firmly.
‘Why, is my foot going to dry up or something and drop
off?’ He was greatly amused by his own wit; Octavia left
him giggling and zapping through the TV controls.
It was a small package, sent recorded delivery, the
envelope hand written and addressed to her. She didn’t
recognise the writing.
‘Mum! Can I have a drink after all? Coke?’
‘Wouldn’t some nice orange juice be better? I’ll put ice
in it.’
‘Okay,’ said Gideon, his voice resonant with martyrdom.
Octavia got out a glass, filled it with juice, reached into
the fridge for the ice tray. She decided she’d like a drink
herself, and filled the kettle; while it was boiling, she picked
up the package, started opening it with a knife. She reached
into the envelope, pulled out a note from — of course,
Charles Madison, she recognised his neat, rather old
fashioned writing now. A charming, slightly sad little
missive, telling her he hoped the enclosed would give her
pleasure and remind her of Anna — and then she pulled the
handkerchiefs out of their tissue paper. The handkerchiefs.
Six of them. Pretty handkerchiefs, some lacy, some
embroidered, a couple obviously very old, antiques in their
own way, worn quite thin. Handkerchiefs. Lying there, on
the kitchen table, Anna’s handkerchiefs. Anna’s. Anna, who
was, who had been—
‘Mum! I’m thirsty.’
Gideon called her again and then again; but even then
she didn’t move, she just went on standing there, quite still,
looking at Louise’s mother’s handkerchiefs. And thinking of
the one in her filing cabinet at the office, so very like them,
telling herself over and over again that they didn’t, they
couldn’t, mean anything at all …
Dickon was miserable. His mother had promised to take
him to Legoland that day: ‘I know it would be more fun
with Daddy, but he’s not back till Sunday, and it will stop
us being bored and lonesome.’
He’d been really pleased and excited, she’d been talking
about it for ages, and he’d begun to get ready, fetched his
rucksack for sandwiches like she’d said; and then the phone
had rung, and she’d been out in the garden hanging out the
washing, so he’d answered it. It had been Tom, the twins’
daddy, and he’d said could he speak to her, and so he’d
gone to fetch her, and then she’d come upstairs looking a
bit funny, with her face all red, and said she was terribly
sorry, but they couldn’t go that day after all. ‘Uncle Tom
wants me to do a few business things for him. It’s
important. But I promise, word of honour, we’ll go tomorrow. Is that all right, darling?’
‘Yes, all right,’ said Dickon miserably.
‘Now, I’m sorry, but I’m going to have to take you over
to Mark for a bit, to play there. His mummy said she’d take
you to the swings.’
‘I’m bored of the swings,’ said Dickon. ‘And I don’t like
Mark.’
Octavia found getting to the office a great relief. Normal,
orderly, with its own set of rules; and she was inevitably
behind with her work, a great pile of papers stacked on her
desk, mostly with explanatory notes from Sarah Jane. No
time to think about handkerchiefs, no time to fret over her
father, no time to so much as cast her mind in the direction
of Gabriel Bingham …
Sarah Jane put her head round the door. ‘It’s Patricia
David. She sounds upset.’
Pattie David was very upset. Michael Carlton had
managed to get an interview with the local paper, and was
making much of his community centre in general, and the
facilities for the disabled within it in particular. The reporter
in question had then gone out to visit Bartles House rest
home and found the house rundown, a roomful of old
people stuck in front of the television; and the grounds
sadly neglected, the gardens overgrown with weeds, the
lawns covered with plantains and ragwort. There was also,
she pointed out to her readers, much local unemployment
in the area, and the Carlton development would create, she
estimated, hundreds of jobs.
‘And then she finishes by saying, “It is natural that there
should be local support for saving Bartles Wood, an
undeniable beauty spot, but for the rest of the estate, little
can be said. The money which would be brought into the
area by Mr Carlton’s development would enrich it in more
ways than one.” Octavia, what are we going to do? This is
the sort of thing that really influences people, swings public
opinion.’
‘I know. Well, we’ll just have to have another interview
with someone else.’
