Authors: Nancy A. Collins
“S-sure I like you, Lisette. B-butâ”
“You're scared of him.”
“It's just thatâ”
“You needn't be frightened of him, Billy. If he was as powerful as he makes himself out to be he would still be in Europe. He was the Master of Hounds, that much is true. But he was deposed by a younger rival, who took the Bitch Queen as his own. That's why he came to this countryâso he wouldn't have to live with the shame of being a loser.” While I was digesting what she'd told me, Lisette took my hand and placed it atop one of her firm young breasts. My brain began to sputter like bacon in the pan, short-circuiting any attempts at rational thought. “I want you, Billy. I want you for my mate. Take me, Billyâtake me now.”
I've always been an agreeable sort, so it didn't take much more in the way of pleading to get me going. Within seconds we were rolling on the ground, all fear and common sense lost in a wash of hormones. I pushed Lisette's cotton shift up over her hips, exposing the moist thatch between her legs, all the while fumbling with my buttons. When I finally managed to free my johnson I discovered, to my dismay and embarrassment, the traitorous piece of meat was as limp as fresh wash.
“I-I'm dreadful sorry, Lisette,” I blushed. “I don't know what's wrong. This has never happened to me before.⦔ That part was true, since this was only the second time I'd ever been in such a position with a woman.
“While you're human you can't get hard.
Vargr
can only get it up when they're in their wild skins,” she breathed into my ear. Lisette grabbed me by my hair and pulled me down on top of her. She writhed against me like a hungry cat, her eyelids fluttering as if she were in the grip of a fever. She wanted me to change. She needed me to change. And the only way I could ever delve the sweet mystery between her legs was if I
did
change.
But I just couldn't bring myself to do it. Every time I closed my eyes to focus my attention on shifting from human to wolf, all I could see was Flood Moon's blood-smeared face, screaming in horror as I ravaged her. I pushed away from her, gasping like a man who had just narrowly escaped the pull of a whirlpool. My face was flushed and my eyes swam, but I was still wearing the skin of a man.
“I'm sorry, Lisette. I can't do that.”
“What do you mean you
can't
? I
told
you how to do it,” she pouted.
“I just
can't.
That's all there is to it,” I muttered, turning away from her so she would not see the look of disgust and fear in my eyes.
Lisette's displeasure darkened her face, twisting her beautiful features into something far from pretty. “Grondeur might be a wheezing old dog, but at least
he
knows what to do with a woman when he's got her under him!” she snapped.
If she was expecting me to respond to this goad, I'll never know. For there was a sudden, sharp report and her head, from the nose up, disappeared in a spray of blood and bone. I was too stunned to do more that twitch as Lisette's brains splattered against my face and chest. She sat there for a moment, her hands still fluttering in her lap like wounded birds. Then her body slumped to the ground as if it had suddenly become sleepy.
I looked in the direction of the shot and saw Grondeur standing by his private wagon. He looked tired and older than I'd ever seen him before. Even though the night was cool, he was dressed in a flannel night shirt, not his wolf skin. Beside him was one of the pet eunuchs, a smoking rifle gripped in a pudgy hand.
“The little minx fancied she could poison me with her pathetic little herbal mixtures,” Grondeur snarled, his words slurred. “Thought she could cuckold me, as if I was a common miller! Wretched little creature!” He stepped forward, his skin becoming darker and hairier. “And as for you,” he growled, lowering his head as his nose pushed and twisted its way into a snout, “you thankless little bastard, I'll deal with you like the dog you are!”
I shifted as the older werewolf came at me, leaping to meet his charge halfway. We struck headlong and began tearing at one another with all the fury of true wolves. He may have been old, but Grondeur was far from inexperienced when it came to hand-to-hand combat. But, then, I was far from a piker myself. Still, I'd never fought one of my own kind before, and I was unprepared for how strong my opponent proved to be.
All my life, I had been accustomed to tackling critters weaker than meâand that included grown buffalo, mind you. But Grondeur was powerful and knew where to bite and where to claw to do the most damage. While I had youth and vigor on my side, he definitely had yearsâif not centuriesâof experience is dealing with rival
vargr.
