I stood in the middle of Delores's spotless kitchen, holding the frying pan, as the miracle of that morning washed over me again.
Sometimes,
I thought, God snatches His children out of the quicksand we waded into ourselves and says,
There. I'm giving you another chance to trust Me.
Another chance for Ricardo. Thank You, Jesus!
Another chanceâlike He'd given to me after the car accident that killed Jamal Wilkins.
“
Gracias
, Jodi
.”
Delores stood in the kitchen doorway, short, loose dark hair framing a gentle smile on her round face. “Will I be able to find anything after you're done doing my dishes? ” I turned, only then realizing my eyes and nose were running and my face was probably all blotchy.
“I . . . I was just thinking about God's mercy.”
We just looked at each other for a long moment. And then we were in each other's arms, crying and holding and praying and thanking Jesus for all that mercy, all that grace God willingly squandered on us.
Never did find where to put the frying pan. I left it on the counter.
NO ARGUMENT WITH THE WEATHER THAT WEEKEND: temperatures securely in the sixties, October skies beaming with sunshine, and playful winds rattling elm trees until the leaves fell in little golden showers. The ushers propped open the double doors of our shopping center sanctuary on Sunday, letting the last of the good weather inânot to mention letting some of our good, rollicking praise music
out
.
I was so glad to see Florida on Sunday morning. Gave her a big hug, but she didn't seem her usual self.Tired, she said. I wanted to ask if Chanda had called about paying the bill from the city, but knew I'd be sticking my big foot in it if she hadn't. “Just pray for us, Jodi,” she said. “Know what I'm sayin'? ”
Oh God, so many things to pray for!
I felt like I was falling down on the job. Should be praying for our church, which didn't even have a proper name yet. (Couldn't call it UptownâNew Morning forever.) Should be praying for Mark Smith's full healing, sitting over there beside his beautiful Nony, his wings clipped, the first quarter of Northwestern University's academic year in full swing without him. There was Becky with Little Andy on her lap, but at the end of the day Andy had to go back to his grandmother. Should be praying for
something
to move, the earth to shake, walls to come down so Little Andy could come home to his mother. And Stu, her heart enlarged with concern for othersâbut still estranged from her own parents. Avis and Peter, looking perfect and calm and compatible up there on the first row, but a wound in their blended family tore at Avis's heart.
Oh God, don't let it tear them apart!
And it's been a while since you've prayed for “that girl,” Jodi,
nudged the still, small Voice in my spirit.
Pray, Jodi, pray!
I felt so pressed in my spiritânot depressed, just urgentâthat I went outside to sit on the porch swing later that afternoon just to pray.
Intercessory prayer,
Avis called it. Praying for others. Had a few thanksgivings too. Top of the list was the Enriques family. Still could hardly believe how God had put a hedge of protection around Ricardo yesterday!âfor Delores's sake, I was sure. And I sure was thankful that Pastor Cobb had announced a church business meeting that morning for the second Sunday in November, encouraging all the members to be praying for God's wisdom how best to merge the leadership, activities, and ministries of both churches.
Thank You, Lord!
Knowing there would be a time to raise concerns and seek solutions would go a long way to calming fears and gossip. Get it all out on the tableâ “Hey, Jodi. You busy? ”
My eyes flew open. Becky Wallace was peering down at me over the railing of the outside stairs. “Not really. I mean, I was just praying. But that's OK.What's up? ”
Becky scurried down the stairs and plopped herself on the bottom step, dressed in her favorite getup: skinny jeans, tank top, and jean jacket. “Talked ta my parole officer yesterday. Monitor comes off first week in November.” She stuck out her left leg, the ankle monitor wedged between her gym shoes and the hem of her jeans.
“Oh! My goodness, Becky! That's wonderful!” Had it been six months
already
? !
