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Authors: Claire Ashgrove
A frown tugged Clint's eyebrows together. "Who's Ethan?"
Her smile widened with genuine fondness. "If things go
right this week at court, he'll be my son. I'm his foster
mother."
Those dark eyebrows shot up in surprise. "You? Little
Jesse? A
mom
?"
She refrained from laughing, though her humor bubbled in
her throat. That made three who'd had the same reaction.
"He's thirteen. And I'm sure he'd love to see a horse in
person."
"Well then, in that case, I guess I can't refuse." His gaze
shifted to the window.
Jesse took the opportunity to draw in a much-needed deep
breath and forked a bite of pie into her mouth. Ethan required
careful handling. Introducing him to these three would be
tricky. But maybe the horse would be icebreaker enough.
Lord knew Ethan needed a male influence. One who wouldn't
make him feel inferior.
"That sounds fabulous. Thank you, Jessica," Amelia said.
As Clint stared out the window, his jaw tightened. He set
his plate aside, having taken only a couple of bites out of the
pie. "I should go ahead and move her. Mind if I go on up?"
Jesse shoveled the last bite of crust into her mouth,
passed her plate to Heath, and stood up. "I'll go with you. I
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should be getting back anyway. I promised Ethan I wouldn't
be late."
Without another word, Clint stood up, crossed to the door,
and stepped outside.
Perplexed, Jesse shot Alex a quizzical look. He shrugged
his shoulders, as if to say,
Hell if I know
.
Outside, Clint's truck roared to life.
"I guess that's my cue to hurry." Jesse plucked her coat off
the rack behind the door and shoved her arms in. "Thanks for
the pie, Mom."
Amelia gave her a fond smile. "Anytime, Jessica. We'll see
you soon, dear."
Jesse let herself out to find Clint's truck already pulled
around and idling in the drive. She frowned. What in the
world had she said that pissed him off? Her head ducked to
the crisp air, she pondered the possibilities as she rushed to
her car.
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Clint steered on autopilot, staring at the taillights in front
of him. He'd much rather keep his horse at a professional
stable. Not that he couldn't provide the same care for his
mare—hell, he'd provide better regardless of where she
stayed. Being forced to go to Jesse's, at least twice a day,
when every time she looked at him his cock answered with a
twinge, didn't bode well.
He was tense enough already. If his mare foaled before
January 1, the foal would become a yearling at less than two
weeks of age. Which meant when the foal joined the rest of
the racing field, he or she would be competing at a severe
disadvantage.
Which meant dreams broken. Financial disaster.
Every penny he'd saved was in that mare and her foal.
Sired by a Grade 1, stakes-winning, stallion, and out of a
heavily black-typed mare, the foal was as sure of a shot as he
could get at a much-needed Derby win.
If
it came out of the
oven next year.
The whole damn situation had him waking up with
headaches that lingered throughout the day. He absolutely
didn't need misplaced desire furthering his agitation. And
certainly not when Jesse was the subject of said desire.
Jessie, for God's sake. Man, Heath and Alex would give
him hell for weeks, if they ever found out. Make that months.
For that matter, it would destroy his friendship with her.
Where they shared a casual comfortableness, tension would
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slip in. She'd avoid Mom's. Mom would wonder why. In the
end, he'd just be the jerk that drove Jesse away.
No, this was absolutely not where he wanted his horse.
He'd accept it for the night, but come tomorrow morning, he
was hitting the phone book for another boarding stable.
Maybe even a veterinary clinic that offered foaling services.
He eased around the turn to her drive and rolled up the
winding gravel path. Around him, the snow-covered
landscape glistened beneath the light of the moon. The thick
evergreens bordering the Saurs' property drooped with
clumps of ice and snow. He took it in, admiring the landscape.
Thirty years, he'd lived in this cozy country corner of North
Kansas City, and he hadn't ever stopped to appreciate how
pretty it could be.
Then again, he'd been twelve or thirteen when Missouri
last saw this much snow.
Jesse eased to a stop behind her parents' house, and her
headlights went dark as she shut off the car. Jumping outside,
she motioned him on ahead to the barn. When he pulled
forward, he caught a glimpse of her wrapping a scarf around
her neck before she disappeared from his side mirror.
He sincerely hoped she didn't plan on helping him get his
mare settled in. After the way his libido responded to
touching her hand earlier, he could use the time alone. Taking
care of Angel would steer his traitorous thoughts down a
more appropriate course. One that absolutely didn't involve
fleeting visions of what Jesse might look like beneath that
soft, baby blue sweater.
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Choking back a groan, he eased the truck and trailer to a
stop in front of the barn doors. New red paint hid the cracked,
grey boards he remembered. A coat of brilliant white on the
eaves and cross-boards added a touch of warm welcoming.
Man, they used to play hide in seek in here as kids. Dug for
snakes where her grandfather once stored hay. On more than
one occasion, they'd camped out overnight in the loft and told
ghost stories until all four of them surrendered their courage
and raced back inside her house.
What happened to that Jesse? He'd have leapt at the idea
of boarding Angel here if his tomboy friend had suggested the
idea.
As reluctance crept into his veins, he eased out of the
truck. Moving around to the side of the trailer, he took a lead
rope out of the small tack room. He shut the door with a firm
push and turned toward the rear loading door, only to find
Jesse standing at his side.
