Wild in the Field (3 page)

“My sister is not in trouble with anything,” Camille told him firmly.

“Okay. I didn't come to argue. In fact, I told you everything I came to say.” He not only stepped back, but closed the door for her, firmly and quietly. She heard the thud of his boot step on the porch, then nothing as he strode toward his white pickup.

She watched him from the grimy window—even though she didn't mean to look. Neither Pete MacDougal nor his opinions were any of her business. God knew what that visit was all about, but it didn't matter.

Violet wasn't in trouble. Cam had seen her every damn day. Vi was dressing like a model for a gypsy catalog with all the sweeping scarves and flowing blond hair and all—but Violet had always been a girly-girl. She never had a tomboy bone in her body, probably came out of the womb asking Mom for a credit card and directions to the mall. The point being, she might be going a little overboard with the froufrou thing, but Violet was still Violet.

Camille stood in the doorway a moment longer, and then with a sinking feeling of defeat and exhaustion, padded toward the bedroom.

When it came down to it, even if Violet were in trouble—which she wasn't—Camille likely couldn't muster enough energy to help her anyway. Right now she couldn't even help herself. For a brief moment,
Pete had sparked something vibrant and unexpected…but that was just a fluke.

There was just nothing in her anymore. Nothing.

 

It was still raining four days later. The theory about April showers bringing May flowers was all well and good, but these April rains were bleakly chill and relentless—which was why Camille spent two hours hiking outside. The weather suited her mood perfectly.

She didn't care what Pete MacDougal had told her—in any way. She hadn't given him another thought—in any way.

The fresh rain stung her cheeks, but still she tromped the fields until her legs ached and she was cold and damp from the inside out. By the time she clomped into her sister's kitchen, it was just after six. In the back hall, she shed field boots, her father's thrown-out barn jacket and an old cap. They had given her little protection against the weather. Her dark hair was straggling-wet at the edges, her jeans hemmed with ice-cold mud, and she couldn't stop shivering.

Naturally, her sister caught her before she had time to run some hot water on her hands.

“Sheesh, Camille. You're going to catch your death. Come in and get yourself warm, you goose.” Violet had always been a bully. She hustled her into the kitchen, where warm yellow light pooled on the old glass cabinets and potbellied stove and round oak table. Pots simmered on the stove. Counters were crowded with dishes. Smells choked the air.

Dinner was going to be another petrifying meal, Camille sensed.

It was. She pried open lids and covers. The main course appeared to be cod stuffed with spinach. The salad looked to be a bunch of pungent herbs that smelled as if they could not only get a body's system
moving—but moving permanently. The drink was some herbal concoction in a pitcher. Violet hadn't served normal food since Camille could remember.

“We're going to start with some Fish Soup Normandy tonight. We've got to build you up, Cam. You're not just skinnier than a rail, those jeans are about to fall off. For Pete's sake, I'm not sure you could find your butt with a magnifying glass. I'm not sure you even have one anymore.”

Camille cut to more important issues. “What's in the Normandy soup?”

“Oh, this and that. Celery, onions, carrot, lemon. Herbs and seasonings. And fish heads, of course—”

Camille muttered a swearword. The bad one. Violet just smiled as she scurried around the kitchen. Tonight she was wearing a paisley blouse of some flowing material, her pale blond hair braided with a scarf. “I've been working up a storm in the greenhouses. I know it's hard to believe, but it's going to be warm in just a couple more weeks….” She glanced up and said carefully, “I saw you out walking.”

Camille scooped up silverware and plates to set the table.

“That's the first I've seen you come out of the cottage—except for coming up here for meals, obviously. You were starting to scare me, Cam.”

