Breathe (21 page)

When I awoke a little while later, he was still with me. When he felt me stir he raised up, looking down at me, scrutinizing my face, looking for any signs of the pain. I raised my hand to his face.

“I am sorry. I never wanted you to have to deal with any of this.”

“And how the hell did you expect to get away with never telling me something that is such a huge part of your life?” Suddenly knowledge dawned and he pushed away quickly gently, even in his irritation with me he remembered to be gentle. “You still think this,” He gestured between him, “is temporary. When you agreed to be with me you thought you were agreeing to be one in a line of women. You agreed to let me do what I wanted to you, thinking that when I was bored I would just walk away.”

He turned, my heart clenched with pain at the look on his face before he did. I caught a glimpse of the hurt that my distrust in him and myself had caused. I sat up slowly and gingerly and tested the limits of what I could do. I pushed myself against the head of the lounge, watching as he passed between the bed, his hands clenched in his hair before they ran down his face in a gesture of defeat and he slumped on to the side of the bed. He looked at me and I saw the pain and hurt in his eyes.

“What can I do to convince you? I don’t want another woman for my trophy case. I want…NO I need a woman who wants to build a life with me, unconditional love, the chance to be happy and whole again.” I moved to stand, but was still too weak. I slid to my knees beside the lounge, he leaped to help me but I dragged him down to kneel in front of me. I grabbed his face with both of my hands. I looked into his eyes, tears silently spilling down my cheeks. He bent and kissed them away gently, grasping the back of my head with his hands.

“I have never had someone like you, so intense and so well, let’s face it gorgeous, want to be with me for even a minute let alone for a lifetime. It’s too big Daniel, just too big. I am nothing...” He stopped my words with a fierce hard kiss.

“You are anything but nothing. If you say that again I will take you over my knee and spank you black and blue.” He leaned back and I had never seen him as angry as he was in that moment, and I had seen him very angry a couple times. He forced me to look straight into his eyes and all the walls fell. I saw his desire for me, his longing. My breath caught when I also saw the deep love that he had kept hidden until now.

“Breathe.” He whispered this against my lips just as he captured them again in a kiss guaranteed to steal the air from my lungs and sizzle every nerve ending in my body. I moaned as he enfolded me in his strong arms, grabbing on to his biceps for an anchor. I was drowning in the whirlwind of chaos that his touch always sent through my body. He angled me so I was laying in his arms, he stood up slowly, I was amazed at his ability to lift me, let alone to do it slowly so as not to give me a head rush. He walked to the bed and laid me gently in the sheets. He pulled away from the kiss reluctantly and stood by the side of the bed looking down at me, breathing deeply until he was back under control. I loved that I could make him that wild with just a kiss, because he did the exact same thing to me.

“Tyler said you needed to drink the Coke and the water.”             

“Actually he said I needed to drink the pop and water.” I smirked up at him and he raised an eyebrow before shaking his head, smiling, and turning to the drinks Tyler had left on the table by the door. I maneuvered myself so I was leaning against the headboard with the pillows behind me. He walked up and handed me the pop first. Then came around and sat next to me, propping himself up with the pillows from his side, the ones we had kicked off the bed the night before. I grinned at the memory.

“What are you smiling about?”

“I was just remembering how those pillows ended up on the floor.”

“Ah yes, you didn’t want anything to hinder the pleasure of my cock filling you up.” He glanced over at me wickedly then burst out laughing when he saw my blush. He leaned over and kissed the tip of my nose. “Woman, that blush is going to kill me. It makes me want to come up with all kinds of naughty things to say to you.”

I glanced at him sideways. I still couldn’t believe this man, this amazingly sweet, caring, and gorgeous man was beside me. I took another drink of my pop, closing my eyes with the pleasure of feeling the caffeine flooding my system, joining with the medicine that Tyler had given to me already. “Like what?”

“Hmmm…” He looked thoughtful for a minute. “Did I ever tell you what I thought the first time I saw you?”

“At the restaurant?” He reached over and placed a chaste kiss that made me yearn for more, on my lips.

