A Simple Proposition (10 page)

Steve groaned and started to come. She felt him pulse inside her.

“Never mind,” she said, and kept her face serious, made herself not laugh. The timing was sort of funny though.

Steve finished coming. Pam waited. When Steve was finished, he tipped forward and leaned his forehead on her shoulder for a moment. Then he kissed her, exactly like he usually did. It meant more, somehow, because Todd was watching.

Steve slid out of her. He moved backwards, off the sofa, a kind of hop, suddenly clumsy again. He sat down and pulled one of the sofa cushions over himself.

Usually Pam would have made a fuss about that. The cushion covers had to be dry-cleaned. Today she didn’t care.

She sat up and put her hand between her legs and dashed into the kitchen to get some tissues. Steve and Todd were both looking at her. Looking closely. Looking like her running around naked was sexy.

She wiped and went back to the edge of the living room. She stood there, trying to decide what to do next. She could get embar
rassed and nervous now they’d stopped, or she could go with what they were doing.

Todd and Steve were both still staring at her naked. Todd was looking at her face as well as her body. Steve was just looking worried, perhaps wondering if she was going to be upset.
She was turned on by being stared at. She liked their attention.

She hadn’t come again, not since they’d started having sex. She was still horny. She was feeling reckless, feeling like she wanted more.

“So,” she said to Steve. “Are we going again, or what?”
 

Steve grinned and seemed relieved.
 

Pam looked at Todd. “You want to, right?”

Todd nodded. He had hardly said a word to her all night.
 

“Are we?” Pam said, to Steve again. “I want to. I want more.”
 

“Give me a moment,” Steve said.
 

She sat down beside him. She sat for a moment, but started to feel nervous again. “Al
right,” she said. “Fine, I’ll just start without you then.”
 

She put her hand between her legs because she’d only just found out she liked being looked at, and this seemed about the most certain way to make Todd look.
 

Not that he wasn’t staring any
ay.
 

She turned her attention to Todd, and while making eye contact with him she started to masturbate. Almost for real, not mostly pretending like she did when Steve asked her to let him watch.

She rubbed herself slowly, and watched Todd, and noticed that when it was just her doing something, Todd seemed to forget Steve was there. He stared at her more attentively, and seemed to relax a little, too. That was interesting, Pam thought.

When she had his full attention, she felt powerful and sexy.
 

She got up, and went over to Todd. Slowly. He stared at her breasts as she walked. At her face as she got close.
 

“Don’t touch me,” she teased.
 

Todd nodded.
 

She sat down on the sofa beside him, facing him, and kept rubbing herself slowly. He was more focused when she was closer and when Steve wasn’t nearby.
 

There was something about that stare that turned her on. Something about his fascination that made her very wet.
 

She closed her eyes and squeezed one of her tits. She might actually come from this, she decided. Just from touching herself with other people in the room.
 

After a while Steve moved. He came over and sat behind her and kissed her shoulder.
Pam opened her eyes and looked at him.
 

“Keep going if you want,” Steve said.

Pam nodded. She rubbed a little longer, but the moment was gone. The mood had changed. It wasn’t about her alone; it was about both of them again.

She wanted sex. She moved, still looking at Todd, and pulled Steve in close behind her and then into her. He started moving inside her, pushing hard, a bit desperately, like he was suddenly very turned on, too.

She was bent a little strangely. She was still leaning sideways so Todd could see, and it wasn’t the best angle for sex.
 

Pam thought about moving, about getting more comfortable. Then she looked at Todd and decided not. She wanted him to keep looking at her like that.
 

He was looking at her face. She was naked and having sex and he was watching her face.

She thought she knew why. She was close. Close enough she was forgetting to keep her eyes open, was forgetting not to gasp and moan and pant.
 

She leaned closer so her face was nearer Todd’s so he could see better.

Todd seemed to forget about Steve. It was she and Todd looking into each other’s eyes. It was Steve who was inside her body, but Todd was in front of her face, there for her, in her mind, watching her.
 

It was a strangely intimate thing to share with Todd.
 

After all, Todd was a stranger, yet she was doing something very intimate. Steve was the first person she ever told that she masturbated, let alone that she enjoyed masturbating. Now, here she was masturbating in front of this total stranger.

Pam tried to hold back, tried to keep her eyes open, tried to remember not to do anything stupid while she fucked.

There was some connection to Todd here, some contact even though they hadn’t touched. She didn’t want to lose it, but she was close.
 

She was very close, about to come, and she knew she was going to close her eyes when she came. She couldn’t help it. She pulled Steve against her, pushed back faster, and pressed down with her hand.

She came, and was pretty sure Todd watched her again, as closely as he had the first time.
 

When she finished, Steve moved Pam around a little to go back to doggie and started fucking her faster. The whole time he was, Todd stared at Pam and Pam at Todd.

It felt almost like cheating, Pam thought, being watched by Todd that closely. It wasn’t, but felt like it.

