The Shore (40 page)

“You didn’t like Poppy,” Jodi said. “You made that pretty clear.”

“We’d all pretty much figured it out, anyway,” Max said.

Was he talking to Linley or Jodi?

“You told Claire,” repeated Linley. “And Claire was sooo understanding, weren’t you, Claire? So fucking grateful Jodi shared your stupid little I’m-a-dyke confession with her—”

“Stop it,” Poppy said. “Watch your language.”

“Sorry, Poppy. Did I offend you?” Linley said.

“Try every day this summer,” Poppy shot back. “Why would Jodi tell you anything? You’ve pushed her away. You treated everyone in this house like shit. And you’ve done nothing but throw your own little pity party pretty much every single moment this summer.”

Max almost lost his grip when Linley lunged this time. “Bitch!” she screamed.

“Oh, please,” said Poppy.

“Stop it!” Claire said. “Stop it. We’ve got a party—”

“And you,” said Linley. “Until I came along you didn’t have a life. You were a mouse. A virgin WASP mouse.”

Linley had known, Claire thought. She’d known Claire was a virgin. Why hadn’t she said anything? “And if it hadn’t been for me, you’d be sitting in your daddy’s bank right now, still being a boring little mouse. Boring Claire. Right next to the definition of the word, there’s your picture. . . .”

This time, Claire’s eyes filled with tears. She backed away.
“I’m not . . . ,” she tried to say. But not what? A mouse. Boring?

She wanted Finn. She wanted him now.

Jodi had Poppy. Dean was watching them all, his eyes bright. Max had caught Linley by the other arm and was trying to pull her to him, talking softly as if to a crazed animal.

Claire reached the door. Her hand found the handle.

She heard Linley shouting at Max, “Liar. Liar! I hate you. I hate you . . .”

And then Claire was outside in the last of the daylight.

Finn.

She could go to Finn. He’d had a late surf lesson that afternoon at the hotel.

Claire would go see Finn.

What about the party? A little voice inside her asked.

And Claire said aloud, “Fuck the party,” and kept going.

Finn saw her coming across the beach and knew something was wrong. He finished the lesson, then turned and said, “What’s happened?”

Claire walked into his arms, leaned her head against his chest, and silently began to cry.

Later, late enough so it was full-on dark, Finn took Claire back to the party.

A pirate ship, thought Claire. That’s what the house looked like to her as she and Finn drove up to the driveway entrance. A big, strange pirate ship, lit from within and sailing into the new night.

And maybe I’ll have to walk the plank before the night is over, she thought.

Finn slowed. Claire was pleased to see someone had remembered to put out the sign. “‘Danger,’” Finn read aloud. “‘Drive Under Construction. Do Not Enter.’”

He glanced over at her. She laughed. “If it just said ‘Keep Out,’ no one would.” She jumped out of the van and ran to open the gate to let Finn in to park.

The house was jammed. Claire and Finn came in to a sea of people. Music pumped, but no one was dancing yet. They were still drinking, climbing higher, getting hooked up.

Claire caught Finn’s hand as much for comfort as to keep close to him in the crowd. Who were all these people? She didn’t see anyone she knew—not even her roommates.

She turned to Finn. “I’m going to go change into my party clothes,” she said.

“What?”

She pulled out the front of her damp sweatshirt and pointed up the stairs.

Finn nodded. He pointed to Barrel and also pointed up the stairs.

Claire nodded back. She knew what Finn was saying: too many people, too much loud noise for Barrel. She reached down to catch Barrel’s collar.

“I’ll get drinks,” Finn offered. Or at least Claire thought that was what he said.

With a quick glance back to make sure it was okay, Barrel followed Claire obediently.

Upstairs, the noise was less. Claire led Barrel into Finn’s room and settled him in, making sure he had plenty of water and his favorite chew toy. She even made a sign that said be careful of dog inside and taped it on the door, as much to protect Barrel from the party as to make sure she and Finn had the room all to themselves at party’s end.

Finn had fed Barrel at the beach when they’d finished surfing. And before they’d gone horizontal. Claire smiled and felt a twinge of sadness. Sex on the beach. Would it be the last time?

The flight back east was at the crack of dawn day after tomorrow. Tomorrow would probably be dedicated to party recovery and cleanup.

And considering all the people who weren’t speaking to each other, it wasn’t going to be a pleasant day.

