Chapter 6
“A
re you going to wear
that
?” asked Charlotte. She stood in the doorway of the bathroom in her apartment, watching me as I applied mascara to my eyelashes.
I looked down at myself and wondered what the problem was. I wore a camel-colored silk shirt with a simple matching scarf, black cropped pants, and my favorite low-heeled sling-back shoes.
“What's wrong with this?”
“Nothing, it's just that you are all sort of... casual. That's all.”
I popped the mascara wand back in its dispenser and stepped out of the bathroom to get a better view of what she had on. Charlotte wore a sleeveless black lace dress with a shimmering gold sheath underneath. The dress hugged her body like a glove and I was momentarily struck by her splendor before it hit me that it was a little dressy for a shower, even if she was the bride.
“Wow. You look great.”
She hugged her arms around herself and nodded her thanks, shifting from foot to foot.
“Uh, Charlotte, this is a wedding shower, right?”
“Well, yes. But they kind of do it up in the Lowell family. It's just that the club is pretty fancy. We are in a small room, not the big hall where the wedding is being held. But they tend to overdress here.”
“I had no idea.” A cold feeling passed over me as I realized that I was missing something significant about my sister. Something just beyond my reach that I needed to understand.
“Oh, Annie. Don't say anything to Mom and Aunt Addie. I didn't mean to make you feel bad. You look absolutely wonderful. Really. I should have warned all of you. But it's not a big deal at all, really.” She exhaled with a feeble laugh.
“Something tells me it is a big deal. As a matter of fact, Charlotte, something tells me this whole thing is a big dealâmore than just a wedding, actually. Is there something going on that I'm missing?”
“Oh, don't be silly.”
Mom and Aunt Addie were watching the end of an old movie in the living room. I backed up into the bedroom and dragged Charlotte in with me. “At first I just thought you were a nervous bride, but now I know there is something else going on.”
“What? There's nothingâ”
“Sit.” I pointed to the bed.
Charlotte blinked and put her hand to her throat, as if she were trying to say something.
“Sit!” I said more firmly. The Adler alpha-woman in me was rising to the surface. Aunt Addie would have been proud.
“Okay, okay . . . But really, there is nothing toâ”
“Yes, there is. Is there a problem between you and Henry?”
“No,” she said emphatically, and I believed her.
“Well, then there is something else going on.” I crouched down in front of her and a worry popped into my head. “Char, honey, are you pregnant?”
A startled look passed over her face, and she smiled. “No, Annie. Oh my God, no!”
I sank back on my heels with relief. A baby would have been wonderful under any circumstances, of course, but better to be wonderful
after
the wedding.
“Well, at least we don't have that little complication to deal with.”
“Oh my God, I can't imagine having to explain that one to June and Scarlett,” she said, rubbing her hand across her temple.
“But we have other things to explain to them? Is that what you mean?”
She scrunched up her face as if she was deciding what to say. It bothered me that she had to consider what to tell me and not to tell me. I always used to be her confidant. But now I just felt helpless and out of touch. I stayed quiet, gazing steadily into her face, willing her to talk like the old days.
Finally she tilted her head and said, “It's just that I think the Lowells, well, actually . . . I think June, Scarlett, and their friends, kind of think I am . . . well, they think that our family is . . .”
“Yes?” I prompted.
“They think we are . . . not really worthy.”
“Worthy?” I tilted my head sideways, trying to understand. Worthy? It sounded archaic. Like a term that belonged in King Arthur's court.
“I know it sounds strange, but they think we are beneath them.”
“Because we live in a small town?”
“Yeah, and well . . . you know how Aunt Addie was at dinner the other night?”
I was beginning to get the gist of what she was saying and it made my blood turn cold. “But a whole lot of people at that dinner were really nice to Aunt Addie. In fact, remember how we laughed about it? She was the hit of the party.” Of course, deep down I understood. I wasn't oblivious to how our small-town ways must look to others. Was I embarrassing too? I clenched my fist. This wasn't about me. I needed to remember that. Taking a deep breath and loosening my fists, I urged her on.