Steve came, breathing hard, then sat on the sofa. Pam moved and went back across the room to the other sofa, because she didn’t want to stay as close to Todd as she was after they’d been looking at each other so intensely.

She still felt unsettled. Todd’s eyes had been almost too intimate. She went to the kitchen and got a drink water and brought some back to Steve. She decided, looking at Steve, that they were done. He seemed happy, seemed to be looking smug.
 

“All good?” Pam said to Steve, quietly, as she handed him the glass. “Not jealous?”
 

“Not at all.”
 

“You promise? You don’t have to say we’re fine if there’s a problem.”
 

“I’m fine.”
 

She nodded, relieved. She glanced at Todd and thought about Steve and decided not to push things. She
picked out some jeans and a top from the bedroom and put them on. Todd seemed to take that as a hint and said it had been fun, he was grateful, but he really ought to go.
 

He shook Pam’s hand again as he left.
The formalness of it seemed right, but she also wondered if it was so he had a chance to touch her.

Her right hand. The hand she’d been touching herself with.
 

She didn’t realize until afterwards.
 

P

am thought a lot about Todd watching her. She thought about the intensity of his concentration and how it had gotten more intense when Steve wasn’t nearby.

She and Todd had shared something while she had sex, and she wanted to feel that again. At least, she wanted to find out what that was.
 

Pam liked Todd. She wouldn’t ever get into a relationship with him; he was fussy and she had a feeling he was probably one those guys too close to his mother, but she liked him for what
he was. And she wasn’t doing anything wrong. Steve wanted to share her with other men. She would never have tried this on her own, or stared at Todd so hard on her own, but Steve had started something. Started her thinking. She wanted to know what this was.

She liked Todd’s attention. She liked Todd being around. She wanted Todd around her more, wanted to feel his stare again.
 

“I want to do something,” she said to Steve a few nights later. “For me.”
 

“Okay.”
 

“I want to hang out with Todd without you around.”
 

“Hang out?”
 

“Ah, yeah. Basically. Hang out naked, I suppose.”
 

Steve looked at her.
 

“We’ve done your shit,” she said. “I want to do this.”
 

“Without me, though.”
 

“Um,” Pam said. “Yeah. There’s that.”
 

“Why?”

“Because I like how he looks at me when he forgets you’re there.”
 

“But without me.”
 

Pam shrugged.
 

“I don’t know,” Steve said.
 

“Do you trust me?”
 

He looked at her, thinking.
 

“Do you? With what we’ve done lately?”
 

“Yes.”
 

“Then trust me. I want to do this.”
 

Steve wasn’t happy, but he nodded. “Al
right.”
 

P

am phoned Todd and said Steve didn’t mind if they did something together.
 

Todd was quiet for a moment.

“So do you want to?” Pam said, thinking he might not have understood.

“Yes, of course.”
 

“What?” she said. “I have no idea what you like to do.”
 

“I don’t care. What do you like to do?”
 

Pam thought. She worked, and watched TV and went for walks to stay fit. Watching TV was a bit dull, even naked. “Shopping, I guess,” she said. “How about that?”
 

He said yes, so they went shopping. She didn’t quite understand why he would
, but didn’t mind as long as he was into it. Todd was actually quite useful because he had some ideas about what suited her. Almost as if he’d spent a lot time obsessively watching passing women.
 

She picked
out some things and said she’d go try them on. Todd said quietly, “Can I, too?”
 

Pam stopped. Suddenly she got it. “Right,” she said. “Yeah, of course.”
 

Suddenly shopping made sense.
 

She looked around and thought about where she was and put the tops she’d picked up back on the rack.

“Come on,” she said.
 

Todd looked disappointed.
 

“They wouldn’t like it here,” she said. “Everything’s cheap. The rooms are small. We’ll go somewhere nicer where your helping’s okay.”
 

“Thank you,” he said.
 

“Yeah,” Pam said. “Just don’t act horny. Look all, you know, advisory.”
 

Todd grinned and nodded.
 

They went to a better shop where there were bigger dressing rooms. Pam grabbed some things, fairly haphazardly, and went toward them. Todd followed her inside.
 

She pulled the curtain closed and stood there, nervous for a moment.

She was finding this a bit odd, but exciting too.
 

She pulled off her top and took her time trying things on. Todd watched without saying anything. He seemed to be into it.
 

That was enough.
 

She tried a couple of tops, and a skirt, and thought about last time she’d done this when she tried to flash the store guy. They were in one of the front dressing rooms. Just outside the door were chairs for waiting boyfriends to sit in.
 

“Hey,” Pam said to Todd. “Go sit out there.”
 

He looked confused, but did. She pulled the curtain back an inch, so there was a crack down the side where he could see her.
 

He watched, and she took everything off quickly; but then she had a feeling he wasn’t as interested as he had been just standing there with her.
 

“No?” she said, when she came out, and he shook his head.
 

“Too kinky?”
 

He nodded.
 

Pam thought about that. She wasn’t sure what she wanted.
 

“Do you want to come home with me?” she said.
 

Todd nodded again.