But she’d think about tomorrow, well, tomorrow. With a final pat for Barrel, Claire headed for her own room. When she was party ready, she surveyed herself in the mirror. The girl who looked back was almost as golden as Linley. She had brown hair streaked with sunlight. She looked strong and capable and, Claire thought, turning to admire her legs in the very short skirt, damn good.

Sexy. No, smart and sexy. When she got back to school, she was going to buy a lot more things in a lot more colors—particularly red.

Confidently, maybe even swaggering a little, Claire headed for the party. As she passed Dean’s door, she noticed it was half-open. She gave it a push and called, “Hey, come join the party.”

No one answered. Claire peered inside. She’d never really looked in Dean’s room. He was the only person in the house who kept his door closed at all times. She didn’t know what she expected to see. Fanatic neatness? Wild disorder?

It was as bland as a hotel room. A laptop glowed on a table in the corner. Next to it was a half-eaten chocolate doughnut and a half-full beer bottle. Claire wrinkled her nose at the combo.

Then she saw her name on the screen. She frowned and stepped closer.

Yes. It was definitely her name. And Finn’s. And Linley’s. And even Barrel’s.

She read, “So we have a pretty good idea of what happens when good girls go bad. But what happens when bad girls go off the deep end. A summer of sex and drugs and now what can only be called a bitchslap-fest of epic proportions, with über-bad girl Linley at—”

“What are you doing in my room?” Dean’s voice was neither lazy nor mocking.

Claire blinked and tore her eyes from the screen. “What is this?” she asked.

“What it is, is none of your business,” Dean said.

“Oh, I think it might be,” said Claire. And she didn’t step back when Dean stepped closer.

“Why don’t you just go to the party and forget it,” Dean said.

“Why don’t you tell me what is going on?” she answered, glancing again at the screen, at the story on the screen. Then, finally, she got it. “You—you’re some kind of wannabe writer, aren’t you?”

Dean grimaced. “Ouch,” he said. “Little Claire grows up.”

“You’re writing stories about us.”

“Well, yes. And actually, I have a contract. For a piece for a magazine. So, technically, I’m not a wannabe.”

Claire thought of Dean, always watching, never getting involved—except those times he’d said things that seemed to escalate matters, make situations crazier or more out of control.

“You used us,” Claire said.

“Everybody uses everybody,” said Dean.

“No, they don’t,” Claire said.

They regarded each other.

Claire said, suddenly, “Does Poppy know?”

“Poppy’s an old friend. She knows I’m a writer, that I’m working on something, that I’m this close to the break I need. But not even Poppy knows everything,” Dean said.

“So you used your old friend Poppy, too,” Claire said.

Dean looked away, then, not quite meeting her eyes.

“You’re a scum,” said Claire, simply, and walked past him. She stopped in the hall and leaned back in the door. “Dean. Don’t think you’re leaving. You’re staying and helping with cleanup tomorrow. Meanwhile, feel free to join the party and
take all the notes you want. I’ll be sure to let everybody know so you’ll have their full cooperation.” She smiled and knew her smile was a threat.

Power. It was good to be queen, she thought and, walking like a queen, went back to Finn and the last party of the summer.

People had started dancing. Unsurprised, Claire saw Linley in the middle, working it dirty with someone Claire had never seen before.

Finn appeared at her side as if he’d be watching for her. Maybe he had, or maybe it was just part of the Finn mojo. He handed her a drink. It had a plastic surfer riding the frozen crest on one side, and a tiny parasol on the other.

Claire had to laugh.

Finn laughed too. “Excellent decorations,” he said. “Jodi tells me you planned it all. Amazing girl, Mermaid Claire.”

He had noticed. Screw Linley. Claire took a sip of the frozen drink and thought, Thanks, Jodi. Jodi was her friend, after all. “Excellent piña colada,” she answered. She saw Jodi, then, dancing with Poppy.

She looked . . . happy.

“Yo, look!” Finn waved. Claire recognized Rita and Axel and NOLA and Suzie and some of the other surfers from the hotel. She waved too. Finn peeled away and went to talk to them as a burly figure loomed above Claire.

“Joseph?” said Claire, hardly believing her eyes. She checked
the impulse to make certain her hair was pulled back in a Health Department–approved waitress tail.

