A Leap of Faith (11 page)

“You think you can reject me? Embarrass me? You think you are untouchable Alex Stone? No one treats ME like that and gets away with it. I put up with your moody bullshit while we were dating, for what? So you get to discard me? This is not the last you have seen of me!” Marcy’s voice hitched on a sob as she pushed her chair out and stormed out of the dining room.

“Well perhaps it might be best to skip dessert,” Stefania offered, breaking the silence in the room.

“Riccardo, Stefania... I’m sorry...”I was disgusted at the display they had just endured.

“Are you kidding?” Stefania breathed sultrily, “That was amazing, better than any daytime soap I’ve seen. I thought you said she was talentless?” Laughter filtered through the room, lightening the mood.

Stefania gave Troy a flirty glance as she lead him out of the room, both of them disappearing for the rest of the evening. Dan quelled his disappointment at not “getting the girl” by
heading to the Hotel bar with Jason to “relax.” James excused himself wanting to speak to Hannah before bed, leaving Riccardo, Alex and I sitting at the table.

Alex, stood quietly giving me a gentle kiss on the forehead.  “I’ll see you upstairs.”

I nodded as he walked out of the room. “Riccardo...” I started to explain.

“No, Alexia. There is nothing that needs to be said. I see the way you look at him. I know it was not that way for me. I would rather see you smile with him, than be indifferent by my side. Did you not think I had the means to find you? What was the point Alexia? The truth is you were gone before you walked out my door. I’m glad I got this chance to see you again, to see you happy.”

“You are far kinder than I deserve.” A lump formed in my throat.

“You deserve kindness and so much more.” Riccardo gently kissed my cheek. “You will always be welcome here. Always. Just please... when you leave, make sure you say goodbye.”

Riccardo turned and walked out the door.

~~~~~~

Alex was waiting for me in our suite, his shirt discarded on a chair and his naked back faced me as he stood on the balcony, staring up at the dark velvet sky. I wrapped my arms around him as he turned his head to kiss me.

“Everything ok?” His voice was sincere and relaxed.

“Yep, I’m just a complete heartless bitch with no soul.” I murmured into his shoulder.

“You have a soul and you are not heartless.” Alex twisted his body, laying my head on his chest. “The bitch part... well
,” a small laugh travelled from his throat. “Come here.” he pulled me away from the balcony and into the bedroom. “Lay with me.” Alex patted the bed before sliding off his shoes, socks and pants, leaving only his fitted cotton trunks.

I kicked off my heels and unzipped my dress, letting it fall to the floor.  Alex’s arms reached out, guiding me to the bed. The night breeze from the open balcony door caused a wave of goose
bumps to cover my skin.

Alex pulled me close, the only barrier between our naked bodies was our underwear.

“As sexy as this is,” Alex traced the strap of my bra with his fingers, “it needs to go. I want to feel your skin on mine.”

I nodded as his hand slid down my back, sending shivers up my spine as he unhooked my bra. I watched Alex intently as his lips seductively curled into a smile. “What are you thinking about?”

“Honestly?” He bit his lip.

“Yes, honestly,” I asked as I gazed into his clear blue eyes.

“You with Stefania.” He grimaced.

“Of course you are!” I shook my head, “Should I call Dan and we can all sit around and discuss my past experimentations?”

“I’m sorry,” Alex laughed, “It is kind of hot. As much as I hate to agree with Dan, he has a point. I am a lucky bastard.”

“So, you want me to see if Troy’s done with her and ask her if she would like to join us?” I joked, knowing that was a part of my life I wasn’t repeating.

“No.” Alex’s tone turned serious. “I will not share you with anyone, not even with her.”

“So... then what?” I asked as I climbed on top of him, his chest flexing as he placed his hands around my waist.

“I want you all to myself.” Alex’s fevered mouth attacked mine. He pulled me down so I was laying on top of him, his hands moving down to my ass, tugging lightly on the lace of my panties.

“Mmmmmmmm.” Alex moaned, “I need these off.”

“So who’s stopping you?” I kissed his neck.

“Do you know how hard I am right now?” Alex chewed gently on my bottom lip.

“I thought we already established you are always hard?” I let my hands travel down the strong lines of his chest.

Alex laughed. “True, you have me constantly hard.”

I flicked the band of his trunks with my fingertips. “I want to feel you.”

“I aim to please,” smiled Alex as he pulled down his trunks, allowing his hard length to spring free.

“Mmmmmmm, you weren’t kidding.” I ran my nails around his shaft, slightly grazing his skin.

He grabbed my hand as it tightened around him. “I love you touching me.” He guided my hand up and down his long, hard cock.

“What else do you love?” I quickened my pace, watching his body tense under my touch.

“I love touching you.” He moved his hand away from mine and grasped my upper thigh.

“I love you touching me.” I watched as he moved his hands over my hip and down my stomach.

“I want to make you come just by touching
,” Alex moaned in my ear.

His hands worked their way to my moist
centre, slowly exploring me as I firmly stroked him.

“God that feels so good.” He looked down at my hands moving up and down, “I love watching you do that.” He shifted his eyes back to my body as he moved his fingers up and down, teasing me, not allowing his fingers to enter me. His thumb moved over my clit, the firm pressure making me tingle all over.

“Ahhhhhhh.” I moaned as he slowly slid a finger inside me. I moved my other hand and wrapped it around his erection, tightening my grip as I moved up and down.

“Ooooooo Lexi.” Alex closed his eyes as he absorbed my movements.

He opened his eyes as he moved his fingers inside me again, this time using two. The heel of his palm pressed firmly against my swollen opening. The sensation nearly sent me over the edge.

“Alex...” I tightened around his fingers, my slickness coating them as the moved in and out of me.

“God, you feel so good. This feels soooo good.” He glanced down to his throbbing hard-on in my hands.

He moved his mouth over my breast, the mere heat of his breath and his tongue enough to send me spiraling out of control.

“Alex! I’m going to come.”

“That’s it baby, come with me.” Alex panted as he swelled even larger, my hands gliding up and down.

My legs shook as the sensations overtook me. I sucked in a deep breath as I felt the waves of pleasure roll over me. My release was enough to finish him as he emptied his warm sticky load all over my stomach.

We collapsed beside each other, gasping, our bodies spent. The act of not having sex, intensified the experience. The sensuality of his touch had made it almost more intimate, closer and deeper than we had been.

Alex grabbed the large quilt at the end of the bed to cover our shivering bodies, his strong arms wrapping around me. As our breathing slowed, we gently kissed. Unable or unwilling to release each other we fell asleep, our hearts and bodies intertwined.