“Nothing to be scared about.” She took a breath. “And I'm not going to mooch off you forever. I know I'm not bringing in any money. I don't want to be a burden. I just—”

“You're no burden and you're not mooching, you dimwit. The farm's yours no different than it's mine and Daisy's. You can live here forever, if you want. In
fact, there's tons of space here at the house, you know that—”

“No.” There was no way she could stay here. Her Campbell ancestors had sailed here from Scotland, homesteaded here, put down the first layer of brick and stone. Although generations had added on, it remained a sturdy, serious house with white trim and a shake roof. Inside, the plank floors were polished to a shine. There was still a cane rocker and rag rug by the kitchen potbellied stove. Violet had added the chintz upholstery, the frilly curtains, the Live Well-Love Much-Laugh Often type of homey slogans. Cats nested on most surfaces. The kitchen that had been blue and white, was now red and white, with pots of herbs clustered in the sink window.

And just like when they were growing up, Violet was still incessantly chattering. “Mom and Dad called…”

Camille immediately tensed.

“But I told them you were doing fine.”

There. She relaxed again.

“But then Daisy called. I told her the same thing, that you were doing fine. But you know Daisy. She started talking in that new French accent of hers, bristled up, and said if you don't call her within the next few days, she's flying home. I think she actually might, Cam. She needs to hear from you herself.”

“Well, she's not going to.” Violet might boss her around at times, but she was pretty much a live-and-let-live kind of sister. Daisy was a nightmare. “Just keep telling her I'm fine.”

“Okay.”

Camille stuck a fork in the cod, pushed it around her plate. “Behind the barn, all those acres on the east
slope, where everything used to freeze out for Dad…what are you doing there, Vi? With all that lavender?”

Violet brightened. “Camille! You asked me a question! You realize, this is the first conversation you've actually
offered
since you got home. I knew you were starting to get better. Pete said—”

“Pete? You mean Pete MacDougal? Why is he in this conversation?”

“Nothing! No reason! None at all!”

Camille made an impatient motion. Something was wrong with her. Every time she'd turned around for the past four days, there was Pete, invading her thoughts, her mind, her sleep. Naturally, she'd been denying it, but lying to herself was getting tougher. And why bother? When a woman was nuts, one more screw loose hardly made any difference. “So forget Pete. I wasn't trying to ask you about Pete—I was only trying to ask why you planted so much lavender. What are you planning to do with it all.”

“Oh. Well. You know mom always grew that little patch. The original lavender strain came from France—”

“I know Mom's history, for Pete's sake. But she grew a few plants in a flower garden. Your stash of lavender is about to take over the state of Vermont.”

Her sister chuckled. “It wasn't supposed to get
that
big. It was just…I always loved it. The scent of lavender. The color, the texture, the look of it, everything. And right after the divorce, well, Simpson wanted the house to live with the bimbo. And I wanted nothing to do with him, so—”

“Vi. I know. And my offer to strangle Simpson still
stands. The point is, you wanted to start completely fresh, so you moved and came home….”

“Yeah. But when I moved here, there was really nothing specific for me to do, you know? The house was as empty as a museum, with Mom and Dad doing the retirement thing in Florida now. And for a while, the quiet was nice. I didn't have to actually find work right away, since I got a decent settlement out of the divorce, but I still had to find something to do with my time. So I just started messing with seeds and roots and strains of things.”

Violet could take five hours to tell a five minute story, so Camille interrupted again. “I know. You started your Herb Haven.” The store was a claustrophobic's nightmare, gobsmacked from rafters to cellar with herbs hanging upside down and herbs hanging right side up, baskets and candles and cooking herbs and medicine herbs—chokes of stuff all over the place. She didn't want to hear about it. “But you're growing acres more lavender than you could ever sell in the store, Vi.”

“I guess.” Violet smiled brightly. Then spooned a mound of an unidentifiable gourmet concoction on Camille's plate. “It just sort of…exploded. I started with Mom's original French lavender, mixed it with some strains Daisy sent me, then added some of my own. It was kind of like creating a kaleidoscope. A flower kaleidoscope. The strengths of one kind with the color of another with the texture of another. It was so much fun! Only I guess it's gotten a little out of hand.”

