The Secret Chord: A Novel (34 page)

But I sat there, stricken. Even as my eyes followed Amnon across the room, I was in Baal-hazor. The sun eased up over an undulant horizon bright with the haze of new grasses. The sheep moved in a corona of morning light, the edges of their heavy fleeces as bright as filaments of gold. Behind them, the high ridges of the Golan marched north to distant mountains still dusted with snow. The fine large house, sheltered in the broad hammock of the valley, was already awake. In the still air, threads of wood smoke curled lazily upward from the tannurs. Out in the fields, crews hauled on ropes, raising large goat hair tents, and serving women bustled about, laying down bright carpets. A mule driver urged his pair, laden with firewood, up a last incline, to where the spit turners were setting up their tripods over fresh-dug pits.

From the house, a slight figure emerged, crossing the courtyard to collect ewers of fresh goat’s milk. Halfway across, she stopped, and tilted her face upward, to receive the warm spring sun. Her veil slipped back, and light glinted in her red-gold hair. Her eyes were closed, her mouth curled in a private smile.

She stood there for a moment, rocking slightly. Then her eyes opened, and their expression was fierce. I saw her lips move. A single word: “Soon.”

XXI

T
he princes left severally for the feast, the older with their own retinues, the younger in a caravan together with their attendants. Shlomo traveled with the younger princes, excited, as any boy would be, at the prospect of a party. I saw him off, pretending to share in his joy. But I knew that the boy who returned would be much changed. When I saw him again, ten days later, there was a drawn look about his eyes, a new gravity and steadiness. As teacher and pupil, we did not usually embrace, but that day, I opened my arms to him, and he stepped forward and let me enfold him.

It was cold, for that season, so I had asked Muwat to lay a small fire. Shlomo sat on his heels in front of the hearth and stared at the flames as he spoke of all he had witnessed. “One of the worst things,” he said, “was that it started out as such a wonderful festival. The best, I think, that I have ever been to. It wasn’t like the festivals in the city, with professional singers and all the expensive food and wine and the important people separate from the ordinary folk. This was everyone all together—big landowners and simple herdsmen, trained musicians that Avshalom had brought from the city, and local people playing instruments they’d made themselves. There were prizes for the shearers, and donkey races. Storytellers. Dancing. Children running everywhere. Avshalom had thought of everything. Even the little princes had entertainments. My brother Natan was there with his nursemaid, giggling and running wild with the shepherd boys. And the food—good, simple—warm bread and juicy lamb off the spit to wrap in it. And wine, of course. Rivers of wine. Everyone was in such high spirits. We could not have been more unready when it happened.”

His face had lightened for a moment, but now it resumed the pinched expression he’d worn ever since he fled from Baal-hazor; the haunted look of a boy who has witnessed fratricide. I had been obliged to witness it, too, lying stricken and swollen tongued here in my own house. But I let him speak of it, because it seemed to me to be a good thing for him to give it voice.

I had watched, in a vision, as Avshalom welcomed Amnon and treated him as an honored guest, plying him with the best cuts of lamb, endless drink and, at night, willing country girls to share his tent. At first, Amnon was reserved, suspicious of his brother’s intentions. But by the third day of the feast he had relaxed into the belief that the reconciliation was genuine. By afternoon, he was very drunk. The killers moved then, as pitiless as a wolf pack. Three held him down as another three stabbed him.

“Adoniyah was drunk, too,” Shlomo said. “That’s why he panicked, I think. He yelled out that Avshalom’s brutes were going to kill us all, and then he and Shefatiah and Yitraam and the others all ran to where we’d left the mules hobbled. I saw Yitraam scoop up Natan and put him on the mule in front of him. Adoniyah was yelling, ordering everyone to split up so that Avshalom wouldn’t be able to get us all.”

“But you did not run.”

