Authors: Gayle Callen
“It sounds like it still does, to you. You hold a grudge.”
He said nothing, only continued to eat as if he was unaffected. But Riona saw a weakness about him now, a man affected by emotions toward his family, a man with some guilt about the behavior of his youth. Not that she had any idea how to use these things against him.
“How long did you remain with your mother's family?”
“Three years. Until the Rising made me stand on my own feet as a man.”
She inhaled in dismay. “You were with the Jacobites during the rebellion?”
“Rebellion?” he scoffed. “Now ye truly sound like a Sassenach using that word.”
That made her hot with embarrassment, but she said nothing.
“But I ken ye've been living in England, and ye cannot be blamed for what your father made ye do. England must accept that we won't forget our true and rightful king. The King Over the Water deserves our support.”
“He will never be king of Great Britain, McCallumâor so my father says.”
“Your father, the one who can be trusted to keep a contract?” he sneered.
“That is my
uncle,
as I've told you over and over again.”
He snorted.
“My father is his younger brother. But regardless, they speak often of the futility of going against the Crown. James Stuart can never be kingâhe's Catholic. He won't be accepted now that his cousin George is on the throne.”
“That means nothing. It's been obvious since the Act of Union that England only meant to keep us subservient to them. Scottish noblemen were denied a place in the House of Lords, though they'd been promised it. Our taxes went up, our privy council was abolishedâwe were betrayed.”
“But you cannot raise a large enough armyâdidn't Sheriffmuir and the failed march into northern England make you see that?”
“The Earl of Mar was a poor leader. We were twelve thousand strong in Perth, ready to march south, and instead he delayed. And delayed. Men deserted over the lack of discipline. We had superior numbers at Sheriffmuir when we met the Duke of Argyll and his supporters. And we were victorious.”
“Didn't Argyll claim victory, too? I heard there were many casualties on both sides, and nothing was decided.” He opened his mouth angrily, but she rushed on, “You were so youngâwere you hurt?”
He ignored that. “I may have been young, but I
knew our victory could have been conclusive if Mar would have risked the whole army, but he wouldn't, and victory was hollow when nothing came of it. I couldn't march into England for the battle at Preston that ended in surrender. Even when our true king came to our shores, it was too late to matter.”
“I heard the man was ill and left within the month.”
McCallum said nothing, just tore a piece of bread apart like he was taking apart the enemy.
“If you didn't march into England, were you wounded? If so, you were lucky. You might have been captured.”
“Not so lucky. I had to spend the spring recovering at Larig. I thought I could alter my relationship with my father, but everything became worse.”
He stared into the fire, and the shadows flickering over his face looked harsh and menacing, as if his memories of that summer were terrible. She could not press her luck, not this night.
“So you only stayed with your father the first half of the year after the Rising? What did you do then?”
Those gray eyes focused sharply on her again. “For someone trying to convince me ye're not involved in my plans for the clan, ye ask many questions.”
The food seemed to settle hard in her stomach, and she sat back in her chair, no longer hungry. “I
am only curious and trying to pass the time. Would you rather I sit here silently?”
“At least then I would ken your purpose.” He pushed his plate away. “Enough of this. We have to get an early start in the morn. Let us retire to bed.”
She'd known this was comingâperhaps part of her desperation to learn something about him was just to put off the inevitable. She glanced at the bed, trying to hide her fear. Fear only showed her vulnerability.
“I already made ye a vow that I would never force ye into what ye're not ready for,” McCallum said coldly. “I don't break my vows.”
She had no answer to that. His vow had led him to take her captiveâshe didn't trust the strength of his supposed vows. But she couldn't tell him that. “I will sleep in front of the fire.”
“Ye'll not. Ye need a good night's sleep as much as I do. Get into that bed.”
She stood up to face him, gritting her teeth. She wanted to refuse, to fight, but he only had to toss her onto the bed and hold her down and maybe . . . no, she couldn't let that happen. So she whirled and marched to the bed, climbed in and pulled the counterpane up to her chin. She wished she could protest that there was no room for him, that his big body would crowd her out.
