Aryn's Desire: A BOLD Security Novel (Finding Submission Book 1) (18 page)

He barks a laugh. “You see that, sitting in the corner?” He points to the opposite corner, and kneeling on the floor, facing the wall, is a boy, a scrawny one, opposite the one I’m talking to and a thrill runs through me. “That is mine,” Teddy declares and it’s made clear. Teddy is gay and while he’s taken Ash under his wing, there is no sexual attraction there. I smile.
 

“Well, okay then,” I say with a smile and Teddy grabs my shoulder. “Sometime tonight, if you would, give me your number. I’d like to get together with you to discuss your goals with Ash.”
 

Though I haven’t decided what it is that I want to do with Ashley, if anything, I hand Teddy my card.
 

He doesn’t take it. “We’re an anonymous club.”
 

I smile. “I know that. I’ve got nothing to hide and no one to hide it from. The closest person in my life just walked into the club with his sub.”
 

“Fair enough.” He takes my card and pockets it.
 

“I don’t live here. I live in Los Angeles,” I tell him.
 

He leans in a little closer. “I know,” he whispers. I give him a puzzled look. “I’m part of the approval committee.” He winks at me and sends me on my way.
 

I approach Ash, but seek confirmation from Teddy before kissing her on the cheek. “See you inside,” I whisper and her breath hitches and her cheeks turn a rosy pink. I smile to myself and walk past her into the club.
 

Tonight looks empty compared to last night. All the apparatuses are lit up and there are sessions already in progress, but the room is definitely less crowded. I find Dex and Derek, sans Cotah and Raine. “You alright?” Dex asks me.
 

“Yup, I’m good. Ash is Teddy’s charge. She apparently told him about me.”
 

Derek turns toward us. “As she should. That’s the point of being a charge. There will be little that transpires between you and her that Teddy will not know. She wears his training collar and until he releases her, she will continue to report to him.”
 

“I’m beginning to gather all that.”
 

“What did he want?” Dex asks.
 

“Just that he’d like to have a chance to talk to me, discuss my intentions with her and he’d like me to discuss any private, alone time that I want with Ashley with him before doing so.”
 

“Again, as it should be,” Derek says with a smile. “Again, relationship dynamics are different, but when under training, the Top has the right to punish the bottom for disobeying orders or for doing something she shouldn’t. For example, Ash is probably free to do as she wishes outside of the walls of this club. That includes anyone that she meets, however Teddy likely wants to know where she is going, with whom and a check-in. He cannot stop her from sleeping with anyone, but he can punish her for sleeping with someone from the club.”
 

“Whoa.” I don’t know what else to say besides, “So had I not turned her down last night, she might have gotten in trouble with Teddy?”
 

Derek smiles reassuringly. “Teddy was here last night. I have no doubt that at some point in the night she’d already asked him, or she would have before you left.”
 

At some point tonight, I will ask her. Though I didn’t tell Teddy about that and he didn’t seem too surprised by what she’d whispered to him, he may have already known.
 

“Where are the girls?” I ask, changing the subject.
 

Both men smile and look at each other. “Getting ready,” Dex says with an excited grin on his face.
 

“We’re gonna be using these two stations. You are more than welcome to watch us, wander around the club, do whatever you want, except Ash.” He smirks.
 

I laugh and I roll my eyes as they set up their tables next to two St. Andrew’s Crosses. When they are done and ready, Dex grabs me. “One of the things I know Raine enjoyed most the first time we were here was when Derek brought her back to collect Cotah, giving her a chance to see what it’s like from beginning to end. Would you like to watch?”
 

I hesitate. I don’t want to be a part of something that is private and personal. “The girls know you’re coming in,” Derek adds, countering my conclusion. “You have to remember, this is about communication and I would never bring anyone into the room that Cotah isn’t aware of. She may be my slave, but she is also my most precious treasure and I would never violate her that way. I know that Dex wouldn’t either. While they both know when we are in the dungeon there is nothing we can do about the onlookers, in my private room here or at home, it’s within my control and I would never do anything to make Cotah feel unsafe.” He winks and heads for the dark entryway near the bar and Dex follows behind him. I can’t help my curiosity, so I follow them both down the hallway.
 