“A little? Are you calling twenty acres ‘a little'?”

“I never thought it would grow,” Violet said defensively. “I mean, yes, I planted it. But I put it on that rocky east slope, not really thinking it had a chance of
growing, but just to have something to
do
with it. I mean, that spot of land wasn't going to be used for anything because it was generally so hopeless. And the thing was, I had all these experiments in the greenhouse and they'd exploded on me. I had to have a place to put them. But I forgot….”

When her sister stopped to chew, Camille said impatiently, “You forgot what?”

“I forgot about the nature of lavender. It looks fragile and frail—but it's actually a very tough plant. In fact, it won't thrive at all if you pamper it. It has to have sun, of course, but otherwise it's happiest if you just leave it completely alone. So that dry, rocky spot actually ended up perfect for it—”

“Violet. The point is—it's everywhere.”

“Oh, well. I guess. How do you like the potato salad?”

“Pardon?”

Violet motioned. “The potato salad—it's got dried lavender buds in it. I found the recipe from a really old French cookbook.”

“The salad's fine.” Camille's attention was diverted. “I don't want you cooking for me. Taking care of me like this.” She added more clearly, “I hate it.”

“I cook anyway. I like cooking. It's no trouble.”

“That's not the point. The point is, I'm not your problem. I'm no one's problem.” She yanked her hair back, said lowly, fiercely, “I can't work yet, Violet. I will. It's driving me crazy, living off you, not pulling my share, but—”

“Oh shut up. How many times do I have to say it? The land belongs to all of us. You know how Mom and Dad set it up. Dad's still positive that one of us will want to farm if he just waits long enough.” Violet
added, “And Dad's always asking how you are. If you're talking about Robert yet—”

“Don't.” Camille heard the sharp slap in her tone, but couldn't help it. She wasn't talking about Robert.

“Okay, okay, take it easy.” Violet fluttered to her feet, pivoted around with another dish from the counter. God knew, it was probably more fish. “You need some money?”

“No.”

“Spending money. Everyone needs spending money—”

“I don't need or want anything!” She jerked to her feet at the sound of a truck engine. Someone was coming, pulling into the driveway. She all but ran to the hall for the ragged barn jacket and cap.

“Camille, come on, you don't have to run away—”

“I'm not running away. I just…” She was just having trouble breathing. Gusts of air felt trapped in her lungs, yet her heart was galloping at racetrack speeds. She didn't want to be mean to Violet. She didn't want to be mean to anyone. She just wanted to be left alone—where all that rotten moodiness wouldn't hurt anybody. Where she didn't have to work so hard to be nice, to be normal. She shoved her feet into the damp field boots and yanked at the back door—only to realize that someone was pulling the same door from the other side.

She almost barreled straight into an oak-straight, oak-hard chest. “Whoa, Cam. Easy.”

Even without jerking her head up, she recognized Pete MacDougal's gentling tenor, somehow recognized the grip of his big hands steadying her shoulders.

For the briefest millisecond she just wanted to fold into his arms—big, warm, strong arms. She didn't want
to fight. She just wanted to be lifted, carried, swallowed up somewhere the anger couldn't get her. But that millisecond was fleeting, of course. It was a crazy impulse, anyway.

Even a moment with Pete hit her the way it had the first time, days ago. He was a slam of strong, vital male. A reminder of what she'd lost, what she'd never have again.

She said nothing, just felt the panic squeeze tighter around her heart, and bolted past him and out the door.

He called something.

She ignored him. She ignored everything, just hurtled cross-field toward the cottage. Away from Violet. Away from Pete. Away from life.

The way she wanted it.

P
ete ambled out of his home office, rolling his shoulders to stretch the kinks out, and glanced at the kitchen clock. He thought it was around two. Instead, hell, it was almost three.

