True North (18 page)

Jake sat forward. “Careful, you might not make it to the dresser.”

I bounced forward, a bit panicked. I opened my drawer for a pair of boy short undies and then snagged a t-shirt from his drawer and said seductively, “I’ll be right back.”

“
I’ll be right here,” he promised.

I towel-dried my hair and slipped into his Linkin Park t-shirt … and
Shit!
I forgot my bra!

Really? Who was I trying to kid? I didn’t want my bra. I hadn’t even grabbed pants. His shirt came down around my thighs—I felt very sexy. I came back out.

“
That t-shirt has never looked so good,” he said. “Now I’m going to get showered.” He handed me a full glass of wine. “You’ll need this for when I get back.”

Chapter 15

“
Beautiful Scar”

Trapt

I stood waiting for him. When he came out he was wearing his black boxers.
Only.
His legs were just as defined as his upper body.

I handed him a glass of Riesling. “One good turn deserves another.”

He took a good pull from the glass and set it on his bureau. His fingers tangled in my hair and pulled gently outward. The tingles in my scalp radiated down through my shoulders.

“
When I was out there and the fighting got bad, I put your face in the front of my thoughts, and it made me push harder. And when the nights were long and I was scared shitless, laying there listening to my buddy in the other bunk sobbing ‘cause he just lost his best friend who’d had his back since boot camp … there was only you.” He moved in closer until I felt his breath on my face. “When the pain was too much I shut it out by thinking of this, right here—you and me. I envisioned your gorgeous body under mine, while I had my hands and mouth all over you. I could lose myself so deeply in the fantasy of you, everything else would disappear, even if it was just for a few minutes, and I could breathe again.”

I worked at calming my heartbeat with conscious effort.

He continued, “Today was my best day yet, because it was all about you. But, Livie, you need to know, sometimes it gets really bad. I want you so much—so fucking much—but I need you to understand that I’m scarred, and I don’t know how I’m going to heal or if I ever will.”

“
Jake, I know you, the guy you are, who you were, and the man you want to be. I’m not afraid of you or that scar.”

At that his nostrils flared and he lifted me off my feet again. I locked my ankles behind his back. And
holy hell
I was very aware, very fast that I was only wearing thin fabric panties. I couldn’t think, I was too full of feelings and sensations that were all at once consuming. I rested my forehead on his shoulder. My center was directly over his erection, which was rock solid. I wanted to feel it even more, so I squeezed my legs tighter and felt his heat over my sensitive nerves. He moaned into my ear as he grabbed my ass in his hands and grinded against me.

“
Livie, there’s no going back once we cross this line,” he reminded.

“
I don’t want to go back to a world without you.”

He exhaled hot breath into my hair and laid me down on the bed. His lips devoured mine—totally owning me. He slid his body over my breasts making the tips harden and reach up to his touch. His teeth clamped down onto my earlobe and tugged. “I’m going to possess you.”

I wanted to feel that more than I wanted air, more than life itself. Jake’s fingertips grazed over my belly as he lifted my shirt to just below my breasts. He looked at me like a man famished and on the brink of starvation. He bowed his head and started at my ribs, bringing my flesh into his mouth. He darted his tongue out and licked a sweet line to the top edge of my panties.

Oh My God!
He scraped his teeth over the skin just above the elastic and then traveled north again over my midriff, between my ribs. My skin prickled, electrified. He lifted his face to mine and took my mouth in a smoldering kiss. As he did, his right hand slid onto my breast, igniting a fire in my belly.

An unwanted shyness came over me as he lifted the shirt over my head and I laid underneath him in nothing but my boy short panties. On autopilot, I let my arms drift to cover my breasts.

“
No, no … you’re perfect, Livie. Don’t hide from me. When you feel scared just remember your body’s mine.”

“
Yours,” I agreed. He gently pried my arms back out of his way. I let a slow breath escape through my teeth.

“
Are you happy?” he asked me.

“
Hell, yeah.” I felt lightheaded under his gaze.

