The Servant’s Tale (8 page)

At least Sym had found Gilbey’s old horse as it wandered grazing on the village green in the dark last night. “Too stupid to go home,” he had said. “Or too smart, if Gilbey Dunn is as stingy with its fodder as everything else. The old boy’s not hurt, any rod, except some scrapes on his knees and hocks that don’t go deep enough to matter. Gilbey’s got nothing to open his mouth about.”

But Gilbey would open his mouth, and loudly, because though Meg hated to say it about anyone, let alone a neighbor, he was a mean and calculating man. Besides, the horse was maybe not so sound as Sym was saying; he had his father’s way of wishing a thing to be so and then believing it was. And she suspected that what was left of the harness would take a deal of mending, if it could be mended at all, let alone that there was no salvaging the cart.

It had been the players saying that that had set him into a temper at them. He had asked to borrow their horse, it being easier for him to ask from strangers than from folk who knew him well. But the dark-haired one had refused him, saying, “That thing won’t run on wheels again. Better you take another cart to bring the kindling home,” and Sym had lost his temper. It was always easy to set Sym in a temper, and easier when there was work to do that he did not want to bother with.

Hewe was not so hard to deal with. He had a temper, right enough, but it went to sulks more than to fury. He was lying beside her now, curled into the blankets on one of the guesthall’s thin straw mattresses, his head on her thigh. With the fondness she rarely had chance to show, Meg stroked gently at his golden fair hair, then let her hand rest again on his shoulder while she went on watching Bamaby. She was still worried for Hewe. He was not thick flesh and muscle like Barnaby and Sym, he needed tending more than they did. She had made him rest and be warm again instead of going for the cart with Sym; and was nursing a small hope that maybe last night had changed him. He had come back quiet, as if thoughtful, from his time with Father Henry.

Father Henry lived cleanly, easily. He had a servant to take care of him in his own little house, which probably had a fireplace, they being so common at the priory. Hewe had to have seen the difference; he had to have finally understood what she had been telling him all these years. That he did not have to be as mired into the village as his father and brother were. That he could live better if he would only try.

It was different for Sym. In the right way of things he would have the croft and its fields and duties and rights after his father died. God in his wisdom had made Sym strong like his father, suited for his work. And Sym, unlike Barnaby, would maybe take strong hold once it was his, and put it right. If he had the chance.

Meg’s hands clenched. Barnaby had brought them to this. He had always claimed that he made his own luck. Had claimed it loudly, swaggering, through those days when her parents had been after her to marry him. She had often, when it was far too late, wondered why she had. Except she had grown tired of her mother’s nagging and her father’s hard hand across her head, and been excited by Barnaby’s demands.

But now she was mostly past almost anything except a final longing to save something out of all of it. To save Hewe from being no more than his father and brother were.

But what if that wanting was somehow against God’s will? No, how could it be, since she was trying to give him to God, not keep him for herself, no matter how dear he was to her? Surely if she could bring him to the priesthood…

Hewe moved sharply, sat up to look more closely at his father, and then whispered, “He’s waking up.”

Meg turned back from the far wandering of her thoughts to peer at Barnaby’s face, and saw that Hewe was right. There was the beginning of awareness there, a flickering of eyelids and muscles that had been lax all these hours past.

Meg clamped her hand around Hewe’s wrist, not noticing how her strength made him wince, and whispered, “Go find someone to go for Dame Claire. Find someone now.”

Hewe scrambled out of the blankets and went. Meg leaned nearer to Barnaby. His breathing had changed, strengthened and become uneven. With a soft moaning murmur he opened his eyes. Unfocused, he blinked vacantly, then seemed to realize that the ceiling was unfamiliar. He frowned, and shifted his eyes without moving his head, until he found Meg bending toward him. His mouth moved slightly, soundlessly. His lips were cracked with dryness; Meg reached for the clean cloth in a bowl of water that Dame Claire had left, telling her how to use it. Carefully, she squeezed the cloth past dripping, then held it to Barnaby’s lips and squeezed again, gentling the water into his mouth.