‘Yes, but who? Do you think Gabriel Bingham would do
it? You and he seem to be quite good friends now.’
‘Quite good,’ said Octavia cautiously, remembering with
a stab of sudden white-hot pleasure Gabriel’s mouth on
hers, his hands exploring her body, his voice speaking of quite other delights than those of Bartles Wood. ‘I could ask him.’
‘Would you mind, Octavia? That’s terribly good of you.’
It was a good pretext to ring him; but for some reason
she was reluctant. She couldn’t quite work out why.
Anyway, all she could think about was handkerchiefs. She
sat at her desk, staring out of the window. Of course it was
absolutely ridiculous. Everyone had handkerchiefs. She was
just going crazy. Deceived wives did go crazy. Looking for
clues in pockets, wallets, car ashtrays, if simply didn’t mean
anything. She was getting obsessed.
If Louise knew she was even thinking all this, she’d never
speak to her again …
‘Octavia, Barbara Dawson is on the phone. She says do
you know where Tom is?’
‘No,’ said Octavia wearily. ‘I have no idea. If he calls me
I’ll make sure he gets in touch with her.’
Marianne had woken with a strong sense of foreboding. She
lay in bed, raking the Octavia and Tom affair over in her
mind. She really had to try and do something to help.
Starting with cancelling her appointments with Nico. Apart
from anything else, Felix was going to need her in the
weeks ahead. Both for comfort and restraint. She shuddered
at the thought of what harm he might do, unchecked. She
might not be able to achieve much, but she could at least
try. Starting now.
Nico was out; she left a message for him to ring her, and
then decided to go and see Octavia. She rang her office; the
secretary said Octavia was in back-to-back meetings all day,
and right through lunch, but she’d certainly get the message to her; and yes, she would of course stress it was urgent.
Two hours later, Octavia hadn’t phoned. Clearly she
didn’t consider Marianne as important as her back-to-back
meetings. Having also been rebuffed by Felix that morning
when she had phoned holding a rather puny olive branch ‘I’m
sorry, Marianne, I really can’t possibly talk to you now’
- Marianne was feeling rather out of sorts altogether with
the Miller family. And guiltily relieved that she had been
unable to cancel her arrangements with Nico.
She finished what must have been her fourth cup of
coffee and went down to make some more. Zoe was in the
kitchen. She looked tired, Marianne thought, but a lot
more cheerful than she had for some time.
‘Hi, Mum.’
‘Hallo, darling. Got any plans for today?’
‘Not really. Might do a bit of shopping.’
‘Zoe! I thought you didn’t have any money.’
‘Mum, we’re not talking mega expense here, just a top or
something. Anyway, I got some money from that bar job I
did.’
‘Oh, I see. Well, darling, don’t go mad.’
‘Mummy, hi.’ It was Romilly. ‘I just spoke to Serena
Fox. She said had you had a chance to look at the contract
yet, that it would be nice if maybe the four of us could have
a meeting on Friday, get everything tied up. I would like
to, Mummy, I haven’t got any other work yet and—’
‘Romilly, there’s no earthly need for you to work,
darling,’ said Marianne. ‘You don’t exactly need the money
and—’ She saw Romilly’s face, quickly adjusted what she
was going to say. ‘But I can see it’s frustrating for you. Er why
were you speaking to Serena?’
‘I got a card from her this morning. Look, isn’t it sweet?’
Marianne looked at it: a black-and-white postcard of a
famous vintage fashion shot. On the back, Serena had
written, ‘You’ll be on one of these one day. Good luck and
happy hunting. The hot chocolate session was fun. Serena.’
‘Yes, I see. Very — sweet.’ Marianne felt a chill of unease.
‘What hot chocolate session was that, Romilly?’
‘Oh, I met her in the street the other day. As I was
coming out of some advertising agency. I was a bit down
and she said come and have a drink. She was really, really
lovely.’
‘I’m sure she was.’
‘Anyway, I phoned to thank her and she said can we set
this meeting up? You must have had it back from your
lawyers by now.’
