Be My Everything (17 page)

“Yeah, I kinda figured that.” Colin smiled as he headed down
the stairs. “I’ll let myself out.”

Luke ran his fingers through his hair and wondered how he
let this happen. He was always so focused and knew exactly what he wanted out
of his submissive. His feelings were different with Katherine, but he didn’t
want to own them. It was easier to carry on the way they had been. But tonight
changed the dynamics of their relationship, and he didn’t know if he could
continue as her Dom any longer.

But how was he going to tell her?

* * * *

Katherine quickly ran from the playroom and straight to her
bedroom. She wanted to shower and dress before Luke came looking for her. She
only had fifteen minutes, but stopped to drink the bottle of water he’d left
because that was a direct order, and she wouldn’t dare disobey him. He always
made sure she was hydrated after a rigorous evening of play.

As she stepped into the shower and let the hot water hit her
worked over body, she tried to quiet her mind. She had so many emotions running
through her head. She submitted to Colin because it was what her Master had
asked her to do. She wanted to please him and hoped she had. Katherine was
extremely aroused over the fact that her Master had commanded her to please
another man. It was a freeing experience, and she was happy she’d had the
opportunity to try it. That was just another example of Luke helping her push
her limits.

As much as her body had taken to Colin, playing with him
wasn’t something she wanted to do again. She’d done it for Luke, but hoped he
wouldn’t ask that of her again. It wasn’t as if it was unpleasant, but it was
awkward and unsettling to have Luke watch as another man touched her. It wasn’t
natural, but then again, was anything about their relationship normal or
natural?

She finished her shower and put on the black nightgown Luke
had left for her. Of course, he’d left no panties. She rolled her eyes. He
hated panties.

She rushed down the hall to his bedroom with one minute to
spare, so she got on her knees and tried to clear her head. He would be there
in a few seconds, and he’d want to discuss what had happened with Colin
tonight. He’d expect her to be focused and honest. She would be
straightforward. She would tell him that playing with another Dom was now a
hard limit for her. She didn’t want anyone other than him to touch her.

Her heart rate increased when she heard him approaching. She
quickly averted her eyes to the floor when he turned the handle on the door. He
slowly entered the room and extended his hand. She was confused because usually
when he came in, she remained on her knees until he gave further direction. She
took his hand and allowed him to lead her to his bed. He motioned for her to
sit, so she did as he instructed, but she wasn’t prepared for what he did next.
He dropped to his knees and fingered her ankle bracelet. The one he had placed
there six months ago to represent her collar.

His face looked so conflicted and Katherine wasn’t sure what
he was thinking. He was such a hard man to read anyway, but now he gave her no
indication as to what was going on in his head. She gasped when he unclasped
the anklet and slipped it into his pocket. She had done everything he had asked
tonight, so why would he un-collar her?

There were times in her journey when she was unsure of what
her Master wanted, but she always figured it out, usually with his help. Tonight,
she had no idea what he wanted from her.

He had removed her collar. What kind of game was he playing?

Was this a scene? Some sort of role play? She had no clue.

As she looked into his eyes, she saw something there she’d
never experienced with him before.

Uncertainty.

Admitting the truth…

Luke never expected to put that collar on Katherine six
months ago. When she first came to him she had been clumsy, unsure, and afraid.
She had no idea why she wanted to enter this lifestyle, but she was so damn
determined he couldn’t turn her away. The only thing he was certain of when he
met her was that she was indeed a submissive. He just didn’t know if she could
be
his
submissive.

He continued to stare at her, trying to find the right
words, but nothing sounded right in his head. He wanted to tell her he hated
seeing her with Colin. It made his blood boil and his insides hurt. He had
never wanted another man to touch her. That was the whole reason he’d collared
her so quickly in the first place.

She finally broke the painful silence.

“Why, Master?” she asked. “Why would you do this to me?
After all I’ve done for you?”

He saw the tears forming in her eyes.

