01 Winters Thaw (9 page)

Their lips parted for only a second.

Long enough for her to whisper, “Oh.”

Then he kissed her again, refusing to hold back any of the desire he’d spent weeks stifling. Sienna Compton needed to go wild.

And he intended to be the man who really set her free.

Chapter Five

Sienna glanced out her window, studying the moonless night sky. A week had passed since Thanksgiving, and she’d taken the coward’s way out. She’d holed up in her bedroom every night after work rather than risk seeing Daniel, too afraid of succumbing to the temptation he provided.

She’d given seven years of her life to Josh. Wrapped her world around him, and it wasn’t easy to let go of that. Despite how much Josh’s need for a break hurt, there were still too many good years—memories—to mourn. When she added the recollection of Daniel’s amazing kisses to her mixed-up thoughts, it felt like she was on system overload.

Her family was worried about her sudden retreat, though they’d allowed her the space. Mom brought her dinner on a tray each night, offering a soft kiss on the brow and her assurance that things would get better. Doug usually kept her company for an hour or so before his bedtime, filling her in on his school day and his rodeo lessons with Daniel. Even her dad had stopped by two nights ago to check on her and to tell her he loved her. His sweet words had been her undoing and she’d curled into his arms and cried out all her pain against her daddy’s strong chest.

Despite the love and support of her family, Sienna still struggled to pull herself out of her funk.

“Knock knock.”

Sienna spotted her grandmother at the door. “Hey, Vivi.”

“Thought I’d check to make sure you still live here. The house isn’t nearly as nice since you went into hiding.” Vivi planted herself on the bed, patting the mattress to encourage Sienna to sit next to her.

“I’m not hiding.” It was a lie, but Sienna felt compelled to tell it anyway.

“Of course you are. But that’s all right. I suspect you needed a wee respite from real life. You ready to come back yet?”

Sienna felt like she should protest, but unfortunately there was too much truth in her grandmother’s observation. She sank down next to her grandmother. “I don’t have a clue what I’m supposed to do next.”

Vivi nodded. “I’m sure you don’t. And I’m glad.”

“Glad? Why?”

“Because for the first time in your life, you’re facing an uncertain future. That’s not a bad thing, Sienna. In fact, it’s perfectly normal. I think of all my granddaughters, I’ve always worried about you the most.”

“You must be kidding. What about Jade’s recklessness or Hope’s shyness? God, Vivi, Sterling is so damn impulsive, you never know what she’s going to do next.”

“And yet, they’ll all be fine because they’ve learned to roll with the punches. They’ve taken risks in their lives and they’ve survived the fallout. You’re twenty-two, Sienna, and you’ve never suffered a broken heart until this moment. You’ve never faced any true adversity or trouble. You set your course at a very young age and you marched toward it without a single misstep.”

Sienna grimaced. “You don’t think Josh was a misstep?”

“Do you?”

Did she? Even though she was hurt and pissed as hell, she worried about the small part of her she knew would take him back if he called tomorrow to say he’d changed his mind. She hated that part. It made her feel cowardly, weak, shallow.

“So what do I do now?”

Vivi took her hand and squeezed it. “That’s yours to figure out.”

Sienna closed her eyes. “That’s your advice. Figure it out?”

Vivi pressed her forehead to Sienna’s. “You expected something wiser?”

“Uh, yeah. Jeez, Vivi, you’re nearly seventy. Surely you’ve learned something in all that time that could help me.”

“Maybe I have. Did I ever tell you about the night I met your Granddaddy JD?”

Sienna shook her head. “No. I don’t think so.”

“We met at a barn dance over in Clarke. That’s where I’m originally from. JD was in town visiting a neighbor of mine for a few days. I swear the second he walked into the barn, every woman’s head turned to stare at him. JD was handsome as the devil, with jet-black hair and eyes as dark as midnight in the mountains.”

