Torn (15 page)

 

“Yes! Oh fuck! I am right there!” I moaned out as I opened my eyes to see his eyes looking at me
intensely. I was so turned on looking into them; they were so dark and sexy.

 

We both reached our climax and fell back onto the bed. We laid there trying to catch our breath when
he looked over at me.

 

“You are going to kill me!” He laughed.

 

“Me? Aren’t you all sorts of in shape?” I laughed back as I pushed myself up from the bed.

“I am, but I don’t know if any workout has preparedme for you.” He smacked my ass. I screamed out as
I headed into the bathroom to clean up. This time we definitely had to get out of here or I was going to
have to ravish him again. I then looked down at the floor. “Caleb, I really should go back home. I know I
totally owe you a beer. I just have been gone for so long and I was only going to go for a drive.” I said
regretfully.

“No, that’s fine. I do want to see you again though.” He leaned and placed a kiss on forehead and then
my softly on my lips.

 

“I know. I want to see you too.” I smiled.

We headed back towards the door and he opened it up for me. He grabbed my arm before I could leave
and kissed me once more. I didn’t want to leave and go back home, but I knew that I couldn’t stay here
all day.

“I love you, Ry.” He whispered in my ear.

 

“I love you too.” I sniffed.

 

I turned and headed down the hallway. Once I got to my car I quickly called up Courtney.

 

“Hey! How are ya?” She asked a little too happily.

 

“Court….” I paused.

 

“Oh no! What happened?” She anxiously asked.

 

“So…I…” I paused not even knowing where to begin.

 

“Spill!” She demanded.

 

“I just left Caleb’s place. I just slept with him!” I said quietly.

 

“What?!” She screamed out. “How was it?” She asked eagerly.

 

“Wait, what? You aren’t going to lecture me that I am doing the same thing that my husband is doing?”

“Ryleigh, what he’s doing is for conquests. He’s doing it just to do it. YOU on the other hand, you are
doing it cause your heart is telling you who you are meant to be with. Caleb seems like your soul mate
and you can’t mess with fate.” She laughed. Courtney always believed that everything happened for a
reason, fate and definitely karma.

“Court.” I sighed. “I can’t believe I just did it, but in all honesty…” I paused with a massive smile on my
face. “It was pretty amazing.”

 

“I want details!” She demanded.

 

“No!” I laughed.

 

“Aw come on! Never mind, I don’t want your juicy sex scene ANYWAY!” She pouted. “So what are you
doing now?”

 

“I am headed home.” I said grimly.

 

“Why?” She asked and I at first she meant it as a joke, but she meant it seriously.

 

“Cause I still live there and I am still married to him.” I said firmly.

 

“Umm… Okay, I guess there is no arguing with you on this one. Well, I am proud of you.” She laughed. “If
you do need anything, call me okay. I love ya!”

 

“I love you too, Court. I will call ya later.” I said as I hung up with her.

 

The rest of my drive home may have been quiet in the car but the thoughts made it seem like the
volume of the radio was on full blast.

I pulled back into my driveway. I really needed tocall Caleb and talk to him, but figured I was going to
see him tomorrow. He could wait. The tow truck hadobviously had come by, I saw the car left in the
driveway.

I trudged up to the door and saw Liam asleep in his chair. I walked over to him and gave him a light
shake.

“Hey, you.” He said sleepily. “I didn’t mean to panic and call your phone so many times, I just thought
you would be home sooner and when you hadn’t called or came home, I worried.” I hadn’t even realized
how many missed calls I had.

“I should have called to let you know that I was going to Court’s house. I just needed to have some girl
time with her and clear my head.” I lied.

 

“Since neither one of us ate much for breakfast, are you hungry? I could go and get us something fast or
we could have an early dinner?” He asked.

“That would be nice. Let’s just grab something. We can do a nice dinner when you get home; I will grab
some steaks at the store and grill them up. Right now I want something greasy and very unhealthy.” I
laughed.

“Alright, I’ll get up and go grab some food for us. Something greasy and very unhealthy coming up.” He
tried to push me up but I pushed him back into the chair. He stood up and pulled me into him I saw him
lean in for a kiss.

“Liam. I…I can’t. It is so soon and we need to really…”

 

He stopped and he had looked like he had seen a ghost.