“Don't get me wrong. It's not everyone who notices. It's just June and Scarlett mostly. And maybe a few friends of the family. You see, Henry's family always assumed he would marry into another family just like his. And when he chose me, at first they thought that's what I was. With my college background and my manners, even if I wasn't from around here, they thought our family was some sort of Northern version of the Lowells. Until the other night. Aunt Addie kept clutching her old suitcase and she wore that awful dress. And even Mama was a little dowdy looking and unsophisticated.”
“And me . . .” It wasn't a question. I let my voice trail off as I remembered how I had behaved on the golf course.
“No, Annie, you were fine. It really was no big deal. I am probably imagining all their comments . . . And besides, at the dinner party they knew you were really tired from all that travel.”
I wasn't about to mention my own loud comment about Scarlett before the toast. I had almost made things worse than Aunt Addie ever could have.
“So that's why you're trying so hard with this wedding. The dress, the reception here in Atlanta. And it worked just fine . . . until we came into the picture.”
“Oh, Annie, that sounds so melodramatic. I just want to be careful it doesn't look like I am marrying Henry for his money. And anyway, this is so stupid. I am too old to care about all this.”
“And does Henry care?”
“No,” she said quickly. “Henry thinks your funny stories are charming. He keeps asking all about growing up in Truhart. In fact, he wants to come for a visit as soon as possible.”
Well, thank God for that. I didn't think I could bear it if Charlotte was keeping Henry from the truth.
“I don't know why I am letting it get to me, Annie. It just seems like every time something about the wedding comes up, I look at things through their eyes. I don't want them thinking I'm a gold digger.”
“It really matters what they think?” I asked quietly.
“It doesn't. It shouldn't.” She shook her head. “It's so stupid, isn't it? I appear on national TV in front of thousands every week and here I am, super nervous about this wedding.”
She stopped and looked at my face, then placed her hand on mine.
“See? This is why I didn't want to tell you. I knew you would be upset with me. I'm being way too sensitive. I'm just a bundle of stupid nerves.”
For once I kept my mouth shut. A sense of disappointment washed over me. But if I was honest with myself, I understood all about being the odd man out. When I lived in New York I suffered my share of insecurities and embarrassments. It was bad enough that they insisted I had a Midwestern accentâwhich I still say I didn't. But people in the art community were always making fun of my lack of sophistication. How would they understand what it was like to live in a small town, where garage sales were big events and everyone knew one another's names?
But I didn't feel like sympathizing with her right now. Between my mental divorce with Nick this afternoon and Charlotte's apparent desire to defect from her small-town roots, I wanted nothing more than my own lumpy bed in the back annex of our inn, and a box of tissues.
“Forget I said anything, Annie. This is silly.”
I shook my head and stood up.
“This is nothing. Really. I am just imagining everything.”
I opened the bedroom door and walked back to the bathroom, trying to swallow the lump in my throat and erase the heaviness behind my eyes.
Charlotte appeared at the door of the bathroom. She put her hand on my arm.
“Please forgive me, Annie.”
I forced a smile, but a quick glance in the mirror told me it looked more like a grimace.
“I love all of you! And I would never, ever want any other family.” Charlotte put her arms around my shoulders and hugged me. When she was little and couldn't swim well, Charlotte used to cling to me in the lake just like this. Sometimes I felt like she was dragging me underwater.
After a pause, I returned her hug. “It's okay, Char.”
I wasn't going to let her drown. We might be uncouth, but we were Adlers. We watched out for each other. It was my job to keep Charlotte happy and this wedding on track. I could handle bruised pride.
I pulled away and gripped her upper arms reassuringly. “Let's go to this fancy shower.”
