Authors: Kwame Alexander
you fail the math test
you're scared to talk to April
and you're trapped
in a cage of misery
with freedom
nowhere in sight.
If not for soccer,
what'd be the point?
You okay, bro?
Yeah, I'm fine.
It's okay to cry if you want. I heard it kills bacteria.
Nobody's crying.
Are they coming?
I think
she
is.
DUDE, parents suck.
Yep.
They tell you why?
Something about how they still love each other but they don't like each other.
That sounds like my parents, except they don't love each other either.
Yeah, well, they're screwing up my life.
So, who are you gonna live with?
She's moving to Kentucky.
What's in Kentucky?
The Horse.
So, what are you gonna do?
She says I'll be better off, for now, living with my Dad.
She's probably right. Do they even have soccer in Kentucky?
Dude, me and him alone is a nightmare.
But you can't leave in the middle of soccer season.
It's not like she even asked me to come with her.
Wait, if your mom's moving, who's gonna take us to school?
I don't wanna talk about it.
Bro, don't tell me we gotta take the city bus. Why can't your dad take us?
Why can't your mom?
You know she works early mornings. Plus her car is orange. I'm not going out like that.
Then we better get bus passes.
Sorry your parents are splitting up, bro, but this really sucks.
I'm not trippin'. There's Coach, let's go.
is like
never hitting pause
on your favorite ninety-minute movie
but futsal is like
fast forward
for forty
supercharged minutes.
Game one
zips by
like a pronghorn antelope,
fast and furious,
and just when we wind
the corner to a record
thirteen-goal shutout
our goalie
goes down
with a,
get this,
broken pinkie
toe.
is tied
with twenty-nine seconds left.
Coby passes
the ball
to you.
Their best player attacks,
steals the ball,
passes it down court
to an open man,
who shoots it
just left of our
sub
goalie,
who normally plays midfielder:
Buzzer.
Beater.
Coach says
we must win
our final game
to advance
to the next round
of the tournament.
We say,
No problem.
When our opponents
run out on the hardwood
with their ponytails
and matching pink shirts and socks
carrying gym bags
(probably filled with glittered smartphones)
We say,
No problem.
The girls
let down
their ponytails,
high-five
their coach,
then walk over
to shake
our sweaty palms
after beating us
five to three.
How's your dinner?
It's okay.
It's your favorite.
Thanks.
I heard from Ms. Hardwick. She said you fell asleep in class. Twice.
. . .
I know this is tough, Nicky, but you can't slack off.
I wasn't asleep. I was daydreaming.
Maybe soccer is taking too much of your time.
It's not.
. . .
. . .
I saw some of your teammates crying after the game.
They weren't even really crying. It was just mewling.
*
Well, they shoulda been bawling, 'cause those girls beat y'all like rented mules.
. . .
They whooped y'all bad,
she says, laughing and tickling.
Stop, Mom, it's not funny.
You're right, that beatdown was not funny at all.
They're ranked number one in the state. Nobody told us that.
Nobody should have to tell you to play hard. Your team just gave up, Nicky.
You mean like you and Dad . . . just gave up?
I'm sending out a search team
to look for your smile, 'cause it's
been missing. Hugs, April F.
Think she likes me?
Maybe we'll get to meet the Cowboys.
You think she likes Dean?
What's your hotel?
She said she likes my smile.
My cousin played in the Dallas Cup.
Your cousin Elvis, who drives an ice cream truck?
He played Major League Soccer for a year, though.
What should I do about April?
For starters, talk to her, dude. You've never even said hello.
I have said hello. Twice.
Enough yapping, it's getting dark. Let's go play soccer.
Can't. Gotta get home.
Why?
My mom's leaving after dinner.
The last supper.
Mm-hmm. Later.
Good luck.
I'm sorry, honey.
I don't understand. Everything was going great. Y'all didn't give me any heads up.
This doesn't change how much we still love you.
Mm-hmm.
How about a game of Ping-Pong?
Nah.
Look, Nicky, this is tough, I know, but we'll get through this.
How?
I'll be back in two weeks, and your father and I will figure some things out, okay?
Sure.
No cereal for dinner, and no skipping Etiquette.
Sure.
There are bus passes in the kitchen drawer.
Mm-hmm.
One-word answers now, that's all your mother gets?
Are we done yet? I have some homework to finish.
I'm gonna miss you, honey.
What about Dad? Aren't you gonna say goodbye to him?
We already said our goodbyes, Nicky. Now come give me a big hug.
. . .
From your window
you watch
love
and happiness
sink
like twins
in quicksand
when
she drives
away,
leaving you
suffocating
in sleeplessness,
out of breath
and hope.
Exhausted.
Trapped.
F
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In the middle
of Ms. Hardwick's
grammar lesson
on when to use
lay
and when to use
lie,
you lay your head
on the desk
and doze off.
zzz
zzzzz
after class
you see
The Mac
grinning
like he's just won
the lottery,
in a neon green T-shirt
that says:
Similes are like metaphors .Â
.
 .
Check it out,
he says, handing
you a sheet
of paper with,
get this,
most of the words
blacked out.
You inspired me,
he says.
Pretty cool, huh?
Uh, I guess.
Ms. Hardwick showed me your assignment. Magnificent!
It wasn't all that. I just didn't feel like writing three paragraphs on why the book is ragabash.
*
Didn't like it, huh? You're missing out.
Huckleberry Finn
is a masterpiece, my friend.
More like a disaster piece. It was way too slow.
Hmm, you want a faster piece? I've got somethingâ
Uh, I'm good, Mr. Mac.
I'm going to hook you up, Nick.
How about you hook me up with that dragonfly box?
You're still sweating this little old box?
he asks, holding it in his hand.
Why won't you tell us what's inside, Mr. Mac?
Mystery is good for the soul.
I won't tell anybody.
Maybe,
he says, then nudges you out the library, before
you realize he's put a book in your hands.
ARGGH!
Mustard mac-and-cheese
smells
as bad
as it sounds,
and tastes
even worse.
How was school?
Fine.
Did you finish the
R
s?
. . .
He knows your pause means no.
The good colleges look for extraordinary, Nicholas. You need to know these words if you want to attend a good college, Nicholas.
College is not for, like, five years, Dad.
Placement tests. Application essays. It's all words, son. Know the words and you'll excel.
None of my friends have to memorize a thousand words. I'm not like you, Dad. Maybe I don't want to be extraordinary. Maybe I just want to be ordinary.
That's a load of
codswallop.
*
I give you the dictionary so you'll know the world better, son. So you'll BE better.
. . .
. . .
Your mother texted me today.
. . .
She misses you.
Do you miss her?
She's worried about you, Nicholas. Give her a call.
You didn't answer my question.
It's complicated. But we're both still here for you.
You're not BOTH here. That's the problem.
Let's just finish eating.
I'm done.
He tells you
to take the leftovers
for lunch.
Yeah, right.
After you trash them,
you clear the table
and make a
bacon, ham, and cheese
sandwich
for your
actual
lunch,
then head off to
not sleep
for the third night
in a row.
Coby says,
juggling the ball
with his thighs
before passing it.
For what? You ask,
trapping it
with your chest.
For when we beat y'all in two weeks.
Not gonna happen, dude.
You kick the ball back to him.
I'm starving. Is your mom cooking?
Nah, but we got leftovers.
Watch this, Nick,
he says,
then dribbles
to the center
of his backyard and
flame throws
a banana kick
so swift,
it basically splits
the air,
then sizzles
right into
his doghouse.
While he gets the grub
you check to see
if Dad has been