CLAIMED BY A HIGHLANDER (THE DOUGLAS LEGACY Book 2) (26 page)

“I’ve had much to do.”

“I know, but the wedding ceremony is almost upon us.” Desperation rose in her throat. “Please, we must talk.”

“Of course.” He closed the door and stood before it with his hands clasped behind his back. Now he definitely looked as if he would rather leave.

“I’d feel more at ease if ye sat beside me," she said.

He heaved a sigh and came to sit next to her on the bed. He must sense she had something terrible to tell him.

Unless lightning struck her down, she was going to enter into a true marriage with Rory before the day was out. She needed to set things right with him.

She needed to tell him the truth.
Now.
The tension mounted between them as she debated how to tell him. Before she could find the right words, he spoke first.

“I’m sorry if ye regret consummating our marriage and committing yourself to me,” he said.

“I—”

“What’s done is done,” he said, holding his hand up. “But I hope the celebrations tonight will please ye.”

Sybil took his hand and pressed it against her heart. “I don’t regret what we did.”

“Just the consequences.” He pressed his lips together in a tight line.

“I confess that I wasn’t sure about it before,” she said. “I had dreaded marriage for so long that it was difficult for me to consider that it could be anything other than odious. But I’ve come to see that marriage to you will not be like that.”

“The prospect of being my wife is less than odious.” He tilted his head. “Ye flatter me, lass.”

“What I’m trying to say is that I do want to be your wife.”

“Ye mean that?” Rory examined her with piercing eyes, as if he were trying to see into her soul.

“No one could be more surprised than me,” she said. “But I want this marriage.”

“Don’t tell me that because ye know it’s what I want to hear,” he said. “The one thing I cannot abide is deceit.”

Sybil drew in a shaky breath and prayed he would forgive her.

“Above all, I need the truth from you.” He took her hands in his and looked deep into her eyes. “There are so few people I can trust. I need to know I can trust you.”

“The truth is that I never expected to have a husband who suited me, but it’s as if God made ye just for me,” she said. “I could not ask for a better man, and I find I want to be a good wife to you. I want to make ye happy.”

She tried to summon her courage to say the rest, to tell him that they had no marriage contract, that he had every right to turn his back on her.

Before she could choke out her painful confession, Rory swept her into his arms and gave her a long, deep kiss that made her head spin. One kiss led to another and another. She dug her fingers into his shoulders, needing him so much and afraid that he would never want her like this again after he knew the truth.

His hand was on her breast and she was tugging at his shirt when they were interrupted by a knock on the door.

“Whoever it is, send them away,” Rory said as he nuzzled her neck.

“M’lady,” a woman called through the door, “we’re here to help ye prepare for your wedding.”

So soon? Nay, she needed more time!

“I know you’re in there too, Rory.” This time, the voice was Grizel’s. “Let us in!”

“
Mo chroí
, we’ll have to save this for after the wedding celebration.” Warmth filled his eyes as he brushed a loose strand of hair behind her ear. “The women will have my hide if I interfere with their preparation of the bride.”

“Rory, I—” Sybil should send the women away and tell Rory her secrets, but the words died on her lips. It was too late. His clan was already gathered downstairs in the hall for the celebration.

Besides, what if he did not want to marry her once he found out the truth? What would she do then? She had no place to go, no refuge. And most of all, now that she had finally figured out that Rory was the one man she wanted, she could not bear to lose him.

Nay, she could not risk telling him now.

She would wait to reveal her secrets until Rory loved her enough to forgive her.

CHAPTER 27

After giving her one more kiss, Rory opened the door, and a flood of women poured through it, led by Grizel. Two of the women carried a wooden tub between them, while several others brought in buckets of steaming water.

“We’ve come to wash your feet,” Grizel announced.

“Wash my feet?” Sybil asked.

“’Tis a Highland wedding tradition,” Rory said.

While the women with buckets filled the tub, others surrounded Sybil, plunked her down on a stool, and began removing her shoes and wool stockings.

The women laughed and made bawdy remarks to Rory as they did the same with him.

“Have you lasses opened the whisky keg early?” he asked.

“Of course we have,” a plump woman with graying hair said. “’Tis no every day we have a chieftain’s wedding to celebrate.”

“Did ye bring a dram for the poor bride?” Sybil asked, stretching her arm out. “I’m begging ye, please.”

That set them all to laughing again. Though she had made a joke of it, she was desperate for a drink to calm her nerves. The women cheered when she leaned her head back and drained the cup.

“She drinks like a Highlander,” one of them said.

Sybil decided this was going well, but then she shrieked when two women grabbed her ankles and rubbed soot from the hearth all over her feet.

“I thought ye were going to
wash
them,” she said.

“The ash represents the past,” Grizel explained. “Now we wash it away so ye can start the marriage clean and new.”

Sybil liked the idea of that very much. Could it be so simple to wash away her past, to erase the dishonesty that had brought them to this day? She hoped so.

For her wedding day, she would let herself believe it. Someone poured her another dram, and she drank it to help push aside her worries.

The women rubbed ash on Rory’s feet as well. While the women scrubbed her and Rory’s feet in the tub, the younger ones giggled and whispered behind hands, and the older women openly speculated about the likely duration and frequency of what would occur between the bride and groom tonight in this bedchamber.

Sybil met Rory’s gaze, and the sounds of the women’s voices faded. Today they would begin their marriage and a new life together. Nothing that came before should matter.

When the women finished, Rory helped her to her feet. She stood in the tub with her skirts tucked up, facing Rory and surrounded by twenty chattering women.

