Unraveled by Her (10 page)

The same nightmare haunts me.

Tamara, with a green face and a pointed hat, riding a dart gun and headed straight toward me.

And Georgiana, her hair jet-black, her nails and mouth deep red, a diamond and ruby tiara on her head, brandishing a violet-colored bomb.

And then the flames, the fire, the boom, dust everywhere, gasoline, and me running, running, running, straight into Robert’s arms. Only when I get there, he’s vanished into thin air, nowhere to be found.

As always, I wake up screaming.

“Perhaps if I hypnotize you,” Robert says, his voice gentle and concerned.

Hypnosis. The equivalent of a truth serum . . . I’m just not ready. . . .

I give him a faint smile, then shake my head.

“She’s perking up, Mr. Hartwell. In a day or two, I think you can take her home,” I hear the doctor say as I drift back to sleep.

As Robert and I pass through the gates of Hartwell Castle and up the drive, I catch a glimpse of Hartwell Island in the distance. The island is barren, bare, all vegetation razed to the ground in the fire. The mausoleum is now just a burned-out shell. But though it’s just a ruin, the sight of those ruins still makes my stomach turn, and I have to avert my eyes from them.

Robert puts his arms around me and pulls me close.

“Don’t look back, my darling. It’s all over now. She’s dead, and you’re safe,” he says.

If only that were true . . .

Later that night, when we are alone together in our suite, he pours me a glass of Cristal, then sits on the sofa next to me, hugs me to his chest, and says, “Sweetheart, after I watched the look of horror on your face as we drove up to the castle tonight and you saw Hartwell Island again, I issued an order for the entire island to be bulldozed tomorrow.

“Irrespective of that, I want you to know that after everything Tamara put you through, if she hadn’t burned the mausoleum down herself, I’d have personally dismantled it piece by piece and razed the island to the ground myself,” he adds, with an undertone of so much fury in his voice that I tremble inwardly.

Then he gently undresses me and puts me into bed.

“You must rest,
cara mia.
And I’ll make us supper,” he says, but I go straight to sleep and only wake up in the morning.

My head still hurts, my throat still hurts, and I’m still dizzy. Dizzy and confused and—where it counts most of all—tongue-tied.

When he sees the condition I’m in, how drained I still am, how emotionally fragile, Robert focuses his attention on me even more single-mindedly than he did before the kidnapping, all in the service of making sure I feel safe, happy, and loved.

To my surprise and delight, he serves me breakfast in bed; fresh-squeezed pineapple juice followed by a smoked salmon and caviar omelet he has cooked for me himself. He feeds me each mouthful of omelet, followed by fresh fruit salad, spoon by spoon.

I eat it all, love it all, his tenderness, care, and consideration for me. But no matter how much I love him, part of me isn’t really here with him at all. Part of me is still back in the mausoleum with her. Sometimes I think I dreamed the whole nightmare. Dreamed that she was still alive, that she kidnapped me, that she was forcing me to write her autobiography to win Robert back.

But other times I know it was real. Georgiana wasn’t buried inside the mausoleum, she wasn’t burned to death in her tomb. She is alive, waiting to pounce on me again and to steal Robert from me and make him her own forever.

But Robert is mine, all mine, and I must hold fast to that knowledge, and not allow the thought of Georgiana and her evil machinations to undermine it.

I know she’s still on Robert’s mind, though, but only in a negative way, thank goodness. When I finish breakfast, he turns to me and says, “To tell you the truth, I’m glad that the mausoleum burned down. I’m glad that Georgiana isn’t in there anymore. I’m glad she’s well and truly gone at last, God forgive me.”

And—God forgive me, too—I just look at him and nod.

Chapter Nine

Once breakfast is finished, I assume that Robert will be at his habitual all-day meetings. In an attempt to prevent myself from spending the day brooding on everything, or torturing myself with the ever-present dilemma of whether to tell him the whole truth, part of the truth, or none of it at all, I plan on distracting myself by exploring Hartwell Castle’s library to check out some of the literally thousands of autobiographies it houses.

Instead, to my delight, he announces that now that the doctors have pronounced that I’m fully recovered, we are going into Manhattan together.

The Rolls is parked in the forecourt, but the usual chauffeur, James, is nowhere to be seen. I am just about to inquire what has happened to him, and whether he is all right, when Robert opens the car door for me, then gets into the driver’s seat himself.

As I sit in the front of the Rolls with Robert as we drive down the Long Island Expressway, the horror of the past few days subsides and I suddenly find that I am drawn to the erotic sight of his big hands on the steering wheel. He drives as fast as the speed limit allows, weaving in and out of traffic with confidence and control, and the power of his oh-so-masculine hands, his driving skill suddenly excite me through and through. I am stunned that Robert can arouse me sexually by something as innocuous as simply driving a car well. But I guess I should have been prepared for that—he exudes sexual charisma and his capacity to inflame my desire is never-ending.

Just as we arrive at the city, although I had such a big breakfast, I suddenly have a yen for something sweet and ask Robert whether James keeps any chocolate in the car.

He makes a sudden turn and snakes into a parking space just off Third Avenue, outside a Victorian-style town house with the name “Serendipity 3” emblazoned on it.

“Serendipity! You used that word in Palm Beach, the day you proposed to me, and then I used it to toast Lindy,” I say.

