Well of Sorrows (36 page)

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HE SHIP ROLLED BENEATH HIM, and Colin clutched the wooden support, the press of the other refugees from Trent close around him. The sour-sick stench of vomit filled the dark hold, and he tried not to gag as he breathed through his mouth. Not ten paces away, he heard someone heaving up his minimal breakfast, and he blocked out the sound, closing his eyes and tucking his head down between his shoulders, cowering against the support. Someone nearby wept, and a baby cried—had cried nonstop for the last two days, sick with colic—its mother shushing it.

Overhead, on deck, the sound of running boots thudded into the hold as the ship lurched to port. Everyone cried out as they were thrown to the side.

Then a hand fell on Colin’s shoulder. He looked up, even though it was too dark to see any faces, and felt his mother’s breath against his neck as she spoke. “It’ll be all right, Colin. It’s just a storm. It’ll be over soon enough.”

She pulled him close, hugged his body tight to hers, nestling him under her arm. He didn’t let go of the wooden support, not completely, but he did bury his head against her chest. He could smell her sweat, the reek of the potatoes she’d been peeling for the cook for the captain’s dinner, the collected grime from unwashed clothes; he could smell
her
.

He wanted to stay here, in her arms, in her warmth.

The ship lurched again, and suddenly there was another hand, on his other arm.

“Colin,” a girl whispered, tugging at him, trying to gain his attention.

He pulled away, clutched tighter to his mother. She smiled down at him—he could
feel
it—tousled his hair—

And the girl tugged harder. “Colin! Colin, listen to me!” Colin growled and turned his head to snarl, “What?”

It was Karen.

A cold, cold hand sank deep into his gut.

Karen shouldn’t be here. Karen shouldn’t be on this ship. He hadn’t even known her yet.

With a look of pity and patience, Karen said, “You can’t stay here, Colin.”

Confused but with a growing awareness that this couldn’t be happening, that Karen was dead, that his
mother
was dead, he whispered, “Why not?”

“You have to wake up. There are things you need to do.”

“But . . . but,” he stammered, aware now that he could taste blood in his mouth, warm and metallic. The visceral sensations of the ship were receding—the smell of vomit, the warmth of his mother’s body, the splinters biting into his hands.

Karen receded as well.

“What do I need to do?” he shouted into the burgeoning darkness, but the words were mumbled, the blood thick on his tongue.

He woke with a jolt and spat blood to one side of the bed he lay in, moaning as a tendril of the spit drooled down from his mouth. He wiped it away, his body aching, his head pounding, then lay back on the bed again.

He smelled leaves and earth and snow.

After a moment, he realized that the rolling sensation of the ship from the dream had not ended.

His eyes flew open and he turned onto his side—

And found three Alvritshai watching him from the opposite end of the narrow room. Aeren, Eraeth, and a guardsman Colin didn’t know. They stood just inside the narrow doorway. Colin could see a ship’s corridor outside, and with a quick glance he determined that the room they held him in contained five more bunks, two above him and three across an aisle. Lanterns burned, swinging at the motion of the ship, and he could hear the thud of numerous feet around him.

Eraeth said something in Alvritshai. Colin caught a few words he recognized, but not enough to translate it. He’d learned more dwarren than Alvritshai in his time in the forest.

“Speak Andovan, Protector,” Aeren said, and when Eraeth sneered, he added, “as a courtesy to our guest.”

Eraeth’s sneer vanished, his eyes going flat. “I told you he would wake soon.”

Aeren nodded. His eyes didn’t leave Colin’s face. “Yes. You were correct to summon me.”

Eraeth snorted. “I do not know why you wanted to bring him with us. He’s nothing more than a commoner, and he stinks.”

“I brought him because he stopped those who attacked us, those who killed one of the Phalanx and nearly killed Lord Barak. He stopped them even when it was obvious the Legion’s commander would have allowed them to escape. I brought him because he appeared sick, and the honor of Rhyssal House demanded it, but also because I felt that the Legion’s commander intended him harm.” Aeren stepped forward, a frown touching his lips. “And I brought him because he seems . . . familiar.”

