Read The Sunnyvale Girls Online
Authors: Fiona Palmer
Pushing her empty plate away, she pulled back the travel brochures. Each photo of exotic lands and different cultures drew her in. Why wasn't Felicity interested? She'd give anything to have the opportunities her daughter now had laid out before her.
Jimmy reached around her and collected her plate, his rolled shirtsleeves exposing his muscled forearm.
âThanks, Jimmy.' She smiled up at him. It was hard not to notice James Painter. He was far too handsome for his own good. After losing her dad, it had been so nice to have a male figure around again, and Jimmy was tall and strong, but upbeat and optimistic, too. That was something she'd missed her whole life. Her dad had depended on Toni for nearly everything, but being wheelchair-bound, he'd also suffered from bouts of depression.
She resisted the urge to watch Jimmy's denim-clad backside and instead focused on her mum. Toni wondered how she'd managed to stay on the farm for so long without complaining even once.
âThanks for brekkie, Mum. We'll be off moving a mob to the south paddock. See you at lunchtime.'
âOkay, dear. And don't forget to check the dam pump. I'm not getting the water to my vegies.'
âWe'll check it out on our way back. See ya.'
Jimmy was waiting outside for her. His boots were on and he was leaning against the verandah pole, the morning sun casting bright light across his unshaven jaw. The stubble only came off when it got too long and itchy for him. Toni didn't mind it, and had often wondered what it would be like to have his strong arms around her and to kiss his lips. But that was a ridiculous notion. He was eight years younger than her, still in his forties, still young enough to have a family of his own. Toni had been thirty-three when she'd had Felicity, and by the time she'd realised she was pregnant, the father, Simon, had already moved on, leaving Toni behind with the most amazing gift.
Toni slipped on her Rossi boots and glanced towards Contractor's stall.
âShe's not there,' Jimmy pre-empted, putting on his tan akubra hat and passing Toni her dark-brown one. âShe'll be down at the old place.'
Toni realised Jimmy was right. The old brick farmhouse had always been Felicity's thinking place.
âShall we go move this mob, then?' he asked.
âRighto,' Toni replied as they headed for the ute, boots crunching on gravel. Gypsy, at Jimmy's heel, launched herself up onto the back tray of the old Hilux they used for paddock work. The noise from the Hilux's holey muffler was great for moving on the sheep.
Toni drove them down the track past the gimlet trees and the old house. She spotted Fella lying outside the front door, the telltale sign that Flick was inside.
âDo you think I'm pushing her too much?' Toni asked, clenching her hands on the steering wheel. Her nails were short, her hands marked with cuts and ingrained dirt. Jimmy remained silent. Toni stopped at the paddock gate and glanced at him.
âYou really want to know what I think?' he said, looking at her.
âOf course.'
âEven if you never take my advice?' he replied with a smirk, then jumped out of the ute to open the gate. When he got back in he fiddled with his hat in his hands.
âCome on, Jimmy. Please.'
âWell, honestly, I don't think you can force Flick to do anything. She's stubborn, like you.'
â
Me?
Don't you mean my mother?'
âAll you Stewart women are stubborn, but that's not a criticism. Being stubborn is also one of your strengths. It's what makes you all survivors.'
Toni shrugged, unable to look into his intriguing green eyes.
âAll I'm trying to say is, it has to be Flick's idea. She'll go to uni if she can see a benefit in it for her, maybe to do agribusiness or an equine course. And maybe the travel will come a few years later when something grabs her interest. She's still only twenty. But if you keep pushing her, she may close herself off just to spite you.'
Toni mulled over his words as she drove closer to the sheep. Gypsy had already jumped off and was bringing them into a close group. She risked a glance at Jimmy's face. âHow did you get to be so insightful?'
Suddenly the ute lurched and they both hit their heads on the roof. Toni braked and rubbed her head.
âWhat the hell was that? Did I just run over a sheep?' she said, glancing at the mob ahead.
âI don't think so. It sounded solid.' Jimmy leapt out and gasped. âOh my God,'
Toni rushed to his side where he knelt down. âWhat? What is it?'