“No not at the restaurant. That wasn’t the first time I ever saw you.” I raised my eyebrows in question, having no words but wanting him to continue this story. Watching the sparkle in his eyes deepen into something else, something darker, a look that spoke to the darker places inside of me. I felt my pussy clench at the look. I took another drink of my pop, slowly crossing my legs nonchalantly but the knowing look in his eyes told me he wasn’t buying it. He moved closer, turned towards me, his arm coming to rest on my stomach, making me forget to breathe.

“Breathe grá.” He leaned in close and nuzzled my neck as he whispered the order into my ear. I took a shaky breath and another. He leaned back. “Finish your drinks and I will tell you.”

He chuckled as I hurriedly threw the rest of the pop back then reached for the water.

“The first time I saw you, you were standing by the fountain outside Joey’s Art Gallery. You were on the phone with someone waiting for Lily and Tyler to join you so you could go to the restaurant for dinner. You were wearing that delicious blue dress, your hair all around your shoulders the way I love it, you were breathtaking. I wanted to cross that street, lean you against that fountain, fling your skirts up and plunge my cock deep into your warm pussy until we were both breathless and screaming in ecstasy.” I gaped at him, the water completely forgotten next to the vivid and erotic picture he had just painted. I was pulling ragged breaths into my chest. He grinned wickedly, bent down pressing a quick and very unsatisfying kiss against my lips before climbing out of bed and heading to the shower.

“Finish that water than we will order something to eat once I have showered.” He tossed over his shoulder as if he hadn’t just shattered my entire focus and will to do anything but go after him and let him do whatever he wanted with his cock. I threw a pillow at his retreating back but it went wide by several feet and I heard him chuckle before he ducked into the bathroom. He left the door open and I heard the water turn on. I shook my head, pushing myself into more of a sitting position than a lounging one. I focused on pushing the remaining pain back into its manageable hole. Gritting my teeth and breathing deeply as I did. I finished the bottle of water then swung my legs to the edge of the bed. Working my way slowly to a standing position. Taking stock of the pain level then slowly working my way to taking steps. I was able to walk to the window and back, then to the desk for the room service menu before he came out of the shower. I turned with the menu in hand, groaning loudly when I saw that he only wore a towel wrapped loosely, low around his hips. He was beautiful, every inch of him was golden and firm. He didn’t have the bulging muscles I found unattractive, but his muscles were firm, his shoulders were broad, his arms were defined and I could attest to the strength. My mouth watered with the need to taste him, to lick the lingering water from his chest.

He leaned back against the bedroom doorjamb, crossing his amazing arms across his chest making me groan even louder which caused him to grin broadly. “Someone is feeling better.”

“If you want to get something ordered to eat and don’t want me to come over there and lick every inch of your body you better get dressed.” His grin widened even further and his eyes darkened to a deep sapphire.

“I would never deny you anything Kathryn, especially the desire to lick any part of my body.” I raised my eyebrows and started towards him, dropping the room service menu to the floor by the bed as I walked. I stood in front of him drinking in his beautiful face and perfect body. As I watched a trickle of water started moving from his shoulder towards his chest. I grinned up at him, and he caught his breath. I stepped closer never taking my eyes off him as I bent my head to his chest.

“Breathe.” I caught the trickle of water as it hit his nipple. He gasped then moaned as my tongue moved across his skin, when I reached the nipple I sucked it into my mouth causing him to grab the back of my head and moan again. I smiled against his skin as I licked the water from his chest on my way to the other nipple. His breath was definitely ragged now; his head was thrown back against the wall, his eyes closed with the pleasure. I made my way slowly down his chest, across his stomach the muscles clenching with every movement of my tongue. I was reveling in the control I had and the pleasure I was giving him. I had never felt this free, this uninhibited before in my life except with him. I slowly went to my knees in front of him, my hands moving to the knot at his waist. He raised his head, our eyes clashing. His were so full of heat and desire it called to that dark place inside of me, making my pussy pulse with the need I saw in them. I grinned up at him wickedly as I unknotted his towel and it fell to the floor between us. His cock was heavy, veined and definitely ready.