“Yeah. Thought I'd go crazy sometimes, but the job really helps.” She frowned. “Thing is, I been thinkin'âI want ta get a place of my own so I can work at makin' a home for Andy. Talked ta Flo 'bout renting that little apartment on their second floor. 'Bout all I can afford on part-time pay. She an' Carl real excited 'bout it, though. They didn't want just anybody livin' there, bein' so close to the boys' bedrooms an' stuff.”
I kept a straight face.
But an ex-heroin addict and convicted felon of an armed robbery would be all right, as long as she's a Yada Yada sister. You've got a strange sense of humor, God!
“But I'm kinda nervous ' bout tellin' Stu, after all she's done for me. Don't want her ta think I'm ungrateful. It's just . . .” Becky wasn't even looking at me, just leaning on her elbows and staring at the warped floorboards of the old, weathered porch.
I leaned forward too. “You can't worry about that, Becky. Living with Stu was just the first step. Of
course
you need to get your own place.”
Might even be a relief to Stu,
I thought. But I didn't say it.
“So could you help me pray about it, Jodi? I'm still not so good at talkin' ta God. I just know I wanna get Andy back real soon. But . . .” Worry lines between her eyebrows puckered. “I wanna be strong, not get tempted ta slip back into the old ways. Know what I mean? ”
Oh wow. That was a biggie. Living on her own, no supervision, no roommate, maybe months still to go before she got through all the red tape of getting Andy back. She'd only been clean one year, counting her time in prison.
I left the swing and joined her on the bottom step, taking her hands in mine. Long, thin fingers, nails cut short, skin rough from digging in our flowerbeds. Could use some hand cream. “You pray just fine, Becky. But thanks for asking me. I feel honored to pray with you about this.”
I did too. Honored to be part of the miracle that was Becky Wallace.
TEMPERATURES ZOOMED INTO THE EIGHTIES the third week of October before nose-living into the forties on the last Sunday.A nippy reminder that summer was over and winter was just around the corner. The time changed, too, from daylight savings to central standard. “Spring forward, fall back” âgotta turn all the clocks back one hour.
At least this year I remembered. Last year we did the Baxter hurry-scurry to get to church on timeâand the door was locked, the street empty. Thought my kids might disown me forever for getting them up an hour
early
, but as it turned out, the Hickmans forgot, too, so we all went out for breakfast. All the Baxter and Hickman kids had so much fun, they said we should “forget” next year too.
Well, here it was next year.Why not? I called Florida and asked if they wanted to meet somewhere for breakfast on Sunday to celebrate the time change. “Nah, don't think so, Jodi. Thanks for thinking of us, though.”
Nah, don't think so? That's it?
“Oh, come on, Flo! We had fun last year, and you could use a little fun.”
“Could use a little more sleep is more like it. Look, Jodi, I 'preciate the thought, but that was a whole year ago.Things was different. Now I'm doin' good to get Carl an' me an' the kids to church
period
. But I'll try to make it to Yada Yada this time. Where we meetin'? ”
So we didn't have breakfast outâcouldn't talk my kids into it, either, especially if no one else was comingâbut we did have a good turnout at Yada Yada later that day. Chanda begged us to meet at her new house, now that she had a nanny-housekeeper to finally get the house in shape, to have a “house blessing” like we did at the Hickmans.
Florida sounded a lot spunkier when she showed up at Chanda's than she had yesterday on the phone. “Girl,” she said, looking Chanda up and down, “you lookin' good for somebody who's gettin' all them radiation treatments. How often ya have to do that thang? Ain't your hair s'posed to fall out or somethin'? ”
Chanda was making the most of being queen bee, seated in her plush recliner, feet up, while the rest of us milled around, admiring the new house and sampling the dry roasted peanuts, chocolate candies, and dried fruit from little bowls placed around the room. “Sundays are mi best days. Two days rest since mi last treatment!
