Twinsequences (A Twisted Twin Series) (9 page)

He
 took
 my
 hand
 and
 ran
 it
 over
 his
 trunks.
 “Feel
 how
 much
 I
 want
 you.”
 
He
 only
 had
 to
 move
 my
 hand
 across
 it
 once,
 before
 I
 slid
 it
 down
 the
 front
 of
 
his
 shorts.
 He
 was
 so
 warm,
 so
 smooth,
 so
 hard.
 I
 gasped
 as
 I
 got
 my
 hand
 around
 
his
 girth.
 He
 groaned
 when
 I
 began
 to
 massage
 it
 with
 one
 hand.
 
 
I
 licked
 my
 lips
 again,
 salivating
 at
 just
 the
 idea
 of
 having
 it
 in
 my
 mouth.
 I
 
wasn’t
 promiscuous,
 but
 I
 wanted
 this
 man.
 I
 wanted
 to
 feel
 his
 smooth
 shaft
 against
 
my
 lips
 as
 I
 took
 him
 into
 my
 mouth.
 I
 needed
 to
 have
 him.
 I
 wanted
 him
 inside
 of
 
me.
 
His
 head
 leaned
 close
 to
 my
 ear.
 He
 kissed
 it
 before
 speaking.
 “I’m
 so
 in
 love
 
with
 you.”
 
Then
 I
 just
 froze.
 
 
I
 was
 kneeled
 in
 front
 of
 him,
 with
 my
 hand
 down
 his
 pants
 and
 all
 I
 could
 
think
 about
 was
 him
 being
 married
 to
 my
 sister.
 They’d
 said
 vows.
 He
 was
 in
 love
 
with
 her.
 This
 whole
 day
 was
 about
 them
 working
 things
 out.
 
What
 kind
 of
 person
 was
 I?
 
I
 stood
 up
 and
 grabbed
 my
 clothes,
 covering
 myself
 with
 them,
 the
 best
 I
 
could.
 “Oh
 God!
 I
 can’t
 do
 this.”
 
“Babe,
 wait!
 Where
 are
 you
 going?”
 
“Stosh,
 I’m
 so
 sorry.
 I
 never
 meant
 for
 it
 to
 go
 this
 far.
 I
 swear.”
 
He
 tried
 to
 grab
 my
 arm,
 as
 I
 began
 putting
 on
 my
 clothes.
 I
 was
 already
 
crying,
 desperately
 trying
 to
 figure
 out
 how
 I
 was
 going
 to
 explain
 myself
 to
 Ivy.
 I
 
was
 supposed
 to
 be
 keeping
 everything
 in
 order
 while
 she
 was
 gone,
 not
 seducing
 
my
 way
 into
 her
 husband’s
 heart,
 making
 him
 think
 I
 was
 her.
 I
 hated
 myself.
 “Can
 
you
 just
 hold
 on
 a
 minute.
 We’re
 on
 a
 boat.”
 
“You
 need
 to
 take
 me
 back
 to
 shore,
 Stosh.
 Trust
 me,
 this
 was
 a
 huge
 
mistake.”
 
When
 I
 had
 my
 shorts
 up
 and
 my
 bra
 hooked,
 he
 spun
 me
 around
 and
 held
 
my
 arms
 with
 both
 hands.
 “Is
 this
 because
 I
 said
 I
 loved
 you?”
 
I
 shook
 my
 head,
 but
 continued
 to
 cry.
 “You’re
 never
 going
 to
 forgive
 me
 for
 
this.
 I’m
 so
 sorry.
 I’m
 an
 awful
 person.”
 I
 pulled
 out
 of
 his
 hold
 and
 started
 to
 go
 
down
 toward
 the
 galley.
 I
 just
 wanted
 to
 lock
 myself
 in
 the
 bathroom
 until
 we
 were
 
back.
 
“Willow,
 wait!”
 
I
 froze,
 halfway
 inside
 and
 yet
 still
 topside.
 I
 said
 nothing,
 thinking
 I
 just
 
imagined
 it.
 
I
 could
 feel
 him
 standing
 right
 behind
 me.
 “Please
 don’t
 walk
 away
 from
 me.”
 
He
 sounded
 like
 he
 was
 about
 to
 bawl.
 
I
 turned
 slowly,
 looking
 him
 right
 in
 the
 eyes.
 He
 was
 breathing
 heavy
 and
 his
 
eyes
 were
 intensely
 staring
 right
 at
 me.
 “I
 meant
 everything
 I
 said.”
 
“I
 don’t
 understand.”
 I
 took
 one
 step
 back.
 
