The SF Hall of Fame Volume Two B (67 page)

"Did you never play with him?"

"Certainly I played with him. And it was a pleasure to
me also. We—Mr. Davis and I—taught him a great many games, and many kinds of
handicraft. We read stories to him and taught him rhymes and songs. I took a
special course in kindergarten craft, to amuse the child—and I must admit that
it amused me also!" added Tim's grandmother, smiling reminiscently.
"We made houses of toothpicks, with balls of clay at the corners. His
grandfather took him for walks and drives. We no longer have a car, since my
husband's sight has begun to fail him slightly, so now the garage is Timothy's
workshop. We had windows cut in it, and a door, and nailed the large doors
shut."

It soon became clear that Tim's life was not all strictures
by any means. He had a workshop of his own, and upstairs beside his bedroom was
his own library and study.

"He keeps his books and treasures there," said his
grandmother, "his own little radio, and his schoolbooks, and his
typewriter. When he was only seven years old, he asked us for a typewriter. But
he is a careful child, Dr. Welles, not at all destructive, and I had read that
in many schools they make use of typewriters in teaching young children to read
and write and to spell. The words look the same as in printed books, you see;
and less muscular effort is involved. So his grandfather got him a very nice
noiseless typewriter, and he loved it dearly. I often hear it purring away as I
pass through the hall. Timothy keeps his own rooms in good order, and his shop
also. It is his own wish. You know how boys are—they do not wish others to
meddle with their belongings. 'Very well, Timothy,' I told him, 'if a glance shows
me that you can do it yourself properly, nobody will go into your rooms; but
they must be kept neat.' And he has done so for several years. A very neat boy,
Timothy."

"Timothy didn't mention his paper route," remarked
Welles. "He said only that he plays with other boys after school."

"Oh, but he does," said Mrs. Davis. "He plays
until five o'clock, and then he delivers his papers. If he is late, his
grandfather walks down and calls him. The school is not very far from here, and
Mr. Davis frequently walks down and watches the boys at their play. The paper
route is Timothy's way of earning money to feed his cats. Do you care for cats,
Dr. Welles?"

"Yes, I like cats very much," said the
psychiatrist. "Many boys like dogs better."

"Timothy had a dog when he was a baby—a collie."
Her eyes grew moist. "We all loved Ruff dearly. But I am no longer young,
and the care and training of a dog is difficult. Timothy is at school or at the
Boy Scout camp or something of the sort a great part of the time, and I thought
it best that he should not have another dog. But you wanted to know about our
cats, Dr. Welles. I raise Siamese cats."

"Interesting pets," said Welles cordially.
"My aunt raised them at one time."

"Timothy is very fond of them. But three years ago he
asked me if he could have a pair of black Persians. At first I thought not; but
we like to please the child, and he promised to build their cages himself. He
had taken a course in carpentry at vacation school. So he was allowed to have a
pair of beautiful black Persians. But the very first litter turned out to be
short-haired, and Timothy confessed that he had mated his queen to my Siamese
torn, to see what would happen. Worse yet, he had mated his torn to one of my
Siamese queens. I really was tempted to punish him. But, after all, I could see
that he was curious as to the outcome of such crossbreeding. Of course I said
the kittens must be destroyed. The second litter was exactly like the first—all
black, with short hair. But you know what children are. Timothy begged me to
let them live, and they were his first kittens. Three in one Utter, two in the
other. He might keep them, I said, if he would take full care of them and be responsible
for all the expense. He mowed lawns and ran errands and made little footstools
and bookcases to sell, and did all sorts of things, and probably used his
allowance, too. But he kept the kittens and has a whole row of cages in the
yard beside his workshop."

"And their offspring?" inquired Welles, who could
not see what all this had to do with the main question, but was willing to
listen to anything that might lead to information.

"Some of the kittens appear to be pure Persian, and
others pure Siamese. These he insisted on keeping, although, as I have
explained to him, it would be dishonest to sell them, since they are not
purebred. A good many of the kittens are black short-haired and these we
destroy. But enough of cats, Dr. Welles. And I am afraid I am talking too much
about my grandson."

