Walnut Bayou, Chickasaw Nation
They made camp in a small clearing along the meandering creek, thinking that the forest thick with hickory, elm, ash, and hackberry trees would provide them plenty of cover. Several yards from where James was getting a fire going and tending to Robin's wounds, Millard butchered a six-point buck he'd risked a shot on earlier in the evening, knowing and regretting that much of the meat would have to be left behind for coyotes and other scavengers.
So far, luck had favored them. The Indians had not followed them in the two days that had passed since he'd rescued the kids and unceremoniously left the dead whiskey runner lying among the wrecked barrels that once had held his poison.
With enough venison steaks in his bloody hands, he walked back to the camp and deposited the steaks in an iron skillet.
Robin Bodeen, if that indeed were her real name, had finally come back into consciousness. She wore Millard's extra shirt he'd put on her. It fit her like a short dress. She stared at him, trying to figure out just who he was.
“That's my pa,” James said.
Millard washed his hands, dried them off, and picked up the One of One Thousand Winchester. He kept it on his thighs as he kneeled beside her. “How do you feel?”
“All right. I reckon.”
He waited a few moments then decided there was no use bandying words and beating around the bush. “Your father's dead.” He did, however, have enough compassion not to let the child know that her old man had taken his own life.
“He weren't my pa,” the kid said.
James gasped. “What?”
“'Bout two years back, my pa traded me to Wildcat.”
James sang out in shock, “He traded you?”
“For some whiskey.”
It didn't surprise Millard. Oh, it might have, a few weeks earlier, but he wasn't working for the railroad any longerâwondered if he'd still have a job when he got back to McAdam, Texasâand had covered too many miles in too lawless a land to be shocked by anything anymore.
“It wasn't pizened.” Her face hardened. “Though sometimes I wished it was.”
Millard leaned over, lifted the shirt to check the bandages, and said mainly to change the subject, “One of the bullets went through. Clean shot. I just drew a silk bandana through it to clean it. The other one”âhe nodded at the one through the ribsâ“I had to dig out.” He grinned at her. “You were tough. Tough as nails.”
“Don't remember it,” she said.
“That's good.” He peeled back the bandage and nodded in satisfaction. “I got the slug out. Didn't go too deep, and don't think it hit any vitals. It doesn't look like infection has set in, but I want to get you to Spanish Fort first. Find a doctor there. Let him finish what I started.”
He noticed James staring at him.
“Where'd you learn to do surgery like that?” James asked again. He had asked earlier when Millard had forced the bullet out with a pocketknife blade he had held over a small fire the first night out of Wild Horse Creek.
Millard had not answered, and might not have replied again had not the girl's penetrating eyes locked on him.
He stood, forcing a smile. “My brothers and I kinda ran into some trouble when we were growing up.” Surprisingly, that sentence made him feel pretty good, better than he had a right to feel, and memories came flooding through his mind. He could see Jimmy and Borden, younger, full of vim and vinegar, and see himself, much younger, although Borden had always said Millard was the old man of the bunch, even if he were the middle child. “I had some practice, doctoring.”
He smiled at his son. It was good to see the boy . . . alive. They had not had a chance to do much talking, for James to explain why he had run away from homeâalthough Millard had a fair idea of that reasonâor how he had teamed up with an Indian-hating, man-killing whiskey runner and this girl who had been pretending to be a boy.
That
Millard could understand. Especially with rogues and ruffiansâthose who scoffed at the law and killed without causeârunning loose.
He remembered the three men he had killed earlier, and the smile faded. That was one side of him he had hoped his children would never have to see.
“Bring me that Remington,” he said, and watched James tug the revolver from his waistband and hand the. 44 over, butt forward. Millard set down the Winchester, took the revolver, and began plucking the casings from the cylinder. “Fry up those steaks while I do this.”
James went to the skillet and Millard worked on the Remington.
He had found the powder flask in the leather pouch, along with a smaller pouch of lead balls. Those would work, though he'd have to melt them down and use the bullet mold, also in the pouch, to make the bullets. It would take a while, and he wasn't sure it would work, for he would have to trim the .54-caliber slugs with his knife to fit into the .44âactually, .45âcaliber chambers for the revolver.
Years, practically a lifetime, had passed since he had made his own reloads. He moved to the fire to begin the process, Millard melting down the lead bullets, and James across from him, frying venison steaks for supper.
The steaks smelled better.
He heard James's sigh over the sizzling of the deer and grease in the skillet, followed by his son's soft voice. “I'm sorry, Pa.”
Millard lifted his gaze, but all he could do in response was just nod.
“I didn't mean for all this to happen.”
After exhaling, Millard's head shook. “You figured your mother and I'd just let you run off.”
“It was just . . . I just . . . well . . . I had to.”
“To do what?”
James forked the steaks, turned them over. “Follow Uncle Jimmy.”
Millard let out a mirthless chuckle. “Be a lawman? Pin on that tin star?”
“Yes, sir. Something like that.”
“Seventeen years old. I'm not rightly sure, but I think even in Fort Smith they'd want a man old enough to vote to enforce the laws and keep the peace.”
