TRUE BELIEVER
LEESIE HUNT / CHATSPOT LOG/10/19 4:15 AM
liv2div says: | | I was hoping for a miracle and here you are. |
Leesie327 says: | | I thought maybe I got the days mixed up. I’ve been up at 4 AM four days in a row. |
liv2div says: | | I had to leave early from the hotel… hung in there until the last minute…you were signed on but didn’t answer |
Leesie327 says: | | I fell asleep. My alarm woke me for our rendezvous. |
liv2div says: | | freak, you must be tired |
Leesie327 says: | | I like 4 AM. Good time for poetry. The creative brain works better drowsy. |
liv2div says: | | does wearing my sweatshirt help? |
Leesie327 says: | | Nope…your sweatshirt wakes up another brain I’m trying to keep anesthetized. |
liv2div says: | | how many brains do you have? |
Leesie327 says: | | Too many. They don’t ever top thinking. Did you mean all that marriage stuff—last time we talked? |
liv2div says: | | you mean my proposal? of course… how did the mercy guy take it when you broke your date? |
Leesie327 says: | | I didn’t break it. |
liv2div says: | | but we’re engaged |
Leesie327 says: | | No we’re not. |
liv2div says: | | you went out with him? great…that makes me feel like beheading bunnies |
Leesie327 says: | | Gross. |
liv2div says: | | maybe I’ll get on a plane and come and behead him…did he touch you? |
Leesie327 says: | | Only when we danced. |
liv2div says: | | freak, Leese…I’ve seen you dance… you’re not allowed to do that again around any other guy |
Leesie327 says: | | Sure. I’ll barricade myself in the closet if you promise to call the missionaries. |
liv2div says: | | did you dance with him close—like we did? |
Leesie327 says: | | Of course not. He’s a nice Mormon boy. |
liv2div says: | | not depraved like me |
Leesie327 says: | | Relax, Michael. We waltzed. |
liv2div says: | | don’t tell me…I can’t hear this |
Leesie327 says: | | He can salsa, too. It ended up being fun. |
liv2div says: | | you should have been miserable |
Leesie327 says: | | Sorry. You know how I get when music plays. |
liv2div says: | | so that’s it…a little ballroom and I’m history |
Leesie327 says: | | What happened to you? You were so brave—go find your Mormon guy and all that. |
liv2div says: | | faking? I don’t know…you were going home to Teacup…nobody there to sweep you off your feet |
Leesie327 says: | | You weren’t faking it. You were amazing that last night in Florida. So sure of yourself. You knew exactly what we needed to do. |
liv2div says: | | It was just there in my head…my mom, I guess…I can’t be brave if you’re going to tell me about some other guy |
Leesie327 says: | | I’m sorry. I was teasing. |
liv2div says: | | the thought of his pudgy hand on your shoulder…him inhaling your hair…I think I’m going to vomit |
Leesie327 says: | | Now you know how I felt all last summer when I’d sign on late and you were out. How many were there? Or was it all Mandy? |
liv2div says: | | I was out with the guys, babe…haven’t been with anyone since you…gross, how could I? |
Leesie327 says: | | FOR REAL?? Why didn’t you tell me that before? |
liv2div says: | | didn’t know you were tracking me |
Leesie327 says: | | Gosh, Michael. We were broken up. You do love me. |
liv2div says: | | duh…listen, no more dates |
Leesie327 says: | | And you can’t even look at a Thai female. |
liv2div says: | | what about the topless European chicks down on the beach? |
Leesie327 says: | | Beaches are banned. |
liv2div says: | | and we’ll get married…soon…I want to take care of you…let me, babe, please…we can run away together to an island in the Pacific and live on bananas |
Leesie327 says: | | That would be cool. I’ll say ‘yes’ when you do, but it has to be real. |
liv2div says: | | Do you have a grass skirt? |
Leesie327 says: | | You said you’ll listen. When? |
liv2div says: | | no seashells in your wardrobe, either, I suppose…I’ll see what I can find around here…what color? anything you want…I’ll get it…how about a long silk skirt? I’ll get you one in the market |
Leesie327 says: | | You’re crazy tonight. |
liv2div says: | | that’s right…I am certifiable…Isadore comes around every night…please come take her place…you’d be great therapy…my mental health is at stake…better hop a jet tomorrow… marry me this weekend and I’ll finish planning our honeymoon |
Leesie327 says: | | I TOLD you—no ditching school. |
