Wishing on the Water (Water Series Book 1) (17 page)

“
Go lower.” He grit out, as I kissed just above his shaft.

I then went and kissed the inside of his thigh and cupped his balls. I felt his hand tighten on my hair. I then ran my tongue across his balls lightly, sucking them.

“
Put me in your mouth, Candy.” Jax groaned.

I decided to appease him. I licked the tip and then allowed my mouth to hollow out and flattened my tongue as I took him to my throat and swallowed.

“
Christ, that’s good!”

I smiled and continued on my up and down course on his length. He groaned and gripped my head each time I swallowed. I pulled my hand up to follow my mouth because he was too large to get him completely in my mouth. I continued my stroking and swallowing until he was swelling inside my mouth.

“
Candice, stop!” Jax spoke, as his hands tried to stop me. I pulled off his length with a pop from my mouth. “You ready to do this?” Jax asked.

“
No,” I replied and licked the rim of the head of his cock. I watched his body tense and his eyes roll back in his head, as I took him to the back of my throat again and swallowed a few more times; pulling him in and out while I watched him watch me. When he gripped the bed-sheet with both fists, I pulled back off with a pop sound as he fell out of my mouth. I placed a lingering kiss on the crown and smiled.

“
Now, I am ready,” I stated with a smile, as Jax groaned the loss of my mouth.

“
You’re going to kill me with that mouth, Candice.”

I smiled and climbed up his body and placed my hands on his chest as he held himself under me. I leaned forward and kissed him as slowly as my descent onto his cock. Each agonizing inch made my body scream for more. I wanted to impale him, but this slow delicious torture was better than just jumping on.

I rose up and watched his face as I took him to the hilt. I bit my lip as I watched his eyes staring into mine and his jaw clenched. I sat perfectly still and embraced the moment. I may not have Jax after tonight, but here and now I was reclaiming my love for him. My heart may not be whole, but what was left belonged to Jax and there was no doubt at this moment that we belonged to each other.

“
Ride me, Candy. You know how good it is when I am on top. Now show me what you got.”

I sat back and began lifting myself up and down his length. I closed my eyes as I pulled him nearly out and stared into his eyes with a silent O as I came back down. He fit me like a glove. Hitting every spot that would make my skin turn to fire and my skin change to a rosy color letting him know exactly what he was doing to me.

He reached over and held my hips to guide me into a rhythm that worked for us both. It was neither fast nor slow; it was deliciously perfect. I grabbed my breasts and molded them. Jax pulled my hands down and pulled me to him and sucked my nipple into his mouth. I moaned out and lost my rhythm. Jax continued his onslaught of my nipple as he helped me get back to the delectable pace we had.

“
Candy,” Jax stated and I looked down on him. “Relax your legs and spread them.”

I did as he said and, as he sucked my nipple back into his mouth, he held my hips in place as he began to lift into me. I screamed as he got deeper inside me. I could feel him everywhere as I rode closer to orgasm. My toes curled as he put his hands on my face to bring me down for a kiss as I returned to riding him.

“
Jax. You feel too good.” I groaned, when he let me up for air.

“
You were made for me!” Jax gritted out. “Let me feel you come on me.”

I whimpered as I closed my eyes. I was so close and he had swollen inside me, where I could feel nothing but him. He had invaded my mind, body, soul and taken over my heart. This orgasm was going to take my breath away.

“
Say it Jax. Tell me!” I moaned, as I sat up to watch him as I got ready to climax.

“
I love you, Candice!”

“
Jax!” I called out, as I clamped down on him. He took over pushing into me as I screamed his name over and over again.

“
Look at me!” Jax demanded, as my body combusted, and tried to pull him in deeper as the waves of my orgasm rolled through me.

“
I love you, Jax!” I shouted, as I vibrated around his shaft, trying to ride the last of my orgasm.

I stared down into his eyes as my breath was stolen from me. I watched as his face tightened as he slammed into me. I heard the groan as he found his release. He gritted his teeth and continued to pump into me after his seed was already flowing out.

I collapsed down on him as he brushed my hair off my face as we both breathlessly felt the aftershocks. I had tried to fight it. I tried to run from it. I tried to deny it, but the truth was I loved Jax. I still wondered if it was disrespecting Chase, but I couldn’t ignore it anymore. I couldn’t after I saw him with Vanessa.

“
Want some water?” I asked and he nodded his head as he caught his breath. I climbed off and stepped onto the floor where his semen dripped out of me.

“
That has to be the sexiest thing I have ever seen.”

“
What is?” I asked with a hoarse voice, as I stood naked in front of him.

“
To see part of me coming from inside you,” Jax muttered with a smirk that spoke volumes of what he was thinking.