~~~~~~~

The next day was filled with interviews and appearances. There were CD signings and talk show appearances, even a live rooftop performance. The band were flawless, like a well-oiled machine. They played perfectly, despite shitty acoustics and a dodgy PA. I stood on the sidelines, my heart raced as I watched Alex’s intensity as he played. He was electric and sensual and made it all look so effortless.

We moved on from Rome, leaving Riccardo and Stefania behind. I did feel like I had some closure and perhaps I’d grown a little emotionally. I promised them both to return sometime soon.

We zigzagged through France, Germany, England, Ireland and Spain, at neck breaking speed. All we saw of the cities were airports, hotel rooms, music stores, TV and radio studios. People swarmed to see the band, their dedication and loyalty overwhelming. They knew the lyrics to every song. Wherever we went, we were followed by fans; desperate to catch a glimpse of their idols.

The new album topped the charts at number one in 18 countries, including the US. The reception to the new material was unprecedented as they won worldwide acclaim, giving credence to their longevity and success.

The days blurred as did the cities- another day, another plane. The only c
onstant was at night. When all the noise was gone, there would be Alex.  We joked about making love from one end of the world to the other and for the most part it was fairly accurate. I never tired of it, no matter how exhausted or wired I was, I needed him.

“So where are we again?” Alex gasped between kisses.

“We’re in Sweden,” I moaned in his mouth as my hands slipped down his chest. “We’re heading back stateside tomorrow.” I clawed at his t-shirt, pushing it up over his head.

“Right, Sweden.” He mumbled as he undid my zipper and let my dress fall to the floor.
“What time is the flight?” Alex ripped at my bra. The metal eyes protested under his fingers before releasing, sending the fabric flying across the room.

“Early.” My hands fumbled with his belt and his zipper.

“I hate early.” Alex moaned as he helped me push his jeans to the floor.

“Suck it up, Princess.” I hissed as my fingernails bit into his back causing him to gasp.

“God, you’re bitchy today.” Alex grabbed my ass and pushed me up against the hotel wall.