He
 took
 one
 step
 forward.
 “You
 think
 I
 can’t
 tell
 the
 difference
 between
 you
 
and
 Ivy?
 I’ve
 been
 in
 love
 with
 you
 since
 the
 first
 day
 I
 saw
 you.
 The
 two
 of
 you
 may
 
be
 identical,
 but
 there’s
 nothing
 about
 you
 that’s
 the
 same
 to
 me.”
 
I
 just
 kept
 looking
 at
 him.
 I
 felt
 like
 I
 was
 in
 the
 Twilight
 Zone.
 “How
 long
 
have
 you
 known?”
 
He
 chuckled.
 “Since
 I
 walked
 into
 a
 clean
 house.”
 He
 took
 one
 step
 closer.
 
“Since
 you
 cooked
 me
 the
 best
 home
 cooked
 meal
 that
 I’ve
 had
 in
 years.”
 He
 took
 
another
 step
 closer.
 “Since
 you
 sat
 there
 watching
 a
 channel
 that
 your
 sister
 can’t
 
stand.”
 He
 took
 one
 hand
 and
 ran
 it
 down
 my
 arm.
 “Since
 you
 put
 ranch
 on
 your
 
steak.”
 He
 brought
 my
 hand
 up
 to
 his
 lips.
 “Since
 you
 ordered
 that
 doughnut,
 when
 
you
 wanted
 my
 fritter.”
 
“You
 were
 testing
 me?”
 For
 just
 a
 second,
 I
 felt
 played.
 Sure,
 I
 was
 pretending
 
to
 be
 someone
 else
 the
 whole
 time,
 but
 it
 still
 rubbed
 me
 the
 wrong
 way.
 “Why
 did
 
you
 let
 me
 keep
 acting
 like
 her?”
 
“Would
 you
 have
 spent
 time
 with
 me,
 if
 you
 knew
 I
 knew?
 Would
 you
 have
 
let
 me
 kiss
 you?”
 
That
 tingly
 feeling
 overwhelmed
 me
 again.
 I
 thought
 about
 all
 of
 the
 places
 
that
 his
 lips
 had
 been.
 “I…”
 
“Willow,
 more
 than
 anything,
 I
 knew
 it
 was
 you
 the
 first
 time
 I
 kissed
 you
 
yesterday.
 Nobody
 has
 ever
 kissed
 me
 like
 that,
 except
 you,
 in
 the
 hallway
 when
 we
 
were
 in
 high
 school.
 I
 know
 you
 remember
 it.”
 
I
 didn’t
 know
 what
 to
 say.
 “I
 don’t
 understand.”
 I
 had
 to
 sit
 down,
 because
 I
 
was
 feeling
 like
 I
 was
 going
 to
 pass
 out.
 “Please
 tell
 me
 what’s
 going
 on.
 You’re
 
married
 to
 my
 sister.
 I
 can’t
 be
 with
 you,
 Stoshua.”
 
“You
 want
 to
 though,
 right?
 You
 want
 to
 be
 with
 me?”
 
I
 wanted
 to
 answer
 him,
 but
 this
 was
 wrong
 in
 so
 many
 more
 ways
 than
 me
 
just
 pretending
 to
 be
 Ivy.
 He
 hadn’t
 even
 asked
 about
 his
 wife.
 “Do
 you
 know
 where
 
Ivy
 is?”
 
He
 shrugged.
 “I
 don’t
 care.”
 He
 sat
 down
 beside
 me
 and
 leaned
 in,
 like
 he
 was
 
going
 to
 kiss
 me.
 
I
 pushed
 him
 away.
 “I
 care!”
 
He
 laughed
 at
 me.
 “Will,
 you’ve
 been
 gone
 for
 four
 years.
 Your
 sister
 hasn’t
 
changed
 a
 damn
 bit.
 She’s
 a
 manipulative
 bitch.
 Did
 you
 think
 you
 were
 really
 here
 
to
 help
 her?”
 
“She
 said
 she
 needed
 my
 help.
 She
 said
 she
 was
 desperate.”
 Now
 I
 really
 
wanted
 to
 know
 why
 she’d
 asked
 me
 to
 come.
 What
 was
 he
 not
 telling
 me?
 
“She
 needs
 help,
 but
 it
 isn’t
 something
 you
 can
 do.
 That
 bitch
 is
 mental.
 She
 
thinks
 she
 can
 control
 people
 like
 they’re
 her
 puppets.”
 I
 could
 hear
 the
 hate
 in
 his
 
voice.
 
