When Harry Met Molly (30 page)

Chapter 43

“I’ve got big news, brother,” Roderick said, tying his cravat in the looking glass.

“Let me guess.” Harry took a sip of his brandy.

It was early evening, and his parents’ ball would commence in less than an hour. Harry was in the opulent suite Roderick and Penelope shared when they stayed with the duke and duchess.

“You know already, don’t you?” Roderick smiled.

Harry put the brandy down and stood up. “I can tell just by that grin on your face. Your fertility
and
your legacy are assured. Penelope is with child, and you think it’s a boy.”

Roderick laughed. “Yes, you devil. Is it that obvious I’m proud to have caused my beautiful wife to breed yet again?”

“Yes, it is.” Harry slapped him on the back. “Well done. And how are you so sure this time that she’ll produce a son?”

Roderick sighed. “She feels different, she said. And her maid did some kind of trick with a spoon on a string and proclaimed the babe to be a boy. But truth be told, if we have another little Penelope, I’d be equally glad.”

“You know what this means, don’t you?” asked Harry.

“Not exactly,” Roderick replied, pouring himself his own brandy.

“If you have a boy, I will no longer be the spare.”

Roderick paused. “You’re right.”

“I shall be released from the one duty I’ve been carrying all my life.”

Roderick gazed at him. “I can’t tell if you’re relieved—or will somehow miss it.”

Harry raked a hand through his hair. “I’m mixed, actually. Being the spare has defined me all these years. As being the heir has defined you.”

Roderick nodded in understanding. “It does get rather wearying, doesn’t it?”

The brothers both sat on the edge of the bed. “I sometimes think, Roderick”—Harry felt his jaw clenching—“that even now, Father doesn’t know me. Or care to.”

Roderick sat silent for a moment, then said, “He isn’t the most affectionate of men.” He lightly punched Harry’s arm. “I should have noticed you more. Given you that attention every boy needs.”

“You needed it, too.”

Roderick shrugged. “I got plenty of attention from Father. It might not have been warm, or particularly personal, but I
did
feel important.” Roderick threw out an arm and intoned, “What would happen to the world without the house of Mallan? It would stop spinning.” He grinned, but it was wistful. “That was the feeling I got from Father.”

They sat quietly again, and Harry noticed he felt happy, despite the awkwardness of their conversation. It was good to sit with his brother and be…accepted.

“I knew I always had you,” Harry blurted out, his voice hoarse. With emotion, he supposed. Ever since that week at the hunting box with Molly, and all the feelings he’d felt there, he’d been more emotional than he’d ever been. He swallowed hard. “Thank you for believing in me when the whole world didn’t.”

Roderick lowered his brandy. “You mean…about what happened to you in the army?”

Harry nodded. “It’s been difficult. Really difficult. To not be able to defend myself.”

Roderick sighed. “Is that why you’ve simply…given in? Been what everyone expects of you?”

“Yes,” Harry said. “Part of it. Especially because Father expects so little of me. I’m not quite sure he believes I was protecting a lady’s honor. And still am.”

“Harry,” Roderick remonstrated with him. “As much as Father knows you’re doing the right thing, the frustrated parent in him doesn’t like standing by doing nothing. Trust me, I know, now that I’m a father myself, how much I’d hate to feel useless if one of our girls were in trouble.”

Harry sighed.

“He may not show it,” Roderick said, “but he loves you. He does. Feel sorry for him that he can’t show it more readily.” Roderick paused. “Do you love
him,
Harry?”

Harry stared at the floor. Did he? Did he love the man who’d shown him almost no attention and definitely no affection—for his entire life?

His brow creased. “Yes,” he said, looking at Roderick. “I do. I don’t know why, but I do.”

“Then tell him. Don’t wait for him to tell
you
. That might never happen, but you can tell him. And be at peace. Finally. That’s another reason you’re an Impossible Bachelor, isn’t it? Because you’re angry.”

Harry stared at Roderick. “Yes,” he said. “I’m angry.”

Roderick’s gaze locked onto his. His expression was concerned. Accepting.

Hopeful.

Harry smiled. “It’s time to move on, isn’t it?”

Roderick nodded. “I’m proud of you for realizing it. I knew it long ago, but unless it comes from your own heart—it can’t happen, can it?”

They both stood. A beat passed, and then Harry threw his arms around his brother and squeezed him hard.

“Thanks,” he whispered.

Roderick hugged him back. “No. Thank
you
for being there for
me
. Now that I look back on it, you always have been.”