He licked his lips and wanted more. She gave it and finally he managed to say hoarsely, “I’m hurt.”

Meg nodded.

“Bad?” he asked.

Meg hesitated, then nodded again. “Your ribs are broken and your hand, too, and we don’t know what else maybe is. Best you lie still. Dame Claire will come. She’s been tending you.”

Barnaby closed his eyes and moaned, “I’m hurt horrible. I’m hurting…”He opened his eyes wide, fear shining in them. “I want the priest. You fetch the priest, woman.”

“He’ll come,” Meg said. “We’ll send for him, too.”

Feeling someone at her back, she looked up over her shoulder to see the woman who traveled with the players and the fair-haired youth who had helped mock Sym standing close behind her. Uncertain, vaguely alarmed, Meg stood up to face them but before she had found anything to say, the woman said kindly, “Do you need help? Is there anything we can do?”

Meg glanced from them to Barnaby. His eyes were shut again, his breathing uneven with his pain. “He’s hurting. My boy’s gone for someone for Dame Claire, but he’s wanting the priest now.”

The woman glanced at the fair-haired youth who said, “I’ll go for him,” and left.

Meg wanted the woman to go, too, but she stayed, circling to Barnaby’s other side and sitting down on her heels to look closely at him, not as if intruding but to see if there was anything more she should do. Unsure how she should be toward the woman who was, after all, a lordless wanderer without place and without claim to anything but charity and contempt, Meg said nothing. She was less than Meg; less than anyone in the village; less than any servant in the priory. But disconcertingly she did not seem to know it. Slender in her simply cut brown gown that was long past being new and yet was graceful on her, she held herself more like a lord’s lady than someone less than a peasant. And it was hard to guess her age. Not young, Meg thought; the woman’s brown hair, worn in a single braid wrapped crownlike around her head, was touched with gray and her face had too many years of knowing to be mistaken for a girl’s. But neither was it worn, lined, and hardened the way all village women’s faces were. She did not look the way she should and, uneasy, Meg sat down by Barnaby again, covering her unease by taking his unhurt hand. It was chill to her touch. He did not stir, and she said, “He’s cold.”

“He should be kept warm.” The woman rose and without asking leave took the blankets from Hewe’s mattress and spread them over Barnaby.

Meg moved quickly to help and when the woman stood back, went on fussing the blankets closer under Barnaby’s chin and smoothing them over his shoulders, to show that it was her place to tend him, not the other woman’s.

After a few moments the woman said, “I think he’s unconscious again.”

“Or sleeping,” Meg said defensively.

“Or sleeping,” the woman agreed. She paused, then said, “My name is Rose.”

Meg eyed her uncertainly. “I’m Meg.”

“The two boys with you, they’re your sons?”

Meg realized the woman was trying to be friendly. Willing to be distracted, she said a little more easily, “Our sons. Sym and Hewe.”

“Sym is the older one?”

Meg stiffened, remembering his quarrel with her men, and nodded.

Rose did not seem to notice her stiffening, just said, “He’ll make a well-grown man. There’s strength in him.”

Pleased to have someone notice one of the good things about Sym, Meg nodded. “He’s like his father.”

“And the other boy is a handsome one.”

Meg warmed to the woman. “And bright,” she said. “He knows his letters.” It helped to say it aloud, made it more real.

“It’s good to have two sons. They can be a help to each other as well as to you.”

The idea of Sym and Hewe a help to each other held Meg silent for a disconcerted moment. But she knew her duty to a conversation and said, “You have a son, too.”

The warmth of Rose’s answering smile betrayed how deeply that fact mattered to her. “Piers,” she said.

“Is he feeling better?” Meg asked.

“Yes, thank you. His fever is still high but he’s resting quietly and keeping warm and Dame Claire says it shouldn’t worsen.”

At the mention of Dame Claire, Meg’s head twitched around toward the door, wondering how long it would be before help came. Rose asked, “Do you work here at the priory?”

Meg did not want to think about her work at the priory and how near she might be to losing it. “Sometimes,” she said. “You and the others are all players?”