“Stop
 saying
 that!
 She’s
 your
 wife.
 You
 loved
 her
 and
 you
 married
 her.
 I
 know
 
it,
 because
 I
 was
 there!”
 I
 pointed
 right
 at
 him.
 “I
 won’t
 let
 you
 say
 these
 lies
 about
 
her.”
 
He
 shook
 his
 head
 and
 looked
 away.
 “I
 should
 have
 known
 you’d
 act
 this
 
way.”
 He
 got
 up
 and
 walked
 away.
 
I
 sat
 there
 in
 the
 pale
 moonlight
 and
 tried
 to
 gather
 my
 thoughts.
 I
 thought
 
about
 all
 the
 things
 that
 he’d
 been
 saying
 since
 we’d
 been
 together.
 He
 was
 talking
 
to
 me
 the
 whole
 time.
 For
 so
 many
 years,
 all
 I
 wanted
 was
 to
 be
 his.
 
 
None
 of
 this
 made
 sense.
 It
 was
 too
 much
 to
 take.
 I
 felt
 like
 I
 was
 in
 the
 
middle
 of
 a
 web
 of
 lies.
 
 
I
 found
 Stosh
 sitting
 on
 a
 cushioned
 bench
 at
 the
 bow
 of
 the
 boat.
 He
 had
 a
 
bottle
 of
 liquor
 in
 his
 hand
 and
 was
 looking
 out
 at
 the
 water.
 He
 didn’t
 even
 look
 my
 
way
 as
 I
 approached
 him.
 “If
 you
 came
 over
 here
 to
 bitch
 me
 out,
 save
 it!
 I’m
 not
 in
 
the
 mood,
 Will.
 I
 can
 say
 I’m
 sorry
 a
 million
 times,
 but
 you’re
 never
 going
 to
 believe
 
me.
 I
 know
 I
 fucked
 up.”
 He
 took
 the
 bottle
 and
 threw
 it
 out
 as
 far
 as
 he
 could,
 then
 
put
 his
 hands
 over
 his
 head
 and
 looked
 down.
 
What
 was
 I
 supposed
 to
 say
 when
 I
 had
 no
 idea
 what
 was
 going
 on?
 
 
I
 wanted
 to
 know
 the
 truth.
 
I
 wanted
 to
 know
 where
 my
 sister
 was
 and
 why
 she’d
 asked
 me
 to
 come.
 
How
 did
 he
 know
 me
 so
 well?
 Why
 did
 he
 do
 all
 of
 those
 tests?
 
Why
 did
 he
 say
 all
 of
 those
 things?
 
Why
 did
 he
 say
 he
 loved
 me?
 
“I
 think
 you
 need
 to
 tell
 me
 everything.”
 
He
 looked
 back
 at
 me
 and
 I
 could
 see
 the
 pain
 in
 his
 eyes.
 “Why?
 It
 won’t
 
change
 anything.
 I’m
 married
 to
 your
 sister
 remember?
 I’m
 a
 fucking
 horrible
 
person!”
 
“I
 never
 said
 that!”
 I
 reached
 for
 him,
 but
 he
 pulled
 away.
 
“You
 didn’t
 have
 to
 say
 it,
 Will.
 I
 can
 see
 it
 in
 your
 eyes.”
 
I
 threw
 my
 hands
 up.
 “I
 don’t
 get
 you.
 You
 played
 me
 for
 the
 last
 twenty
 four
 
hours.
 You
 knew
 it
 was
 me,
 but
 let
 me
 think
 I
 was…”
 
“You
 were
 Ivy.
 Yeah,
 I
 did
 that.
 It
 was
 only
 so
 I
 could
 spend
 time
 with
 you.
 I
 
knew
 you
 wouldn’t
 stay
 if
 I
 told
 you.
 I
 knew
 you
 wouldn’t
 be
 here
 with
 me
 right
 
now.
 You’re
 too
 good
 of
 a
 person,
 too
 good
 of
 a
 sister
 to
 be
 with
 me.
 I
 get
 it,
 okay!”
 
He
 stood
 up
 and
 started
 walking
 away
 from
 me,
 leaving
 me
 standing
 in
 the
 
same
 place
 without
 any
 explanation
 of
 what
 was
 really
 going
 on.
 
I
 put
 my
 hands
 on
 my
 hips.
 “You
 don’t
 get
 to
 do
 this!
 You
 don’t
 get
 to
 be
 mad
 
at
 me,
 Stoshua.
 I
 came
 all
 this
 way
 to
 help
 my
 sister,
 not
 be
 caught
 up
 in
 some
 game
 
that
 the
 two
 of
 you
 are
 playing.”
 I
 was
 getting
 angrier
 by
 the
 second.