Always You (3 page)

“Alex is getting engaged.” I think my heart stopped when Rob announced the news to the family. I wanted to cry on the spot. I didn’t know what I expected. It had been two years since we last saw each other, and he was in a place with beautiful Italian women. Over the years he did ask about me and Rob told me about his time in Italy, but not once did he tell me that he was dating someone. I knew it wasn’t my business, but after two years my crush hadn’t gone away. I thought about him all the time. I couldn’t even date because of him. I tried, but it failed during the first few days.

“Wow,” I muttered. My parents and brother looked at each other then back at me like they were gaging my reaction. I thought my feelings for him were well disguised, but apparently I was wrong.

“It’s fine. Congrats to him and whoever he’s marrying.” I tried to feel nothing, but I couldn’t. My heart hurt. My birthday was tomorrow, and Rob told me he was coming back in two weeks. “If you’ll excuse me, I don’t feel like going out tonight.”

“That’s fine, sweetheart. It’ll work itself out,” my mother said, giving me a big hug.

“Thanks, Mom,” I hugged her tight before my brother pulled me into his arms, then my dad did, too.

“I’m okay, everyone. I may have had a school girl crush, but it’s nothing I can’t get over.” I was about to walk upstairs when I changed my mind. “You know what? I’m going to go out with you.”

Rob wrapped his arm around my shoulders and told me to stay home. “No, stay and take it easy. We’ll bring you something back tonight.”

“Okay.” I wasn’t hungry anyway.