Fur, blood, spittle and shit flew in every direction as we rolled about on the ground. It wasn't until I felt a sudden heat across my shoulders and back, followed closely by intense pain, that I realized we had rolled into the campfire and that my pelt was ablaze. I howled in agony and snapped at Grondeur, biting off a couple of his fingers just as neatly as he bit the ends off his cigars. Although he yowled in pain, the old werewolf refused to let go.
“You were going to cuckold me, you worthless piece of shit!” he growled through bared teeth. “You were going to steal my Lisette and set up your own pack! Let's see how many cubs she'll bear you
now,
interloper!”
He forced my head back, exposing the soft meat of my jugular, and for a moment it looked like I was truly done for. Although I had endured what would have been certain death for a normal human time and time again, I knew there was no surviving a killing bite from one of my own kind. Just as Grondeur lowered his head, there was a horrible, high-pitched scream from the direction of the wagons. I used the distraction to break free of his hold and put some room between us. I fully expected Grondeur to press his attack, but to my surprise he seemed to have completely forgotten me.
The screaming continued. It was high and womanishâand for a second I thought it was one of Grondeur's wives. I looked in the direction of the noise and saw Henri, Grondeur's chief eunuch, standing as if transfixed, his chubby hands clutching the arrow sticking out of his chest.
Suddenly the sky was full of burning arrows plummeting to earth. Some of them thudded harmlessly to the ground. Most of them, however, landed in the canvas rigging of the covered wagons, setting them ablaze in seconds. Grondeur's harem poured from the burning wagons, their tongueless voices filling the night with mute screams.
The werewolf stood on crooked, shaggy legs and shook his fists at the night, bellowing at his unseen attackers like a vengeful Old Testament patriarch. “Who
dares
?!? Who dares attack Grondeur!?!”
His answer came in the form of a single rifle shot, which caught him in the chest and hurled him backward a good ten feet like a slaughtered fawn. To my surprise, he stayed down.
I'd like to point out that at this point I was hurt pretty good myself. I'd suffered some serious burns and sustained substantial internal injuries. I could feel myself bleeding inside, as some ribs had snapped and punctured one of my lungs. Grondeur had also torn off my right ear and bitten through my snout, so that it bled like a sieve. Still, despite all that had happened between us, I crawled to where my uncle lay dying.
He was still alive, but just barely. Blood was pumping out of his shattered ribcage and running out the corner of his mouth. He looked stunned and more than a little betrayed, like a child thrown from a beloved pony.
“Silver,”
the old werewolf whispered, his words thickened by the blood filling his lungs. “They've got silver bullets.” And then he died.
I didn't need to hear any more to know who was behind the attack on the camp. It was my very own private devil, come to make sure I didn't get lost on my way to Hell.
SomehowâI'm not exactly sure myself, since I was rapidly becoming delirious from my injuriesâI managed to drag myself away from the camp before Grondeur's attackers swept down from their hiding place in the surrounding hills. I got as far as a rise overlooking the massacre before my strength deserted me entirely.
Broken, burned and bleeding from more than a dozen deep wounds, I looked on helplessly as more than twenty Whitesâmost of them sporting heavy beardsârounded up Grondeur's harem. It slowly dawned on me that these were the Mormons my kinsman had hoped to blend in with and, eventually, prey upon.
The remaining eunuchs were killed as they tried to protect their fallen master's wives. I'll give them one thingâthey might not have had testicles, but those poor bastards certainly had guts. The women, unfortunately, suffered a far worse fate than their keepers. Makeshift torture racks were made from the wheels of the wagons, and each wife was, in turn, stripped naked and lashed in place, her arms and legs spread wide.
It was then Witchfinder Jones stepped out of the crowd of gathered men. Even from a distance, I had no trouble in identifying him, for he still wore my father's pelt. I watched as he methodically gutted each of the pregnant females, yanking their unborn whelps from their bellies and crushing them under his boot heel.
A great sadness filled me and I began to chant prayers to the Great Coyote in the Comanche tongue. Somewhere along the fifth or sixth wife I blacked out, my eyes swimming with visions of half-formed things crushed to jelly, and the screams of tongueless women ringing in my ears.