“Ry, are you serious?” He was obviously upset at mestopping him, but he nodded. “I guess, I
understand. I really did fuck up and we really should talk. We didn’t really talk much earlier. Let me go
grab us some food and have a nice talk.”
“Alright, that sounds good.” I said trying not to look at him, but as soon as I looked up I could see the
disappointment ooze from his eyes.

As I saw his car drive off, I quickly grabbed my phone. I dialed up Caleb.

“This is going to sound absolutely ridiculous, but I had to call so I could hear your voice. Things have
been, well just fucked up and I don’t know what I am doing saying all this, but … yeah.” I was insane for
saying that to him, but I did have to hear his voice.

“Wow. That is nice to hear, I love hearing yours.” I could tell that he was grinning.

 

“Tell me something amazing. Please.”

“Ryleigh, YOU are amazing. I think about you all day long and look at my phone every minute to see if I
could possibly have missed a text or call from you. I look like a damn teenager checking my phone all the
time. I miss seeing your smiles every minute. I miss tasting your lips. Every second that I have to go
without talking to you, is one that I want to make up. Times ten.” He paused. “How is that?”

“Wow. Where do you come up with this stuff? You always have some of the most amazing things to say
to me!” I was grinning like an idiot.

“I come up with this stuff; because it is what I feel towards you, what I think about all day, what I want
to have happen all day. Every day.” He said with such passion in his voice. “I can’t wait to meet you
tomorrow. I want to spend the evening just holding you.”

“It sounds all too good to be true.” I sighed into the phone.

 

“You okay?” He asked.

 

“Yeah, just still trying to figure everything out and I think my mind is exhausted. I am excited to see you
tomorrow as well. I better go, but I will text you in the morning when I get into work.”

 

“Ryleigh, if you need anything… just let me know okay?”

“Thanks, Caleb. Talk to you later.” I hung up my phone and placed it back in my purse and it perfect
timing too. I saw Liam’s car pull in. I jumped up to open the door for him and saw he had 3 bags full of
food.

“When I said greasy and very unhealthy, I didn’t mean you had to clean them out!” I laughed.

“Well, I didn’t get a chance to ask you what you wanted to eat. I just figured I’d get one of almost
everything. Value menu is awesome for that.” Liam leaned in and gave me a kiss and handed me a drink
and a bag. I followed him inside and set stuff down at the table.

We both were starving at this point so everything got dumped out onto the table and we began to pick
and choose which burgers we were claiming and chowing down on fries.
“Liam, will you tell me something amazing?” I was truly amazed by what Caleb had to say, I was hoping
that Liam would say something to me. I hated the fact I had to ask him to.

“Something amazing? Let me think.” He paused to take a bite of his burger. “There are about 800
calories in this burger, to burn this off; the average person would have to have sex around eight times!”

 

I looked at him disappointed.

 

“Did I say something wrong?” He set down his burger and grabbed my hand.

 

“No, I was just hoping that you would tell me something amazing about me.” I sighed.

“Ryleigh, I am sorry. Let me try that again!” He cleared his throat and took a drink of his soda. “When I
first met you in college, I fell in love with you from the very first second. The way you looked at me and
actually listened to me, it was just something I never had ever felt before. I had puppy love when I was
younger, but I have to say, Ryleigh, you are my first true love.” He picked up my hand and gently placed
a kiss on the top.

“Really? You think I was your first love?” I actually was quite shocked by this.

“Was? You are my first love. And yes, really.” He picked up his burger and took a big bite as if he were
avoiding the topic further. I almost felt as if that was just something he had to make up because he
didn’t quite get what I was asking of him. I think what really hit me in the face, if he was in fact telling
me the truth; he wasn’t my first love.

We finished up eating and sat in silence looking at all the food that we still had leftover. We had at least
three burgers left and fries galore.

 

“I really did go overboard with the food, didn’t I? I think that my eyes were definitely bigger than my
stomach.” He let out a huge sigh and grabbed his stomach.

“Well at least I won’t have to worry about making dinner the next couple of nights while you are gone.” I
smiled at him but noticed there was that awkward silence after. “Liam. I am going to try and work this
out with you. I just need you to know, I am extremely hurt. I don’t know what happened to make you
feel different about our relationship, I mean, areyou happy anymore?” I asked, but this time I was not
even upset.