As they stood staring into each other’s eyes, she felt overwhelmed by how she had gone from feeling despair to such hopefulness for the future. He cupped her neck and started to pull her in for a kiss.

“There will be time for that later, laird!” one of the older women shouted, and pulled on his arm. “Leave her to us now, or there will be no wedding today.”

“I entrust my bride to your good hands.” Rory bowed to the gathered women and winked at Sybil before he went out the door.

For the next hour, the women fussed over her, dabbing lavender scent on her wrists and throat, brushing her hair until it shone. They left the back of her hair loose and wove tiny braids on the sides that they pinned back.

They cooed as they worked. “Lucky lass, thick hair as black as midnight.” “Have ye ever seen eyes that shade of violet?” “Milky skin as smooth as a babe’s bottom.”

The door opened and all the women, including Sybil, sucked in their breath as a tall, bony woman came in carrying a dazzling blue gown.

“’Tis blue for luck, of course. The color will be lovely with your eyes,” the woman said. “The laird asked me to alter it for ye. This is the gown his mother was wed in.”

“Ach, I remember that day well,” Grizel said, wiping a tear. “May you have a marriage as happy as hers.”

“Oh, thank you!” Sybil said. “I could not wish for a lovelier wedding gown.”

“The laird’s mother was a head taller,” the woman who brought it in said. “I did my best, but let’s see how it fits.”

Sybil lifted her arms, and the seamstress dropped the voluminous skirt over her head. A collective sigh went through the women as the silk slid over her skin and fell into place.

The seamstress tugged the laces on the bodice tight, rested her hands on her hips, and leaned back to examine Sybil. “I did a fine job, if I do say so myself. A good thing, too, for the blue color would never outweigh the bad luck of a wedding gown that doesn’t fit.”

“I remember the laird’s mother in that gown,” one of the older women said. “Ach, she was a beauty, tall and fair with red-gold hair. Our chieftain had a fever for her from first sight.”

It was in a man’s nature to feel that way at the beginning. After Rory’s fever cooled, would he regret letting desire cloud his judgment? Even if he never learned of the deception, would he come to resent being tied to a wife who brought nothing but herself to the marriage?

“One last thing for luck.” Grizel stuck a small sprig of white heather in Sybil’s hair. “’Tis early for it to bloom, but I found this bit growing in a corner of the castle garden where it was protected from the wind and cold.”

“A sign of spring to come,” Sybil said.
And hope.

One of the women held up a looking glass.

“Oh my, I do look like a bride.” Heaven help her, this really was happening.

“Aye, and a bonny bride ye are,” the woman said. “But where’s your smile gone, lass?”

“If you’re worried about what will happen here tonight,” another woman said, and patted the bed, “I’d be willing to take your place.”

“Wouldn’t we all?” another said, and the women laughed and refilled their cups.

“Every lass is a wee bit nervous on her wedding night.” The woman who spoke this time must have imbibed more than her share, for she was slurring her words. “Another nip will help.”

Sybil took the flask and let the liquid courage burn down her throat.

“No matter what everyone else says,” the woman said, squeezing Sybil’s shoulders, “I think our young laird made a fine choice.”

Before she could drink another long gulp, the women took the flask from her and pushed her toward the door. Sybil paused in the doorway and looked over her shoulder at the women.

“You’ve all been very kind to me,” she said. “Thank you.”

Kind as they were, she wished her sisters were here. She had never imagined she would marry without a single member of her family present.

***

Rory smiled to himself as he dressed in his best saffron shirt and plaid for the ceremony. There could be no changing their course regardless, but his heart was glad that Sybil wanted to be his wife.

When he started to fasten the plaid over his shoulder with his broach, Malcolm shook his head and took it from him.

“Ye must wear this one now.” Malcolm held out a familiar silver broach worked in the image of a stag’s head, the symbol of the chieftain of the MacKenzies.

“Where did ye find it?” Rory narrowed his eyes at him. “This disappeared just like my father’s sword did when he died.”

“I put them away for safekeeping until we had a chieftain worthy of your father and grandfather’s legacy.”

“Ye should have given them to Brian,” Rory said.

“I’d not let them fall into Hector’s hands so long as I have breath in my body,” Malcolm said. “And ye know damned well that’s who would have them now if I hadn’t protected them.”

Rory hated the thought of Hector wearing the broach and sword that had been his father’s most prized possessions. And Malcolm was right. Hector would have used these revered symbols of the chieftainship to help legitimize his claim.

“You were wise to hide them,” Rory said. “I shall try to be worthy of them.”

“I’ve no doubt ye will.” Malcolm was quiet a long moment. “Are ye not being a bit hasty with taking Sybil as your wife before the whole clan?”

“Ye advised me to act decisively, and so I have.”

“That’s what I advised about claiming the chieftainship, not a wife,” Malcolm said. “Ach, you’re as rash about rushing this wedding as your father was about marrying your mother.”

Rory grinned. “I’d say that portends well for our future.”

“That’s what my wife says,” Malcolm said with a long-suffering sigh. “But what about the Grants? They’ll not take this well. Not well at all.”

Malcolm was right about the Grants. But Rory would worry about the Grants and his many other troubles another day.

Today he was celebrating.

***

When Sybil entered the hall, the room fell silent except for the intake of a hundred breaths, including his own. Rory found her beautiful in a filthy gown with her face smudged with mud and her hair in tangles, but she was utterly magnificent as a bride. The rich blue color of the gown matched her eyes, and her shining black hair was set off with his mother’s jeweled silver combs.

The gown shimmered and flowed, making her look like a faery princess as she glided across the room to him. She looked at no one but him, and her smile lifted his heart. He found it hard to believe she was really his.