Broken (11 page)

(3 months after
Kelton was born)

“I miss you. Even thou you are right here, I miss you so much. I started this journal about a week after you didn’t wake up hoping that one day you would and this would be your lifeline back to me.  I have written in it to my best ability, my memory. I wrote how we met and of course it’s how I always felt. But it’s my point of view; it’s how we got here. I just hope you remember it, even thou I have been thoroughly informed that it’s possible you won’t even know my face. Apparently comas do that to people. Amnesia
pftt what if it happens and you never remember my face? I don’t worry about you not knowing Kelton Cruz he wasn’t here when you went to sleep, that’s what I call it now it’s too hard to say anything else. We didn’t even know about him! But he is you from head to toe. And if you don’t remember me somehow… I can make you love me again. You loved me when I wasn’t worth loving so I know I can win you over now. I am changed I am whole again; well I will be when you wake up. I am way ahead of myself here thou, its quiet possible you will wake up right where we left off. Which doesn’t make me feel much better. I was running from you because I thought you were embracing a life style I wanted to leave behind. And you were going into it head first with my worst nightmare. Well I always thought Corrine was my worst nightmare over the last few months I have fully realized that I am actually my own worst nightmare. I rarely leave home and Val thinks it’s because I am depressed. I’m not! I just want to be here when you wake, and you will I can feel it. I swear I see your fingers twitch and your eyelids flutter and sometimes I just know your heart rate picks up when I kiss you. They don’t believe me thou. But in the middle of the night all they see is me down on bended knee with my heart bleeding, it’s tearing me apart. I pray and beg with all my soul for you to come home to me. AS the moonlight pours down on my jagged soul I talk to you, I stare at the moon and tell you everything pretty much the same as I write here. I am raw, Kelton Cruz helps so much but when he is sleeping my world is so cold. I see his little chest rising just as I see yours. Ya’ll are so close but worlds apart. You are my crossroads Cam I can’t do this without you. I try to pretend I can but I can’t. I will stand in the middle and never choose a path that doesn’t lead me and Kelton to you. I would never be able to tell you goodbye. As long as you’re breathing I will be strong enough to fight for us both. But please please wake up soon, my body isn’t in sync with my heart and it’s slowly giving out on me. I need you so I can stay strong enough for the both of us.” -Waiting patiently & lovingly-Alexa

(
Keltons 8 ½ months old)

“OMG CAM get your ass up dude seriously
Kelton just walked. Like seriously just walked well I mean he is traveling and keeps pulling up on your iv stand. But still he is up and mobile DUDE WAKE UP SO I AINT LAUGHIN WITH MYSELF, lol ok I know you can’t but know I just whooped you across the arm screaming LOOK CAM hahaaa”  -SILLY,GIDDY, INLOVE W/ MY GUYS- Lexi

(
Keltons 1
st
birthday is a week away)

“I am still writing weekly or daily however I choose.
Like I promised. Anytime anything happens I tell you I can’t think of you not knowing. I am still being creepy taking my pictures which now line the walls of our fortress well our one roomed fortress. I have pics up of Kelton but only him outside this room.  However I have caught some awesome pics that could be thought as you two napping and I love them. We seem like the Brady bunch in them. You know PERFECT.  I want to sit here and write more I really do but I have some Scally Wag  and Pirate decorations to make, love you to the moon and back Honey.” -Still waiting while you get your rest-Lexi

(Cameron’s awake)

“Life is perfect. Kelton’s birthday was perfect so many people love him. I can see why he is full of joy and never cries. He is perfect. He is a miniature of daddy for sure. I couldn’t ask for more. The love of my life who never gave up on me, a child who already makes me proud, a family who stands by those they love. Val & Gus are amazing to be so strong and put up with all of us. They have taken the grandparent roles and they deserve it. They love Kelton more than themselves and that’s what it takes. He adores them also that much is obvious. I love knowing I was a part of it even when I wasn’t. Never being left or forgotten. Me and my little mini Thompson… it’s time I make my life one as well”-Devoted and glad to be home-Cameron

(20 Minutes later)

“SHE SAID YES; MAN I HOPE SHE STILL HAS HER WHIP!”