Sienna had seen pictures of her grandfather. Vivi’s description was accurate. “He was totally dime.”

Vivi laughed. “You girls and your funny words for things. I can remember when Jody used to say Seth was a hottie. I assume dime means he was good-looking?”

Sienna nodded, her grin growing wider. “Yeah. But don’t ask me why.”

“It wasn’t just JD’s appearance that caught my eye. It was the way he held himself.”

“I guess so. He was huge.” Sienna could recall her mom referring to JD as a gentle giant.

“That’s not exactly what I mean. Sure, you would expect such a tall, broad-shouldered man to make an impact when he entered a room, but it was even more than his size. It was his personality, Sienna. JD was a commanding presence.”

“He sounds really cool. And a little bit scary.”

“That’s a perfect description of how I felt when I saw him. I was attending the dance with my beau, Charles.”

“I didn’t realize you had a boyfriend when you met Granddaddy.”

Vivi nodded. “Oh yes. Charles and I had dated for well over a year, and I doubt there was anyone in Clarke who wasn’t expecting wedding bells in our future. Charles had dropped hints about us getting married and, at the time, I’d been pretty sure that was what I wanted too.”

“Granddaddy JD changed your mind?”

Vivi seemed to relive the memory as she told Sienna the story. “He did indeed. JD’s gaze took in the barn, studying every person there, but he stopped when he saw me. It’s a cliché, but the moment his eyes captured mine, it was as if time stood still.”

Sienna sighed. “Sounds romantic.”

“It was. He walked straight over to me, never taking the time to notice that Charles was standing right beside me. He said, ‘My name is JD Compton. Would you care to dance?’”

“And you said yes.”

“Of course I didn’t. I informed him I was Vicky Murphy and that I was attending the party with my boyfriend, Charles. Then I suggested that he find someone else to dance with.”

Sienna’s eyes widened. “What did Granddaddy say to that?”

“He bowed slightly and apologized. While his words were nothing but courteous, I knew I was still in trouble.”

“Why?”

“Because JD gave me this infuriating, meaningful smile that let me know he had not been deterred.”

“And obviously he wasn’t. So what happened then?” Sienna asked.

“Charles and I danced together a few times, but my gaze kept drifting to JD. It didn’t seem to matter where he was in the room, my eyes followed. He asked a couple different girls to dance and I tried to ignore the jealousy that ran through me when he smiled at them, making polite conversation. After a little while, Charles went outside for a smoke. The band played a faster song and a conga line formed. I hopped in, grabbing the waist of my cousin, Shirley. A few seconds later, a pair of hands touched me. It was like I’d been struck by lightning. I didn’t have to turn around to realize whose hands they were.”

“JD’s.”

Vivi nodded. “The train grew longer with people laughing as they moved around the room. Unfortunately, Shirley took one turn a bit too sharply and I lost my footing. JD’s grip tightened, preventing me from falling. I stepped away from the train and JD joined me, his arm still wrapped around my waist. He leaned close and said, ‘I’ve got you, Vicky Murphy. I won’t let you fall.’”

Sienna pulled her pillow to her chest. “That’s so sweet.”

“And such a lie,” Vivi said with a grin.

“What? Why?”

“Because I did fall. Right at that moment. And JD did nothing to prevent it. Just let me tumble head over heels in love with him.”

“What about Charles?”

Vivi’s attention turned back to Sienna, her eyes suddenly serious and sad. “I was a bit stubborn in those days and set in my ways.”

“In those days?” Sienna teased.

Vivi playfully tugged Sienna’s hair. “Very funny, Miss Pot. Meet Miss Kettle. You do realize you get your stubbornness from me.”

“Mom says I get it from my dad.”

“And where do you think Seth got it?”

They laughed together.

“Can I continue with my story?” Vivi asked.

Sienna gestured for her to go ahead.