Harry laughed. “Except for one time.”

“Oh, yes,” Roderick drawled. “When you kissed
my wife
.”

“She wasn’t your wife
then
.”

Roderick laughed. “Actually, that episode brought me around. I’m afraid I’d been taking her a bit for granted. I’ve never taken her for granted since.”

“Well, you’d best not quit now. We’re five minutes late, you know, for the gathering in the drawing room.”

Roderick rolled his eyes in mock horror. “There’ll be hell to pay from Mother
and
Penelope, won’t there?”

“Yes, but I’m used to it from Mother,” said Harry.

“Just wait until you get married.”

“That’ll be the day,” Harry murmured with a wicked grin.

They both chuckled and bounded down the stairs. Harry watched Roderick sail to Penelope’s side and kiss her soundly.

The retorts Harry used to defend his bachelor status were so habitual he could recite them in his sleep. But somehow, today, in light of Roderick and Penelope’s wonderful news and their…
togetherness
, those platitudes rang false even to his own ears.

Which was rather disconcerting.

Was he losing his touch?

He decided he rather didn’t care at the moment.

There were more important things to think about. Like family. And friends. And having a good time at a small country ball thrown by an overbearing duke who just might happen to love him, after all.

Chapter 44

Molly’s palms were damp. She couldn’t wait to see Harry. It had been six long weeks! How would she act toward him? And how would he act toward her?

She knew she was a fool to wonder. Harry was free to be a bachelor and, as far as she knew, that’s exactly what he’d been doing. According to the gossip rags, he’d been out and about all over London, although she noticed that in no report did his actions appear to be more dissolute than any other bachelor’s.

They were dissolute enough, however, to bring her pain. Was he already entangled with another woman?

At least she knew she looked her best. Her gown came straight from London. Papa, dear man, had spared no expense. It was a pale rose colored muslin—almost white—with the most delicate sheer sleeves. The neckline was modest enough, but the skirt was sprinkled with translucent beading which shimmered as she moved. And in her hair, which was miraculously holding its curl, she wore a cluster of pale pink roses.

At the balcony overlooking the ballroom, Molly waited in the receiving line to greet her host and hostess, after which she’d descend the massive staircase to join the festive crowds below. She realized she should be quite comfortable—the duke’s home was practically her home. She’d been coming here since she was a baby, and her sister was now the duke’s daughter-in-law.

But things had forever changed after the house party. And now, she couldn’t believe how she’d never noticed Harry before that time…in the way a woman notices a man.

She lost her father on the staircase—he was somewhere in the crowd below her.

But then he found her and touched her arm. “Go on without me, Molly. I must have a chat with Lord Winston, and I left my spectacles in the carriage. I shall be back momentarily.”

She was on close enough terms with Harry’s family to go through the receiving line on her own, of course.

“As you wish, Papa,” she said, and proceeded onward.

She couldn’t look down the line for Harry—she was much too preoccupied with greeting his parents. She wondered if she’d ever stop being intimidated by His Grace. She somehow doubted it, but the duchess made up for his controlled, intimidating manner.

“So good to see you, Molly.” The duchess smiled rather tenderly and squeezed her hand. “Do you know you look more like your mother with each passing day?”

Molly felt a rush of warmth fill her. “I do?”

“Most certainly,” replied the duchess. “I hope you enjoy yourself tonight, dear.”

Molly thanked the duchess and moved on to Penelope and Roderick, who were even more pleased to see her, of course. She gave them both the warmest of embraces.

“You look gorgeous,” Penelope gushed. “And it’s been an agony not seeing you sooner.” She hadn’t had a moment to travel over to Marble Hill with the girls since coming home from Italy three days ago. She and the duchess had been busy with the ball preparations.

But Molly understood. And she couldn’t wait to have time alone with her big sister. She had a glow about her—it was love, of course. Love given
and
returned. Something that she felt destined never to experience herself. But she could be happy for Penelope, and she was. Genuinely so.

And in the midst of that happiness for Penelope, Molly sensed, rather than saw, that the object of her unrequited affections was very near. While she spoke to her sister about her favorite Italian haunts, she heard Roderick turn to his left and say, “Here’s the little hellion that caused you to join the army, Harry.”

And that’s when she saw him. Her insides instantly turned to jelly. In his perfectly cut evening clothes, Harry was more handsome than ever. Yet there was also a solitariness about him, a reserve, that he hadn’t had at the hunting box. Perhaps it was because he was around his family.