Both Eraeth and the other guard stiffened when Aeren moved, their gazes falling on Colin as if they expected him to leap up with bared sword at any moment. Colin didn’t have a sword, didn’t even have his staff or satchel, although the satchel must be close if he could smell the Lifeblood. He hadn’t dared move since he’d caught sight of the three Alvritshai; he’d seen how fast they could move when there was need.

Now Aeren tilted his head slightly, his attention focusing completely on Colin while the two guardsmen shifted farther into the room. “Who are you?”

Colin cleared his mouth of blood-tainted saliva and swallowed. Then, in a hoarse voice, he said, “Colin. My name is Colin.”

Aeren’s eyes narrowed as he thought. Colin could see his mind racing, reaching back, then back farther, memor y tugging at him.

And then his eyes widened. He swore, in Alvritshai, but the flavor of the words was clear.

Eraeth asked him something, and he responded in a hushed voice. Eraeth said something, realized that Colin couldn’t understand, and repeated himself in Andovan. “Impossible!”

Colin eased up onto his elbow, swung his legs off the edge of the bunk, aware of the Alvritshai’s swords. And aware that doubt had settled into Aeren’s gaze.

“I survived the attacks by the dwarren and the Shadows . . . the sukrael,” he said, “but only with the help of the Faelehgre.”

“The Faelehgre?”

“The lights in the forest. The ones that burn with a pure white fire. They’ve lived there with the Shadows for hundreds upon hundreds of years.”

Aeren’s eyes narrowed. “The antruel. The Guardians.” Both Eraeth and the other guardsman shifted nervously.

Colin thought about the Faelehgre, of the Well. “They call themselves the Faelehgre.”

Aeren nodded. But he hadn’t relaxed. Neither had Eraeth. “And how did these . . . Faelehgre help you?”

Colin shifted uncomfortably, dropped his head, the memories rising up so fast, so vividly. He breathed in deeply to steady himself, smelled the grass of the plains, the clean wetness of the storm that had passed. “Most of the wagons managed to escape the dwarren battle,” he began, his voice low. “We halted at the edge of the forest. The dwarren followed us, but they refused to come to within a hundred paces of the edge of the trees. We thought we were safe. But then the Shadows attacked. The sukrael.”

“We warned you,” Eraeth said, voice tight with contempt. Colin looked up, anger rising in his chest. “Where else could we go?” he asked bitterly. “After the fight near the underground river, fleeing across the plains, the storm. . . .” He shook his head. “Even if we had followed you, we wouldn’t have been able to go far. We were exhausted. We would have slowed you down, even without the wagons.” He remembered how fast the Alvritshai warriors had moved back then, how fast they could run, nearly keeping up with the horses.

Eraeth grunted, still dismissive, still suspicious. But Aeren intervened before he could say anything more. “How did you escape the sukrael?”

“I . . . didn’t.”

Aeren’s brow creased in confusion.

Pain filled Colin’s chest, cold with the memory of the Shadow’s touch, but he forced himself to continue. “The sukrael attacked the wagons, and everything went to hell. Karen and I tried to find our parents, but everyone was running back and forth, and the Shadows were everywhere, falling on everyone, taking the horses, the Armory . . . nothing could stop them, not swords or axes. When we finally found Karen’s father, he’d been cornered near a wagon. I watched him fall, tried to hold Karen back. But she broke free.” His throat closed up but he forced himself to swallow. The emotions weren’t as raw here, away from the forest, away from the plains, but they were still strong enough to make breathing difficult.

He glanced up, met Aeren’s pained look, Eraeth’s narrowed, his mouth turned down in a frown. “I stayed with her, held her. I couldn’t move. Too drained—from the run, from the intensity of the dwarren battle, from the horror of what was happening around me. So I simply sat there and let the Shadows touch me.”

Eraeth hissed, the sound so unnatural that Colin started. Then the Protector muttered something under his breath, lips drawn back from his teeth as he reached for his sword, but he didn’t draw it. The effort
not
to draw it was clear in the tension on his face. “No one survives the touch of the sukrael,” he said sharply.