Chapter Nine
I don't know how long I was out, just that when I came to, I was lying on a pony drag. I struggled to sit up, but the pain that filled my body made me stop. I fell back and moaned.
“You are awake, skinwalker?”
The voice made me open my eyes again, for it belonged to a woman and spoke in the tongue of the Shoshone, a cousin tribe of the Comanche.
The horse came to a halt, and I heard the rider dismount and walk back to where I lay on the drag. Standing before me was a woman dressed in a long buckskin skirt and tunic, the front decorated with elaborate beadwork that marked her as a medicine squaw. She was neither beautiful nor ugly, although I guessed her age to be no more than sixteen or seventeen. On her head was a cap made from the skull and pelt of a badger, its paws tied under her chin.
“You are Shoshone?” I asked, my voice sounding so weak it frightened me to hear it.
She shook her head, causing the badger's empty paws to sway. “My mother was Shoshone, taken in a raid. My father is Lakota Sioux from the Hunkpapa council fire. I am called Digging Woman.”
“Digging Womanâhow did you come to find me?”
She smiled, and it was then I glimpsed the beauty and power held within her. “I saw you in a vision, Walking Wolf. I had traveled into the wilderness in quest of visions, and the Great Coyote came to me and showed me where to find you.”
I should have been surprised she knew my Indian name. But having learned at Medicine Dog's knee, I knew better. I had prayed to Great Coyote and he had heard my prayer, sending this woman to my aid. I tried to sit up again, but the pain was still too great. Digging Woman's eyes flashed alarm and she pushed me back with a gentle shove.
“Do not try to move, skinwalker. Your wounds are grave. Give them time to heal.”
As I scrutinized what little I could see of myself, I could tell she wasn't exaggerating. The backs of my hands and my forearms were covered with scar tissueâno doubt from the fire. I tried to touch my left earâonly to find a raw nub. As my regenerative abilities were taxed to their limit, it would be some time before my body could rebuild itself properly.
“I owe you my life, Digging Woman.”
She shrugged and pulled a handful of dried herbs from a pouch secured to her waist and handed me a drinking skin. “It is a long ride to my people's camp. Chew these and wash it down with water. It will help dull the pain.”
I did as she said. Although I have a high pain threshold, something told me I'd be stepping over it quite a bit in the next few days. As with most things unpleasant, I was right.
Digging Woman was a remarkable person. If I did not have reason enough to consider her so from the start, I quickly came to respect my savior during the two days she dragged me through strange and doubtless hostile territory.
The Sioux were much like the Comanche, seeing how they were both nomadic tribes that wandered the Great Plains and relied heavily on the buffalo for their day-to-day existence. Both tribes were noted for their ferocity in battle and skill as horsemen. Both were proud warrior societies. The big difference between the two, however, lay in their attitude toward religion.
Comanche, like I said earlier, were rather pragmatic people. They observed the taboos and rituals imposed by their gods but did not put much stock in supernatural things. While medicine men were respected, they were not treated with the respect one gave war chiefs. The Sioux, on the other hand, were great believers in visionsâand not just those given to shamans and elders. The everyday Sioux went in for rituals and dances and saw signs and portents in many things.
Digging Woman was a wise woman, schooled in the knowledge of roots, herbs, grasses and the phases of the moon. There was no such thing amongst the Comanche, unless you counted the Grandmothers who attended the women when it was their time to give birth. And, to judge by her dress and manner, Digging Woman had attained a great deal of stature within the tribe at an early age. Although the Sioux could be as dismissive of their women folk as the Comanche, the strength and truth of Digging Woman's visions and her skill as a healer had won her great respect from the various Lakota councils.
She explained to me that she was born of a family famous for its medicine. Many great and powerful shamans had been born of her clan. In fact, her uncle was none other than Tatanka Yotanka, better known as Sitting Bull, the most revered of the Hunkpapa medicine men. The night before we reached her tribe's camp, she informed me she would send a dream to her uncle, to tell him of their arrival.