“No. I knew it was only about Amnon. And once I saw that Natan was looked after . . . In any case, I was holding Tamar, who was sobbing. Avshalom had brought her into the tent just before the attack. She was heavily veiled, but I knew it must be her. Because I’d really missed her, you know, and one of the reasons I wanted to go to Baal-hazor was to see her again. I’d been watching for her, asking everyone where she was. I’d begun to think that because Amnon was there, she wouldn’t come out to the feast, and I was disappointed about that, and wondering if I should ask Avshalom for leave to visit her in private. Then, when I saw her, I was so glad, and I got up right away to greet her. I’d just made my way through the press of people in the tent, but before I could even get a word out, Avshalom shouted to Amnon, where he was reclining in the place of honor. Amnon turned to him. Amnon was smiling—I’ll always remember that. Avshalom signed to Tamar, and she threw off her veil. I don’t think Amnon even recognized her. His face didn’t change—he was still grinning away. I suppose after so much heavy drinking he was pretty thick witted. But that was the signal for Avshalom’s men, who were all dressed up as if they were guests. They grabbed Amnon. I think he did recognize her then, at the last moment, as the knives went into him. When they stabbed him, she just crumpled up. She was crying and shaking, so I held her, and she clung to me. Everything else was a blur of screaming and yelling and people running, tripping over one another, tables falling . . . Then Avshalom grabbed Tamar by the hand and pulled her away from me. He had a mule saddled for her and packhorses ready. They were on the road for Geshur while Amnon lay there with the blood still pulsing out of him.

“It fell to me to see his body wrapped and put on a bier, and I organized his men to bring him back here. Then I went and got my own mule and followed on behind.”

I had seen this, too. His grave young face a calm center in the turmoil. I saw him take charge, cool in the panic, a boy commanding the attention of grown men, stepping through the blood to do what was necessary for his brother. Not one person questioned his authority. He stood there, gesturing for this and that person to fetch water and washing cloths, winding sheets and a stretcher. When the body was tended and wrapped, he called for bearers. He walked behind them, somber and dignified. Others took their cue from him, set aside their panic and formed up behind him in an orderly procession. I saw all this, and as he moved across the field other visions crowded my sight: I saw him as a man, a tall king, leading ever grander processions, the sun glinting off the circlet of gold on his brow, igniting the bright crimson, the deep purple, in the rich brocades of his robes.

After that vision, while I was still heavy and in pain, I dragged myself off the couch, and had Muwat help me bathe and dress in my court robe, and get me on a donkey like an old man who couldn’t walk the distance to the city gate. David was at audience when I entered the hall. He hadn’t heard anything yet from Baal-hazor. I took my place, and did my best to return his smile of greeting. It had been a week or more since I’d last attended him there, and he seemed touchingly pleased to see me. Yoav was in the midst of a lengthy report on border matters. I let my eye travel around the room. The crowd seemed quite depleted without the princes and their retinues. Then I noticed Yonadav at the edge of the crowd, and wondered at it. He was Amnon’s constant attendant. They were inseparable. Why had he not been at Baal-hazor?

I had my answer when the first dusty refugee from the feast came bursting into the hall, borne on a hectic tide of panicked rumor. Amid cries and shouts and rending of garments, the dire words passed from mouth to mouth: All the princes dead. Avshalom had sprung a trap and massacred every last one of his brothers.

As the words reached David, his face collapsed, then his body followed. He seemed to slide from the great throne to the stone floor, a ragged keening issuing from the mouth that had for so many years uttered only sounds of sweetness or sonorous power. I pushed my way through to him. The crowd around him parted for me. I knelt beside him, taking his head into my lap. I wanted to tell him it wasn’t true, but my mouth was still sealed and no words would come. From the corner of my eye I saw that Yonadav also was fighting his way forward through the chaos. The soldiers, unsure of his intent, blocked his path, holding him back from the king. I raised a hand to Yoav, signaling to let him through. Yoav grabbed him by the neck of his tunic and propelled him to the king’s side.

He knelt down next to me and bent over so that he was almost shouting in David’s ear. “My king! Don’t believe that they have slain all the young men, all your sons. Amnon alone is dead.” David’s eyes, dark wet pools, scanned Yonadav’s face, confused, hungry to believe in this lesser evil, unable to do so. His hand shot out and grabbed my arm, like a claw. “Is it true, what he says?” he rasped. I couldn’t form any words, but I tried to reassure him with every gesture of my body. I felt him go flaccid in my arms. Time slowed, an agony of waiting. And then the watchers on the walls sent word: Adoniyah was approaching, Yitraam following a short distance behind.

“See?” said Yonadav. “The king’s sons come, as your servant said, so it is.”

Yoav glared at him, and then grabbed him up, pulling him onto his toes so that they stood eye to eye. “How do you know this, you snake? What else do you know?”