“Regardless of what my heart knew to be true about JD Compton, my head wasn’t going down without a fight. It’s funny how we can trick ourselves into thinking we’re perfectly content, simply because it’s easier than taking a chance on finding true, genuine happiness.”

Sienna suddenly understood the point of Vivi’s story. “You think I was settling with Josh?”

Vivi shook her head. “I can’t answer that question. Only you can see what’s in your heart.”

“What if Josh is the one who’ll make me happy? What if I let him go and I never find anyone who makes me feel the way he did? I mean, he hasn’t always been an idiot.”

Vivi didn’t laugh at her joke. “No. He hasn’t. And I’m not sure he’s being one now. He’s been quite honest with you when you think about it. He’s confused about where he’s going. Rather than lie or cheat on you, he came to you and asked for time. That couldn’t have been an easy thing for him because he does care about you. And let’s face it, my dear, you tend to hold the upper hand in that relationship.”

“I do not.”

Vivi rolled her eyes. “Sienna Compton. You have too much of your mother’s blood running through your veins to ever play the meek woman. For seven years, you’ve made the decisions and Josh, God bless his patient heart, has been willing to follow your lead.”

“Daniel kissed me. Twice.” Sienna wasn’t sure why the words fell out at that particular moment, but she felt like she needed to come clean to someone.

“I see. And?”

“And I liked it. A lot.”

“But?” Vivi prodded.

“But I’m scared. I’ve never been with anyone except Josh. We’re comfortable and life is so easy when we’re together. I don’t know anything about Daniel Lennon.”

“You know you like the way he kisses.”

Sienna frowned. “He has no plans for the future. He’s drifting from day to day with only one goal. To be happy.”

“Sounds like something we should all aim for.”

“But what about his family? And who knows where he intends to settle down.
If
he intends to settle. I mean, for God’s sake, his house has wheels. That doesn’t seem like someone who’d be content to live in Podunk Compton Pass forever. And regardless of how screwed up the rest of my life may be, I’d never be happy anywhere but here.”

Vivi shook her head. “Don’t you think you’re jumping the gun?”

“What do you mean?”

“You’ve leapt from a man kissing you to planning out the rest of your lives together and worrying about whether or not it’ll work.”

Sienna sighed. “Crap. You’re right. Why do I always do that?”

“Apparently you’re asking for advice, so here it is. There’s nothing wrong with having goals and plans, but life is much more fun when you take chances as well. Try to live in the moment for a little while, Sienna. Take each day as it comes without worrying about tomorrow. Can you do that?”

Could she? Sienna honestly wasn’t sure, but she was willing to give it a try. “Okay. I guess so.”

“Good,” Vivi rose, walking to the doorway. “Oh, and Sienna, no more hiding. Life is happening out there, not in here.”

Vivi left, and Sienna realized her grandmother hadn’t finished her story. What happened to Charles? How did Granddaddy JD finally convince her to take a chance with him?

Sienna started to follow her grandmother to ask, but pulled up short when she caught sight of herself in the mirror. Her hair was tied together in a messy ponytail and her eyes were puffy from too many nights of crying.

Time to get yourself together, Sienna.

What do you want?

Only one thing popped into her mind.

Daniel.

Sienna opened her dresser drawer, rummaging through the panties and bras until she found what she sought. Tugging the tags off a new, sexy nightie, she held it up in front of her. She’d bought it for herself last Christmas, but she’d never worn it. Never found an occasion special enough to share it with Josh. God, had she really been unhappy for so long?

Sienna removed the rubber band, letting her hair fall loose around her shoulders. Bending forward, she ran her hands over her face as a new plan fell into place. In theory, it was simple.

In reality…

Jesus. She tried to summon her nerve when she considered what she planned to do. When that failed, she called the queen of impulsiveness, Sterling.

Sterling’s face appeared on her phone. It was only when she noticed Sterling was in her sleep shirt, sitting on her bed, that Sienna realized how late it was.

“What’s up, See?”