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Ashes and Memories
Deborah Cox
(2012)
Reece McBride left the south after the war with nothing but
ashes and memories. He's built himself a new world around the credo, "Never care
deeply about anything you can't bear to lose it." He didn't reckon on a lady
journalist digging into his affairs or his past. Emma Parker is a journalist,
and a journalist fights for the truth. And no sweet talking scoundrel is going
to make her compromise her principles. Emma's determined quest for the salvation
of Reece's soul is matched only by Reece's painful struggle to be the man Emma
believes him to be. 
"... a powerful story of love and grief. It brings to
life the horrors that war veterans face, and particularly those veterans of the
civil war. The narrative was smooth and did much to move the story forward. The
dialogue, while not prolific, was well done and believable. The characters were
well drawn and sympathetic. A must-read for fans of historical western romance.
While the Civil War is a part of the internal conflict both protagonists face,
it is in an historical perspective. I recommend Unforgiven for a fast, well-told
story of love and redemption."--Romance Communications
"... an intense
and thoroughly enjoyable read ... well-plotted and well written. Reece and Emma
are well-matched. The minor characters are well-developed and add to the story.
The conflict between Reece and Emma meshes with the external plot and brings the
story to a conclusion that satisfies and is absolutely right. 5 Stars and
Reviewers Choice!"--Scribes World Reviews

 

 

 

Ashes and Memories

 

by

 

Deborah Cox

 

 

 

 

“So it came to pass as he trudged from that place of blood and wrath his soul changed.”

Stephen Crane

Red Badge of Courage

 

 

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First Published: 1999
 

 

Kindle Edition, Copyright © 1999, 2012 Deborah C Minyard

All rights reserved.

No part of this e-book may be reproduced in any form other than that in which it was purchased and without the written permission of the author. This ebook is licensed for your personal enjoyment only. This ebook may not be re-sold or given away to other people. Thank you for respecting the hard work of this author.

 

 

 

 

 

Cover Art by Mallory Kane
 

Dakota Territory, 1878
 

 

PROLOGUE

 

The blood on the dead man's Confederate gray tunic had already dried.

Reece MacBride took a deep breath and focused again, but the body was still there. The wind had blown the sheet away, revealing a gray-haired man with a bullet hole in his temple. He had been dead for several hours. Already the fetid odor of death permeated the air, reminding him of the sickly stench of a battlefield after the fighting.

Gazing toward the sky, Reece forced another breath past the lump in his throat and tried to ignore the hard knot that settled in his gut at the all too familiar sight of a dead Confederate soldier, a sight he had not seen in more than thirteen years. His breath rasping in his chest, he fumbled in his vest pocket for the silver dollar he always kept there. The past receded as he held the coin before his eyes and read the date inscribed there.

1866 -- the war was over.

His gaze returned to the body on the ground before him. This was 1878, for God's sake. What kind of man would carry his uniform with him for all these years, let alone put it on to die?

Reece remembered the day he had first put on his own uniform and left his home and family. And he remembered the day he’d come home. How different those two days had been. The former had been a day of pride and enthusiasm, and the latter…. Well, by then there was as little left of the idealistic young man who had marched into battle with a confidence born of inexperience as there was of that uniform.

By then he had seen so much death and suffering he'd become inured to it. By then he had endured the hell of imprisonment and the bitter taste of defeat.

That day, he’d made a vow. From that moment, he had ordered his entire life so that he would never have to feel that kind of hopelessness again.

“Damn.”

He realized he'd cursed aloud when the young woman who struggled to dig the stranger's grave whirled around to face him, holding a shovel before her as if it were a weapon. At first glimpse of that damned uniform, he'd forgotten she was there, although she was the reason he had stopped in the first place. And he cursed his southern upbringing that would not allow him to pass a stranded woman on the road and not offer assistance. If he had not stopped, he wouldn't have witnessed this macabre sight, wouldn't be feeling the old pain.

“What happened here?” he asked, though the answer was apparent. A bullet through the head at point blank range was hard to misinterpret. A better question would have been why, but he didn't want to become that involved.

In fact, what he wanted more than anything right now was to put as much distance as possible between himself and this scene that threatened to rouse every nightmare he'd been trying for thirteen years to outru--n.

“My father,” she said, her voice barely a whisper. Dirt covered her face and matted her auburn hair, and the dark circles under her eyes attested to her fatigue. “He... he shot himself ac... accidentally,” she told him, her voice thick with unshed tears.

Deciding not to comment on her obvious lie, Reece dismounted, conscious of the girl's terrified eyes following his every movement. “I'm not going to hurt you,” he assured her.

Her gaze settled on the gun at his hip, and she tightened her grip on the shovel. The only sound in the tense quiet came from his spurs as he walked toward her slowly, his hands raised. They were never going to get anywhere if she didn't trust him to some degree.

“Perhaps we could find a less isolated site for the grave,” he suggested. There couldn't be a more desolate place in all of the territory than this stretch of wilderness on the edge of the badlands.