There was a stir by the door then, and Yoav turned, without relaxing his grip on Yonadav. Adoniyah had reached the hall, and David struggled to his feet, his wet face slack with relief, his arms outstretched to receive his son. The crowd shuffled as Adoniyah pushed through to his father, clinging to him, weeping.

I slipped away then. I did not need to wait for the other sons to straggle home and be welcomed by their father, or to see Shlomo deliver to David the butchered corpse of Amnon. I knew that David’s relief and joy for the spared sons would turn to grief and mourning for the murdered one. And after that, loneliness and a corrosive longing for the one escaped into exile.

I knew, also, that the people who spoke of Natan’s curse believed that they had seen it enacted. He had lost his infant son. Tamar, his only daughter, had been raped and beaten. Now his eldest was dead. The king had been paid back for his sin with regard to Uriah, had he not? Accordingly, after a period of mourning for Amnon (during which, to be honest, no one but David and Ahinoam truly mourned), a relieved and even festive mood took hold of the city. Most of the court and many of the common people were glad to be rid of the erratic, dangerous young prince. Only I knew the true weight left in the balance. A fourfold retribution, so David had decreed. And that judgment had not yet been fulfilled.

XXII

M
aacah sent for me as soon as the official mourning period for Amnon had passed. I had never been to her house, but I knew it for the fine dwelling beside the palace, in the street where only David’s highest courtiers were permitted to live. It had a splendid terrace, with a view second only to the king’s, across the Wadi Kidron to the ranks of purple hills receding into an azure sky. When a servant showed me out onto this terrace, I was so struck by the view that I did not at first notice Yoav, seated in a shady corner, his ropy legs stretched out in front of him. I startled when he addressed me, and he laughed. “Didn’t expect to see me, Prophet?” he said. “So you don’t know everything, after all.”

“I never said I did, as you well know,” I replied, but I kept my tone light and returned his smile. “Perhaps you would like to enlighten me on a few things.”

“You mean, what are we both doing here? It’s a good question. I—”

At that moment Maacah swept onto the terrace. She wasn’t dressed in black anymore, but wore a shimmering gown of lavender, with the lightest of white veils draped loosely over her hair. Yoav had risen to his feet as she arrived, but she signaled for him to sit and waved me to a chair beside her own.

“So you knew about this.” Her voice was flat, affectless. “You knew my son would kill him.”

“Yes,” I said. “I knew.” I paused a beat. “Did you?”

“Of course I did not know!” Her long fingers gripped the arms of her chair. “You think I would have sanctioned this, knowing it would lead to his exile? That worthless scum, Amnon. I would spit on his corpse. He has stolen the thrones out from beneath
both
my children now.” She got up abruptly, and paced the terrace. She did not walk like a royal lady, but strode, like a man. The silk of her robe squeaked in complaint. “And I—I am deprived of my children, and of the king my husband’s favor. He won’t even see me. I suppose he blames me, as you do. Thinks me complicit. Fools. I did not come here, leave my home and my gods, to raise an outlaw son and a dishonored daughter. Well, if he blames me, I blame him. He should not have left this in Avshalom’s hands. He had two years to watch my son’s twisted heart hardening. How could he have been so blind as to think Avshalom could forgive, could reconcile? And now even the king my father is placed at risk. He took Avshalom in—he could hardly refuse sanctuary to his flesh and blood. But he wants no rift with David. He—”

“There won’t be one.” Yoav’s gruff voice cut across her. “David is glad Avshalom is safe. He has sent to your father to say so.”

She turned, relief and surprise on her face. “He has? How do you know this?”

“My brother Avishai took the message. The king would not entrust it to a common messenger. Though he must be seen to follow the law in this matter, it pains him. You know better than anyone how much he loves that young man your son. You only have to look at him. He’s sick with missing him. He’s not eating. Natan, I think you should see him. See if you can talk some sense into him. Or at least bring him some comfort.”

Comfort, I thought. What comfort could I offer? What comfort had I ever offered him? The visions of promised greatness had led him only to bloody deeds and a self-regard that made him think he was above the law. And since then, what? Dire threats. Curses. Silence. I could not speak to him in the voice of the Name, but perhaps Yoav was right. Perhaps I could offer him, at least, the comfort and counsel of a friend.