He went to the fire, laid another piece of peat across it, and rearranged his drying garments once
again. After blowing out the candle on the table, he came to her, a vast shadow against the light of the fire. Riona's heart was pounding so loudly that surely he could hear it. She wondered if she should have insisted that Samuel share the room with them. She needed a buffer, but there was no one. If she screamed, Samuel would hear her, but . . . would he go against his chief?
McCallum sat on the edge of the bed, and it dipped toward him. She braced herself with a hand, even as he lay down on his side, facing away from her. She hovered there, waiting, looking at the width of his shoulders, and the counterpane he only caught beneath his arm.
“Are ye going to lie down,” McCallum asked with obvious exasperation, “or sit up all night?”
Very slowly, she lay back on her pillow, tense, as if she needed to spring up at a moment's notice. But nothing happened except that his breathing deepened. Would he really leave her alone?
I
t took Hugh a long time to fall asleep, though he knew he'd successfully convinced Riona otherwise. Her lithe body had barely dented the mattress, but he felt the fight finally go out of her as she slipped into sleep, and some of his own tension eased. Listening to her even breathing, he imagined the future, when the worst of this marriage battle was behind him. Would he feel at peace when he lawfully lay beside her? Would he ever find a way to convince her that he would make an honorable husband? Or would his past come between them in the end?
It had been strange to discuss the things he'd done in his youth with another person, especially the one who would be his wife. He'd kept some of it to himself, which could be a mistake, considering what she might hear from his clansmen. But he didn't want to scare her off any more than he already had.
But somehow he must have sleptâand slept deeply, a rarity for himâbecause he came awake to the sensation of soft warmth along his side and the silkiness of bare, feminine legs entwined with his. Without moving, he opened his eyes to see that somehow in the night, Riona had pressed herself along his side, pillowed her head on his shoulder. Her hair was like another blanket along his chest and arm, and she must have unconsciously felt the same heat, for the bedclothes were lowered around both of their waists.
He hadn't been able to get much of a glimpse of her nightshift, not with the way her gaze had been shooting daggers at him. He'd spent the evening avoiding looking below her neck; her face was captivating enough.
But now he could look his fill, at least of her breasts, so, being but a man, he did. He could feel the soft roundness of them against his own chest, the gentle pressure as her breathing deepened and then let out. The nightshift was caught beneath her, pulling the fabric tight so that he could see the vague outline of her nipple. He ached to touch and caress and give her the pleasure that he knew would make her see that they would have a good marriage.
But she wouldn't see such an intrusion that way. So he fisted one hand in the counterpane to control his urges. He lay still, listening to the sounds of
the birds beginning to awaken before dawn, then dozed briefly, more content and relaxed than he'd been in a long, long time.
He felt her stir before he heard her. She arched slowly against him, and he squeezed his eyes shut to keep from pulling her beneath him, from settling between her legs where he wanted to be. Those legs moved against his, bare skin on bare skin, her thigh creeping up along his. Her soft, sleepy moan made him regret the months that had passed since he'd last known a woman's bed.
And then she went all stiff with awareness. He closed his eyes and feigned sleep, although it was difficult to lie still when he could feel her breathing increase with agitation, and that only made her breasts seem as if to caress him.
She raised herself up slowly on one elbow, her hair sliding against him like the fan of a flirtatious woman. He regretted the loss of her touch acutely, but she didn't move completely away. What was she doing?
And at last he opened his eyes and saw that she studied him with suspicion, even as her eyes slowly widened.
“Ye can't get enough of me, lass?” he asked with satisfaction, knowing it would be the wrong thing to say, but unable to help himself.
With a groan she tried to push away from him. “How dare you! Let me go! I shall scream!”
He caught her flailing arms. “Enough. I did not do this. I seem to remember sleeping apart from ye. Surely it was your body that betrayed ye.”
When she groaned, he let her go, then swung his legs over the side and stood up. He arched and stretched, feeling well-rested for the first time in days. Glancing over his shoulder, he found her once again with the counterpane pulled to her chin, glaring at him.
“I need some privacy,” she insisted.
“And when Samuel arrives, I'll give ye some. Until then, be patient.”
He opened the door, found a pile of cleaned clothing, and brought it inside to dress. Just as he finished, someone knocked, and he called entrance.