Jimmy was trying to talk but he was laughing too hard. He reached for Toni and pulled her down to see under the ute. They hadn't hit a sheep or a rock, but the old rusty bullbar from the front of the Hilux. It had somehow come off and they'd run right over it. Toni burst out laughing too.
As their laughter eventually died, Toni became aware that Jimmy was still holding her arm. She also realised she was leaning into him.
Jimmy didn't move away and there was a new expression in his eyes she hadn't noticed before, one she couldn't handle.
âToni . . .' he whispered, staring deep into her eyes, but just at that moment Gypsy barked at them, as if to say, âWhat the hell are you doing? Are we moving this mob or what?'
Toni jumped up off the ground and brushed the dirt from her pants. âWell, we need to shift this bloody thing,' she said.
Moments later Jimmy was pulling on a section of rusty steel. Together they dragged it out from under the ute. It squealed as metal ground against metal and they lifted it onto the back tray.
âSeems like the rust ate out the brackets,' she said as she walked to the front of the ute. âThe old girl looks a bit different now.'
Jimmy chuckled. âShe sure does.' His gentle laugh was enough to put them both at ease. But Toni couldn't forget their moment. What had Jimmy been about to say to her?
Gypsy barked and they started moving the sheep again.
âThe lambs are looking good,' said Jimmy.
âThey are, aren't they? We've had such a good drop rate.'
âYeah, you were right to change the lambing dates. They're going great on all the green feed,' he said, shutting the gate on the mob in the next paddock.
Toni clenched her teeth to stop her smile spreading. âThank you. I appreciate that.' Her father had scarcely given her any praise over the years. When she'd used her initiative or suggested an easier way, her father had never acknowledged it. Although she felt a pang of guilt admitting it, even to herself, deep down Toni loved running the farm without her dad's overbearing self-righteousness.
She leant back against the frame of the gate and watched the merinos, their heads down eating as they settled into the different paddock. The growing lambs beside their mums did look really healthy, and Toni felt a sense of accomplishment. She worked damn hard on this farm, and it took everything she had to offer. Toni had no idea what âpersonal' time was. She'd never taken a real holiday. A weekend down the coast fishing was as good as it got. And to think she'd spent her childhood dreaming of getting on an aeroplane and flying far away from Sunnyvale.
âYou look like you're a million miles away,' Jimmy said.
Toni sighed. âI guess I was.' She swatted a fly and turned to face him. âDo you ever wonder how different our lives could have been?'
His face was unreadable and Toni instantly regretted her wayward question.
âYes, I've thought about it. Like if the bank had given me the loan to buy my father's farm instead of him having to sell it? But then I wouldn't have gone looking for work and I wouldn't have ended up here.' He shrugged. âI wouldn't have you three in my life and it'd be pretty empty. So I'm glad it worked out this way. Maybe fate had this planned out all along.'
âWow.' Toni knew Jimmy enjoyed working at Sunnyvale but to put the three of them before having his own farm?
âSometimes life has a way of working out, even if you don't realise it at the time. Sometimes â'
âSometimes you talk too much.' She smiled. âBut I know what you're trying to say. So, thanks. I know I'm lucky.'
âIs this about your dad?' Jimmy asked softly.
Toni couldn't bring herself to respond. How did he know? Was she that easy to read?
âWho do you talk to, Toni? You never leave the farm. You don't seem to have any fun â'
âI have fun,' she said vehemently.
âReally? I've asked you to come to the club with me for a feed and a game of pool and you never do. Or head to the lake for a swim and just relax. You work too hard, you know that.'
âI . . .' Toni closed her mouth again. What could she say?
I don't go anywhere with you because it would be too much fun
? She didn't want to like him any more than she already did. It was easier not to be around him â especially in his swimming shorts! It was bad enough in summer when he'd strip off his shirt and stand under the outside shower.
âWhat is it that you wanted to do before your dad had his accident?' Jimmy pressed.
Oh God.