“Not me,” Rose said with soft laughter. “I do the tumbling that brings the crowd to us and help to hold them afterwards long enough for us to gather their pence in payment for our shows.”

“Tumbling?” Meg said. Tumbling was what children did on a summer day down a grassy slope.

“Like this.” Rose stood up with swift grace, her arms raised over her head, then, as if it were a natural thing, bent backwards, doubling over the wrong way for any body to go. Too quickly for Meg to quite understand what she was seeing, Rose’s hands touched down behind her, and with a twist in the air she was over and upright.

“God grant mercy!” Meg breathed, crossing herself for protection against such strangeness.

Rose smiled. “It’s something I learned when I was little.” She turned sideways to give herself more room, tripped forward to land on her hands as she flung her feet up and over herself and back to the floor, bringing her upright with a little bounce. “See?”

Meg put a protective hand on Barnaby’s chest and waved the other at her to stop. It looked like something demons would do to mock God’s proper ways. “No more,” she begged.

“Indeed, no more,” said Dame Frevisse from the doorway.

Chapter
8

Frevisse stepped aside to allow Father Henry and Dame Claire to go past her into the hall. In the moment of entering she had been startled to see Rose’s forward flip, then had to smother her reaction of amusement on seeing Meg’s fright; it was Meg’s ignorance, not stupidity, that made her so easily frightened. Besides, what they were here for was not amusing.

Oblivious, Father Henry went past her, making the sign of the cross and saying, “
Pax hie domui.”‘
Peace to this place.

Frevisse and Dame Claire, following him side by side, responded, “
Et omnibus habitantibus in ea.”‘
And to all who live in it.

Rose and Meg together answered, “Amen.” Meg, on her feet now, bowing her head and making a hasty little curtsey in respect for the priest, cast Rose a startled glance as if surprised to hear an amen from someone like her. Rose, not noticing, made her own graceful curtsey to the priest and withdrew down the hall to her own fire.

Barnaby opened his pain-filled eyes. Hope and fear together slid over his beard-stubbled face as he saw the priest standing over him, and he rasped, “Father, your blessing. I hurt like to die. I want God’s help.”

“It’s here,” Father Henry said reassuringly. Draped around his neck and hanging almost to his knees was a black silk band embroidered with crosses, flowers, and bunches of grapes in shades of penitential purple; and he carried with careful hands the gilt box embossed with sacred symbols that held the Host. He went to stand at Barnaby’s feet. Frevisse picked a wisp of straw from the hearth and took a bit of fire to light the candles she and Dame Claire carried and then joined him as he began the sacrament meant to assure the soul’s safety after death. His inaccurate Latin was reassuringly loud, and Frevisse saw both Barnaby’s and Meg’s faces ease as he made his way through Psalm 31.

As he finished, she and Dame Claire set down the candles on either side of Barnaby’s head, and Father Henry stooped so Barnaby could kiss the crucifix he held out to him. Meg began to sob quietly. Dame Claire put a hand on her shoulder.

“
Dominus vobiscum,”‘
intoned Father Henry, opening his book of ritual.

“Et cum spiritu tuo,”
Frevisse and Dame Claire replied together, Meg following a half moment after them.

Father Henry began to pray. Barnaby moaned “Amen” whenever the priest paused or hesitated, and since Father Henry’s Latin reading was only somewhat better than his remembered Latin, the amens were frequent and often inappropriate. It was unsettling to Father Henry but at last he got to the end, when he said his own amen, and gestured for the three women to withdraw while he heard Barnaby’s confession.

Away from the fire’s small spread of warmth, the December cold slid under clothing and lay like ice along shin and forearm. Meg began to shiver violently, as much from shock as cold. Dame Claire gave the box of medicines she had been carrying to Frevisse and wrapped an arm around Meg, drawing her close for comfort and what warmth they could share. “We could go to the fire,” she offered. But Meg shook her head, and Dame Claire did not press her. As rigorous as she could be toward complaining patients or servants slow to obey, Dame Claire’s deepest trait was kindness.