exertions. He didn't answer, since he couldn't seem to find the right words.
If he was special to Sarah, for any reason, it would be a damn fine thing. So fine, in fact, that it was too much to hope for.
“She's a good woman,” Doc went on. “Decent and upstanding.”
“I've heard she's prone to stretch the truth a mite,” Wyatt offered, feeling awkward. It made his voice come out sounding gruff, but that might have been a residual effect of last night's fire.
“That little book she carries around?” Doc confided. “She records the lies she tells in it, so she'll remember and keep her stories straight.”
Wyatt frowned. He'd found that book in her pocket, before he burned her dress in Rowdy's cookstove the night before, and the temptation to open it had been nearly overwhelming, though he hadn't given in. He was about to ask Doc why he'd said what he did, but they were interrupted by the telegraph operator, chasing them down Main Street.
“Deputy! Mr. Yarbro!” the fella yelled. “I've got a wire here for you!”
Wyatt stopped. The pit of his stomach seemed to open like a trapdoor to hell. Rowdy had received his message about the jailhouse, and this was his answer.
He dreaded reading it.
The operator handed him a sheet of yellow paper. Wyatt thanked him, gave him a nickel for his services, and steeled himself to catch hell.
On our way,
Rowdy had written.
And that was all.
Wyatt was both relieved and unsettled. It was like Rowdy, like Wyatt himself, for that matter, to send a three-word telegram and let the recipient guess at everything else that might have been said.
Did Rowdy know about his brief involvement with the Justice gang? Might be, that was where Billy was right nowâin jail down in Haven and chattering like an old woman at a pie social.
“How long do you reckon it will take them to get here?” he asked, after handing the yellow sheet of paper to Doc.
“A week if they bring the women and babies,” Doc answered, watching Wyatt's face closely. “Three days if they come on horseback, and the day after tomorrow if they take the train. If you'll pardon my saying so, you don't look too glad they're coming.”
Wyatt sighed. He'd been given a job as a deputy marshal, and he not only hadn't accomplished anything, he'd gotten the jailhouse blown to smithereens by locking up those guns. “Rowdy trusted me,” he said, as much to himself as to Doc.