I woke up at midnight when my doorbell rang and my world collapsed.

~~~~~~

I had just landed in Dallas and was on my way to Irving to surprise Calista. I missed her so much that I didn’t care that I had wait until tomorrow for her birthday. She was mine, and I needed her to know that. I called Rob to see what was going on.

“Hey, man. Are you home?”

“Yeah, but we’re all going out to dinner tonight. When are you coming back?”

“I just landed in Dallas. I’m waiting for my luggage then I’m on my way to Irving. You did tell your parents about my feelings for Calista, right?”

“I didn’t need to. You called me all the time to talk about her. Everyone but Calista knows. She thinks you still don’t like her.”

“I plan on fixing that tonight. I need to see her. It’s been too long. I’ve been missing her like crazy. How about I meet you all after dinner?”

“No, I’ll get her to stay here, and you two can talk in private. Just don’t knock her up until her birthday.” He teased me.

“Don’t worry. I waited this long, another day won’t kill me.”

“Cool, well I’ve got to get ready to go out.”

“See you soon, bro.”

“Love her.” I took his warning seriously because I loved her with everything in me, and it was finally time to claim her as mine.

“Always,” I promised.

I was pissed because the drive wasn’t supposed to be long, but there was a storm going on right now, and my luggage hadn’t arrived yet. I couldn’t leave it, but I needed to see her. I was tempted to call, but I waited. This morning, my dad had dropped a car off for me to use to drive to Irving with.

It was ten at night when I finally got out on the road. It was dark and wet. There was an accident on the road so I needed to go slow. I kept trying to call Rob, but he wasn’t answering. Damn, did they go to bed early? I just kept driving on. It took twice as long to get there. When I finally pulled up to the house, their car wasn’t in the driveway. That was strange. Maybe they were at the movies.

Just as I got to the door, there was a squad car pulling up. Fear bubbled in my gut; something was wrong. Two cops approached with blank expressions.

“Officers, what’s going on?” I asked them, trying not to freak out.

“We’re here to speak to any residents of this house. Do you live here?” The female officer asked me.

“No, I came to see my best friend and my fiancée.”

“Sir, yours, your friend, and your fiancée’s names, please.”

“I’m Alexander Richmond. Rob Delaney is my friend and his sister Calista is my fiancée.”

“I’m sorry sir, but Mr. Delaney and his parents were involved in a serious accident.” What the fuck?! I couldn’t believe it. They were all safe drivers.

“What hospital are they at?” I asked, ready to run to the hospital once I had Cali in tow.

“Sir, they’re gone. I’m sorry.” I grabbed my chest. I was too healthy for a heart attack, but my heart felt broken when I looked the house.

“Does Calista know?”

“No, sir. We came to notify her.”

With tears in my eyes, I turned back to the officers and said, “I’m going to tell her. It should come from me. It needs to come from me.”

“We’ll stay just in case we’re needed.” I nodded. I couldn’t understand. How? Why?

I rang the doorbell, and it opened a minute later.

She looked shocked to see me, but then she saw the police behind me.

“Can we come in?” She let us in. I didn’t get to greet her liked I planned, but then again, Rob and his parents didn’t plan this either. My tears fell from my face when I told her, “Cali, babe. I need to talk to you.”

“What? Why are you here? The cops?” She had a catch in her throat.

“Calista, please.” I pulled her into my arms and carried her to the sofa. “Cali, there was an accident tonight. Damn it, they’re not coming home. Rob, your mom, and dad all died tonight.”

“No!” She screamed and jumped out of my hold. “No, this can’t be.” She paced the floor, crying and pulling on her hair. Shaking her head. “No, this can’t be. It can’t. It just can’t. They told me they were coming home. No.” Cali collapsed to the floor. I rushed to her, holding her close.

“Do you want us to get her some water?” the female officer asked.

“Please.” I pointed to the kitchen area.

The officers walked to the kitchen while I sat her in my lap. “Cali, I’m sorry. I don’t know what to say or do. I know I can’t make this better, but we will get through this.”

“They’re really gone?” She looked into my eyes so lost that I wanted to lie, but there was no going back.

“I’m sorry, they are.” Fuck, this wasn’t supposed to happen.

“No, I don’t want this.” She cried to herself, pressing her head into my chest.

“I know. I know.” I caressed her back, then the officers came back in with a bottle of water. Handing it to me, I opened it and made her take a drink. She barely took a sip, unable to stop sobbing long enough for more than that.

“We can send someone to talk to you in the morning, if that’ll work better,” the male officer offered. I nodded. They told us how sorry they were and let themselves out.

I rocked her in my arms until she couldn’t cry anymore. I carried her up to her bedroom and laid us both under the covers. The night was long as our hearts broke. My beautiful wife-to-be was in my arms.

“Rest, my love.”

I woke before the sun came up. It took me a moment to realize it wasn’t just a nightmare. Everything that happened last night was real. Alex was holding onto me like he was afraid I’d disappear. I knew it was only grief that held him to me. He had someone else, but he knew I needed him and he loved and lost my brother, too. I unapologetically pressed my body into his. I felt the ridge of his cock against my ass. There was nothing to read into that, though. Men woke up with them stiff as board. It did feel nice and thick. I didn’t care that he had a fiancée; it felt incredible to have him keep me safe, to keep me from falling apart.

Alex groaned and pulled me close. “Come here, baby. I don’t want to let you go.”

I melted into his embrace and felt the gentle kiss on my neck. Closing my eyes, I tried to decide what to do. Could I be strong and get away from the only man I’d ever loved, or would I succumb to his dreams of his woman? No matter how much it hurt, I had to go away. I pushed out of his arms and ran into the bathroom. Locking the door, I leaned against it; forgetting about the damn robe hook, I hit my head against it. That was what I get. I almost let my feelings overtake my morals. What the hell was wrong with me? Oh yeah, I knew that answer. I lost my entire family and the man I loved in the same night.

My heart started to crumble knowing that I’d never see my family again. I couldn’t comprehend what was happening. The tears streamed down my face as I slid down to the floor, balling up and crying like a baby. Rob was never going to tease me again. My mother couldn’t be here to make it better for me. My dad couldn’t threaten any boy with his shotgun anymore. God, it didn’t feel real. I pinched myself, but there was no waking from this. This was my new, fractured reality.

“Cali, do you need me?” Alex asked through the door.

“No, Alex. You can go do whatever you need to do.” As much as I wanted him to stay and hold me, I couldn’t handle the pain of a love lost on top of the loss of my family.

“Open the door, Cali,” he demanded. I didn’t want to but the sooner I got him to leave, the easier it would be to forget him.

I took my time to collect myself, stood up, and opened the door. Damn it, the look he gave me could melt the polar caps.

“Come here, Calista. Fuck, shit. I don’t like to see you cry, but I know there’s nothing I can do to fix that right now.” He took me into his arms, pulling me to my bed. We sat together there, but as much as I’d always wanted him. It wasn’t right.

“Alex, can you please leave?” I asked no matter how hard it was to do.

“What?”

“I need you to leave. I can talk to Mark to help me take care of the arrangements for my family.”

“Who the fuck is Mark?” he roared angrily.

“Oh, you probably don’t remember him, but he’s my friend’s brother.”

“Wait, the one that picked you up that night we went to the game?” he asked. I couldn’t believe he remembered that.

“Yeah, that’s him.”

“You two are dating? You’re just eighteen, today.”

“It doesn’t matter right now. I lost my entire family. I need him.”

“The fuck, you do.” Alex flipped me really fast onto my back, and his mouth came down roughly onto mine. I moaned into his mouth. His lips were a mix of strong and soft. I felt a sense of euphoria in this kiss, but it wasn’t right. I pushed him away once I realized he wanted another woman.

I caught my breath. “Don’t, Alex.”

~~~~~

“I’m sorry, Cali. I didn’t know that I was going to do that.” She just lost her family. I needed to control my need to mark my damn territory.

“Well, you shouldn’t have.”

“It was wrong, but if your family was still here it would have been perfect.” It would have been. They would have teased me and planned the wedding so Cali wouldn’t be walking down the aisle with a rounded belly

“What do you mean?”

“You’re eighteen this morning and legally mine for the taking. I’ve been waiting for two years to kiss those lips.”

She pushed at my chest again, trying to get out of my arms. If she thought that shit was going to happen, she was so unbelievably wrong. “Don’t lie to me. You have a fiancée.”

“Where did you get that from?” I had to know why she would have such a ridiculous idea in her head unless she somehow heard about me buying a diamond ring or a bad ass home for my wife.

“Rob told me that before they left.”

“Babe. Do you know why I was here last night?”

“To inform me about my family?”

