Wanted (12 page)

“I know you can take care of yourself sweetheart. I
just
want to help. Now let’s watch this movie shall we?” I said as I stood back up and move
d to the other end of the sofa.

I lifted up her legs, sat down and grabbed the last small pillow I purposely kept out to hide my hard on. I placed her legs on the pillow and hit play. It would take several minutes into Cars before my heart rate finally settled back down.

Chapter Seven

Ellie
……

The moment he pushed my hair behind
my ear I knew I was in trouble.

He was being so thoughtful and kind. For a second I really thought he was going to lean down and kiss me. I almost was willing him to do it in my mind. How silly am I being? I know he is only taking care of me because I am Jefferson’s sister. There is no way a guy like this would EVER be interested in me. Jefferson was dead wrong.
I’
m so
far
out of
Gunner’s league it was unreal.

Gunner sat on the other end of the sofa and rested my legs on his lap. Well, not really because he put a pillow in-between him and my legs. I must admit I felt a tinge of disappointment when I saw him do that. Ryan
never
would have sat on the sofa like this. He said he could not take touching me because it only made him want me
more
. Maybe he just didn’t want to touch me because I was never desirable for him.
To be honest
,
I would have never have been ready to do anything with Ryan. We barley ever kissed and that was all. I guess he felt the same way. He never
really wanted me.

You will never be wanted by anyone…………

“Hey, what are you frowning for over there? Do you want me
to change the movie, cars not d
oing it for you sweetheart?” Gunner asked as he started to str
ok
e my legs.

OH. MY.
GOD.
He really needed to stop doing that.
This boy must have magic in his finger tips….holy fuck!
There goes that pressure in-between my legs again!

“No,
its
fine I was just thinking about the whole thing with Ryan today. I’m sorry.” I said as I tried to relax while he was sending jolts of electricity up and down my legs. Gunner’s face immediately fell and he lo
ok
ed like he wanted to hurt someone. He stopped str
ok
ing my legs and pushed both his hands through his messy hair. I immediately missed his touch an
d regretted bringing up Ryan. As I
watched him run his hands
through his hair I
lick
ed
my lips. What I wouldn’t do to straddle him
right now and run my fingers through that hair. I wonder if it was as soft as it lo
ok
ed
.

Oh holy shit! I needed to stop this! I tried to clear my head of my thoughts and lo
ok
ed back up at Gunner who was now lo
ok
ing at me. This was starting to get awkward
the way we kept staring at each other.

“Hey, um
Gunner can I ask you something?” I said as I sat up a little to get a better lo
ok
at h
im. My god he really was breath
taking. He smiled at me.

“Always….”

Yep, I would never forget that smile for as long as I lived. The feelings it sent through my body were like
nothing I had ever experienced.

“Why do you ke
ep calling me sweetheart?”

SHIT! As soon as I asked him that
his
smile faded just a little bit.

“I didn’t realize I was saying it a lot. I’m sorry. If you want me
to stop or it bothers you, I’
ll try to be more aware of it.” Gunner said as he lo
ok
ed back
at the TV.

Oh no….
FUCK!
I think I just hurt his feelings.
FUCK! FUCK! FUCK A DUCK!

“No no please don’t stop. I mean
,
I like it.
I mean, um
, well…” Good lord what
was I trying to say here?

“It’s just that you called me
that
the first time you touched me, I mean when you pulled me back away from Jefferson and Ryan. I guess I was just surprised to hear anyone other than Jefferson use an endearing name for
me. That’s all.” I said as I
laid
back down on the pillow.
Gesh
now I felt like a complete bitch. Here this god of a guy was staying home tonight and waiting on me and I just insulted him. SHIT!
I truly sucked at this stuff.

“Ryan never called you sweetheart or anything?” Gunner asked
his voice filled with surprise.

“HA! No….about the only thing he ever called me was Ell or Ells. That should have been another sign.” I said the last senten
ce practically under my breath.

“Well I can tell you this
Ellie
, if you were my girlfriend I would let you know ev
ery
day how much you meant to me, t
hrough words
,
and much more.”
Gunner said in such a sexy ass voice
.

I wanted to say
show me this much more
and show me now please
!

Okay
, that just w
ok
e up my whole body including my libido. WOW….no one has ever said anything like that to me before. Whoever snags this guy is going to be one hell of a lucky bitch.

“That is the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me. Thank you Gunner, so much. I’m sure you are going to make some girl a very happy woman someday.” I said with as muc
h of a smile as I could muster.

