Confessions (9 page)

“I told you to just leave me alone,” Aria heard Billy say.  She felt her stomach sink.  Who else would he be saying that if not to Tina?

“Oh come on, Billy,” she heard Tina say much too flirtatiously.  “Are you really going to tell me you don’t miss me?” 

Aria heard feet shuffling and more feet following behind. 

“Billy…”

Aria tried to peer in through the crack in the door and was actually able to spot them.  There was Billy, standing between the wall and Tina.  He looked excruciatingly uncomfortable.  Tina, meanwhile, was shamelessly trying to get close to him. 

She placed her hand on his shoulder and leaned in close to his ear, “Come one, Billy.  Tell me you don’t still think about me.  I know you can’t have replaced me with
her
.”

Billy looked right into Tina’s eyes with nothing other than disgust.  He placed his hand on her shoulder and pushed her away.

“I didn’t,” he retorted, “Because what she is to me was something you could never compare to.”

Tina scoffed and finished up her drink, tossing it off to the side. 

“I highly doubt that,” Tina said in a low voice as she charged forward and practically shoved her face against Billy’s in an attempt to kiss him.  Right as he pushed her off and wiped off his lips, Aria burst into the room. 

“What the
fuck
do you think you’re doing here?”  Aria was livid and was completely done holding back.  She hadn’t been imagining the look of disappointment in Tina’s eyes when she saw her and Billy were together.  Aria wasn’t wrong to think there was something off about her trying to contact Billy so insistently.  None of this had been in her head. 

Tina laughed and looked at Aria with something akin to pity.  She was looking at Aria as if she were a bug she could easily squash. 

“Be honest,” Tina said quietly and dangerously.  She stepped close to Aria and stared her down.  “Did you really ever think he was really over me?  Did you really think
you
could pull me out of his heart?”

Aria laughed, truly realizing how pathetic Tina was.  It had been years since they broke up and she had been the one to end it.  Tina had been the one who just disappeared after breaking Billy’s heart.  And now she had shown up out of nowhere thinking she still had a chance with him.  Whether or not Aria was in the picture, she felt sure Billy would have never gone down that road again. 

It was sad that Tina behaved this way though not nearly as sad as her actually believing it.  Aria grabbed Billy’s.

“Think whatever you want.  We know what the truth is and that’s really all that matters.” 

Aria turned to head out the door and that’s when she realized most of the people at the party had gathered around to watch what was going on.  Kay and John were at the front of the crowd.  Kay had her arm thrown out in front of John as if she had stopped him from going in and interrupting.  Aria’s heart swelled up with gratitude and she gave Kay a nod as her and Billy slipped past them.

They went right out into the hall and stopped by the elevator.  Aria pulled him into a hug. Billy relaxed in her arms.  This must have been such a terrible ordeal for him.  If she had thought it was a nightmare, she couldn’t even imagine what Billy must be feeling at that moment.  She wondered how long Tina had him cornered in the room before Aria arrived. 

She ran her hand down his cheek, “why didn’t you just walk out?” 

Aria was genuinely wondering why that hadn’t been his course of action.  He looked almost defeated.

“I just couldn’t.” 

Aria pulled him back into the embrace and he nuzzled his face into her neck. 

“Can we go home now?” 

Aria nodded and told him she just wanted to let Kay and John know.  Billy said he would wait outside and try to get a cab.

She walked back into the apartment and saw Tina was sulking off in the corner of the balcony with her friend leaning back against the railing.  He met Aria’s eyes and held her gaze briefly before looking down at the ground and muttering something.  She saw Tina shrug.  Aria shook her head to snap out of it and looked around for John and Kay.  They were in the kitchen.  She walked over and saw them talking quietly in the corner with their drinks in hand. 

“Hey, we’re going to head out now.”

They both looked disappointed, but were understanding.  Aria looked at John apologetically and said, “I’m so sorry for causing a scene at your party.”

He held up his hand and shook his head.  “You did no such thing. Really, don’t worry about it. I know it was definitely someone else who instigated it all.  You’re not the one who should be apologizing.” He took a sip of his drink and shot a glare in Tina’s direction.  “Are you okay though?” 

He looked back to Aria and waited on her answer.  She nodded and reached out for Kay to get a hug. They both asked to send their goodbyes to Billy and Aria walked out feeling heavy and exhausted. 

When she stepped out onto the street she was relieved to see Billy had already hailed a cab. She slipped into the back seat and immediately leaned her head back against the headrest, letting her eyelids slide shut.  They felt heavy the way they do when you feel emotionally exhausted.  The silent cab ride back to their apartment went by quickly and before she knew it, she was already in her bedroom changing into her pajamas. 

Billy sat at the edge of the bed looking absent-mindedly at Aria as she changed and put her clothes away.  She ended up just throwing the night’s outfit in the hamper before sitting next to Billy.  She turned her head and looked at him wondering what she should do or say.  Before she had a chance to act, he turned around and pulled her into a tight hug. 

“I’m sorry you had to deal with that,” he told her earnestly.  He ran his hand through her hair and she could feel the rise and fall of his chest against hers with every breath he took.  She wondered why he felt such a strong need to apologize, but decided against probing too much.  He likely felt responsible for it at the core because Tina was his ex and it had been a very meaningful relationship.

“It’s okay. It’s over now.  Let’s just move past it and if she ever tries to pull another stunt, we’ll deal with it then.” Aria said as she rubbed his back. She pulled back to look into his eyes, “we’re going to be okay.”