Colin felt his anger escalate. “I wouldn’t have. I wanted to die. But the Shadows didn’t take me right away, like the others. They’d been sated. So they tested me instead, touched me, searching for something. But then the Faeleghre came, and the Shadows fled. They saved me, led me to the Lifeblood, and—” He halted, about to say the Faelehgre had
forced
him to drink the waters; but that wasn’t true. “—they had me drink from the Well. That’s what saved me from the Shadows’ touch, but it changed me as well.” He hesitated, then shoved back the cuff of his robe, exposing the black mark on his skin.

Eraeth stilled, his body going rigid, but the other guardsman wasn’t as controlled. He stepped back, eyes wide with fear, and hissed, “Shaeveran,” warding himself.

Eraeth barked something in Alvritshai, the guardsman arguing with him a moment, until Aeren finally cut them both off with a gesture.

Colin covered the mark again. The other guardsman whispered something to Aeren, his glance shooting toward his lord. Aeren’s lips pursed.

“He says you’ve drunk from one of the sarenavriell, from a—” He paused, brow creasing as he translated the Alvritshai word, “—from a ‘Well of Sorrows.’ He says that you are cursed.”

“Well of Sorrows.” Colin barked bitter laughter. He thought of all those who’d died in the wagon train, of his parents, Arten, and Karen. “That’s appropriate.”

Eraeth’s suspicious gaze hadn’t wavered. “It could be a trick,” he said tightly. “He may not be the boy we met on the plains. He may have assumed the identity to get close to you.”

Aeren frowned. “Very few knew of the wagon train on the plains: you and the rest of the Phalanx present for that portion of my trial, but no one else. Are you saying I cannot trust my own House guard?”

Eraeth’s lips peeled back from his lips in a silent snarl, but then he relaxed, the snarl vanishing. He shot Colin a black look. “Of course you can trust your guard.”

Aeren nodded, accepting the emotionless words without comment. He regarded Colin a long moment, the silence thick, his face unreadable, his gaze intense. Colin shifted nervously beneath that gaze, the rolling of the ship beginning to make him nauseous again. Then he straightened.

“I can prove that I’m the boy you met on the plains,” he said suddenly.

Before any of the Alvritshai could respond, he concentrated. His age fell away, the wrinkles of the fifty-year-old man smoothing, muscles tightening. He took himself all the way back to twelve, the age when he and Aeren had first met.

As soon as he started to change, the guardsman Colin didn’t know whispered something long and complicated. Colin could taste his fear. Eraeth’s blade slid from its sheath, and with a fluid grace he stepped in front of Aeren. The Alvritshai lord didn’t protest, his own eyes wide. Fear tightened the skin at the corners of his eyes, pressed his lips into a thin line.

“Stop,” he said, and waved his hand. When Colin only frowned, he repeated in a harsher tone, “Stop!”

Colin returned to the older version of himself. He could feel the tension in Aeren now, the lord fidgeting, as if he wanted to pace, which the confines of the cabin on the ship didn’t allow. He shot a hard gaze at Eraeth, then turned back to Colin.

“Do
not
allow anyone else to see you . . . change,” he said, his voice soft but dangerous. He waited until Colin had nodded agreement before continuing, relaxing only slightly. “Is this a consequence of the sarenavriell?”

“Yes. I can become any age I want, up to my true age.”

“And can you shift into other forms? Can you make yourself look like Eraeth, or myself?”

“No.”

“I see. And were there . . . any other consequences?”

“I have seizures, like the one you saw.” At the look of concern that flashed in Aeren’s eyes, Colin ran a hand across his mouth, as if there were blood still there, then grimaced. “There’s nothing you can do for me. If it happens again, let it run its course.” He didn’t explain that the seizures had gotten worse since he’d left the Well’s influence or that he’d only coughed up blood once before, on the plains.

Aeren regarded him a long moment, then nodded, as if he’d reached a decision. He said something low to Eraeth, the Protector’s expression darkening, but he stepped outside the room, returning with Colin’s staff and satchel. He handed them off to Aeren.