*~* CADEN *~*
 

Looks like I got here just in time. Just in time to see Aryn following Dex and Orion back to Orion’s private room. Just in time to catch a glimpse of Aryn’s gorgeous backside.
 

A shiver of anticipation and excitement slides up my spine as I walk deeper into the club.

TWENTY~SIX

** ARYN **
 

I DUTIFULLY follow Dex and Derek toward the room. When they get to the door, Derek unlocks it. I take some strange comfort in the fact that the door is locked and I can’t quite understand why that is. It’s a rather unassuming door, and there are several doors down the hallway beyond where we are. I follow the men inside and it’s not a huge room, but there is a good size bed along the right wall, a book shelf across from it and there are a couple of cuffs hanging from the ceiling. Beyond the bookshelf is a rack of various things, a flogger, and a couple of paddles. The room is big enough that you could play privately inside versus out in the dungeon.
 

The girls are on opposite sides of the room. Cotah is near the foot of the bed, along one wall, and Raine is near a doorway that looks like it leads to a bathroom and their Tops join them. Derek and Dex both thank their subs for being ready for them, caressing their heads and giving them praise for what they’ve done to get ready. My chest tightens and the girls blossom under the soft touches of their Tops and I realize that I’m envious. Not of Dex and Derek, no, my envy is directed at the girls.
 

“Are you ready, pet?” Derek asks Cotah and then Dex asks the same question to Raine.
 

Both the girls answer, “Yes, Master.”

“Then rise up and turn around,” Derek says to Cotah.
 

“Come here, pet. Turn around for me,” Dex says and Raine rises, turning to face Dex. Her eyes are downcast and Dex caresses her cheek. “Your wrists.” His voice has a soft command and Raine produces her wrists, palms up. Dex wraps first one, then the other, leather cuff around her wrists and secures them. The cuffs are black with a purple lining in them and there are two different sized closed loops on them.
 

I slowly pull my eyes away from Raine and turn my head to see that Derek has done the same with Cotah and is now securing ankle cuffs to her that have the same look as the ones around her wrist. When he’s done, I watch as he gently caresses his hand up her leg, giving her his silent appreciation for what she is giving him now. Her submission.
 

The girls are dressed only in underwear. Their breasts are exposed and Dex tugs on one of Raine’s nipples and her eyes slowly close.
 

He releases her nipples and I notice that she does not have any piercings in. It puzzles me, but not enough to dwell on it. My eyes wander down and she too has cuffs around her ankles. Dex grabs the ring on her black collar. The same one I’ve seen before. The one that she wore in their private playroom back in California. He leads her toward me and I sidestep the door, giving them room to move past me. I look at Cotah and Derek as he clips a D-clip to the rings on her cuffs, forcing her hands together and then he leads her from the room. They each have their own way of leading their women out. Cotah needs to be lead because of the blindfold she’s wearing.

“You good?” Derek whispers to me and I nod. He smiles and walks past me, leading Cotah from the room. I follow behind them, pulling the door shut. The door locks automatically and I follow them into the dungeon.
 

I cannot take my eyes off Cotah and while there is nothing sexual about my staring at her, I want to look away when that envious feeling returns. She has given herself over to Derek. Given him her trust by allowing him to lead her from the room. Lead her in a direction she cannot see. Allowing him to guide her to where they’ve set up in the dungeon.
 

The trust she has to have in him is awe-inspiring. Making me realize that a submissive truly puts her life in her Top’s hands.
 

It also makes me realize that I should be jealous of Derek and Dex, but I find myself envious of the girls, of the bottoms, the subs.

