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flood her mind. She felt emptiness, loneliness. She missed having him to depend on. Tears streamed down her cheeks

as she sank into her thoughts even more.

She remembered the feel of his warm body close to

hers. She loved the salty taste on his lips and shoulders.

She felt a knot in her stomach. She hadn’t let her thoughts 14 __________________Gloria Graham

go back in a long time. Now she quickly wiped away the

tears and realized again how much she missed his warm,

loving understanding.

She began working with her notebook, shuffling all

the papers she had to go over but it seemed to be for no

purpose. “Will this terrible feeling ever go away?” She remembered the bible verse Pastor Smith had given her to

hang onto, Proverbs 5:3, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding. In all your

ways acknowledge Him and He will make your pathway

straight.” She sighed, feeling much better. “I have almost worn that verse out. I wonder if God ever gets tired of my repetition?” She knew the answer to that before she said

it. He doesn’t.

“Where did that itinerary go anyway?” she muttered to

herself trying to get her mind off her memories.

She began to read:

Monday: 9:00 AM – Rex Dupar’s office.

2:00 PM – Lunch at Care Deux-Magets – Left Bank.

“Hum,” she whispered, “Rex Dupar, the most eligible

bachelor and most sought after designer in all of Paris and I get to have lunch with him.” Pamela’s pulse raced with

excitement. “He has to be very tall, thin and just a touch of gray hair around his temples.” At least that was the picture she had of him in her mind.

As she shuffled her papers, an envelope caught her eye.

“Another good-luck message from Jill?” she wondered as

she ripped it open. If she hadn’t been in such a hurry she might have realized from the return address that the envelope was from Jeff Desmond!

She began to read: “Good Luck! I’ll be waiting for you.

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Sorry about everything. Lets start over. I love you, signed Jeff.”

Pamela paused. She read the message over and over.

Then she accidentally repeated the message out loud. She

shook her head in disbelief.

“Start Over? Not a chance! Who does he think he is

anyway?”

Pamela was embarrassed when she noticed everyone

turning around to see what the commotion was all about.

Her face flushed. She glanced at the little old lady and was glad she had fallen asleep. She quickly pulled the magazine over her face and scrunched lower in the seat, hoping no

one would notice her.

“He is so full of himself it’s down right disgusting!” she mumbled quietly to herself. “Count to ten, count to ten,”

she reminded herself. “Why am I always counting to ten

when it comes to Jeff?” she sighed again, pretending to

read the magazine.

It wasn’t long before her thoughts drifted back to their

first kiss. Her hands began to perspire as she remembered how powerful, yet sweet and loving that kiss was. Jeff

was about the biggest catch of the season. He had looks,

money, and was single. Every woman had her eye on the

single heartthrob of the year! The gossip columnists had

a field day with him.

Pamela closed her eyes and reminded herself that was

not what she was looking for. She wanted more, a deep,

caring relationship built on faith and trust, a relationship like she had with her late husband. “I don’t think that

would ever be possible with this ‘man of the world’,” she sighed.

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She tried to push the thought of Jeff Desmond out of

her mind. “It’s over, finished!” she whispered. The hand-

some department store manager was a closed subject.

Pamela began tearing the note in tiny shreds. By this

time the little French lady moved her wrinkled hand across the seat and patted her hand. “It will be alright,” she smiled.

Pamela realized she had probably heard the sighs and the

paper tearing but really needed someone to give her a little comfort at that moment.

Pamela reached across the arm of the seat and gave the

old woman a kiss on the cheek. The thought crossed her

mind, “A kiss is the same in any language!”

The “Fasten Your Seatbelt” sign came on. People began

buckling their belts as the steward announced, “We will be arriving in Paris in a few minutes.” Pamela glanced out the window to see the land appear below. Her heart began to

flutter as she anticipated what would be happening next.

She watched as the bags began to circle the ramp. It

was a good feeling to see her bags come around. “One,

two, three,” she counted. They were all there! “Yes,” she smiled.

As she looked around, nothing looked familiar. The

signs, all in French, made her realize more than ever that she was the foreigner in this country. She opened her book to try and translate! This was not a simple task. It seemed to take hours to find out how to say, “where is the…”

Just as she began to feel very frustrated, a very French

voice startled her. “Ms. Thornton?” he asked.

“Yes.” She whirled around to see a very tall, handsome

Frenchman stood smiling at her.

“Oh,” she said, sounding a bit like a schoolgirl lost on

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her first day at high school. “Did Mr. Dupar send you?”

“Oui,” he answered. His French accent was very evi-

dent. She knew that it meant, “Yes.”

“Thank heavens! I was beginning to feel very lost! I

really didn’t know what to do next!” She smiled and he

smiled back. She was sure he didn’t understand one word

she said!

She pointed to the beautiful aqua bags that were on

the ground beside her. “These are mine.”

“This way mademoiselle,” he said as he led the way

through the crowded lobby to the exit doors. A maroon

limousine pulled alongside the entrance. The chauffeur

jumped out quickly and opened the door for her. He

turned to look at the handsome Frenchman, “Your car

Mr. Dupar,” he said. Bowing a bit.

Pamela looked shocked! “Dupar?” she quizzed.

“Rex Dupar, at your service Chéri.” He bowed slightly

too and laughed.

“I don’t know whether to laugh or cry.” Her face

turned a bright pink which made her blue eyes sparkle

even brighter.

“How wonderful, a woman who can still blush!” he

smiled.

“I feel so foolish, I never expected a busy man like you

to meet me,” she had a perplexed look on her face. Pamela had wanted his first impression of her to be one of elegance and refinement. She knew she had just blown that away.

“Please, do not be embarrassed, it is I who should apolo-

gize. It was a little joke, but perhaps not a very good one?”