“Ryleigh, I love you more than anything in this world.” I quickly interrupted.

 

“Then why?” I asked desperately.

“I screwed up. I don’t know what I was doing; I don’t know what I was thinking. I really am happy with
you, but the drinks started pouring and my mind just wasn’t all there. I want to be with you and only
you, I want to start a family. You own my heart.” He pulled me into his embrace.

My heart sunk into my stomach. He held me a bit longer before pulling my face up from his chest to kiss
me. He kissed me so hard, I don’t think that I have ever felt this much passion from him, but my heart
was not with him. I started to feel his hands slowly inch towards my cami straps, he started to pull them
off my shoulders and began to kiss my neck and then down to my collar bone. I broke the kiss and pulled
away.

“You okay?” He asked. “You just look liked like you have seen a ghost; your face went really white.” He
started to sound worried.

 

“I think that the greasy food was a bad idea, I just kinda feel crummy all the sudden.” I put on smile and
headed for the stairs. “I am going to head upstairs to lay down. Are you going to come up and pack?”

 

“Yeah, I probably should do that.” He said grabbing his shirt and following me upstairs.

Liam was very particular in how things were packed, so I left him to do his own thing. I had tried helping
a few times but found that I was making more of a mess than I was helping. Usually, he would just tell
me to go watch some T.V. or do something else.

So tonight I plopped down on the bed, turned on the television and watched him begin to pack some of
his ties, shirts, socks and boxers. I soon began tofeel my eyes get heavy enough that I decided it was
time for an early bed time. Tomorrow was back to work and I was excited to get it over with to spend
some time with Caleb.

Chapter Thirteen
“Ryleigh, its 6:30. You fell asleep before setting your alarm.” Liam whispered into my ear.

I know I didn’t say anything that resembled an actual word. I just grumbled at the thought that it was
Monday morning all over again. It was a hectic weekend and one that I would have liked to forget, so I
should have been welcoming this morning with open arms. Monday’s still sucked.

I threw the covers off of me and stomped towards the bathroom. I never considered myself a morning
person, even though after a cup of coffee some would argue that I was. I quickly began to brush my
teeth as Liam walked into the bathroom; he was already showered and ready to go. What time did he
get up? I gave him a quizzical look and he seemed to know what I was asking without trying to talk with
a mouthful of toothpaste.

“I was up at 5. My flight leaves at 10, so I wantedto get up and make sure I had everything ready. I gotta
be out of here in a few. I did want to make sure that I saw you before I left.” He leaned in and gave me a
kiss on my temple. “I’m very happy that you decided to give me a second chance. I laid awake watching
you sleep last night and just made me think of what I would do if I lost you. I don’t think that I could live
without you.” He moved behind me and wrapped his hands around my waist as I tried to rinse my
mouth.

“Liam we have been together for so long and we have so much that we would just be throwing away. I
really hope that we can work through this, but know that I am going to have some trust issues with you.
Understand? I am just worried that we need to have some help.”

“We’ll talk about help maybe later; we can do this together- just you and me. I gotta go; I don’t want to
miss my flight. I will be home on Thursday night. I think my flight gets in around 8pm and I will be home
around 10. Saturday I still want to just sit home and enjoy you all day, are we still on for dinner at your
Mom’s?” He began to grab his luggage I followed him down the stairs.

“Oh I should probably call and set that up, huh? I will confirm with her and let you know. Umm, I am
supposed to go out with Court to dinner tonight, so just text me later.”

 

“Alright, I’ll text you when I land. Hey, I love you.” He leaned in and kissed my head.

 

“I love you too. Have a safe flight.” I said as I waved him off before running upstairs to get into the
shower.

I found myself primping more than usual; curling my hair, applying a little more mascara, and ended up
wearing a little black dress that I had bought a while ago for a night out on the town but had to cancel.
This dress was very fitting in all the right spots and with a V cut, I felt a little sexy to wear this to work
but since I was going to see Caleb right afterwards I wanted to feel sexy all day. I felt all types of nervous
butterflies floating in my belly today; I was going back to Caleb tonight. I couldn’t wait to see him tonight
and spend time with him. I started to feel a little bad that I was making my husband be faithful and yet I
was out doing the same thing.