‘Well …’
‘Mummy, what is this? I’m not going into a drugs ring or
something. Please can we get it settled? I’d really really like
to. If we’re not careful they’ll find someone else!’
Romilly looked at her, and not for the first time in the
past few weeks, the expression in her eyes was not entirely
pleasant to see. Suspicious, impatient, almost hard: more
like Zoe. Marianne felt panicked, as if she was losing her; it
was horrible.
‘I’m off,’ said Zoe hastily. ‘See you later. If that’s all right,
of course, Mum.’
Her voice was also hard, sarcastic; suddenly Alec’s voice,
equally so, came into Marianne’s head.
She looked at Romilly. ‘Darling, I—’
The phone rang. It was Felix. ‘Marianne? Look, we were
having dinner tonight. I’ll have to cancel it. I’m talking to
my lawyer, getting some advice over Octavia.’
‘Felix, please, please don’t get too involved.’
‘Marianne, I’m sorry, but I am becoming extremely tired
of your attitude to all this. I have yet to hear any clear
expression of sympathy with or loyalty to Octavia from
you. I find that rather shocking.’
‘Felix—’
But he had cut her off. Marianne felt horribly, disproportionately
hurt. She looked at Romilly again; her expression
was still impatient, fretful. Romilly, whom she had always
been able to rely on for a ceaseless uncritical outpouring of
love. She hadn’t realised until now how much it had meant to her.
‘Yes, darling, you’re right,’ she heard herself saying. ‘Of
course we must have that meeting. Friday, did you say? Let
me just look in my diary — yes, fine. Now how would you
like us to go out and buy something new to wear for it?’
Octavia felt she had lived through a week by five o’clock;
she had entirely failed to come up with any further
suggestions for sponsorship for Margaret Piper, the work
she had done for Foothold looked pretty puny, set down on
paper, and Lauren Bartlett had phoned with a long list of
suggestions about the day at Brands Hatch, a very few of
which were sound, and all of which would need careful
attention.
Before she went home, she decided to phone Louise. Just
to assuage her conscience: silly really, Louise had no idea of
the heinous crime she’d been suspected of. But it would
make her feel better. She’d tried to phone Marianne back,
and she’d been out, in spite of leaving a message saying it
was urgent she spoke to her. It clearly wasn’t.
Louise sounded odd: rather overexcited.
‘Boot, hallo. I’m glad you phoned. I’m going away for a
few days.’
‘Yes? Where?’
‘Oh, just over to France with Dickon. The Loire Valley.
Sandy just phoned, asked us. I thought why not?’
it’s probably just what you need,’ said Octavia, ‘to get
away for a bit.’
‘Yes, I do feel that. Away from all the pressures. And the
phone. Are you all right?’
‘Yes. Yes, I’m fine. Thank you.’
‘How are things for Tom?’
‘Terrible.’
‘Good,’ said Louise briefly.
It was an oddly chilling little word. Octavia frowned
briefly.
‘And you, darling Boot, how are you? Any more news of
the Angel Gabriel?’
‘Oh - not really.’
‘You in love, do you think?’
‘Louise, I don’t know,’ said Octavia. ‘I’m not ready to be
in love with anyone, I don’t think. Last night, talking to
Tom about his troubles, I felt terrible suddenly. So guilty.
At what I’d done to him.’
‘You haven’t done anything to him.’
‘Yes, I have. I’ve helped to scupper his company pretty
effectively, haven’t I?’
‘What, with the Battles Wood business, you mean?’
‘Yes. And it’s worse now. I mean if he knew, if anyone
knew, I’d actually — well, you know …’
‘Slept with the local MP! Who you met there! Great
story, Boot.’
‘Louise, I didn’t actually say that I’d—’ ‘But you have, haven’t you? Come on, you can’t deceive me. Me of all people.’
‘Louise, I—’ Oh, for heaven’s sake, what harm would it
do? ‘Yes, I have. But look, that’s very — well, you know.
Between us.’ Why was she saying that? Why?