Molly could tell by the light in his eye that he was well pleased to see her. He kissed the back of her hand, and the shock of his touch sent ripples of pleasure through her.

“My friends from London shall be asking you to dance,” he continued rather low, even thought Roderick and Penelope were now immersed in conversation with two old spinsters. “I shall introduce you to them myself when I’m done here.”

Molly felt her bubble of happiness deflate. “Thank you, Harry.” She managed a smile. “I’m most obliged.”

“It is my firmest desire to fulfill my promise to you,” he said with a gravity to his tone that she’d never heard before.

He took her hand once more and kissed it. She made sure her smile stayed frozen in place until she was free of the receiving line—as she must be free of him.

He’d made a promise to help her find a husband. But did he have to be so happy to fulfill it? She must move on. She’d flirt with his friends. And if all went well, perhaps tonight she would dance with the man she would marry.

Harry didn’t mind that he’d got caught up in a circle of women surrounding his mother. She’d called him over to answer questions from them about his plans for the future. His parents and their cronies were
always
asking him his plans for the future.

For the first time, he had some. “I’m starting a small press,” he told the ladies.

His mother gasped. She smiled. And then tears sprang to her eyes.

Harry was rather overwhelmed with emotion himself.

“Mother, dear.” He took her hand and smiled. “My first effort at the Traemore Press shall be a compilation of children’s riddles, jokes, and poems. It shall be called
A Christmas Pageant Collection for Children
. All the profits from each printing—I intend to update the collection each year—will go to the local orphanage.”

There were murmurs of approval from the women.

“I’ll also be putting together various other charitable projects,” Harry went on, “such as an advice manual for women seeking safe and honest work in London, which we’ll dispense in churches and poor houses around the city.”

“My goodness!” one elderly woman piped up, her quizzing glass to her eye. “Whatever has happened to the Harry of old?”

Harry turned to her. “I’m the same person, Countess. Only better.”

All the women laughed.

“Does your father know, Harry?” His mother’s eyes were bright with hope.

He shook his head. “Not yet. I’ve not had a chance to tell him. But I shall. Later tonight.”

“Good,” she said. “Tell us more.”

Harry grinned at her enthusiasm. And he wished that he’d figured out, long ago, that nothing—not his father, and not even his disgrace in the army—had been holding him back. Only
he
had.

“Eventually,” he told the company of women, “I’ll branch out into acquiring amusing novels, books of poetry for adults, and learned tomes, but I shall never forget my initial inspiration”—he lifted his mother’s knuckles to his lips and kissed them tenderly—“which is yourself, dear lady, a most loving mother who taught me to do what is right and leave off that which is wrong.”

The duchess was speechless. So were her friends. In fact, not one of them had a dry eye. Harry got more hugs and well wishes than he’d ever gotten in his life, and strangely enough, he was all right with that. He could accept the past. Because he was more than that now. Bigger, somehow.

And, as he’d told the dowager countess,
better
.

But while the women waxed on about his business venture and paid him the most flattering attention, he yet sought an avenue of escape. Because over his shoulder, he’d caught a glimpse of Molly. She was dancing with his friend Alfred, who must have said something witty because the minx threw her head back and laughed.

Which was when Harry got his first stab of jealousy. The slender column of Molly’s throat, he knew from experience, was soft and warm, smelling of strawberries and sweet promises.

He didn’t like the idea of her offering her neck to Alfred. And Harry despised imagining Alfred pressing kisses to it.

“You seem distracted, Harry,” said his mother, laying her hand on his arm. “And no wonder, with a fine future beckoning you.”

“Would you like to dance?” asked Lady Gregory. “My Anne would make a fine partner.”

Good God. There stood Anne Riordan, most likely his future bride. She was of impeccable lineage and substantial wealth. In the eyes of the
ton
, there was no reason why he shouldn’t offer for the chit.

“Hello, Lord Harry.” Anne squinted up at him.

“Er, good to see you, Lady Anne.” He tried to smile at her.

“We know you’re off limits in town,” Lady Gregory said to him, “but surely not at your mother’s house?”

Harry understood Lady Gregory well. Bet or no bet, he was still his parents’ son, and he would comply with their traditions. He held out his arm to Anne. “I would be honored to dance with you,” he said, striving to sound gallant.

She gripped his arm as if she were headed for the gallows.

My God, Harry thought as he carried her off, his neck reddening at the twittering of the ladies behind them. Were the banns already being read and someone forgot to tell him?