“Kathryn.” He groaned my name in such a way that any remaining nerves I had, any doubts about what I was about to do, vanished. I raised my eyes to his, and then bent to place the head of his gorgeous cock in my mouth, never taking my eyes off his face. His eyes darkened even more until they were almost black in color. I sucked him deep into my mouth, rolling my tongue around the tip. He groaned loudly, flinging his head back with the pleasure of it. He grabbed my hair, gently, pulling me closer. I grabbed the base of his cock, pumping up towards my mouth as I licked the tip, deep throating him as much as I could, I never did master the gag reflex but I made up with licking, and using my hands. He didn’t seem to notice any deficiencies. He was groaning my name, pulling me back and forth, slowly and gently still which amazed me because I knew he was close to losing it. I grabbed his ass in both my hands, pulling him towards me quickly, circling his thick cock with my lips, sucking him like I would a lollipop. I felt the come build up in him, I felt the movement of his hands as they moved in my hair growing more desperate.

“Baby I’m about to come.” I took one of my hands and pumped his cock to meet my lips, sucking harder and pulling him even deeper in my mouth. He fisted his hands in my hair and cried out my name again as he pumped my mouth full of his salty essence. I swallowed each spurt as it came, not letting a single drop escape my mouth. His hands gentled in my hair as he slowly came back from his orgasm. I fell back on my hands and looked up at him, a self-satisfied grin on my face.

“See I am not blushing now am I?”

He cocked an eyebrow at me. I got slowly back up then walked away with a sassy swing to my hips. He chuckled behind me.

“I think I may have underestimated you Ms. James.”

I tossed him a quick grin over my shoulder.

“Everyone usually does Mr. Kaehe.” I bent to pick up the room service menu I dropped on my way to him then squealed when I felt two hands grab my hips and bring me back flush against him. It was like I hadn’t just sucked him off seconds ago. He was long and thick again, and very ready to go. He bent to whisper in my ear.

“I want you right now, just like this. I want your ass in the air just for me.” He raised my skirt his hands reaching down pushing the crotch of my panties to the side. I was already wet and aching for him. He groaned. “Fuck you are already wet.”

“I am always wet when you are around.” He groaned again then suddenly I felt his cock sliding to the entrance of my aching pussy. He moved us both slightly so I was leaning against the bed, my top half lying down while the hips and legs were hanging off and at his mercy. He pulled off my panties, throwing them to the side. He ran his hands up my thighs spreading my legs as he went and moving to stand between them. He reached in the front, finding my clit and circling it with practiced skill making me cry out with my need.

“Tell me you want me as badly as I want you.” He groaned as he thrust two fingers into my wet and clinging pussy. “God you are so hot and tight.”

“I always want you Daniel, always. Please.” That got me what I wanted. He removed his fingers and thrust his thick cock inside of me, both of us crying out at the initial sensations.

“Fuck Kathryn. What are you doing to me?” He rested his head against my back, which was still covered with the soft cashmere sweater that he bought for me. He stood, grabbing my hips with his hands and started moving his hips in those soul-stirring movements that wrenched moans from my throat. He wrapped one arm around the front again to play with my clit, never stopping his forceful thrusts with his cock. I struggled towards a mind blowing orgasm, the ache started deep inside of me, pulling sensations from every part of my body and focusing it completely in that one area. His movements became faster and rougher and he raced towards the same precipice.

“Please Daniel, fuck me. Fuck me as hard and as fast as you can. I want to come, I want to feel you come inside of me.” My words sent him into a frenzy. Both hands returned to my hips, pulling me back forcefully for every thrust he made. The room was full with the sounds of our frantic lovemaking.

“Oh grá!! Fuck! Oh god, come with me!” The desperate need in his voice and his frantic grinding into the spot on the inside of my cunt sent me spinning. I tightened around him, making him cry out as my pussy milked him. I felt him coming deep inside of me, again and again, making the aftershocks of my own orgasm go on and on. He kept pumping his hips against mine until my greedy cunt had swallowed every ounce of his cum. He wrapped his arms around my waist, turning us both so we were lying side by side on our back on the bed. He brought me against his chest, one arm flung across his eyes as he tried to catch his breath. I snuggled against him, trying to catch my breath as well. He placed his fingers under my chin and brought my eyes up to his.