“No. The police came up the driveway as I did. They told me.” I pulled her back to me. “I came to tell you that on your birthday, you were mine.”

“What? Then why would he say that?”

“Because he needed you to stay home so I could surprise you. As horrible as it is to say, I’m fucking grateful that he lied to you. It kept you here and safe.” I couldn’t even think about her being in the car with them. I wouldn’t survive.

“Oh my God. I kept on insisting I should go with them, even though I didn’t feel like it.” The tears started again, my poor beloved. Fuck, I wished they all stayed home instead. We would’ve had a big celebration.

“Cali, don’t cry. I’m sorry they’re not coming back, but I promise to do all I can to take away the pain.”

“Oh, Alex,” she cried before kissing me. I grabbed her hair, tugging her head closer to me.

“I love you, Cali,” I whispered into her ear.

“I’ve loved you since the first time you walked through our door.”

“We’ll get through this, Cali. I promise.”

~~~

I took her back to bed because the sun was barely up and we needed to get as much rest as possible. I wouldn’t fuck her until she was ready. We slept for a few hours then we were woken up by a noise. Her phone was on the side table and buzzed several times. My jealous heart wondered who was calling her. Had she had any boyfriends in the two years we were apart? Had she given up what belonged to me?

“Have you been dating anyone since I left?” I asked indifferently, hiding the fact that the answer meant everything to me.

“Yes.” Her admission sent my body on edge. It was unexpected and painful.

“What?”

“What’s the big deal? You left me and moved away to where there were tons of beautiful women.”

“I haven’t dated in years, damn it. Who is the guy? Or guys?”

“I’ve only had one boyfriend in the past two years.”

“You were supposed to wait for me,” I roared, fucking ticked off. I waited for her more than just two years. My entire life, I spent working hard and staying focused.

“Why? I thought I was gross to you,” she asked with a pant. Watching her breasts rise and fall rapidly as she breathed deeply. It was a curse and a blessing at the same time. My dick was so hard I couldn’t think about anything but claiming her, but at the same time, I was trying to do the right thing.

I was so enraged that I let my feelings out. “What’s gross was my fascination with you. I wanted you before it was even appropriate to want you. I hated myself for it. I left because I couldn’t take seeing and not claiming you. Then you went ahead and found someone else.” Angrily, I leaned over her, my hips pinning hers down. “Did he fuck you?” I would kill the little fucker.

She looked at me with fear in her eyes. I didn’t care because I wanted an answer. He’d be dickless if he did.

“Answer me, my Cali.”

“No. We hadn’t, yet.”

“Yet? There won’t be a yet. The only dick you get for the rest of your life will be mine. I’ll be in you any time your pussy feels needy. I’ll never give you a reason to want another man’s cock.”

“Alex,” she moaned. Her body moved under me, trying to ease her ache. Her hips pressed up against my erection, and I was doing everything I could to keep from fucking into my woman. This wasn’t the time to take her virtue. I wanted her to give me her pussy when she was sure and definitely not in jealousy. She deserved better than that.

I had an idea to help us both. “Blondie, do you know how to play with your pussy?” I knew she did. I remembered that day I walked in on her.

She nodded with a blush, remembering that day, too. Fuck. Her pale skinned pinked so brightly I wanted to touch her everywhere, but it would have to wait. I backed up and undid my pants. I took out my cock. It was hot, hard, and starting to cum. Her eyes trained to it, and her tongue slipped out of her mouth. Fuck me, she was looking like she wanted my cock in her mouth.

“Tuck that tongue back, babe. I’m not letting you do that today, Cali. Take off your panties.” She slid them down her thick legs and off her painted toes. I let out a deep growl when she parted her thighs, placing her heels on the edge of the bed. Her mound was glistening with her honey. The blonde curls were darkened, and I wanted to part those lips and lick up all that goodness that was there just for me.

“Touch yourself, babe. Touch my pussy and show me how you satisfy yourself. Show me how you touched yourself that day for me. You called out my name, didn’t you?” 

“Yes,” she whispered.

“Come on, babe. Let me see. I’ve thought about this for a very long time.”

She hesitated for a moment until she watched me grip my cock, trying to stem the flow. Her hand parted her folds, and she slipped a dainty finger along her slit. I heard a little purr come out of her mouth as she dipped her finger inside.

We moaned at the same time; our eyes never left each other as we played with our bodies. Cali grabbed her breast with her free hand sending me off. I came hard which set her off. My cum shot all over her mound, hand and her belly. Fuck, it was hotter than hell to watch my seed all over her. She took the little bit of cum that landed on her mound and ran her fingers through it and pressed her it into her pussy. I was stiff again.

“Little sweet, you messed up really good.” I growled before stuffing my semi back into my boxers.

“Why?” Her eyes looked sad.

I leaned down and kissed her lips. “I can’t wait to get you in my home and in my bed. My kid is going to growing in your body soon, very soon.”

“I still can’t see how I messed up,” she said with a smile.

“Because you’re stuck, babe. Stuck with me.”

“I guess I’ve messed up,” she said, unable to contain her smile. This was the first genuine smile I got in two years. I knew it was temporary, but it was good to see her not crying for a moment.