The boys were due home from school, and this last week in April, the kids had picked up spring fever with a vengeance. Pete knew exactly how the afternoon was going to go. The instant Sean walked in, he was going to start up with his wheedling-whine campaign to get a horse. There wasn't an animal born that boy didn't want to raise—preferably in the house. Simon was going to start in with the earsplitting music, which would get the eldest MacDougal complaining, and Ian was already having a poor-me kind of day. Laundry hadn't been done in a week, and when boys were of an age to have wet dreams, Pete had discovered that you'd best not wait too long to change the sheets and linens.
And no one had bothered with the dishes since last night, either.

The more Pete analyzed the situation, the more he realized the obvious. If he didn't run away now, the opportunity threatened to disappear. Swiftly he yanked a jacket off the hook and escaped.

Aw, man. When his lungs hauled in that first breath of fresh air, it felt like diamonds for his soul. For days it had been rainy and blustery cold, but now, finally there was some payoff. A balmy, spring breeze brushed his skin; the sun felt soft and liquid-warm. Green was bursting everywhere. Violets and trillium were coming up in the woods, daffodils budding by the fences.

He didn't realize he was hiking toward the west fence—and the border between the MacDougals and the Campbells—until he saw her. Actually, he couldn't make out exactly who was standing by that godawful lavender mess on the Campbells' east twenty acres. But someone was. A waif.

He unlatched the gate, but then just stood there. No one, but no one, had taken his heart like this in years.

Damn woman had lost so much weight that her jeans were hanging on her, the hems dragging in the dirt. She was wearing a rowdy-red shirt with a frayed neck and an old barn jacket that used to be her dad's favorite. In the sunlight, her cap of hair looked satin-black and shiny, but a shorn sheep had more style—and Pete suspected that's exactly what she'd done, taken scissors and whacked off all that gorgeous long hair after whozits died. Everything about her appearance told the same story. So much grief and nowhere to go with it.

Camille couldn't be his problem, he'd already told himself—several times in the past few weeks—and it
was true. He had an overfilled plate now. The boys had been a nonstop handful since Debbie deserted them. Their grandfather indulged them right and left. Pete's translating work for the government had turned into a far more lucrative living than he'd ever dreamed, but come spring, he would have the land and orchards to tend on top of his real work. All in all, most days he was lucky to have a second to himself. He sure didn't need more stress.

But damn. Those eyes of hers were deep as a river.

She was looking out at those endless acres of untended lavender, her hands on her hips.

Pete could have sworn that he intended to turn around and skedaddle before Camille caught sight of him, but somehow he seemed to have unlatched the gate and hiked toward her instead. She startled in surprise when she suddenly found him standing next to her. He squinted at the fields as if they studied their respective farming problems together every day.

“Don't even start about my sister.” It was the first thing she said, and in the same ornery tone she'd spoken to him last time.

“I thought we covered this? I always liked your whole family. Violet included. I don't think less of her because there are some raisins short in her bran. Because apparently she wouldn't know a weed from a willow. Because she wouldn't recognize common sense if it bit her in the butt—”

“I've leveled guys for less, so you just quit it. There is nothing wrong with my sister.”

“You don't think some of that blond hair dye seeped into her brain?”

She lifted a booted foot to kick him—then seemed to realize she'd been suckered into his teasing and stiff
ened up again. She took a breath, then said quietly, “Go away, Pete.”

He didn't. God knew why. Maybe it was the land. Looking at all those acres of tangled, woody, gnarled growth offended the farmer in him—even if he wasn't much of a farmer anymore. “I don't know much about lavender,” he admitted conversationally. “I mean, I've seen it in gardens and all, but I've no knowledge of it as a commercial crop. But a bird brain could figure out that this thicket has to be damned close to becoming completely unrecoverable—”

“It isn't your problem,” Camille mentioned.

He ignored that. “The thing is, though, as bad a mess as this is…your sister started this massive planting only a few years ago. So there has to be a chance it's salvageable. Not a good chance. But at least
some
chance. The question is how and how fast. I have to believe that if you don't get control of it this spring, it'll be gone for good. Which means that about by Monday, there needs to be a crew of guys in here—”

Without turning toward him, she lifted a finger in the air. Thankfully, Pete loved a woman who could communicate without words, so he just grinned. Until he realized that she was still staring at the long stretch of wasted, woebegone fields with a determined squint in her eyes.