“McCallum!” Riona cried, outraged, even as she yanked the counterpane to her nose.
He ignored her.
Samuel stepped inside, and his eyes went wide at the pretty image Riona made in bed. “Uh . . . good morning. Breakfast will be brought up soon.”
“Good,” Hugh said. “Can ye remain outside the door while I see to our departure and Riona dresses?”
“Of course.”
Samuel seemed eager to be away from them, and Hugh shook his head. When he stepped into the corridor himself, he heard something hit the door behind him.
Samuel eyed him. “Did ye bed her?”
“Nay, but I wasn't about to sleep on the floor. I slept well, and I think she did, too, which is part of the reason she's upset.”
“I saw a tub . . .”
“I turned my back while she bathed, like a gentleman. And when it was my turn, 'twas refreshing.”
“I bet that went well.”
“'Twas . . . enlightening.”
G
ETTING
back into the coach was as dreadful as Riona knew it would be. Her bruises from the rough ride seemed magnified, and would only get worse, because the roads certainly were, even here in the Lowlands. The innkeeper had kindly given her a frame, cloth, and thread for needlework, but it was often too bumpy for her to sew. McCallum had opened her window more, so at least she could see the countryside. For several days, they followed a river valley and on either side, hills rolled in the distance, some of them brown and bare of trees along the summit. At night the men slept on bedrolls by a fire, and she slept within the coach, uncomfortable, but dry.
Coaches were few and far between now; they often had to pull aside for a string of laden packhorses being led south toward the markets in England, and once a herd of shaggy black cattle meandered on the path, reluctant to move.
When McCallum rode inside the coach with her, he tried to arouse her interest about the countryside, telling her of the heated, healing waters at Moffat, or the Roman ruins at Abington. And though part of her was interested in learning about her own country, she concentrated hard on seeming indifferent. She was still so appalled at how she'd relaxed in her sleep, cozied right up against McCallum as if he wasn't her kidnapper. Her body had betrayed her, and she was so afraid it would happen again that she didn't even ask to find an inn, though it rained on and off, and the men took turns getting damp as they drove her ever northward.
She found herself so bored that she kept flashing back to memories of that intimate night together, his bare legs against hers, how safe she'd felt in his arms when she'd first awoken and couldn't remember everything. Safe? Someone was supposed to be keeping her safe from the likes of
him.
But no one was rescuing herâshe'd given up hope for that. She could only rely on herself now, and her powers of persuasion. Somehow she would make him believe the truth.
They reached Glasgow, a port burgh that McCallum reminded her proudly had had a university as far back at the fifteenth century. It was now a hub of trade with the American colonies and the rest of Europe. There were more people hereâforeigners
and Sassenachsâbut McCallum was no fool, and did not allow her to spend a night there.
“Ye'd have worked your wiles on those poor men,” McCallum told her as she stared out the window sadly at the dwindling buildings behind them.
At least they'd stopped for provisions, although he would not allow the time for clothes to be laundered. She could see he was growing more and more alert as he looked to the north, toward home.
It should be her home, too. Their clan lands bordered each other. But her parents had made sure it was not home, and she couldn't overcome that feeling of . . . intruder, outlander, Sassenach.
They took a drovers' road northeast of Glasgow toward Stirling, where the land seemed bare yet captivating, miles of rolling farmlands giving way to higher bare ground of moors and bogs, bleak and brown, but full of a strange beauty that intrigued Riona. This was the land of her people, and she'd always been told how wild and savage it wasâwild, yes, but magnificent in its own way. McCallum once again talked of the history, of the second wall built nearby by the Romans, just like the one on the English border, only this was to keep the men of the Highlands out. More than once she saw the ruin of a castle on distant hills. The poor horses strained to pull the coach ever higher, and the going
was slow until they reached the low summit, with the valley spread out below toward Stirling. And then she was forced to listen to McCallum's pride in the burgh.
“Armies of old aimed to hold Stirling if they wanted to encroach the Highlands. One of the royal castles of the kings of Scotland is there. And 'tis where I keep a private stable.”
That jolted her from her dazed stare out the window. “What?”
“We'll be able to go no farther in the coach, so I house it there.”