She chewed on her lip and I lightened the mood with a glance down at my shoes. “My big feet are already sore from squeezing into your golf shoes. But I think I could be persuaded to wear those cute designer shoes you were wearing at the dinner party if you think that would dress me up.”
Her eyes widened. “Oh my gosh! No way, Annie! You'll stretch those out with your big feet. Your shoes work fine!”
That was the same argument she always used when I wanted to borrow shoes. I laughed and ruffled her hair. Nice to know in all this wedding craziness some things hadn't changed.
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Charlotte insisted that all four of us squeeze into her sporty red compact car for the drive to the Lakeland Hills Country Club. An early-season hurricane that was downgrading to a tropical storm was knocking out power from Jacksonville to Charleston. Georgia was supposed to be hit with the remnants later that night and I wasn't relishing the drive in the muddy aftermath of the rain that threatened. Even now, the clouds were building as we drove down a long drive tucked into a low-lying area of Buckhead.
Charlotte paused at a guard house and gave her name to a man who raised a gate for us. As we wound our way around a small river and the private drive that led to the clubhouse, I made Charlotte stop for a moment so I could grab my digital camera and take a few pictures. Aunt Addie and Mom climbed out and insisted that I take a picture of them with the impressive view in the background.
Aunt Addie giggled. “Oh, wait till I show these pictures to the ladies back home. Marva O'Shea is going to be at a loss for words.”
“That would be a first,” Mom added.
A shiny Mercedes passed us as I framed a shot of a large magnolia tree with the club's white pillared portico in the background. A woman in the passenger seat stared at me as the car passed. Even if I couldn't hear what she was telling the driver, there was no mistaking her raised eyebrow.
Who let these people in?
I nodded to her and helped Aunt Addie back into the car, ignoring Charlotte's nervous sigh. “You aren't going to take that inside, are you, Annie?”
I clutched the camera to my chest, then put it on the seat. I guess I would have to keep my camera in the car for the evening.
When we approached the club I pointed out several open parking places, only to realize when a red-vested man ran to open my door that the parking was valet only. Charlotte stopped the car and handed her keys to the valet. Mom and I grabbed the stack of presents from the trunk.
Our arms were overflowing and Charlotte tried to help, but I waved her off. “Nope, you can't carry any. You might guess what they are,” I said with a grin.
Well, in all fairness, I didn't really know what they were either. Besides the fine linen my mother and I had ordered from a catalogue, we had brought presents from the ladies at the Family Fare, Nick's mom, Mary Conrad, and Aunt Addie. Judging by the way Aunt Addie had smiled when she packed hers, she had put a lot of thought into her gift.
A sense of déjà vu hit me when we entered through the heavy oak-paneled front doors of the club. I wondered if the person who designed the room had also designed the Ambassador Hotel. Or perhaps it was just the overly formal sophistication that I recognized. Two matching crystal chandeliers and a baby grand piano graced the elegant, deep-brown paneled lobby. A set of stairs to our left led down to a room that looked a little like last night's chic nightclub. But it was the grand-looking room ahead of us that captured my attention.
Up several steps and through a wide corridor I could hear the sonorous hum of a large crowd. In the background I could make out the sounds of a string quartet. Just as I walked over to investigate, a short woman carrying a black leather notebook stepped in front of me. She asked in a low, hushed voice if we were wedding guests.
“We are here for a shower. This is Charlotte Adler,” I said, nodding to my sister behind me.
“Of course. It is nice to see you again, Miss Adler,” the woman said, staring at the presents in our hands covered in rainbow-colored toucans, silver confetti wrapping paper, and peel-and-stick bows.
“We have been waiting for you. Your party is in the Peach Blossom Room. Follow me.”
“Is there a wedding going on in the main ballroom?” Charlotte asked.
“Oh yes. As you know, we are busy with weddings and other special events almost every weekend night of the year,” said the woman. “You were so lucky we had a cancellation in the spring for your reception. It would have been a whole year and a half until we could have fit you in.”