Holding a meaningful conversation while Anne constantly stepped on his feet was difficult, but he managed. And when a fop in a pink waistcoat bumped into them with
his
dance partner, Anne appeared to almost faint from the shock.

Of course, Harry offered her some lemonade at that point, but she declined with a small shake of her head.

“Thank you for a lovely dance,” he told her at its conclusion, and passed her over to the fop in the pink waistcoat, declaring her to be the finest dancer and most pleasant company he’d encountered yet at the ball that evening.

Duty done.

Now he could go search for Alfred. A few moments later, he caught up with him at a linen-covered serving table adorned with ivy-wrapped candles and two epergnes loaded with hot house orchids. Penelope’s favorite flower, Harry knew from Roderick.

A maid, her hair tucked neatly beneath her frilly cap, ladled out a light, iced punch. “Here you are, Lord Harry.” With a warm smile, she handed him a brimming cup.

“Thanks very much.” Harry raised the cup and grinned at her. It felt good to be welcomed back home, even by the servants.

Alfred asked for two cups of the stuff and turned back to Harry with a confiding air. “You did me a great service. I like your Molly. She’s a wit
and
a pleasure to look at. In fact, I’m bringing her some refreshment now. She said she might go out on the terrace with me.”

“I don’t think so,” said Harry. “She’s not to go out on the terrace with anyone. Her father’s orders.”

Alfred drew in his chin. “Who are
you
to listen to fathers?”

Harry attempted a jovial smile, but he was afraid it came out a bit threatening. “Molly’s different. She’s not someone to toy with.”

“I’m not
toying
with her,” Alfred said, his back obviously up. “I might even decide to court her, but—” His face turned red. “Now see what you’ve done.”

Harry followed his bitter gaze. Molly was surrounded by the other three friends he’d brought down from London.

Alfred sighed and put the cups down on the punch table.

“I’m sorry,” Harry said, not feeling sorry at all that Alfred had lost a chance to get to know her more intimately. “You won’t win her without a fight.”

Alfred looked at him quizzically. “Do
you
like her?”

Harry gave a short laugh. “Of course I do. She’s my neighbor. I’ve known her since she was an infant.”

“You’re acting awfully put out that I was bringing her punch.”

Harry cleared his throat. “I feel a certain protectiveness toward her, yes.”

“As you would to a sister?”

Harry smiled. “Exactly.”

“Then I shall stay far away,” Alfred said gloomily. “I have a sister myself.” And he left Harry, presumably in search of other female quarry.

If Alfred was so easily dissuaded, he didn’t deserve to be in the running for Molly’s hand in marriage, Harry thought, feeling vindicated for having weeded out one unworthy bachelor.

But then he looked over and saw the other three still hovering. And one of them—Lord Michael Bannister—asked Molly to dance to the waltz.

Really, Harry thought, what was his mother thinking, allowing such a scandalous dance to be performed? It must be Penelope’s influence.

His throat tightened. Michael was a Romeo—a good man, but with a bag of wild oats he’d made very clear he had yet to sow. Molly was chatting avidly with him during their waltz—looking at him with those large, always curious brown eyes of hers.

And it was when Harry saw that sweet openness in her gaze not directed toward him but toward someone else—that he knew.

He already knew he felt lust for Molly. And a healthy dose of friendly feelings.

But he felt more than that.

He didn’t want to share her with any other man. At all.
Ever
.

He’d never felt that way before. When he’d had his dalliances, he’d been perfectly amenable to the lady moving on to someone else after their own affair had run its course.

But he didn’t feel that way about Molly. She was no longer involved with him
that way,
but he most certainly didn’t want his bachelor friends chatting away with her, all the while imagining taking her to bed.

He didn’t want his friends to
dare
have those thoughts about her. Now or in the future.

He felt a possessiveness that threatened to unravel him if he didn’t get control of himself. Uncurling his fists, he strode across the room and tapped Michael’s shoulder. “I’ll take over,” he said in a short tone.

Michael stopped, looked rather confused.

“I’ll explain later,” Harry said.

And he would. He would explain to the whole company present that Molly was to be his. No one else’s. He was free to marry whom he wished, and he would marry
her
.

He would make her his wife and never have to worry about other men approaching her again.

Because he
loved
her! How could he have been so thick-headed, taking so long to realize that his crazy, mixed-up feelings—his constant thoughts of Molly—were nothing less than love?