He smiled and brought his fingertips to my shoulders and let them glide down. “Your bone and muscle, the curve of your breast …”

Oh, his fingers skated deftly over both nipples, making me catch my breath.

“
To the contour of your waist …” He gripped me hard around my waist and pressed his long fingers into my flesh deeply then bowed his head over the taut peak of my breast and swirled his tongue around it. “It’s all mine.”

He blew a stream of cool air through his lips, and my nipple stood on end while he watched its change. He did it again, this time smiling, then caught my eyes before bearing down on the nipple with his very hot mouth. I moaned eagerly, and he sucked, causing the most delicious pressure. His other hand came up and kneaded my other breast slowly, from the bottom, until his sweet, rough fingers rolled the tip between them.

I arched my back, reaching up, wishing for him to swallow me whole with the sensations that had set me on fire. He switched nipples, biting the opposite one now, tenderly but with enough sharpness to make me cry out weakly.

“
You waited for me, Livie … I’m going to make your first time all about you so when you remember it, you remember the fire and the heat and everywhere I touched as I claimed every part of you as my own.”

I simmered with lust. I wanted to explode. I wanted to know what that felt like.

Slowly and tauntingly he nibbled down an invisible line over my stomach. He pressed his hands against my inner thighs and spread my legs before him.

I knew what was coming next—total exposure. I wanted to feel his touch
there
so badly but, involuntarily, I tensed.

“
Shh … there has never been anyone for me but you,” he assured me. I knew our history. I believed him.

He carefully massaged my inner thighs until my fear released, then dipped his face, exacting little love bites while sweeping over my thighs with his teeth. His rough stubble rubbed and scratched my legs, and I loved it.

“
I want you to show me all of you,” Jake whispered. “Will you?”

“
Yes,” I breathed.

“
Then I’m going to just slide these off of you, okay?”

I was delirious, but managed to nod.

He pulled the fabric down and off and moved my legs apart again.

“
You’re so perfect, so beautiful, and you saved it all for me.”

“
Jake,” I groaned. His slowness was killing me. I knew what he was getting to. I ran my fingers over his military cut hair and massaged his scalp.

He slid his fingers between my legs stroking the nerves that were engorged with fiery lava.

“
Oh my God, Livie, you make my stomach drop into my dick, you’re so hot.”

I closed my eyes as the weight of his words hit me hard right underneath where his fingers stroked me. I rolled my hips into his hand.

He growled, “Oh fuck!”

The sound of his voice made me moan as I tilted my head back and angled my body as an offering to him.

Jake grabbed the fleshy curve of my hips and brought me into his mouth. I could feel the heat of his breath hovering just above my sex, then his soft, wet tongue swiped through my core, making me jump a little as it stroked over my clit.

I gasped.

Sheer ecstasy and self-consciousness waged a mini-war as his gorgeous face was down between my legs.

“
Baby … just let go.” His eyes held fast onto mine as he separated me with his tongue again.

I cried out,
“Oh my God! Oh, Jake!”

“
That’s right, beautiful,” he cooed.

He worked his lips and tongue over my sex like he did when he took my mouth—just like when he was kissing me. It was as if he’d ignited a flamethrower, and heat flowed throughout my entire body, rushing to my center. Every nerve in me tensed with a powerful explosive energy that consumed me. I moaned and found my hips moving to the rhythm of Jake’s perfect mouth.

“
Your taste is the most amazing aphrodisiac. It’s making me fucking drunk.” His voice was rough.

I felt around his jaw to his mouth. I wanted to feel his tongue and what it was doing to me with my fingers.

“
Mmm …” he hummed against me, sending an intense vibration coursing through every hyper-aroused nerve in my sex.

“
You’re
my
everything, Livie.”

A half scream came through my teeth, but I stifled it.

I had touched myself plenty of times, but nothing compared to the wet, raw heat and voice of the man I adored. His ministrations were making me wild, and I felt like I was about to leap from a very high cliff.

