A Baby in the Bunkhouse (4 page)

Eli exhaled loudly, his frustration apparent. “Since when are you curious about other people's personal lives?”

Never, Rafferty knew. “I was just making conversation,” he fibbed. When, in actuality, he'd had to know the truth. Why, he wasn't sure. It shouldn't matter to him who Caitlin's daddy was, or what that guy might or might not mean to Jacey.

“You need to go apologize,” Eli reprimanded.

Rafferty didn't see why. “She didn't have to tell me what she did,” he pointed out calmly.

“But she did.” Eli thumped the arm of the chair with the flat of his hand. “And as long as she's working here and living in this house—”

“Which is the second bad idea you've had,” Rafferty interrupted.

Eli scowled, prompting, “The first being…?”

“Hiring her,” Rafferty retorted. He would have had a hard enough time forgetting Jacey Lambert as it was. Now, how the hell was he supposed to pretend she was just the new ranch cook since he had shared one of the most intimate emotional experiences of her life when he'd delivered her baby girl into the world?

“She's an excellent cook. The men love her. We're lucky to have her. As far as where she bunks—” Eli's finger stabbed the air emphatically “—there's no way I'm having a woman and her baby in the bunkhouse. Period. So you need to get used to that.”

He was going to have to get used to a lot of things, Rafferty decided. The foremost of which was the way his father was suddenly taking over the domestic front, while still letting Rafferty do whatever he wanted with the cattle business.

His father had a point about one thing. For all their sakes, he did need to steer clear of Ms. Jacey Lambert. Rafferty grunted. “Fine. I'll go tell her I'm sorry I offended her.”

And that, he promised himself, was the last thing he would have to do with the dark-haired beauty in quite a while.

Thankful that at least his dad had possessed the good sense to put Jacey and her baby in the opposite wing of bedrooms than the one he and his dad stayed in, Rafferty strode through the ranch house to the bedroom where Jacey would be sleeping.

The door was shut.

Hoping she was already asleep and wouldn't respond, Rafferty rapped lightly.

“Come in. The door's unlocked,” she said.

Reluctantly, Rafferty pushed open the door…and practically sunk through the floor at what he saw.

Jacey was seated in a rocking chair, her feet propped up on the footstool in front of her. The zip front of the city-chic pink-and-gray sweats she wore was open. The clinging T-shirt beneath pushed up above her ribs, revealing an expanse of luminous, creamy-soft skin. And although she had a pink baby blanket draped across her shoulder, obscuring all but the baby's feet from view, it was easy to see that Jacey was nursing.

“Sorry.” Rafferty told himself to back out of the room—]now—but his feet seemed glued to the floor. “Didn't mean to interrupt.”

“It's okay.” Curious now, she said, “What did you want?”

Seriously? Rafferty thought. You. And that shocked him, too. He hadn't wanted a woman this way in a very long time. If ever.

He swallowed. “I just wanted to apologize if I offended you.”

Her smile was soft, contented. Due entirely, he was sure, to the snuggling baby in her arms.

A baby that, previous viewings had confirmed, was every bit as beautiful and feminine, soft and sweet, as she was. A baby, perversely, he longed to hold. Which again was weird since he had decided two years ago that having a family was just not in the cards for him.

Jacey studied him across the expanse of the bedroom. Bathed in the softness of the lamplight, her hair loose and flowing around her shoulders, she looked incredibly maternal.

She lifted a hand, as cheerful and easygoing as she had been the first night they'd met. “It's okay,” she told him with that kind, understanding smile he found so appealing. “You're entitled to your opinion. And I'm entitled to my hormones.” Her lips curved ruefully as she admitted with a blush, “I think I'm a little moody. My doc said it will pass as soon as my body adjusts to not being pregnant.”

She'd made a lovely pregnant woman, Rafferty thought.

The kind who loved motherhood with every fiber of her being. The kind of woman who should be married and have a dozen kids. Not doing it on her own, with a sperm donor who—to hear her tell it anyway—didn't give a damn.

But again, it was none of his business.

“Hang on a minute.” She eased the baby from beneath the blanket. He had a glimpse of the bottom curve of her breast, and then her knit T fell down over her ribs, obscuring all that creamy skin from view.

Immune to the lusty nature of his thoughts, Jacey came toward him, the drowsy Caitlin in her arms. Before he could realize what she was about to do, she had transferred the sleeping baby to his arms, so the infant's face was pressed against his shoulder. “Would you burp her while I wash up?” Jacey asked, as if it was the most natural thing in the world.

Too stunned to resist, Rafferty cradled the incredibly small and lightweight newborn to his chest.

Resisting the urge to bury his face in the downy-soft dark brown hair feathering the top of the infant's head, he called out as Jacey disappeared into the adjacent bath. “I don't know how to…do that…”

It was embarrassing to admit, but he'd never even held a newborn baby before, if one discounted the actual birth three days before. The few kids he'd had the occasion to hold had always been a lot older.

Jacey opened the door a crack and stuck her head out. “Just pat her on the back and walk around a bit.”

He heard the sound of water running.

“And be sure you support the back of her neck and head with your hand. She can't hold it up by herself.”

Obviously, Rafferty thought.

Trying not to like this too much—he saw now how people got used to it—there was something satisfying about holding a life so delicate and new, so warm and cuddly, in your arms. It made you realize how precious life was. Rafferty frowned as the small eyes closed. “Uh…I think she's going to sleep.”

“Keep patting her on the back. She should burp in a minute.”

Through the opening in the door, he could see Jacey moving about at the sink, hear the soft sound of soap being rubbed between her hands, on her breasts…? Turning away abruptly, he continued to pace around.