“Whoa. Don't even start thinking it, Cam. You can't do it. Not alone. No one could.”

Finally she turned, and tipped those river-deep eyes at him. “Were you under the impression I was asking your opinion about anything?”

So sassy. So rude. So much fury.

He was tempted to kiss her. Not a little kiss, and not an old-neighbor friendly peck, either. A kiss that might
shake through her anger. A kiss that might touch some of that fierce, sharp loneliness. A kiss that might make him feel better—because right now it ripped raw to watch his beautiful Camille hurting and not have the first clue how to help her.

The impulse to kiss her invaded his mind for several long seconds and stung there like a mosquito bite, itching, swelling, daring him to scratch it. Then, thank God, he came to his senses. Certainly he had his stone-headed moments—didn't everybody?—but Pete wasn't usually troubled by lunacy.

He zoned on something concrete and practical as fast as he could get the words out. “So, Cam…exactly what do you know about growing lavender?”

“Well…everyone in the family knows a little, because my mom loved it so much. She always grew enough to make sachets and soap and dried flower arrangements, that kind of thing. And Violet—she knows the recipes, all this unusual stuff about how to use lavender as a spice. And Daisy's been living in France for several years now—she knows more than both of us, because she's around Provence and the perfume industry, so she's learned how lavender's used as a perfume ingredient and all that.” She added, “But what I personally know about growing lavender would fill a thimble. Assuming the thimble were extra small.”

“So you know not to try and tackle all these acres by yourself.” He just had to be sure she wasn't going to do anything crazy. Then he could leave. And he badly wanted to leave, before he had another damn-fool impulse to kiss her. God knew what was wrong with him. Maybe he needed an aspirin or some prune juice. For damn sure, he was going to dose himself with something when he got home—but first he needed
to be certain she wasn't determined to dive off the deep end into a brick pool.

“Pete MacDougal. Do you really have nothing better to do than stand around and bug me? Don't you have a few hundred acres of apples that need pruning or trimming or something?”

“I've got the orchards. I've also got twins—two teenage sons—that I'm raising without their mother. And even though everyone in White Hills think I'm a farmer, I've been doing translating work for Langley for a half-dozen years now, full-time. And then there's my dad, who's been as pleasant as a porcupine ever since my mother died.” He didn't suspect she wanted to hear any of that, but he figured he'd better give her a frame for his life. Otherwise she had an excuse for still treating him like a half stranger. “All of which is to say, don't waste your breath being crabby with me. I've got people who can out-crabby you any day of the week, so let's get back to our conversation—”

“We're not having a conversation.”

“Oh, yeah, we are. We're talking about finding a solution for that twenty acres of lavender out there. One possibility—and the simplest one—is a bulldozer. I don't know if you knew Hal Wolske—”

“I'm not looking for a bulldozer. Or for help.”

“Okay.” He reminded himself that he came from strong Scots stock. Which meant he had no end of patience. He might have to kick a tree, soon and hard, but he could hold on to his patience until then or die trying. “If you don't want to get rid of it, then you have to find a way to make it viable. I really don't think your sister could identify the front end of a tractor from the back—”

“Don't you start on my sister again.”

“But I do know your dad always kept two Masseys in the barn. The farmer your dad hired when he retired—Filbert Green, wasn't it?—he used to keep them well maintenanced, at least until your sis kicked him out of the job. If you want me to check them out—”

“I don't.”