His home was so remote a coach couldn't travel there. She groaned and closed her eyes, feeling as if she were going to the end of the world.
“I had a letter from a friend in Inverness,” McCallum continued in a wry voice. “The first chaise made it there only last year. He said the whole town came out to see it.”
Riona could only stare at him in horror. What kind of place
was
this?
As they approached the town, Stirling Castle rose high above the surrounding valley, up on a rocky promontory, and Riona saw McCallum's expression cloud. She knew enough of her history to know that the Jacobite forces had tried to take the castle during the Rising, and had been unsuccessful. Had he been there, too, trying to take back the Scottish castle of his king from the English? But all
she could focus on was what lay beyond Stirling, the daunting line of mountains to the northwest, where they were headed.
There was no inn that night, much as she might have wished it. McCallum kept a room above his stables roughly furnished with beds and trunks and a table. Samuel shared the room with them, though he seemed embarrassed by it. Riona almost didn't care by that point. She was exhausted in both mind and body. No wonder her parents had never brought her to the Highlands.
To her surprise, McCallum remained in Stirling a second night, so that he could purchase supplies for the journey. Samuel was with her constantly, though she spent much of the day dozing on her bed. McCallum seemed concerned about her that night, and she insisted she wasn't sick, simply appreciative that the furniture wasn't rocking furiously under her. More than once in the coach, she'd been thrown to the floor.
Then at dawn, she found herself riding a mare across the valley floor, toward the bleak mountain range that rose up as if in warning. The drovers' road was barely a path, overgrown with heather and gorse, with only the occasional beech or pine trees in the lower foothills. The two men positioned her horse between theirs, leading a packhorse behind. She had no choice but to follow Samuel along the narrow dirt path that wound its way ever deeper
into the Highlands. Why did it feel so permanent, like she'd never leave again?
A
FTER
a day of slow travel, occasionally following the River Teith through the rising hills, they made camp outside the village of Callandar on a cool summer night. The next day, their journey took them along Loch Lubnaig, where pine forests came almost to the water's edge, and the bare mountaintops seemed like the uneven backs of lumpy animals. Riona thought they would climb the snow-topped heights of Ben Ledi itself, but to her relief, their path turned and edged the loch, then another river before heading west into a glen that eventually broadened into Loch Voil, another beauteous lake nestled within mountains.
It was late afternoon when Riona wanted to rest, but McCallum insisted they push forward, along the lake and past the next rising mountain. She wasn't all that anxious to see the place where she'd live temporarily. The few villages they'd passed, thatched-roof huts with stone walls, had not gotten her hopes up. Perhaps McCallum wouldn't allow the cow to occupy a room in the cottage, like some did.
She was just about to insist they make camp when they took a turn, and to her surprise, the first square tower rose above the trees, with guards standing watch on battlements. They rode farther,
up to a low hilltop where a large castle had been built, overlooking the hills. The fortress was long and broad, with walls of stone keeping intruders out, but for a guarded gatehouse. Several square towers rose higher than the walls.
McCallum was watching her now, his expression one of amused condescension, as if he'd known the bleak cottage she'd been imagining. She lifted her chin and said nothing, but she was impressed nonetheless.
All around them on the hillsides, black, shaggy cattle roamed, and below them in the distance, small farm fields clustered around another village in the glen. But the castle, which had been hidden from below by a curve in the hillside, dominated the skyline and rivaled the mountains themselves for grandeur.
As they came closer to the gatehouse, guards dressed in black and red plaid, their legs bare, moved to take up a position to stop them. Surprised, Riona looked to McCallum, whose expression remained neutral even as he began to speak in Gaelic. She thought she heard him say his own name, which shocked her. Was he having to introduce himself to his own people? Or had he been lying to her about his identity all along?
But Samuel only waited patiently, as if he had no concerns. And true enough, the guards seemed to come to attention, doffing their bonnets and look
ing abashed. One led their small party through the gatehouse, and Riona looked up at the sharply pointed portcullis that would drop through the ceiling and bar the entrance from invaders. She felt like an invader right along with McCallum, but she was truly a captive of war, the war that had been going on between McCallum and Duff for centuries.