The million-dollar question. Toni winced as her dreams flooded her mind. âDad couldn't help it. They had no other choice but to bring me home to help.'
âThat's not what I asked, Toni.'
Toni hated the way his jade eyes ate right through to the most fragile part of her. She glanced back to her sheep, the paddock opening up before them along the horizon. âI wanted to travel,' she said at last. She'd never spoken about her desires to anyone before.
âSo what's wrong with starting that now? You can always take me along,' he added with a wink.
Toni laughed, but that shimmer in his eyes was back. She'd always been able to read him, but now he seemed to be sending new messages.
âI'll remember that next time I head to the sale yards,' said Toni, slapping him playfully on his arm.
âToni, you never know what life might be about to throw at you.' He shrugged. âLook at me â fate threw me in with three extraordinary Sunnyvale girls. Sometimes things just work out.'
For some reason Jimmy's words rattled inside her mind and caused a tingle down her spine. Maybe this would be the year that brought about change for them all. The more she thought about it, the more she felt it was true. She breathed in deeply, the air tinged with dust and eucalyptus, but also something else.
What did fate have in store for them all?
FLICK
turned off the old vacuum cleaner and arched her back as she surveyed her efforts. It had taken her two hours to finish scraping off the old carpet underlay that had stuck fast to the jarrah floorboards. Grandad had always said that floorboards were a sign of being poor, so the moment they could get rugs or carpet, they did. Now jarrah floorboards like these were hot property. This whole house was filled with them, and Flick wanted the boards in glossed glory.
Maggie's old room was the last one she'd cleaned. Now Flick could start up the sander she'd hired. She'd already bogged up the cracks in the walls, repainted them and replaced all the ceilings in the rooms where rain had got in and damaged them. The house was transforming before her eyes. Flick didn't need much effort to imagine it all fixed up. It would be full of characÂter and charm: high ceilings, wide passageways, a huge built-in pantry in the kitchen, lots of rooms. Flick picked up the vacuum cleaner, took it out the front and dumped it on the verandah by the door. The outside of the house was still the original bricks. Flick touched the perfect rectangles with their swirl pattern. She couldn't imagine making each one of these by hand.
Heavy boot steps creaked along the verandah. âYou need a moment alone with your house?' Jimmy teased as he stopped beside her. Gypsy found Fella and they ran off into the bush as if they were rally cars, skidding around the trees.
âHow did they do it, Jimmy?'
âHow did who do what?'
âRocco and Giulio. You know, the Italian prisoners they had working on the farm. Nan said that they made each one of these bricks by hand and built this whole house with just a tape measure, plumb and level. It must have taken ages.'
Jimmy touched a brick too, his dirty finger tracing the pattern. âI guess it would have. But they worked hard in those days. Would have done a whole day's work on just a bit of bread and cheese too, probably. They were bloody clever, I'll give 'em that.'
âNan said they used a shovel to slap the mud into a mould. Imagine trying to make all the bricks and then still having to build the house. She said when it came time to put the roof on, the house was only a smidgen off perfectly square.'
Jimmy shrugged. âIt's like asking how they made the Colosseum, or Petra in Jordan.'
Flick studied Jimmy. âHave you ever been?'
âMe? No. My sister has. She loves travelling. I wouldn't mind going one day, but what's better than what we've got?' he said with a wink.
âI agree.' She smiled. âSo, what are you doing here? Escaped Mum for a bit, have you?'
Jimmy cleared his throat. âSomething like that. Thought I'd see how you're going. Tried sanding yet?'
âJust about to. Can you run me through it again? I really don't want to stuff up.'
He nodded and followed her inside and down the wide passageÂway. There was a lounge room to the left and a bedroom to the right, and further down it opened up into a dining area with another room on the left. There were fireplaces in the lounge and dining rooms, with a big old stove in the kitchen that was a thing of beauty. Flick was so glad it hadn't been ransacked over the years. She planned to put in a new one, but alongside the old one. Sometimes Nan still came over to light a fire in the old stove to cook her pavlovas. They were the best ever.