“No!”

The girl raised the shovel in a defensive motion, and Reece paused. “All right,” he said in his most soothing voice.

“This is the place he...." Her words started out strong and vehement, but she stopped in mid-sentence. “He would have liked it here,” she whispered

Tenderness stirred inside him, and he crushed it immediately before it could take hold of him. He felt as if he were mired in quicksand. The emotions she evoked were as disturbing as the memories roused by the man who lay dead between them, a soldier who had survived the war but not the demons he'd brought home with him.

Reece watched the girl turn back toward the grave and drive the shovel into the earth with all her might. She must have been digging for hours, yet she had barely broken ground.

He sighed in resignation. He had timed his journey perfectly. With a good six hours of daylight left, he should reach Providence well before sunset. Unless, of course, he was detained by a drastic turn of fortune. Two hours, he thought. It would take him at least two hours of back-breaking work to dig a grave deep enough to bury a man. Then he would have to drive her wagon for her. That would add at least another hour to the trip.

“Well then at least allow me to assist you with that,” he said, all of his plans slipping away like gold through a fool's fingers.

He had been on the road for three days, what difference would a couple more hours make one way or the other?

“The last man who offered his help stole a hundred dollars and my father's Henry rifle,” she informed him.

Reece smiled at her cynicism. She seemed so fragile, so small-boned and delicate, yet she vibrated with inner strength. Like Sarah, he thought with a stab of grief. Silk and satin on the outside, steel on the inside. He had never loved another woman after Sarah, and he never would. Even if he were still capable of love, he would never allow it. The cost was too dear.

Sarah Hammond MacBride never would have worn pants. She was too much of a lady. But this girl's masculine clothes did nothing to hide her femininity. If anything they enhanced it, and Reece found himself fighting yet another battle, this one against the attraction awakening inside him.

“I assure you --”

“I can manage,” she cut in, blowing an errant lock of red hair out of her eyes.

“I can see that.”

She jerked around, opening her mouth as if to retort. But whatever she had meant to say died unspoken. Her wary blue eyes watched him as he shrugged out of his coat and straightened the brocade vest underneath.

“Please permit me to introduce myself,” he said, draping his coat over his arm and holding his hand out to her, his formal demeanor effectively keeping the distance between them wide. “I am Reece MacBride, at your service.”

Reluctantly she reached out to him, her small, cold hand trembling in his palm. The impact of her gaze stunned him. The impression flashed through his mind that she could see into the dark, empty place inside him, that place he had not visited in a very long time. She had somehow managed to pry open a window to his soul, and he forced it shut, regaining control with an effort.

“Emma,” she said in a breathless whisper, jerking her hand away and taking a step back. “Emma Parker.”

Reece was prepared this time. He steeled himself against her vulnerability and against whatever insight she might have glimpsed in that fraction of a second when he’d let down his guard, hiding his momentary discomfort behind the mask of charm that had become his trademark and his protection.

“Well, Miss Parker, it is already past noon." He untied his cravat as he gazed up at the sky, then removed his hat and dropped the necktie into the hat. “It can get unbearably warm here. How long have you been digging?”

Reece held out his hand and traded his coat and hat for the shovel. He was well aware of his authoritative air that compelled others to look to him for direction. It was what made him an effective leader. At different times in his thirty-six years, he had considered that gift a blessing and a curse.

He rolled up his shirt sleeves, then bent to the task of digging her father's grave. In his peripheral vision he watched her move stealthily toward something on the ground. A gun belt. He stopped digging and leaned insolently on the shovel, waiting until she had strapped the weapon on before speaking.

“That's a mighty fine weapon,” he commented with an amused smile.

She looked up with a gasp, clutching her chest as if to still the pounding of her heart. Her reaction confirmed two things. She was still as nervous as a newborn foal, and she had never used a gun to defend herself. If she had, she’d have instinctively gone for it.

“Do you know how to use it?" He needed to let her know that the weapon gave her no advantage. He was still in control. But she also needed to understand that he meant her no harm.

“Well enough,” Miss Parker replied with a lift of her chin. “My father taught me...." Her voice trailed off, and her gaze drifted toward the body on the ground. She didn't say another word, just turned on her heel and picked up a bedroll.

Reece kept a covert eye on her as she broke camp. Her straight, rigid back never relaxed. Even when she bent to retrieve cooking implements and blankets from the ground, she maintained a rigid stance. If he hadn't felt the softness of her hand earlier and recognized the raw pain in her eyes, he would swear she was made of ice.

Then she walked to the edge of the camp and bent over to retrieve something, and Reece forgot everything except the way those breeches of hers stretched taut across her firm, round backside. He expelled a deep breath in an effort to relieve the tension that shuddered through him. It didn't work of course, but he told himself he felt better for the effort. She straightened and turned toward him, and he looked away quickly, driving the shovel into the ground with renewed vigor.

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