“Hey,” Joseph rumbled. “Didn’t think I’d take you up on your invite, didja?” His eyes roamed the room and stopped. “Sweet,” he said.

Claire followed his gaze to Linley doing something Claire thought might be called the grind with the guy she remembered as Nicholas or Ned or Nathan from the Jacuzzi.

“I wouldn’t share a crossword puzzle with her,” Claire said flatly.

Joseph rumbled, this time laughing. “Darlin’, that wasn’t what I had in mind.” His mittlike hand came down on her shoulder in a reassuring pat that would have buckled her knees had she not known Joseph and been prepared. “But she’s too young for me, anyway. That one, now, she looks more my style.”

“Poppy,” said Claire. “Forget it. She bats for the other team.”

“Damn,” said Joseph. “What a shame.”

“Not for whoever she’s batting with,” Claire retorted.

Her now ex-boss regarded Claire with expressionless eyes for a moment, then went from a rumble to a roar of laughter. His hand descended again to her shoulder, and Claire winced and thought, bruises.

“You know, kid, you’re all right. I thought you might be a little too East Coast preppie and uptight when I met you, but you’re all right. You’re gonna do just fine.”

“Thanks,” said Claire, and meant it. This was high praise,
indeed. She smiled at Joseph, suddenly realizing she would miss him. “You’re my favorite boss, now and forever.”

“Thatta girl,” Joseph said. “You ever need a job, you come back to me.” His eyes were sampling the room again, and Claire hid a smile. “Come on,” she said, “Poppy’s got plenty of friends who play for your team,” and led Joseph over to help him hook up. Poppy would know who to put him next to.

Actually, she probably could have done it herself, she realized. She knew plenty of people. People from surfing and people from waiting tables and people from other parties. She knew lots of people, had all kinds of friends. There were Susan and Kerri Lynn, peering into the punch bowl. Carol and Jill, Frankie and Jolene over by the bookshelves, pulling books off and making a book meltdown mess. There were Kathy and Paula from the bookstore, talking to Sari, who ran the only health food store in the world that specialized in doughnuts. And Emily Tech, the computer whiz. And Jan, of course, with some new guy who was . . . wow, very nice on the eyes. A shout from the hot tub told her where Bonnie and Elaine and Jane had chosen to take the first swim of the night. There was Valerie, dancing, and Per and Ben and Maggie and Leah and . . .

And a whole party full of friends, a whole party that she had organized. She, Claire Plimouth.

“Want to dance?” Finn said in her ear, and Claire took another drink of her piña colada and set it down.

“You bet I do,” she said, and went to the party.

Nineteen

Claire danced until her feet hurt, and then she danced some more. She talked and laughed and made plans to see people again next summer. She didn’t know if they meant it, but she was beginning to think that she did.

She didn’t drink much because she wanted to end this party in remembering, not forgetting. She had plenty of time for the other kinds of parties—or maybe she was already starting to get over them.

She danced with Max. She danced with Poppy and then with Jodi. She cut in on Lauren, who’d hooked up with Jospeh. It wasn’t what she’d expected—Lauren was an intellectual type who worked at the coffee shop, but who knew? She mentioned, casually, “Dean’s little project.”

The information that cut both ways. The members of the household suddenly seemed to find any part of the room with Dean in it where they didn’t want to be. But others made a point of seeking him out.

Sometime later, very early in the morning, she pulled Finn after her up the stairs and they went to bed. And Claire was glad she’d had a chance to figure out that while there was more to life than sex—much, much more—sex definitely added more to life.

Especially when you did it right, with the right guy. No, person, she corrected herself, smiling in the half-dark of early morning and thinking of Jodi.

She snuggled closer to Finn, happy and sad at the same time. “Finn.”

“Mmm,” he said.

“You never talk about the future, do you?” Claire asked.

“The future?” he sounded sleepily confused.

“You know, like what you plan to do . . . where you think you’ll be in, oh, I don’t know, ten years.”

“Ten years! Ten years is a long time,” said Finn. “I’m happy now. That’s good enough.”

Suddenly Claire realized that it was. And that Finn didn’t talk about the future because he was living it, right now.

“I love you, Finn,” she said. “I always will.”

Finn took it the way she meant it. He understood. He tightened his arm around her and said, “I love you, too, Mermaid Claire,” and she smiled again, with sadness and joy, and fell asleep.