The water was shut off.

“You about done in there?” he said.

“Just need to put some cream on.”

Deciding he didn't even want to know what that meant, Rafferty pushed the image of any lotion being applied out of his head and kept walking, back turned away from the bathroom door.

His persistence was rewarded. Caitlin let out a loud burp, more suitable for a carousing college student than a tiny baby.

Laughing, Jacey came out to join them. “Let me just put her down and then I'll be right back,” she said.

Her hands brushed his chest as she eased the baby from his arms. Rafferty caught a hint of lavender and baby powder, and then Jacey was gone. He was left standing there, his arms empty, feeling oddly bereft.

 

I
T WAS DISCONCERTING
having this big, sexy rancher in her bedroom when she was nursing, but Jacey figured she'd better get used to it since she—and Caitlin—were the only females on Lost Mountain Ranch.

“The bassinet and the rocking chair and footstool are really nice by the way.”

Rafferty studied her as if that was hard to believe.

Jacey wondered what he found unacceptable about the nursery items—the fact that they were antiques, or that they were a little on the frilly side, with lacy white overlay linens on the bassinet and pastel needlepoint cushions on the chair and cushion. “The bassinet is even on wheels, with a locking mechanism on the bottom, so I can move it around as I need to.” She paused as the next idea hit. “You're not upset that I'm using Evans family heirlooms, are you?”

He gave her the kind of enigmatic look that held her at arm's length once again. “Why would I care about that?” he asked finally.

Wondering if she would ever understand Rafferty Evans and what drove him, she expressed her gratitude. “In any case, it was sweet of your dad to get it out of storage and wash the linens in baby detergent and have it all set up for me.”

Rafferty nodded. “He can be very helpful.”

As well as annoying in some ways, Jacey guessed. Deciding she and Rafferty may as well be straight with each other, as long as they were going to be residing under the same roof, she continued, “Although…just so you know…I told your father it probably wasn't a good idea to have me here.”

He went very still. His expression was as maddeningly inscrutable as his posture. “So you're leaving the job?”

Jacey couldn't say why, but it hurt her feelings that Rafferty was not as pleased as everyone else to have her on the ranch. Not that he didn't have reason to be irritated with her. She had caused him some trouble. Brought him out in a driving rain. Got her car stuck in a muddy ditch. Gone into labor and forced him—by process of elimination—to deliver a baby on ranch property.

She had also fixed breakfast for the men. And was about to prepare hot meals for them three times a day, through the holidays, as a ranch employee. She would have thought he'd be relieved not to have to worry about feeding the cowboys.

Instead, he kept looking at her as if he'd seen a ghost. And not a particularly nice one at that.

“Would you prefer it if I didn't take the job and left the ranch?” she asked, determined to remain unintimidated by his brusqueness.

He waved her inquiry away with an impatient hand. “It doesn't really matter.”

“It matters to me,” Jacey countered stubbornly.

Rafferty frowned, his gaze probing her. “Why?” he asked, indifferently.

“Because! I'm trying to figure out who you are—Mr. I Couldn't Remember My Manners If a Snake Jumped Up and Bit Me.”

“Snakes don't jump,” he said, a muscle flexing in his jaw.

She stepped closer, as if she hadn't noticed how impatient he was becoming. “Or are you ‘The Really Nice Guy' who helped deliver my baby? The skill with which you dispense rudeness and inhospitality says it's the first. But the gentleness you exhibited when Caitlin and I needed you, or the way you were holding my baby just now, says that kindness isn't entirely foreign to your nature.”

He regarded her with a slow, devastating smile. “I thought your sister was the psychiatrist.”

Jacey shrugged. “Her constant analyzing is rubbing off on me.”

He came closer, too, daring her with a look. His eyebrow went up. “And what does your analyzing say about me?” he asked softly.

A ribbon of desire swept through her. She had the sense that she was getting too close for comfort, yet could not turn away. “I think you protest too much. That you kind of like the idea of having me here, even if it's only going to be through the holidays.” After that, she'd told Eli she would try to find something in her field.

Rafferty rolled his eyes. “Now you are off in la-la land.”

“Look,” Jacey said, “I may not have trained professionally, if that's what you're worried about, but I am a great cook.”

Rafferty blew out a contemptuous breath. “Your skill at the stove has nothing to do with how I feel about this arrangement.”

“Then what does?” Jacey demanded, stepping closer still.

“This,” he told her gruffly, pulling her into his arms for a steamy, all-bets-off kiss.

It had been way too long since Jacey had been embraced this way. Unable to withdraw from the evocative pressure of his mouth moving over hers, she surrendered to the taste and feel of him. It felt so good to be surrounded by such strength and warmth, to lose herself in a kiss that was so sensual and searing it took her breath away.

She had been kissed before. But never like this, in a way that sent emotions swirling through her at breakneck speed. Never in a way that brought forth such a soul-deep yearning.

Rafferty had figured she'd slap him across the face before their lips ever touched. Instead, logic and feelings had fled. Feelings, need, had taken over. She had wound her arms around his neck and kissed him back passionately. So passionately, in fact, he didn't ever want to let her go. Their lips had just begun to fuse, and already he wanted another kiss that was deeper and hotter and more intimate than the last. And damn her, he thought, as she curved her body into his, if she didn't want it too…

Which was why it had to stop. Now. Before it went any further. He let her go. “Now do you see why it's a bad idea for you to be here?” he asked.

“Maybe for you,” she retorted, blushing furiously. “Since you can't control your lust or your tongue.”

She swore, realizing too late the way he was taking what she had just said.