liv2div says: | | but this is an emergency…you can go back when you get tired of our island |
Leesie327 says: | | You’re not that rich. |
liv2div says: | | how about a nice, big sailboat? I am that rich…we could sail around the world for the next couple years |
Leesie327 says: | | With Captain Mikey at the helm? |
liv2div says: | | of course |
Leesie327 says: | | I’d like a sailboat…my dad would show for that. |
liv2div says: | | we wouldn’t want your dad there…what happened to our 24/7 pact? |
Leesie327 says: | | Oh, right. We’d be way too busy to entertain. |
liv2div says: | | and you could learn to dive…I’ll teach you |
Leesie327 says: | | Dream on. I was so wimped in Florida. |
liv2div says: | | you liked it, though, when I took you down, but I’m fine with you and me alone on a sailboat with nothing to do but love each other in and out of the water |
Leesie327 says: | | you’re making me Jell-O |
liv2div says: | | see, babe, we don’t need that church stuff |
Leesie327 says: | | but you promised…when will you listen? |
liv2div says: | | tomorrow if you’ll get on a plane |
Leesie327 says: | | I have to keep my grades high or I’ll lose my scholarship. |
liv2div says: | | you don’t need your scholarship…you have me |
Leesie327 says: | | We’ve got to leap a few more hurdles before that’s true. |
liv2div says: | | I’ll listen, Leese…why don’t you believe me? |
Leesie327 says: | | I’m not convinced that you’ll ever want it—my rules, my truths, my faith. |
liv2div says: | | I’m sort of already living those rules |
Leesie327 says: | | There’s so much more to it than that. |
liv2div says: | | I’m not stupid…I’m a fast learner |
Leesie327 says: | | You have to be willing to let yourself feel it. Are you ready to feel again? |
liv2div says: | | I love you…I feel that so much I’m freaking nuts |
Leesie327 says: | | That’s part of the problem. How will I ever know if you’re saying “yes” just to get me to? |
liv2div says: | | you’ll have to trust me…believe me |
Leesie327 says: | | But maybe you’ll think you believe, but it’s just to please me. |
liv2div says: | | I don’t know…you’re the expert on this crap |
Leesie327 says: | | It’s supposed to work. It’ll have to work. |
liv2div says: | | even if it doesn’t work for me, I won’t ever come between you and your faith…I love that part of you as much as the rest of you |
Leesie327 says: | | Don’t get angry, okay? |
liv2div says: | | what? |
Leesie327 says: | | I can’t do this online. |
liv2div says: | | we’ve done everything else online |
Leesie327 says: | | Okay. Don’t hate me. Promise? |
liv2div says: | | you can’t say anything that will make me hate you |
Leesie327 says: | | I have before. What’s different now? |
liv2div says: | | all this time without you…the hope of having you all my life…every passing day that gets more and more real |
Leesie327 says: | | That makes what I’m going to say so much worse. |
liv2div says: | | just tell me already |
Leesie327 says: | | Unless it works for you—unless you believe—we can’t ever get married. |
liv2div says: | | serious? I HAVE to become a Mormon…what will they do to you? |
Leesie327 says: | | They won’t do anything. Remember when I talked about forever? Wanting to love you that long? |
liv2div says: | | it’s just talk, babe…sexy, romantic ideas that make me love you more… but just words |
Leesie327 says: | | Not for me. I’ve got to worry about the next life. What happens to us? What happens to our kids? |
liv2div says: | | Can’t we focus on this life? We’ll be incredible together. |
Leesie327 says: | | I could be awful at it. |
liv2div says: | | the only way you could be awful is if I didn’t do my part right…I’m good at my part, Leese |
Leesie327 says: | | Shhh, don’t remind me that you’ve been with all those other girls. I hate that. |
liv2div says: | | trust me, you’ll thank them…neither of us will want to leave that sailboat |
Leesie327 says: | | maybe they should have taught you some humility |
liv2div says: | | resistance is futile…you belong to me |
Leesie327 says: | | Physically? What about spiritually? |
liv2div says: | | getting physical with me is a spiritual experience |
Leesie327 says: | | Get serious for a second. I need a man who holds God’s priesthood who will take me to the temple and marry me for eternity. Be that for me. |
liv2div says: | | how can I ever possibly be that? |