“Yes, one might question if I’m getting any!” My hand trailed down his stro
ng back and tugged at the waistband of his fitted cotton trunks.

“Oh I don’t think
that’s
your problem.” Alex smirked as he grabbed at my panties.

“I need you... now
,” I gasped as my mouth moved up his neck and over his lips.

“Whatever you want.” Alex pulled at the delicate lace before it disintegrated into shreds in his hand.

“Ahhhhhhhhh,” I moaned as his hands moved over my newly naked flesh. My hands pulled and pushed at the thin cotton that housed what I so desperately wanted.

“God you’re beautiful,” Alex whispered as he kicked off his trunks.

“Shut up and make love to me.” I laughed as I palmed his rock hard erection.

“Bitchy and demanding! How did I get so lucky?” Alex pushed me onto the bed.

“I never thought getting LUCKY was a problem for you.” I rolled on top of him, my knees pinned to his sides.

He teased down my lower lip with his thumb, “I love it when you talk dirty.”

I slithered down his body as he pushed himself up onto his elbows. I let my tongue swirl trails down his lower abs, his body reacting to my hot touch. His astonishingly clear eyes were locked on me as he watched me move lower, taking his length into my mouth.

“Ahhhhhhhh. Fuck!” His head slid backwards and his eyes closed as I took him further down my throat. I swirled my tongue around the head of his cock, my hands firmly moving up and down the shaft. His breaths became shorter and more ragged as he hardened further in my mouth.

“Oh my God, Lexi,” he panted. He pulled his body up the bed so he was resting against the headboard so that he could get a better view of what I was doing to him. My eyes stayed focused on him as he struggled to control his reaction, his pulse racing as he watched me pleasuring him.

“Ahhhhh Baby. God... Baby.” He grabbed the sheets either side of his legs as his whole body flexed, every muscle clearly defined like he had been carved from stone.

He groaned as he pulled lightly on my hair, tilting my head back as I released him, his length sliding out of my mouth.

“I want to come inside of you,” he moaned, his eyes still clasped shut as he drew in staggered breaths.

He moved on top of me, laying me down. His rock hard cock pressed against my thigh as he took my breast into his mouth, gently biting my nipple. I gasped as he moved to the other one, his hand replacing where his mouth had previously been.

“Alex!” I moaned, as his kissed his way down my stomach.

His trail of kisses sent shivers through my body, the dull ache in my groin growing more unbearable. He gently parted my legs, kissing across my thighs till he got to my wet, silken folds. He hesitated, biting gently around the apex of my thigh, the sensation almost driving me insane.

“Oh my God you are a fucking tease!” I screamed, my body overwhelmed with need and desire.

He trust his tongue deep into me, causing me to draw a sharp breath before he slid it out and then just as forcefully pushed it back in.

“Ahhhhhhhh!” I arched my back as I lifted my hips closer to his mouth.

His tongue swirled and curled all over me, exploring every fold and crevice. It was amazing and maddening at the same time. Every inch of my skin tingled, the heat rising through my core, sending me gasping and moaning incoherently.

Just when I thought I could no longer stand it, he stopped, moving his mouth back up my body again. His hands firmly fixed on my ass as he pulled me closer.

He positioned himself above me, his eyes half open as he slowly slid into me. The intensity of the moment caused me to cry out, hugging his chest closer. I felt the definition of his muscles as I clawed at him, rocking my hips up against his, trying to control the rhythm. His fingers bit into my hips in an attempt to slow me.

“Lexi” he moaned, “You’re fucking driving me crazy doing that.”

“Alex, I can’t stop... I need to feel you... please don’t stop!” I struggled to speak as I watched his jaw clench.

“Baby. Lexi.....Baby.” His clear eyes focused on mine.

My body tensed as he pushed deep and further inside of me, I rocked against him harder and faster, desperate for release.

I tensed around him again, unable to hold on any longer as my whole body shook with my climax.

“Oh baby, I feel you coming. Oh my God. I need to come.” Alex groaned as his thrusts became more desperate, unable to stop. My breath hitched as I felt him explode inside of me, spiralling me deeper into my own oblivion. My whole body shook as I felt him empty inside of me. My limbs were numb and tingling as I hugged his body against mine.