“I figuredâ”
Millard laughed with humor. “To lie about your age.” He waited.
His son's head bobbed. “Yes, sir.”
“There are easier ways to get to Fort Smith than travel in a freight wagon with a whiskey runner.”
“Yes, sir.” James proceeded to tell him everything that had happened, about the ruffian in the boxcarâMillard did not interrupt to let him know he knew about that fiendâthe tornado, and finding himself underneath the wagon after that savage storm.
Millard liked hearing his son's voice. It had been a long time, and now that he had to think about it, he had never really had much of a father-son conversation with James. Maybe the whole situation was Millard's own fault.
There was no
maybe
. Millard could have been a better father. He could have taught his son how to shoot, instead of leaving that more or less up to Jimmy. The railroad, that job, had just kept him so busy, and he'd left most of the child-rearing to Libbie. If anyone should be apologizing, he realized it was him.
“Well,” Millard said when James had finished. “You're all right. I'm all right. We'll get this girl to Spanish Fort, then head back to McAdam.” His eyes hardened. “Your mother, brother, and sister will want to see you.”
James's mouth turned into a hard frown, and Millard knew his son was still bent on making it to Fort Smith.
“I want to be a lawman,” James said. “I have to be one.”
Millard's head shook. “It's not all that it's cracked up to be, son.”
“But you wouldn't knowâ”
“Wouldn't I?” Millard's head tilted toward the Winchester '73 leaning against the wagon's wheel. “Your two uncles weren't the only ones in that line of work. That's one reason I got that rifle.”
“I'd never seen it.” James motioned at the belted old Army revolver. “Or that?”
“That's because it was history. To me. A part of my life”âhe almost said that he wanted to forget, but found other wordsâ“that came mostly before you and your siblings.”
“You were a lawman?”
“For a while. Sheriff 's deputy . . . and Jimmy, Borden, and I all served with the Texas Rangers briefly.”
James could only stare for the longest while. Like he was in shock. Sometimes, thinking back to those years shocked Millard himself.
“Why didn't you . . . let us know?”
Millard's head shook. “It never came up.” He stared at the pot, wishing those balls would start to melt. “People change. Jimmy was cut out for that kind of life. And Borden, too, in his own way. I wasn't. It never came easy for me, and I never really liked it. Then I met Libbie. Then you came along.” He had to think back. “I reckon you were maybe five years old when I decided it was time to turn in that tin star, find something different to do, something safer.” He found the words. “I didn't want your mother to be a widow. I didn't want you, Kris, and Jacob to grow up without a father. That's why Jimmy never married, you know. That's the kind of life you'll have if you go to Fort Smith, if you somehow pin on a badge. And about all you can hope for . . .” He couldn't finish.
Borden had been lucky. He had a wife to grieve over him, and a funeral that had attracted many to that Kansas town where they'd lived. Jimmy had been buried in the worn-out cemetery in a fading Texas town that would be blown away in a few years.
“It's still something that I have to do,” James said.
Millard's head shook wearily. “When you're twenty-one, you can seeâ”
“How old were you?” James cut him off.
That took Millard back. He had been younger than James when he had first held a Winchester Yellow Boy. Jimmy had been even younger. He had been in his early twenties when Winchester had introduced its 1873 model.
“Times were different then,” he said, but that sounded and tasted like a lie on his lips. Because it wasn't true. He had realized that when he had been forced to cut down those three outlaws up on Camp Creek. The Indian Territory could be just as wild and brutal as Texas had been back when he and his two brothers had ridden for the law.
Millard nodded at the skillet. “Those steaks are burning.”
After James had flipped the meat again, he pointed the fork at the now-sleeping girl. “What will the law do to her?”
“I'm not turning her into a sheriff. She goes to a doctorâif there's a sawbones in Spanish Fort.”
“What'll happen to her?”
Millard looked at the girl and again at his son. No romance between the two. By thunder, James had not even realized Robin was a girl until after she had been shot by the Chickasaws. “That's up to her.”
“She's had a hard life.” James shook his head sadly. “A father . . . who'd sell . . . his own flesh and blood . . . for whiskey!”
“It's a hard life,” Millard said. “For everyone.”
He studied his son. He would always imagine him, always see him, as that five-year-old boy who had laughed a lot or a boy not yet in his teens, but those years had flown by. James was no longer that boy, not even a kid, but a man. Inexperienced, sure, but growing up and learning fast. He probably would pin on a badge, no matter how much Millard and Libbie protested. What's more, he'd make a fine lawman.
“She's old enough to make her own way,” Millard said, just to keep talking, to push aside those thoughts that told him that eventually James would find his own path, and was likely already choosing it. “She can choose her own path now that she doesn't have thatâ” The rest he left unsaid.
“What about the Chickasaws?” James asked.
“I don't think we have to worry about the Indians,” Millard said. “If they wanted to attack us, they'd have hit us before now.”
“So why make bullets?”
Millard smiled, but once again, the humor had left him. “Indians aren't the only ones a body has to worry about in the Indian Nations.”