The kitchen wasn't large but it extended out off the dining area and had a walk-in pantry. A door off to the side took you to the enclosed back verandah, to the bathroom and the sleep-out bedroom.
The large sander was in the corner of the main bedroom, plugged in and ready for work.
âHave you hit down all the nails?' Jimmy asked.
âYep. The lounge room was last and it was in really good shape.'
He bent down to look at a few spots. âGood job. I could take you out doing tradie work if your mum ever sacks me.'
âIt's easy when someone shows you. And as if Mum would sack you. She'd never admit it but I don't think she could do without you.'
Jimmy smiled, even though Flick could tell he was trying not to. She was glad that news made him happy. Her mum should tell him stuff like that herself but she was too much like Grandad, never any good at showing her emotions.
Jimmy stood up and handed her a dust respirator and goggles. âOkay, just like I showed you before. Never bounce the sanding drum or stand in one place, or you'll get hollows in the floor.' Jimmy started the drum floor sander and walked forward. âSee? Just like that. Go in the direction of the planks and wood grain.' He did a patch and then it was Flick's turn.
She was a little nervous, but Jimmy was a good teacher. She learnt more from him than she would at any agriculture school.
âThat's it, keep going.'
As she moved forward again there was a loud vibration noise. Confused, she stopped the machine and pulled off her dust mask.
âWhat did I do wrong?'
âIt was a loose board. You must have missed one.'
Flick hadn't noticed a loose board before. She stepped to the wall and pressed on the boards along it. None of them moved but as she knelt down, the edge of one of the shorter boards rose up.
âThis one doesn't have any nails in it at all.'
That was strange. Flick pushed it down again and slid her finger under the other end. The short board lifted out completely from under the edge of the wall. She shot Jimmy a look.
âHuh. I hope this isn't how the mice get in,' she said, bending down to look into the hole. âHey, I think there's something down there. Hang on.'
Flick jumped up and ran to the kitchen to get the torch. When she returned Jimmy was trying to fit his arm down the hole. She laughed. âThat's what having too many muscles does. Here, mine are skinnier.'
âI could feel the top of a tin,' he said, excitement in his voice.
Flick shined the torch on his face. âWho's supposed to be the kid here?' She crouched down to peer into the black slit. âIt's a box. God, I hope there are no snakes hiding down here.' Handing Jimmy the torch she squeezed her hand into the gap.
âIt's probably a snake pit filled with spiders of every shape and size.' Jimmy reached over and tickled her arm.
Flick tried hard not to scream and drop the box but she did pull it back so fast she knocked skin off her knuckles. âDamn you, Jimmy. You know I hate snakes and spiders.'
âYou're just like Maggie. You gonna fill this house up with buckshot too?' he said with a chuckle.
âIf I have to.' Flick turned the narrow tin box, which was almost as wide as the floorboard, so she could ease it out. âWhoever put this here would have had arms like me. It's a tight fit. Do you think it was Nan?'
âI don't know. Hurry up and open it. Maybe it's old coins worth a fortune.'
Flick brushed off the dirt from the top and rested the box on her lap. It was a little rusty and looked old. She prised open the lid. Inside was a stack of envelopes gathered by string. The top envelope had some moisture damage, and the address was hard to read. Two fading stamps were lifting off the corner.
âLetters. To who?' Jimmy asked.
âI'm not sure. I can't quite read it.' Flick counted ten letters in all and looked at one towards the middle. The ink on the envelope was much easier to read, although the handwriting was unfamiliar. âIt's addressed to Nan. Look, see?
Maggie Fuller, care of Sunnyvale Farm, Pingaring.
' Flick held it up for Jimmy and as she did, she realised something. âIt's never been opened.' She checked the others. âAll for Nan and none have been opened. I wonder who they're from.'
Jimmy took one and studied it. âThe stamps are Italian.'
âNo way, really?' Flick studied the rectangles and sure enough, Jimmy was right. âAmazing.'
âDo you think Maggie hid them? Or maybe someone didn't want her to see these.' He looked around. âWho's room was this?'