-About to be a happily married man-Cameron

A few years later:

I set and watch
Cruzzy run as fast as his little feet will take him, screaming and laughing so hard he tumbles. Cam reaches down and scoops him up “Come on little guy lets get you cleaned up. Tomorrow is a big day.” Making his way towards the patio where I set with my sketch pad laying in my lap he bends down and kisses me. “Lex can you help him get ready for tomorrow? I need to call Alex back and see if the cabinets came in for the new project.” I pick my things up to head inside “Yep sure can I just finished” turning the pad to show him my newest creation! “Oh wow Lex the boys will be the best looking team on the field” he pulls me in for hug and we get attacked “Daddy get off, that’s my mommy!” I ruffle his hair “Come on Cruz let’s get you ready, you have your first day of school tomorrow” he cuts out running and I turn back to Cam “Do you think they look ok? I’ve never designed baseball jerseys before.”  He just smiles that southern charm smile and leads me through the doors into our home. Ready for tomorrow and all it brings. Cam works with his hands now updating all the new properties we purchase to help low income families, while I still go into the office some but spend more time as a mom and work on clothes designs, and our Cruzzy is starting kindergarten and his first little league team. Mags helps Georgina run the office mostly these days and who knew she was so smart! I couldn’t ask for anything more in my life. We are a lot of things but one thing we aren’t is BROKEN!

The End!

About the Author

I live in Mississippi were I was born and raised except for a short time I spent wondering the beaches in Destin Florida. I have two wild and crazy kids who are the light in my life and married to a very patient and loving man named Rob. I work a full time job Monday – Friday, yes I know I am so domestic! I am half Mexican and half American in other words I AM BROWN! =] I enjoy singing extremely loud thou I can’t really, dancing around for hours which I do often, and watching my kids just be kids. I believe we should all have fun sometimes and then when we do something stupid WE SHOULD WRITE ABOUT IT!  If I could be anything when I grow up (yes when I grow up because I currently refuse to) I would want to be a full time superhero. Wear awesome boots, have long full flowing hair, ride on a magical horse, and save the world. Who wouldn’t want to do that? Happy Reading =] one day I just hope I can be a fulltime author… if you wish upon  star enough… a wish just might come true!

I just want to remind everyone that I do not have an actually paid editor. I have friends (avid readers) who proof read and I go back over the material about 3000 times before I load it. I know sometimes I miss a few things here and there and for that I am sorry. I get excited when I write and sometimes my fat fingers go faster than my cobwebbed brain. I do try very hard to make sure it’s as clean as possible for you. I could pay an editor in a nice office to do this for me but then the price would go up, I choose to do it myself so I can offer a cheap book to those who love to read. This is a dream of mine and I just want to write. I like to know my thoughts and words will outlive me. So please forgive me for the
typo’s or extra spaces you may run across.

Also in Broken If you are seeing the random underlines and spacing issues I know they are a pain. Please know I am working on fixing this. I have updated a lot since the first release already and it’s extremely hard to fix a formatting problem that you can’t see. I don’t have the issues on my p.c. but when it convert’s they are there. So I am slowly working on retyping this one.

Be watching for my next release Trailer park Princess.

Rory is a sweet girl who has a shit for brains mother and a sweet little brother.

Amandolette is her quirky bff  who causes chaos everywhere she goes due to zero brain to mouth filter.

Toby is the golden boy everyone loves including Rory.

Rome is the dark, sexy piece of meat next door that everyone wants a piece of but to scared to approach him due to his bad boy persona.

Ashley is the ice queen. Queen Plastic herself. Who hates Rory and all her thrift store
clothes.

Hell is what breaks loose when the love bug bites a few of them on the ass and shit hits the fan.  Everything is not what it seems. And some things are right under your nose!