I grabbed two of the cups and headed to the bathroom to fill them with water. I looked up in the mirror after filling them to see Jax in the mirror behind me. I turned to hand him his water, and he downed it on the spot. He threw the plastic cup over his shoulder and missed the trash can as he came toward me with a predatory look.

I held my hand up to stop him as I slowly sipped my water. He groaned and I smiled behind my cup as I took another sip. He walked over and turned on the shower. I watched as he got the towels as I took each drop in deliberate measure, to extend my time to make him sweat. I closed my eyes as the water flowed in the background and I held water in my cup and made another wish on the water.

I wish this is what my life could be like. I wish that Chase would find peace with me being with Jax. I wished for him to leave Vanessa, knowing he wouldn’t until Chase’s killer was brought to justice, or until an eye for an eye was dealt. I knew Jax well enough to know what he intended to do when he found him.

I was at the close of my wish when I felt hands take my cup and then within a second I was tossed over the shoulder of a six foot muscle man who wanted me in the shower with him.

“
Put me down.” I playfully squealed, as he walked into the shower.

“
How about I put you down on me. You did promise a round two.” Jax spoke, as he planted me up against the wall.

“
You can have all the rounds you want when you look at me like I am the only woman in the world to catch your attention,” I stated, as he went for my neck and the water cascaded down his tanned muscular back.

“
You are the only woman in the world that catches my attention.”

Just like that, round two had begun and round four wouldn’t end until well after the sun came up. We were never sated, it was never enough. I craved his energy as he craved my body. I refused to let guilt ruin what felt so right. I hoped he was part of my life’s plan.

“
Jax, do you think Chase is happy?” I asked as I twirled my fingers down his sculpted chest. I was laying in the crook of his shoulder on the bed we had just made love in.

“
I think he misses you. I know I would miss you. I think he will be happy when he sees you are happy.”

Jax turned his head and planted a kiss on the top of my head. I closed my eyes and reveled in the intimacy of the moment. Soon this would be over. I would be on a plane home and Jax would be putting a ring on Vanessa’s finger.

“
I want him to be alright with us being together.” Jax gave me the look that we were not together and I immediately altered my phrase. “What I mean is, if we could be together, how would we know he was alright with it? How will I know when I am ready to let him go?”

Jax sat up and I came up with him. He reached down off the bed and grabbed his wallet from his jeans.

“
You know we didn’t use a condom.” He muttered under his breath.

“
I am on the pill,” I replied softly watching him open his wallet.

“
Why?” Jax asked, halting what he was doing.

“
Why what?”

“
Why are you on the pill? Are you sleeping with someone?” Jax asked softly, but his tone told a tale of anger and bitterness.

“
No, it’s to regulate my period. Are you trying to start a fight?” I responded with unease.

“
No, but what’s mine is mine and you are mine. I don’t care about what happened before we walked in here last night. I care about what happens after. I want to get so deep inside you, that you are ruined for anyone else. I want to make you come so hard my name is the only name you yell. I want to entrap your heart in mine, so no one else can have it. I want you to be mine.”

Jax leaned in and kissed me softly, letting his lips lightly brush mine. Then he pulled back and opened his wallet. I was essentially speechless. What do you say to a heartfelt statement when you know he will be in bed with another by dinner?

Jax pulled out a folded up piece of paper. It looked like it had been read a thousand times and was barely holding itself together. Jax placed it in my hand and stood up. I looked at him in question, but Jax merely nodded at the letter, almost as if the letter could speak for itself.

I watched as he walked over and closed the curtains that were showing us the sun was up and so was our time together. In a few hours, this would all be a memory to hold close to my heart. I could yell and scream and demand that he leave her. I know he would if I did, but he would always regret Chase’s killer going free. I had to be adult enough to let him find closure and justice from Chase’s death.

“
I am going to call room service. Want anything?”

“
Waffles. I love waffles.” I replied and opened the letter. The first place I looked was at the bottom to see Chases name. I inspected the writing and knew it was Chases. Then I read it.

Jaxson,

You are my partner, my best friend, and the only person I can trust some days. We have been to hell and back over the years, and I honestly wouldn’t have made it as far as I did without you. I don’t have much to say because you already know it all. So instead of a confessional goodbye, I want to ask a favor of you in regards to Candice.

Take her in your arms and love her like I know you do. She is stubborn, so give her time to breathe and then hold her when she cries. Keep her safe in your arms as I should have done. Marry her and never let her get away, the world is cruel and I don’t want her looking for love in it when you have loved her for years. Make babies with her and name one after me. But most importantly make her happy, love her, and let her be set free from me.

If you could do these things I ask, I will be forever in your debt. Keep an eye on Christina too. I am sure my family has taken her in with the baby on the way, but I don’t know her to know that my child will be cared for. Visit my baby weekly and help mold it into the person I was.

I love you brother.