Breathless he rolled off me, pulling me into his side. His body glistened with sweat and his torso rose and fall as he struggled to regain his breath. “Well… Hello Sweden,” he breathed. “That was amazing, you are amazing.”

“I would say Stockholm is up there as one of my favourite cities now.”  I murmured into his chest.

“Mine, too. Along with London, Paris, Dublin, Barcelona, Rome, New York, Melbourne as well as anywhere else we’ve been.” Alex hooked his leg around mine.

“After this tour is done, I want to go home for a while.” I turned on my side to face him. 

Alex froze as the smile slipped from his face. “Home? You mean Melbourne?”

“Yes, Melbourne. I want to see my friends, I miss them. I need to go back, just for a little while.” I watched as he tried to understand what I was saying.

“Of course you miss them, I’m sure it’s been hard. You should go back for a visit
.” He swallowed as he laid his head on the pillow and stared up at the ceiling.

“Hey, I want you to come with me.” I gently shook him, realizing what he must have thought when I said I wanted to leave.

“You want me to go with you?” His voice was hopeful as he swept my hair behind my ear.

“Yes, I want you to come. I want my friends to get to know you... properly. I don’t want it to be like last time we were there.”

I tried to push the last memories I had of Alex in Melbourne into the back of my mind. Our fight in my apartment, my inability to commit and finally letting him go. To wipe that memory, I needed to build a new one. I wanted him to meet my friends as the man that I loved, not just the guy I worked for.

“Can we do something when we are there, for me?” Alex’s clear blue eyes scanned my face as he waited for my reaction.

“What did you want to do?” My imagination starting running wild with possibilities.

“Can I meet your family?”

“No!” My response was instinctive.  I did not want to even consider it.

“Lexi, I know you aren’t close to them but I think it’s important. Look I just want to meet your parents, see where you grew up…” Alex sat up in bed, turning on the light.

“No. Trust me, nothing good can come of it. My parents are two fucking morons who were dumb enough to have sex without contraception and then wonder why the fuck they got pregnant. My brother is an arrogant, conceited asshole who despite having a successful career and family still believes it’s not enough. Those people are not who I am. They are not important.”

I wanted to shut this down. I did not want this tainted by them. Why? So he could see how fucked up I really was? No!

“Lexi, please. I think it’s important. I think it will help me understand...” Alex ran his hands through his hair.

“Alex, I love you. I have never felt this way about anyone in my life. These people may share my last name but they are not my family. 
Matt, Emma... my friends... you, the band...  That’s my family.”

I watched as he struggled to grasp what I was saying. He didn’t understand. His family were amazing. Maybe he needed to see it, their indifference, to experience it first hand so we could finally put this to rest.

I took a deep breath, exhaling slowly. FUCK!! Fuck, Fuck, Fuck, Fuck!

“Fine, we go see them. You will get to see what a bunch of Fuck-Wits they are and then we leave!”

Alex moved closer, his mouth teasing my lips as he kissed me. “Thank you, it means a lot to me.”

“Yeah well don’t thank me yet!” I waved him off.
“Why couldn’t you have just asked for something simple, like set my piece of shit car on fire?”

Alex threw his head back, as he laughed, “I completely forgot about your car! What did you do with it?”

“Well, I have another 6 months left on my lease on my apartment so it’s parked there. Emma goes and drives it around from time to time. I guess I should probably sell it?”

I hadn’t really given it much thought. I should probably clear out the rest of the furniture in my apartment too. Originally I had held on to it while Matt was staying there, and it had also given me a safe “out”. If things hadn’t worked out with the band, then at least I could’ve gone back, but now so much had changed I knew there was no need for an exit strategy.

“You think anyone would pay
money
for it?” Alex winced.

“Sure, I’ll tell everyone I fucked you in it! I’ll make a killing on eBay.” I laughed.

“You wouldn’t!” Alex grabbed my chin as he drew me in closer, biting my lip.

“You so sure?” I winked.

“Well if you are going to be making such claims, you should at the very least not be advertising it falsely. You have more integrity than that.” Alex’s eyes gleamed.

“You want to legitimize my claim? Keep my integrity intact?” I smiled.

“I think it would be the responsible thing to do.” Alex circled his hands around my waist.

“Just so we’re clear, I’m going to totally screw your brains out in my piece of shit car
.” I moaned in his ear.

A slow smile crept across Alex’s lips.

“Just so we’re clear, any time...anywhere.”