"I can understand that you are very proud of him,"
said Welles.

"I must confess that we are. And he is a bright boy.
When he and his grandfather talk together, and with me also, he asks very
intelligent questions. We do not encourage him to voice his opinions—I detest
the smart-Aleck type of small boy—and yet I believe they would be quite good
opinions for a child of his age."

"Has his health always been good?" asked Welles.

"On the whole, very good. I have taught him the value
of exercise, play, wholesome food and suitable rest. He has had a few of the
usual childish ailments, not seriously. And he never has colds. But, of course,
he takes his cold shots twice a year when we do."

"Does he mind the shots?" asked Welles, as
casually as he could.

"Not at all. I always say that he, though so young,
sets an example I find hard to follow. I still flinch, and really rather dread
the ordeal."

Welles looked toward the door at a sudden, slight sound.

Timothy stood there, and he had heard. Again, fear was
stamped on his face and terror looked out of his eyes.

"Timothy," said his grandmother, "don't
stare."

"Sorry, sir," the boy managed to say.

"Are your papers all delivered? I did not realize we
had been talking for an hour, Dr. Welles. Would you like to see Timothy's
cats?" Mrs. Davis inquired graciously. "Timothy, take Dr. Welles to
see your pets. We have had quite a talk about them."

Welles got Tim out of the room as fast as he could. The boy
led the way around the house and into the side yard where the former garage
stood.

There the man stopped.

"Tim," he said, "you don't have to show me
the cats if you don't want to."

"Oh, that's all right."

"Is that part of what you are hiding? If it is, I don't
want to see it until you are ready to show me."

Tim looked up at him then.

"Thanks," he said. "I don't mind about the
cats. Not if you like cats really."

"I really do. But, Tim, this I would like to know:
You're not afraid of the needle. Could you tell me why you were afraid . . .
why you said you were afraid ... of my shot? The one I promised not to give you
after all?"

Their eyes met.

"You won't tell?" asked Tim.

"I won't tell."

"Because it was pentothal. Wasn't it?"

Welles gave himself a slight pinch. Yes, he was awake. Yes,
this was a little boy asking him about pentothal. A boy who—yes, certainly, a
boy who knew about it.

"Yes, it was," said Welles. "A very small
dose. You know what it is?"

"Yes, sir. I... I read about it somewhere. In the
papers."

"Never mind that. You have a secret—something you want
to hide. That's what you are afraid about, isn't it?"

The boy nodded dumbly.

"If it's anything wrong, or that might be wrong,
perhaps I could help you. You'll want to know me better, first. You'll want to
be sure you can trust me. But I'll be glad to help, any time you say the word,
Tim. Or I might stumble on to things the way I did just now. One thing though—I
never tell secrets."

"Never?"

"Never. Doctors and priests don't betray secrets.
Doctors seldom, priests never. I guess I am more like a priest, because of the
kind of doctoring I do."

He looked down at the boy's bowed head.

"Helping fellows who are scared sick," said the
psychiatrist very gently. "Helping fellows in trouble, getting things
straight again, fixing things up, unsnarling tangles. When I can, that's what I
do. And I don't tell anything to anybody. It's just between that one fellow and
me."

But,
he added to himself,
I'll have to find out.
I'll have to find out what ails this child. Miss Page is right—he needs me.

They went to see the cats.

There were the Siamese in their cages, and the Persians in
their cages, and there, in several small cages, the short-haired black cats and
their hybrid offspring. "We take them into the house, or let them into
this big cage, for exercise," explained Tim. "I take mine into my
shop sometimes. These are all mine. Grandmother keeps hers on the sun
porch."

"You'd never know these were not all pure-bred,"
observed Welles. "Which did you say were the full Persians? Any of their
kittens here?"

"No; I sold them."

"I'd like to buy one. But these look just the same—it
wouldn't make any difference to me. I want a pet, and wouldn't use it for
breeding stock. Would you sell me one of these?"

Timothy shook his head.

"I'm sorry. I never sell any but the pure-breds."