“Yeah, I agree, there's only so much tractors can do for you in this situation. I'm afraid what you've got is a ton of handwork. I've got a crew trimming my apples, won't be done for a couple more weeks. And they'd have to be taught what to do with the lavender. They wouldn't have a clue, but they're dependable, steady. If you want the bodies—”

“That won't be necessary, since I won't be having any strangers on the farm. I don't want your crew. Don't want anyone's crew. Don't want anyone's help or advice. Now, damn it, Pete,
stop being nice to me!
”

She whirled around to stomp off, tripped on her sagging jean hem, yanked up her trousers and
then
stomped off.

Pete didn't grin—there wasn't a damn thing funny about what shape that woman was in—but he did stand there, thoughtfully stroking his chin.

Camille had to think he was the most obnoxious jerk to ever cross her path—since she'd done everything but stand on her head to make him butt out. She didn't want help. That was obvious. She didn't want a friend. That was obvious, too.

But she'd at least roused enough to snap at him. According to her sister, that was major progress.

When a man found a wounded deer in the road, he didn't just drive by. At least a MacDougal didn't. That woman was so wounded she was over her head, sick with it, sad with it, in a rage with it. And no, she wasn't
his problem, but it had been so long since a woman touched him—much less snagged a feeling from his heart—that Pete was unwilling to walk away. At least not yet.

For her sake, but just maybe, for his, too.

 

Camille woke up to a damp pillow, sore eyes, mental flashes in her mind of a dark alley, her screaming, Robert, the blood, the three faces of drug-crazed kids, the sick feeling of terror…

Same old same old.

She crawled out of bed and took her exasperated scowl into the bathroom. She'd just started to wash the sleep from her eyes when she suddenly heard an odd sound, coming from somewhere close to the front porch outside. A growl? Like an animal growl?

When she didn't hear it again, she assumed that she'd imagined the sound. Still, once she tugged on a sweatshirt and jeans, she glanced out the murky window in the living room—and then almost dropped the socks in her hand. As fast as she could cram on shoes, she yanked open the door.

There was a dog, tied by a rope to the maple tree. The instant it saw her, the dog sprang to its feet and lunged, starting a teeth-baring, vicious, snarling and barking routine. If it hadn't been snugly tied, Camille was pretty sure it would have been happy to tear out her throat.

Considering she was afraid of almost everything these days, she wasn't sure why the dog didn't terrify her. Possibly it was because the poor thing just looked so pitiful. It had the look of a full-blooded German shepherd—but it had obviously fallen on disastrous times. Its skinny ribs showed. Its right ear had a nip.
The eyes were rheumy, the golden-brown coat crusted with old mud.

“Take it easy, take it easy,” she coaxed. But the dog showed no inclination to take it easy and snarled even harder. “Well, for Pete's sake, how did you end up here? Who tied you to my tree? What are you doing here?”

She couldn't think, the dog was barking too loudly and too fiercely. So she went back inside, shut the door, and then stared out the window. Once she was out of sight, the dog settled down. She could see a cut in its coat now, close to its right shoulder. The injury didn't appear too bad, but it was still another sign that the shepherd had been treated badly.

Unfortunately, whoever had tied it to her tree had given it enough room to run and lunge—a little—but hadn't left it food or water. How anyone had gotten close enough to bring it here to begin with, she couldn't imagine, but the mystery of the situation had to wait. She foraged in the kitchen cupboards and finally came up with a bowl. It was cracked and dusty, but it would hold water.

When she opened the door again, the shepherd leaped and lunged and did an instant replay of its snapping, snarling act. Camille hesitated, but then slowly carried the water closer. “This is ridiculous. Quit having such a cow. I'm not coming any closer than I have to—you can take that to the bank. But if you want water and food, you're going to have to shut up and relax. If you don't like me, don't worry about it. Believe me, you won't be here long.”

Snarl, snarl. Growl, growl. The dog was so intent on trying to attack her that it tipped over the water bowl. Camille eased back, perplexed. What now? She
couldn't free the dog—at least not without risking her life. She also couldn't leave the dog without food or water—but she couldn't seem to get water to it, and she didn't have food. Temporarily she seemed to be stymied—and confounded that this could possibly be
her
problem.