The thought of another girl in his arms drove me almost mad. What was wrong with me? God help me…..I tu
rned my attention back to Cars.

Before I knew it he was str
ok
ing my legs again and I feel in
to a dream.
I dr
eamt I was walking along a riverbank
.
It was me walking but I was
also
standing in the back ground watching it all
play out
.
All I could see was my back walking away from me.
Then to my side a man came running up and picked me up in his arms
and spun me around
. He gave me
the most loving kiss
. He w
hispered something in my ear and
I threw my head back
and laughed
.
He turned and I could now see the front of his body….it was Gunner. He had white linen pants on that were rolled up so the water did
not touch them and a grey
shirt. He lo
ok
ed like heaven. His smile was that
cro
o
k
ed
smile that I instantly feel in love with and would do anything to see every day.
Just then I turned
along with Gunner
to start walking back in the direction I was watching my dream
…..something was different about me but I could not see what it was.
I barel
y could see my face or my body.
Everything got b
lurry. Gunner dropped my hand and started to walk away from me.
Wait!
Where was he going?!
Why was he leaving? He looked so sad.

I heard someone
talking to me. It was my mother
..
….
Wake up
Ellie
..
…
.you will never be w
anted like this
Ellie
darlin
’…
..
. H
e does not want you
Ellie
wake up…
..
.Does not want you…
…
NO! That was not true. I saw the way Gunner lo
ok
ed at me in my dream…
…
he loved me…..he had to love me….

Ellie
sweetheart wakeup…….

Chapter Eight

Gunner
…..

I w
ok
e up with a startle. It to
ok
me a second to realize I was still on the sofa. Oh man….my neck was killing me! I must have fallen asleep watching the movie. The movie was over and it w
as just replaying th
e main menu
over and over again.

Gunner
?.......
Gunner
don’t go!
……
N
O! He does, you are wrong…..
you
are wrong!
Gunnerrrrr
!

What the hell?
!
I lo
ok
ed ov
er and
Ellie
was
dreaming
,
if you could call it that
. She
was calling out my name in her dream! Holy shit! She sounded scared to death. I jumped up careful not to knock her off the sofa.
I pushed the coffee table a little out of the way and
I knelt down next to her and started to str
ok
e her hair……

“
Ellie
Sweetheart wakeup,
Ellie
wake up
,
sweetheart
please
wake up
.”

FUCK! My heart was pounding a mile a minute. What the fuck was she dreaming about and where the fuck was I going?! I would
never
leave her….ever!

“
Ellie
Swe
etheart wakeup.”
Ellie
’s
eyes open
ed
suddenly
and
she
lo
ok
ed right at me. Next thing I knew she started to cry and
sat up and
threw herself into my arms. She
was
crying hysterically and I was really fucking freaked out. I was going to kick my ass if I hurt her in a dream.
I couldn
’t possible fuck this up in god
damn dream…
….
could I?

“OH MY GOD!
Gunner……”
Ellie
cried out in-between sob
s.

“SHHH
Ellie
it’
s
okay
, everything is
okay
, I’m here sweetheart and I’
m not going anywhere. I promise.” Just then
Ellie
pulled back and lo
ok
ed at me. Her eyes were filled with tears and she lo
ok
ed so goddamned confused. She sho
ok
her head no for a second and just st
ared at me.

“No
one
will ever want me Gunner, or stay with me…
..
.ever.”
She whispered.

What the hell? My go
d, wha
t did her mother do to her
?

“
Ellie
sweetheart that’
s just not true.”

I pushed a lock of her hair behind her ear. My god she was even beautiful
when she was
crying.
The o
nly thing I wanted to do at that
moment was take away her fear and do
ubts. To show her how much she
was wanted
.
I lo
ok
ed down to her soft tear soaked lips
and licked my own lips
.
I started to lean in to kiss her and I heard the front door lock move.
Ellie
must have heard it also because she quickly pulled out of my embrace and sat back just s
taring at me with this lost lo
ok
on her face.

Jeff walk
ed in and surveyed what he saw.

“What’s going on?
Ellie
?
Are you
okay
? Did y
ou hurt your hand again?
” Jeff said
as he lo
ok
ed back and forth between the two of us.

“No….um
…no”
Ellie
struggled to talk and was shaking her head as if trying to erase a memory. She quickly wiped away her tears and lo
oked up at Jeff
.
He
lo
ok
ed
back
at her and snapped his head over to me.