He raised his eyebrows a bit waiting for a response.

“It’s really okay, it was really a good joke on me.” She

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smiled.

“Mon Ami, you are so very kind. Do forgive my little

joke and let me repay it. If you will allow me, tomorrow

I shall show you my Paris!” He bowed again.

“That would be wonderful, I can’t wait.” Her excite-

ment was evident in her voice.

“You have not seen Paris until you see it with a French

man!” he laughed.

Pamela didn’t feel like going to bed, even though the

clock on the wall said it was time. She glanced at her watch and was reminded of the time difference. “Jet lag, that’s what I have, jet lag.” She smiled as she began changing the time on her watch. She was completely mixed up and the

excitement she felt finally got the best of her. She whirled around in a circle repeating over and over, “Can this really be happening to me? Paris?” When she finally settled back to the job of unpacking, she thoughtfully thanked

God for making all of this possible. “God is so good,” she whispered and then followed it with the saying she had

grown up with in church, “all of the time.”

Pamela had just finished hanging the last of her clothes

in the closet when there was a knock at the door.

Puzzled, she opened the door. A short, pale-faced man

stood holding a huge bouquet of yellow roses.

“Oh, for me?” She said in surprise.

“Oui Mademoiselle.” He handed the bouquet to Pa-

mela waiting for her response.

“Oh yes, the tip,” she sputtered as she tried to find

her purse in the mess she had still laying on the bed. She opened her purse and grabbed a handful of coins. She had

no idea how much each coin represented. The deliveryman

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smiled and acted very grateful. As Pamela closed the door she wondered how much she had given him. “I must learn

this money,” she muttered. Pamela smelled the roses and

pulled the card from the holder.

The enclosure read:

MISS YOU ALREADY!

I WAS FOOLISH.

FORGIVE ME FOR BACK BAY.

ALWAYS, JEFF

“I can’t believe him. He knows how I feel about Back

Bay Harbor.” Her jaw flexed as she read the note over and over. She couldn’t imagine how he could stoop so low,

to refer to her hideaway overlooking Back Bay Harbor,

Maine. Jeff was bringing out feelings of anger, rejection, and disappointment. She had just gotten over all of that

but at that moment they came flooding back!

Jeff had shaken her, unsettled her emotions. Emotions

that she thought she would never have again. “How can I

ever be free to love again?” She sobbed as thoughts of Jeff came flooding back in front of her eyes. She remembered

how Jeff held her close in his arms so firm and loving. She remembered the touch of his lips on hers and the warm

glow she felt.

Pamela regained her composure and muttered to her-

self. “Never again! He’s no good for me, I know it!” she

began a conversation with herself. “How could I have

been so taken in? Didn’t Tom’s memory deserve better?”

Pamela felt pangs of guilt sweep over her. She tossed the card into the wastebasket but couldn’t bring herself to

discard the roses. Pamela softly touched one of the petals as she thought about Jeff Desmond, a man she needed to

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forget! She quietly prayed, “Help me God, I’m so weak

and he is so handsome!”

The next morning bright and early Rex was at the

door. Paris was everything she had dreamed of and with

Rex as her guide it was especially wonderful. She had a

hard time taking in all the sights as Rex pointed out the different sights. She loved the tree lined streets and all the artists painting along the banks of the Seine. She had seen movies of these places all her life but to be there in person was special.

“Over there,” he pointed to the Eiffel Tower jetting up

into the sky. “Would you like to go up inside?” he asked.

Pamela hesitated, “Well if it’s all the same to you I would rather not. I am not too good with heights and I am still trying to get my feet on the ground from that long flight,”

she smiled.

“I understand completely,” he smiled back. Rex mo-

tioned for his chauffer to stop the car so they could get out.

“Let’s walk a while, you can do some window shop-

ping!” Rex knew what every woman wanted, Shopping!

Pamela was in 7th heaven. They walked down the tree-

lined street to the end, not missing a store. She had piled presents up on Rex’s arms so high he couldn’t hold one

more. They began to laugh as he bent down to retrieve

one of the gifts off the top of the pile.

“I think I’d better quit,” she laughed. “I don’t think

there is an empty spot in your car!”

Rex motioned for his limousine to pick them up. The

chauffeur had been driving slowly following them as they

walked. “One more thing you must do Chéri, toss a coin

A Memory Unchained___________ 21

into the river,” he handed her a coin. “We shall drive to a spot you can do that!” he said, giving the driver instructions.

“I guess you want me to make a wish, right?” She held

the coin tightly in her hand thinking of what she should

wish.

“One thing for sure, Chéri, once you do that the mag-

netic love of Paris will bring you back again!” Rex sounded very sure of that fact.

“It’s all so wonderful, like I am having a beautiful

dream. I don’t want to wake up!” She sighed.

“We have seen so much today, I can hardly keep it all

straight!” She smiled.

“I am afraid I have tired you,” he said as he took off his jacket and placed it around her shoulders. “You are having a chill. It gets very cold as the sun begins to set.”

Pamela couldn’t help remember her daughter’s words,

“Maybe you will meet a handsome Frenchman!” A tiny

smile crossed her lips.

“You are thinking something funny?” he asked.

“Well,” she stammered, wondering if she should really

be telling him how she felt.

“You sound a bit uppity,” she paused watching for

some kind of expression on Rex’s face. “You know, stuck

on yourself.” Rex looked puzzled.

“Oh, as you American’s say, a Jerk!” he smiled.

“Well, yes, I guess that’s what I was trying to say,” she gulped.

Rex broke out in a loud uncontrolled laughter. Pamela

stared at him waiting for his next remark.

“Perhaps, a few years ago, Chéri, Oui, - but not any-

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