âIt was my great-gran's. A scandal, do you think?' On the back of the second letter was an address. âOh, I have to go show Nan right now. I wonder what they say.'
âWhat about the sanding?' said Jimmy as Flick stood up.
âIt can wait â this is like finding buried treasure! I won't be long, but if you get bored . . .' she said with the sweetest smile she could muster.
Jimmy just waved her off and put his dust mask back on.
âThanks, Jimmy. Love ya!' Then she was off, running towards the main house, past the gimlets and the vegie garden. âNan!' she yelled as she got closer. â
Nan!
'
Maggie opened the back door. âGoodness, girl, what's going on? Is someone hurt?'
âNo, but look what I found in the old house.' Flick was trying to catch her breath as she handed over the pile of letters. âThey were hidden under a floorboard and they're addressed to you. All ten of them. And they have Italian stamps. Who are they from, Nan?'
Maggie stepped out from the doorway and took a letter. Her finger went to the stamps and then both hands began to shake. Clutching the letter to her chest, she closed her eyes.
Flick watched her sway and reached for her. âSit down, Nan.' She helped Maggie to the bench seat against the back of the house. âAre you feeling okay?'
Maggie nodded and smiled, but there were tears in her eyes. She gently opened the letter, some of the fragile paper tearing. Flick held her breath with anticipation.
âCan you read it, please, darling? I haven't got my glasses,' said Maggie in a strained voice.
Flick sat beside her and took the letter from her nan's grasp.
âIt says
Bella Maggie
, I think?'
Maggie gasped and nodded. âOh yes,
beautiful Maggie
. What else does it say?'
âUm . . .Â
I am looking for work but there is none. I help my family. I am trying to get back to you. I haven't heard from you but I will not give up hope that you wait for me. I made a promise. I will come back to Australia so we can be together. Ti amo, Rocco.
'
Flick dropped the letter on her lap and looked up at her nan. Tears were falling silently down her lined face.
âOh, Nan.' Flick embraced her, clutching her hand in hers as her strong nan cried. âI'm sorry it upset you. I thought you'd be happy.'
Maggie sniffed back some of her tears as she snuggled into Flick's hug. âOh, I am happy, dear. I waited so long for these letters. I thought they never came.'
Flick handed her the tin. âThere are more. Are these from the Italian prisoner you talk about sometimes?'
Maggie nodded, fingering the letters. âHe was the love of my life once, Felicity. It seems so very long ago.'
If the emotion on her grandmother's face was anything to go by, time didn't seem to be a factor. âBut you never forget your first love, right?'
Maggie dried her tears with her apron. âWhere did you find them?'
âHidden under a loose floorboard in your mother's room. Do you think she hid them from you?'
âPerhaps she did. Maybe she knew how I felt about Rocco, even though we tried hard to hide it. Or maybe she just didn't want the connection to him. She never would have approved. He was a prisoner, an Italian and he had no money.' Maggie sighed angrily. âI asked her if she'd seen any letters from Rocco. She lied to me. I should have known.'
âDid he have to go back to Italy?' asked Flick, not liking the flash of regret and pain on her Nan's face.
âYes, all of them were sent back after the war. It broke my heart.' Maggie glanced at the letters again.
âWould you like me to read another one, Nan?'
âThat's okay, dear. I'll go find my reading glasses. You probably want to get back to what you were doing.'
Actually, Flick wanted to stay right there and ask Nan heaps of questions about her and Rocco. But she realised Maggie probably wanted some time alone, and she couldn't blame her. What a thing to find. All those years Nan was waiting to hear from Rocco . . . she'd thought he never cared, when all along he did. It was so sad, Flick could have cried. All that lost love.
âAll right, Nan,' she said, kissing her soft cheek. âI'll get back to work. If you need anything you know where I am. We'll talk after dinner, okay?'
Maggie nodded but she was staring at her letters, her eyes brimming with memories and tears. Flick had never seen her blue eyes so vibrant and youthful. She got up and walked to the edge of the verandah but Maggie didn't notice. She was already back in 1944.