Beneath the brim of her stylish winter hat, her eyes shone
bright. One dark tendril of hair escaped the cap, falling just in
front of her ear and framing the side of her face in a uniquely
appealing fashion. His fingers itched to push it aside, tuck it
behind her ear. Touch her cheek and see if it felt as silky as it
looked.
She smiled and rubbed her hands together to generate
warmth. "Tell me what to do?"
Go inside.
Clint bit back the uncalled for sharp retort. She hadn't
done anything to deserve his annoyance. It wasn't her fault
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something had cross-fired in his brain. He forced himself to
smile. "Open up the barn? I'll get her."
"Sure thing."
Jesse trotted off through the ankle-deep drifts, her long
dark hair tumbling along after her. Clint's gaze fixed on the
sway of her hips. Hugged by her dark jeans, she had the
most amazing, perfect little, heart-shaped bottom.
With a roll of his eyes and a mutter, he turned back to his
trailer and unlatched the door. Perfect or not, Jesse would
deck him if she caught him looking.
"Hey girl."
The dark bay mare nickered in return. Shavings rustled as
she turned around and took a step closer.
"That's right. We're here. Don't get too comfortable, we're
leaving in the morning."
Stepping back, he unhooked the safety and slowly lowered
the loading ramp to the ground. Angel moved to the edge of
the stable box, and he snapped the end of the lead beneath
her chin. He gave her an encouraging tug, and she took a
tentative step out. Her ears pricked, she lifted her head and
let out a long snort. Then, with more purpose, she descended
into the snow.
From the open doorway, Jesse watched as Clint led a
breathtaking mare her way. A wide white blaze ran between
dark eyes and curled over one nostril. Neatly clipped, her
short black mane grazed a muscular neck. Tall and sleek,
despite the oversized belly that gave her an ambling gait, she
carried herself with regal grace.
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"She's beautiful." Stepping aside to let them pass, Jesse
took in the mare's dark, shiny coat. If not for the reddish hint
that glinted in the dim light, she'd have sworn the mare was
pitch black.
"Thanks," Clint murmured. "Where to?"
"Over there." Jesse swept her arm sideways indicating the
old, dust-covered stall. "It's not much, but it's warm and dry."
He escorted his horse through the half-door and secured
her to a thick post. "I've got some shavings in the trailer. It
won't take long to get her settled in, then I'll get out of your
hair."
She blinked. "Don't be silly. You're not in my hair, Clint."
Halfway to the door, he paused and gave her a long look.
Under the scrutiny of his warm amber gaze, a flush crept
through her body. She crossed her arms protectively, feeling
at once exposed and at the same time, strangely pleased.
A frown tugged his eyebrows together, and he opened his
mouth to say something. Thinking better of it, he closed it
and disappeared out the door. In a few seconds, he
reappeared toting a vacuum-sealed bale of pine shavings.
He entered the stall, took out a pocketknife, and sliced the
bag open. He dumped it in the corner, creating a fragrant
mound. Still without speaking, he returned outside,
presumably for another.
Jesse jumped to action. She wouldn't stand by and let Clint
do all the work when it was twenty degrees out. She hurried
after him, catching up as he stepped out of the trailer's tack
room toting another bag of shavings. "I'll take that." Before
he could argue, she snatched it out of his hands.
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"Hey," he protested.
She tossed him a wink and grinned. "I'm not helpless."
"Yeah, but—"
"But what? C'mon, it'll go faster with two, then you can
come inside and warm up with some coffee. Say hello to
Ethan."
She didn't give him a chance to protest. With a hefty yank,
she dragged the bag toward the barn and dumped it beside
the first pile. Six piles later, she joined Clint in flattening the
shavings with the side of her boot. Then, she left the stall and
leaned on the rough plank wall.
Clint approached his mare with a faint smile. He stroked
the side of her neck, her shoulder, her expansive belly, and
Jesse stared, transfixed. In all the years she'd known Clint,
she'd never seen such compassion. Such respect. He moved
around the mare, murmuring in a voice so low she couldn't
make out the words. But the expression on his face left no
doubt about what he said. Praises. Little whispers of affection.
When he bent forward and pressed a kiss to her velvety
nose, Jesse's heart lurched. She'd listened to him babble
about the race horses he'd worked with that long ago summer
at The Woodlands. Back then, she'd known he loved his job,
but she'd never fully grasped what took him away from
Kansas City to Kentucky. Now, watching him, a little bubble of
pride burst deep inside her soul. He'd gone after his dream.
He was good with this horse. Damn good. And his love for his
mare was unmistakable.
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He stepped away from the horse, her halter in hand, and
joined Jesse at the stall's rail. Elbows propped over the top,
he leaned forward and watched his horse.
"She's really pretty," Jesse whispered.
"She's my future, Jesse. Everything's riding on that foal."
"How so?" Jesse tipped her head up to look at him. She
took in the firm line of his strong jaw, his high-set
cheekbones, the way his hair dusted the top of his ears. The
shadows intensified the hint of whiskers on his chin, and she
curled her fingers into her gloves, resisting the urge to run
her knuckle over the stubble.
"I had some bad luck the last several years. So, I changed
my tactics. I've still got good runners back home, but this
one..." He nodded to the horse in reference. "I dumped all my
savings into her and this foal. Pray that baby doesn't make an
appearance before New Year's."
Giving him a quizzical look, Jesse asked, "Why?"
"The Jockey Club ages Thoroughbreds on January first of
every year. They compete, among other restrictions, by age.
It will be a yearling come January first, which means that foal