“That’s one of my reasons for bringing you here. Step inside, and you’ll discover the other. And I’d bet a six-figure sum that you’ll more than enjoy it,” he says, and my heart leaps in anticipation.

Inside Serendipity 3, a treasure trove of trinkets are on sale, and at the back of the store, there is a pretty dessert parlor lit by Tiffany lamps. Without even a glance at the menu, Robert immediately orders me Serendipity’s specialty, Frrrozen Hot Chocolate—which turns out to be a massive chocolate milkshake creation served out of a giant goblet.

Thrilled with the most chocolaty-chocolate treat of all time, I gulp it through an extra-thick straw and savor every single luscious mouthful.

“Don’t you want to try it?” I say, and pass him a second straw, but he just laughs his rich and infectious laugh.

“Darling Miranda, I first enjoyed a Frrrozen Hot Chocolate here when you were about five years old!” he says.

I never think about the age difference between us, but right now, as I gorge myself on my chocolate extravaganza, he watches me with all the fond indulgence of a father.

Not my father, of course; the father I should have had but didn’t.

At that thought, I feel a pang of loss, but then remind myself not to look back, but to revel in the present, in being with Robert, and safe. So I throw him a bright smile.

“I love the name Serendipity, but the truth is that I was never really one hundred percent sure of the precise meaning when you used it in Palm Beach, except that it seemed to indicate that something or someone was good. And I hate not knowing exactly what a particular word really means. So please, could you give me the exact definition?” I say.

“I’m deeply shocked that a best-selling author like you doesn’t know exactly what ‘serendipity’ means, Miranda! I ought to put you over my knee right here and now and punish you for your dreadful lack of linguistic knowledge,” he says, a wicked glint in his eyes.

“If only . . .” is on the tip of my tongue, but I know better than to challenge him.

“ ‘Serendipity.’ A happy chance. Or, as I prefer to think of it, a lucky charm,” he says.

Lucky, that’s what I feel at this moment. Lucky to be alive, lucky to be here with Robert, lucky to love and be loved by him. And I silently pray that my luck will hold forever.

After Serendipity, Robert heads for an exclusive internationally known department store, and I follow behind him, floating on cloud nine because he has arranged for one of the most upscale luxury department stores in the entire world to be closed, just for us.

Together we explore the store, while a team of personal shoppers shadow us from a suitable distance and make a record of all our purchases.

One of our first stops is in the sunglasses department, where Robert gets me to try on twenty or more pairs of designer sunglasses and selects eight of them.

“But it’s winter. Why do I need so many?” I say, bemused.

“That’s for me to know and you to wonder, Miranda,” he says, then plants a kiss on my forehead and buys all eight for me.

Then he strides over to the swimwear department and tells me to model a series of Pucci bikinis for him, selecting ten of them in swirling rainbow colors.

“But when will I wear them?” I ask.

“Soon,” is all he will say. Then he takes me to the designer shoe department, where he picks out eight pairs of Chanel sandals for me in eight different colors.

At that point, his generosity is too much for me—in every sense—so I pull out my credit card.

“Robert, if you don’t come to the men’s department with me this minute and let me buy you a gift, I’ll up and leave you right here and take the bus home to Hoboken,” I say, and he raises an eyebrow at me.

I stare back at him unblinking, refusing to let his Robert Hartwell I-can-see-right-through-you stare intimidate me.

“Very well, my darling—but just one item and no more,” he says, and we head for the men’s department together.

“How about a suit, then?” I say, and point toward the Zegna collection.

He shakes his head.

“All my suits—other than my Armanis—are tailor-made in London,” he says.

“Then some shoes,” I say, though I’ve got a sinking feeling he’ll have an answer for that, as well.

“Handmade in Italy,” he says.

“Some ties? Shirts? Cuff links, then?”

“One thing, and one thing only,” he says sternly.

“But why can’t I buy you more than one thing?” I say.

“Because I say so,” is his answer. I feel about seven years old, and in this context, I don’t particularly like the feeling.

“If you weren’t twice his height, I’d start calling you Napoléon, because you are such a tyrant!”

“But that’s exactly what you crave, and what drew you to me in the first place, Miranda,” he says, and a shiver of pleasure runs through me, unbidden.

“I do, but this once, let me buy you something, please,” I say.

“If you really insist, you can buy me something I believe I shall be able to put to good use: a leather belt,” he says, taking pity on me. I brighten at the prospect.

“A long, thick, heavy belt. One that is particularly flexible,” he goes on, and as the thought of how the belt will feel when he slashes it across my bare ass comes to mind, I blush to the roots of my hair.

Then, with the shopping team at his heels, he strides over to the belt department, and I follow.

“Now, Miranda, please explain to the team exactly what you are looking for,” he says, with a devilish smile.

I blush scarlet again and then recite, “A long, thick, heavy belt, one that is particularly . . .” but on the word “flexible” I find myself unable to articulate the rest of the sentence clearly.

The shopping team scramble to find a selection of belts and come up with fifteen, all of which they lay on the counter in front of Robert, who makes a great production of picking up each one of them, flexing it, putting it down again, then trying the next.

Finally, he ends up with three.

“So which of all these belts do you think is the most flexible, Miranda? The thicker one? The longer one? Or the heavier one?”

I want to sink into the floor because I’m certain every single member of the shopping team knows exactly what he intends to do with the belt. But I swallow hard and pick an Armani belt in soft calfskin the color of mahogany.