“Why are you crying?” he asked because he wasn’t sure what
the problem was.

“You took my collar. I thought I did what you wanted
tonight.”

“You did.” He was such an idiot. He should have realized
that removing her collar would cause alarm “And you have no idea how much that
means to me.” He joined her on the bed and gently brushed away her tears with his
thumb. “I know it wasn’t easy to submit to someone other than me.”

“Then why?” she asked, and he knew she was referring to the
collar.

“Because I want to talk to you, but not as your Master,” he
said, and again he saw the uncertainty spread across her face. “I need to know
how you feel, and in this situation, I think you’ll be more honest with me if
I’m just Luke and you’re Kat.”

“I’ve never used your name before. Well, not out loud.” She
looked down at the floor.

“Maybe that should change.” He tilted her chin up so that
she had to look into his eyes. He saw nothing but confusion staring back at him
and it was his fault. He needed to find a way to change that.

“I don’t understand what you’re trying to tell me.”

“Kat,” he said as he took her hand.

“
Kat?
” she whispered.

“Seeing you tonight with Colin helped to confirm some things
for me.” There was no going back, he had to be honest.

“What things?” she asked in a soft, shaky voice.

“I definitely didn’t like sharing you,” he admitted. “It
bothered me more than I thought it would.”

“So, we won’t do it again. I don’t want to be with anyone
else.”

Luke could hear the panic in her voice. He could see it in
her beautiful brown eyes.

“Hey, I need you to relax and hear what I’m saying.” He
gently stroked her cheek.

She nodded.

“This has never happened to me before. I’ve never developed
feelings for one of my subs. I mean, I’ve always cared about them and I was
extremely fond of several, but with you…” he trailed off.

“What do you want from me?” she whispered.

* * * *

Katherine thought this was absurd. She didn’t know whether
she should start screaming at Luke for taking her collar off after she had
spent the evening with Colin, at his request, or if she should get up and
leave. The second thought scared her to death. If she left him, he’d never come
after her, because it just wasn’t who he was.

He was a proud, confident man and he could have his pick of
subs. She knew how she felt about him and maybe it was finally time for her to
put herself out there. All bets were off, no more stupid rules. He had taken
her collar off, so didn’t that mean she could speak freely?

Katherine couldn’t take it anymore. The tears were stinging
her eyes and now she had this huge lump in her throat. She had given this man
six months of her life. She loved him with everything she had. He hadn’t asked
for her love, but sometimes people had no control over who they fell for. She
had proven herself over and over again. Tonight was just another test, another
way for her to submit, so she didn’t understand why he was doing this to her.

It was all so overwhelming. She was in overdrive. She’d been
anticipating and stressing over the encounter with Colin all week. And then she
felt relief when it was over and Luke seemed pleased, but now she didn’t know
what was happening.

He tucked the hair behind her ear and leaned in to brush his
lips against her. “You know what,” he whispered. “Just do what feels right.”

“Luke.” She closed her eyes and started to cry.

He kissed her, crushing his mouth against hers, possessively.

She pressed her hands against his chest and pushed him away.
She took a much needed breath and then looked at him. She didn’t understand
what he wanted. She felt like the scared girl who’d entered his life six months
ago. The one who had no idea what she was doing in his house much less his
playroom. She remembered how even he wasn’t certain about her becoming his sub,
but as the months progressed, so did she.

“Luke,” she whispered again because she liked saying it. “I
don’t know what’s going on. You have to tell me.”

He gently kissed her.

“Kat,” he mumbled against her mouth. “I’ve fallen in love
with you.”

Katherine sat there, stunned by his words. Of course, she
had been in love with him for quite some time. And she had dreams and fantasies
about him returning the feelings, but never expected him to actually
reciprocate.

He was a Dom, her Dom. He’d made it clear that they weren’t
lovers and never could be. He had his own set of rules he followed. He was here
to bring her pleasure and she was here to serve him. That was their purpose.
She let things progress in her own mind, but him? He was too serious in his
dominant position to allow this to happen.
Wasn’t he?