But Monday tru' Friday? Ever day, go to de hospital, ever day after feel lak de truck run mi over. An' t'ree weeks to go!” She shook her head and waved a grateful hand in the air. “But praise Jesus! Still got mi hair! It's dat chemo make de hair fall out.T'ank You, Jesus!”
As long as Chanda was praising, we decided to go ahead and do the house blessing while we waited for the last few Yadas to arriveâRuth and Yo-Yo, specifically. “
SÃ
, might as well.” Delores agreed wryly. “There's no way Ruth is going up those stairs anyway.”
We clumped up to the second floor, sounding like a herd of heffalumps. The house was a four bedroom, two and a half bath. Cheree and Dia each had a separate room, as well as Thomas and Chanda. No guestroom. The housekeeperâChanda introduced her as Yohanna Popescuâmust not live in. But all the rooms were spotless. A sense of order pervaded the house.
“Lord, thank You for Yohanna!” I prayed as we came out of Chanda's bedroom with its new bedroom suite, all scrolls and flourishes. (Nony had prayed for the Holy Spirit to speak to Chanda in the midnight hour; Delores had prayed for sweet rest. I wasn't sure if those prayers negated each other or not! Well, let God sort it out.) “Thank You for the gift Yohanna is to this family, especially as Chanda goes through radiation treatment and regains her strength. Bless Yohanna and the Popescu household as well.”
The Romanian housekeeper must have heard her name, because she stood at the bottom of the stairs as we came down. “Thank you,” she said to me in a heavy accent. “She appreciate it very much,” pointing to herself and giving me a shy smile.
I wanted to hug her but decided not to push my cultural ignorance.
Ruth finally made it, huffing and waving off our chorus of “How are you? ” “What, you want details? I'm here, that's as good as it gets,” she said, taking over the queen bee's recliner. Chanda lifted an eyebrow when she came into the room but said not a word, taking up residence on the cushy couch.
Avis kept the rest of the meeting fairly short, given the thorough “house blessing” we'd done. (We'd even prayed over the garage and the Lexus.) We made a lot of noise rejoicing over Delores's answered prayer for her husband and God's mighty intervention last weekend. Also did some whooping and praising when Becky, hardly able to contain herself, said that next time Yada Yada met, she'd finally be a free woman.
“Oh, my sister!” Nony bestowed one of her megawatt smiles on BW. “Yes, God wants you free. But write this scripture on your heart.” She flipped open her heavily underlined Bible. “This is what Jesus said about freedom: âIf you abide in My Word, you are My disciples indeed. And you shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free!'”
“That's in the
Bible
? ” Yo-Yo blurted. “Man, I hear that all the time. âThe truth will make you free, dude.' But if ya ask me, everybody has their own idea what truth is.”
“Exactly,” Nony said gently. “We pick and choose pieces of God's Word, and it sounds good even to the world.” She held up her Bible. “But Jesus said, âIf you
abide in My Word
,' that's the truth that will make you free.”
There was suddenly a lot of page turning as we all looked up what Jesus said in John 8, in our various translations.
“Speaking of someone who needs to be free . . .” Hoshi's careful Japanese accent stilled the page turning. “I would like to invite my friend Sara to visit Yada Yada, the girl I met in my history class. SheâI do not know how to say this exactlyâneeds friends so much, but she doesn't let anyone close to her. More than that, she needs Jesus. But . . .” She shrugged. “Since we are meeting at our house next time” âshe pointed to herself and Nonyâ “it's close to campus, and I thought maybe she would come.”
We looked at each other. A few gave a shrug. For myself, I thought thirteen Yada Yadas was plenty! Could hardly keep up with each other as it was. But how did we say no to someone who needed Jesus?
We didn't.We all said, well, OK. Next time.
N
ovember blew in cold and nastyâand so did Stu, showing up at our kitchen door one evening while I was writing reports for parent-teacher conferences. I took one look at her scowl and put on the tea water. “You need chamomileâor valerian,” I said, taking two hot mugs out of the dishwasher, which was on the Dry cycle.