But before I did, he added another sensation as he sunk his strong finger inside of me, still sucking on my clit.

A scream tore from my lungs as my legs shook with an earthquake.

“
I’m going to take you there now, Olivia.” His deep voice was husky with arousal. “Tell me you’re ready and you want me to.”

“
Please,”
I panted. It was all I could manage.

“
Say my name, princess.”

“
Aaahh,” I moaned. I was so close as his finger thrust in and out, massaging my inner walls. But he was waiting for his name before he brought his perfect mouth back to where I desperately needed it to be.

“
JAKE!”

He dove against me and lit me with fever. Every moment culminated in this one. As I soared over the edge of my climax, he held me fast to him so I couldn’t wiggle free. Trapped in his arms and against his tongue, the orgasm continued on, causing gravity to snap loose as I plummeted into euphoria.

Chapter 16

“
Kashmir”

Led Zeppelin

“
You’re fucking amazing, Livie!” Jake exclaimed as he lifted himself over me and smashed his glistening lips, wet with my own arousal, into mine. His tongue swept through my mouth, winding me up further for what I knew was coming next.

“
Feel what you do to me.” He took my hand and gently laid it over his long thickness, which bulged underneath his briefs. His head fell back and his eyes rolled into his head. “Oh, Liv.”

My own curiosity bloomed and I desired to touch his flesh. I reached under his waistband and put the heat of him in my hands. He groaned as I let my fingers discover his rigid length and the curve of his neck and head.

“
Enough of that.” Jake pulled from my grasp. “I won’t last with your pretty fingers around me.”

He moved his hips so they were aligned with my inner thighs. The press of him made me crazy. Jake put his hand between us, gripped his shaft and slid the tip through my folds.

“
You’re so wet. I can’t wait to sink deep inside of you.”

“
Do it!” I begged.

A thick sound came through his throat. “Your choice, love. You’ve never been with anyone and I’ve been tested overkill through the Army. Do you want me to use a condom?”

Jake was no stranger and I trusted his disclosure. I’d been on the pill for a couple of years to regulate my cycle, so no fear there. “I want to feel you, Jake. I want all of you. No barriers, no walls,” I assured.

He replied huskily, “Then you’ll be my first time too.”

Jake had never had sex
without
a condom. I looked up at him and couldn’t disguise my exuberant smile. I was beyond thrilled!

He smiled so lovingly. “It’s perfect. And I make this commitment to you, Olivia Morrisey, to be faithful to you wholly—body, spirit and soul.”

He slid the head of his shaft into my waiting center. There was no other sensation like it. He inched in slowly, spreading me open. I shuddered and felt my muscles contract around him, squeezing him.

“
Holy fuck, Livie!” He stared at me through hooded eyes.

I wanted to touch his hips or his arms or his face, but I was locked into place as he worked himself deeper inside of me. I was falling apart. A guttural, animalistic sound ripped through my teeth. It didn’t even sound like me.

He must have thought he’d hurt me because he slowed his pace. I knew there was more and he wasn’t giving it to me. He was being too gentle, too careful. But my pulsing core was like mercury rising through a thermometer!

“
Don’t hold back, Jake. I want all of you,” I pleaded.

His eyes never left mine as he scooped my leg under his arm and brought it up higher off the bed. He pressed in, soothing my desperate ache while even in the same motion creating a rushing wildfire with no boundaries.

I arched my back, driving him deeper inside. As my body swallowed him, I cried out as the line between pain and pleasure blurred. The break set me in motion as I caught his hip bones in my hands.

“
More, Jake … please, more.” My breathing rhythm was shot to hell as I teetered on the brink of hyperventilation under Jake’s grinding.

“
Jesus Christ! You’re gonna make me lose it!” he gasped.

“
Lose it!” I called out. I wanted to be the one to make that happen.

He lifted my other leg and took me with powerful, unrestrained thrusts. I screamed as the orgasm he was fueling from my sex tore through my body like coursing waves. Goose bumps prickled my skin and the dam broke loose. His name burst from my lips.