“Kat?” he called, pulling her from her rambling thoughts.
“Did you hear what I said?”

Hear what he said? She had been waiting months for him to
tell her he had some sort of feelings for her. She kept trusting him and hoping
he’d see what they meant to one another.

Katherine pressed her lips against Luke’s and, for the first
time in their relationship, she took control. She let her hands trail up his
still naked chest and over his shoulders, before wrapping her arms around his
neck. Luke didn’t stop her. She was eager and full of energy as she pushed
herself into his now erect cock. This time, he had to pull away to breathe.

“I’ve loved you from the beginning,” she said. “I knew the
first time I looked into your eyes.”

“And that’s exactly why I tried to turn you away,” he
admitted. “I didn’t want you to fall in love with me, because I didn’t think I
could ever reciprocate.”

“But you do.”

“I knew with you there was a strong possibility I could,” he
said. “I knew you were special.”

She smiled at him. “Now what?”

“That’s been my problem all along,” he told her. “I don’t
know how to proceed. I’m a flawed man, Kat. I don’t know if I’m capable of
giving you the life you deserve.”

He was always so confident and sure of everything. She had
always felt safe and secure with him, even when he was punishing her or pushing
her to work harder. But now he didn’t seem to be her Master at all. The man
standing before her was just that—a man. For the first time, Katherine was
seeing Luke. He was remarkable.

“What do you mean?”

“I still have to dominate you,” he said. “That’s who I am. I
have no idea how this is going to work, but I know it has to. I have to have
you in my life, in my bed, and in my playroom.”

“I want to be in all of those places, but most importantly,
in your heart.”

“I think you’ve always been there, sugar,” he said as he
kissed her lips. “We can figure out the rest as we go.”

She ran her fingers through his hair. “Luke.”

“What?” He laughed.

“I like calling you that,” she admitted.

“I like hearing it.” He ran his finger along her bottom lip.
“Kat, I like when you touch me, too. I’ve just been afraid.”

He looked so vulnerable, and she realized she’d never seen
this side of him before.

“Will you do something for me?”

“Anything,” he said as he pulled her into his lap.

“Will you make love to me?” she asked. “As Kat, the woman
you’re in love with?”

His eyes quickly flashed to hers. “I’ve wanted to make love
to you for weeks now. I’ve been trying to show you.”

“Is that why you’ve been allowing me to sleep here in your
bed after we’re together?”

“Yes,” he admitted. “I can’t stand when you’re down the hall.”

“Me either.” She smiled. “It doesn’t feel right.”

She leaned down and kissed the center of his chest, working
her way down his stomach. Her pace was excruciatingly slow, but it only
heightened the experience. She undid his pants and slid them over his hips,
exposing the lower half of his body. He kicked them off while she took his
erection in her hand, swirling her tongue around the tip, the way she knew he
liked. She moved her tongue up and down the back of his shaft. She was teasing
him.

“My little vixen,” he whispered as he gazed at her through
lust filled eyes.

She looked up with him and smirked because she knew she was
driving him wild. She liked having this kind of power every once in a while.

“Kat…” He grabbed her hair in his hands and gently pulled
her head back. “I won’t be able to last if you keep that up.” She shot him a
wicked grin, realizing she was in control of this session. She climbed back up
his body and lifted her nightgown. She was completely bare underneath, just the
way he liked her.

He placed his hands on either side of her hips and lowered
her onto his dick. She moaned as she slid her hot, throbbing heat around his
shaft and thrust downward, as he met each with a hard upward thrust. She ran
her hands through her hair, and then slowly moved them down over her own body.
She was so caught up in her own ecstasy. She was so comfortable with him and
reveled in the way her body felt when they were together. Only he was capable
of making her feel this way. He was all she’d ever need.

She noticed he couldn’t take his eyes off her as she slipped
her hands under her gown and began touching her breasts.