*~* CADEN *~*
 

Dex and his pet emerge from the hallway, followed shortly after by a blindfolded Cotah with Derek. Following right behind them is Aryn and my heart skips a beat when I see him. Something is bothering him and I’m not entirely sure what it is, but something about his posture tells me that he’s stewing on something. In the times that I’ve seen him until now, he’s carried himself like a Top. The little things he says and even some of the reactions he has are more submissive, but if you think about it long and hard, that submissive could be misunderstood easily. His submissive appearance could be nothing more than being confused about what’s going on around him or unsure of how he’s supposed to act. However, his posture has never been so broken. Aryn appears deflated, defeated even, and my cock hardens wondering if it’s not confusion, but really what it seems. Submission.
 

*~* ARYN *~*
 

I stand back from where Dex and Derek are attaching Cotah and Raine to the crosses and I now understand the cuffs. Derek removed the D-clip that was holding Cotah’s hands together, but he hasn’t removed the blindfold as he secures her wrists to the cross. After each click of the hooks he caresses Cotah’s back to comfort her. While I can’t hear his words, he is speaking to her. She shivers and he moves over to the other cuff.
 

My earlier jealousy rises higher, sending me into a spiral of confusion.
 

It’s like watching a car wreck, you don’t want to look away, you want to watch and be a part of what they have going on. But I’m no longer sure that I want to be on the Top anymore and that realization hits me hard.
 

A few minutes later, voices behind me prompt me to look and I find Ashley talking to another Top and our eyes meet briefly. I give her a smile and I go back to watching Dex and Derek with their girls.
 

Another minute or so later, Ashley places her hand on my back to get my attention.
 

“Hi,” she says so softly that I can barely hear her.
 

“Hi, you alright?”
 

She nods.
 

“Why do I think you’re not?”
 

Her face falls a little bit. “Teddy granted permission to Sir Alex to play with me tonight.”
 

“Oh, well then, you’d better get going,” I tell her, though I’m not sure I actually thought about my answer. Her eyes meet mine.
 

“Are you sure?” her eyebrows knit together.
 

I smile. “I’m in no position to tell you otherwise, Ash, and this might sound wrong, but I wouldn’t mind watching. If that’s okay with Sir Alex, of course.”

She blushes slightly. “I will ask him.”
 

I shake my head and smile. “I can handle that.”
 

She nods and hugs me slightly before taking off to wherever she needs to go. Am I bothered by her playing with someone else? Maybe a little, but I’m hardly in a position to tell her otherwise. She goes back to talk to the same person she was talking to before. He has a large bag over his shoulder and he gives her instructions. She nods and lowers her head in the same manner as Raine and Cotah have been doing and she turns toward the changing rooms that are opposite the private rooms. Sir Alex looks at me and I step over to him.
 

“Aryn, right?” he asks.
 

I nod. “Sir Alex, nice to meet you.”
 

“Thank you for letting me borrow her.” He tells me.
 

I smile. “She’s not mine to loan out. I believe that is on Teddy.”
 

“It is, but she tells me that you two have been talking.”
 

I nod. “We have, but it’s been barely twenty-four hours and-” I’m distracted when Teddy walks out of the hallway with what looks like a leash in his hand. Walking slowly behind him is the boy from the corner, his submissive. “She’s Teddy’s charge,” I finish without looking away from Teddy and his boy.
 

“Of course, but I am not one to step on anyone’s toes,” Alex tells me. “Ash and I have played before.”
 

I still can’t pull my eyes away from Teddy as he approaches a spanking bench. “Oh, yeah, no, we’re cool.” I finally pull my eyes away as Teddy secures his boy’s leash to the spanking bench. Alex turns toward where I’m looking.
 

“Teddy and Will are quite the sight to watch,” he says with a chuckle.
 

“Yeah, I’ve just never, never mind. Do you mind if I watch you with Ash?” I ask him and he turns back to me.
 

“Not at all. We will be over there.” He indicates one of the other groups of crosses.”
 

“Awesome, thanks, Sir Alex.”
 

Alex smiles at me and nods as he heads toward the cross he wants to use. My gaze wanders back to Teddy and Will. Teddy has secured Will’s legs to the bench and the sight has me enraptured. Will is bent over, and completely naked. I shiver as I watch them.