It was then that Welles began to see what problem he faced.
Very dimly he saw it, with joy, relief, hope and wild enthusiasm.

"Why not?" urged Welles. "I can wait for a
pure-bred, if you'd rather, but why not one of these? They look just the same.
Perhaps they'd be more interesting."

Tim looked at Welles for a long, long minute.

"I'll show you," he said. "Promise to wait
here? No, I'll let you come into the workroom. Wait a minute, please."

The boy drew a key from under his blouse, where it had hung
suspended from a chain, and unlocked the door of his shop. He went inside,
closed the door, and Welles could hear him moving about for a few moments. Then
he came to the door and beckoned.

"Don't tell grandmother," said Tim. "I
haven't told her yet. If it lives, I'll tell her next week."

In the corner of the shop under a table there was a box, and
in the box there was a Siamese cat. When she saw a stranger she tried to hide
her kittens; but Tim lifted her gently, and then Welles saw. Two of the kittens
looked like little white rats with stringy tails and smudgy paws, ears and
nose. But the third—yes, it was going to be a different sight. It was going to
be a beautiful cat if it lived. It had long, silky white hair like the finest
Persian, and the Siamese markings were showing up plainly.

Welles caught his breath.

"Congratulations, old man! Haven't you told anyone
yet?"

"She's not ready to show. She's not a week old."

"But you're going to show her?"

"Oh, yes, grandmother will be thrilled. She'll love
her. Maybe there'll be more."

"You knew this would happen. You made it happen. You
planned it all from the start," accused Welles.

"Yes," admitted the boy.

"How did you know?"

The boy turned away.

"I read it somewhere," said Tim.

The cat jumped back into the box and began to nurse her
babies. Welles felt as if he could endure no more. Without a glance at anything
else in the room—and everything else was hidden under tarpaulins and
newspapers—he went to the door.

"Thanks for showing me, Tim," he said. "And
when you have any to sell, remember me. I'll wait. I want one like that."

The boy followed him out and locked the door carefully.

"But Tim," said the psychiatrist, "that's not
what you were afraid I'd find out. I wouldn't need a drug to get you to tell me
this, would I?"

Tim replied carefully, "I didn't want to tell this
until I was ready. Grandmother really ought to know first. But you made me tell
you."

"Tim," said Peter Welles earnestly, "I'll see
you again. Whatever you are afraid of, don't be afraid of me. I often guess
secrets. I'm on the way to guessing yours already. But nobody else need ever
know."

He walked rapidly home, whistling to himself from time to
time. Perhaps he, Peter Welles, was the luckiest man in the world.

He had scarcely begun to talk to Timothy on the boy's next
appearance at the office, when the phone in the hall rang. On his return, when
he opened the door he saw a book in Tim's hands. The boy made a move as if to
hide it, and thought better of it.

Welles took the book and looked at it.

"Want to know more about Rorschach, eh?" he asked.

"I saw it on the shelf. I-"

"Oh, that's all right," said Welles, who had
purposely left the book near the chair Tim would occupy. "But what's the
matter with the library?"

"They've got some books about it, but they're on the
closed shelves. I couldn't get them." Tim spoke without thinking first,
and then caught his breath.

But Welles replied calmly: "I'll get it out for you.
I'll have it next time you come. Take this one along today when you go. Tim, I
mean it—you can trust me."

"I can't tell you anything," said the boy.
"You've found out some things. I wish . . . oh, I don't know what I wish!
But I'd rather be let alone. I don't need help. Maybe I never will. If I do,
can't I come to you then?"

Welles pulled out his chair and sat down slowly.

"Perhaps that would be the best way, Tim. But why wait
for the ax to fall? I might be able to help you ward it off—what you're afraid
of. You can kid people along about the cats; tell them you were fooling around
to see what would happen. But you can't fool all of the people all of the time,
they tell me. Maybe with me to help, you could. Or with me to back you up, the
blowup would be easier. Easier on your grandparents, too."

"I haven't done anything wrong!"

"I'm beginning to be sure of that. But things you try
to keep hidden may come to light. The kitten—you could hide it, but you don't
want to. You've got to risk something to show it."