It was two weeks later and there had been no backlash from that night at John’s party or any news about Tina.  It felt like things were getting back to normal, almost as if Billy would be able to forget about the whole ordeal entirely.  The only thing that had started bothering Aria over the last couple days was the lack of sex in her relationship.

She supposed she would be okay going a couple weeks without it, not that she hadn’t already, there was just something about having the dry spell now that bothered her.  After being disconnected in that aspect for some time, she and Billy had found something that revived their passion. 

Rather than just revive it, Aria often thought of it as the one aspect that had been missing from her relationship and would make it stronger.  They had been right in the midst of exploring BDSM play together when Tina showed up and nothing had happened since.  They hadn’t even shared a heated kiss since that night.  It wasn’t until now that it started to bother Aria so she decided to talk to Kay.

“Maybe I’m overreacting,” she said after spilling out all her feelings to Kay over lunch one Saturday afternoon.  It was a bright and cheery day by all accounts, save for Aria’s mood.  Kay tapped her finger on the table as she processed everything Aria had just confided in her.  She took a sip of her iced tea and leaned forward on her elbows.

“I don’t think you’re overreacting,” she said.  Aria felt a wave of relief wash over her.  “I do think you might be taking the wrong thing away from this.”

“What do you mean?”

“Well, has the thought that it has to do with Tina crossed your mind?  And I don’t mean in that it has to do with her because of the incident.  I mean, have you wondered if his seemingly lack of interest is related to her?”

Aria pursed her lips and sighed.  She nodded reluctantly.  She was not happy to admit it, even to herself, but the thought had crossed her mind more than once since she started feeling bothered by it all. 

That had only caused her worries to increase, so she had to keep replaying Billy’s strong rejection of Tina over and over in her mind to feel reassured.  There was no way he could have known Aria had been watching and acted only for her benefit.  What she had secretly witnessed was real. She confessed all of this to Kay.

“The thing is I shouldn’t have to constantly reassure myself.  There’s no need to.”

“You need to talk to Billy about this,” Kay told her.  Aria sighed because she knew this was the conclusion it would come to. She didn’t want to make the same mistake as last time and end feeling worried by herself, building her fears on a foundation of nothing.  She was certain there would be no accidental stumbling on a webpage this time to send her the surprising but secret message to push forward through the concern.  Aria nodded and finished up her sandwich.  She would talk to him as soon as she got back home.

About an hour later, she walked into her apartment.  It was quiet so she wondered if Billy was out.  She went into the bedroom and found him lounging in bed reading one of his books.  She leaned against the doorframe and smiled.  She loved seeing him like this. 

“What’s up?”  He looked up from his book and returned her smile.  He took off his glasses and put them on his nightstand along with his book.

“I need to talk to you,” Aria said as she crossed the room and sat on the bed, facing him. 

“Uh-oh,” he replied, straitening up and giving her all his attention.  He didn’t look all that worried, but he did seem like he cared to hear her out.

“We haven’t had sex since John’s party,” Aria blurted out.  She bit her lower lip and shrugged.  She had been hoping to handle the conversation a bit more gracefully but that wasn’t exactly her strong suit. They had been together long enough for him to know this about her.  He was used to it by now.  What she wasn’t expecting was for him to chuckle in response. 

“Why are you…” she trailed off, cocking her head to the side in confusion.

“I was wondering when you would bring it up,” he admitted with his smile still in place.  He looked amused and he scooted over on the bed to be closer to her.  “I honestly thought you would bring it up sooner, not quite as bluntly though.”

Aria felt her cheeks burn with embarrassment.  She placed her hands over them and smiled shyly.

“Why didn’t you say something?”

He shrugged. “I was just curious to see what you would do.”

“Really.”

This wasn’t something she would put past him.  He had an interesting sense of humor and curiosity and this was no exception. 

She shoved him playfully, “Ah how I missed that.” 

He winked at her as she laughed.  Aria fell forward on his lap and stretched her body out on the bed. 

“I really love you,” she told him.  He nodded and smiled. 

“I know,” he told her with a wide grin.  She rolled her eyes. 

“So, what, you didn’t care to get any of this the past two weeks?”

“Oh, I definitely wanted to but you know how I am.”  She reached up lightly slapped him before saying, “I know.”

He reached forward and stretched his arm, grabbing the hem of her shirt and pulling it up to expose her bra.  He grabbed her shirt with both hands and pulled it off completely, throwing clear across the room. 

He placed his hand flat at the base of her neck and slid it down over the curve of her cleavage and let it rest on her flat stomach.  A light shiver raced up her back as he moved his hand around her waist and rolled her on to her side. 

He had meant for her to sit up, but her face had landed right in front of the crotch of his pants. She decided to do something else.  She rolled her body to lie down on her stomach and reached for the opening of his boxers to pull out his cock.  She stretched her neck forward and took his entire half stiff cock into her mouth. 

She started sucking until he was fully erect, his moans growing louder.  Once he was stiff, she ran the tip of her tongue from the base of his shaft up to the tip, making circles around his head until she took in his entire length again. 

She sat up and looked at him. 

“Bring me the pinwheel,” she ordered. 

He immediately stood up and walked to the nightstand to get it.  As soon as he had shut the drawer, he felt Aria shove him down on to the bed and snatch the box from him.  She tore off his shirt and straddled him, keeping him face down on the bed before running the wheel lightly along his shoulder blades.  He shuddered slightly at the tickling sensation of the spikes traveling along his skin.

She pressed it deeper at the top of his back and moved it down his spine slowly, increasing the pressure as she went until she reached his tailbone.  She ran it back up along the same path, increasing the pressure as she did.  When she reached the top of his back she saw the trail had started to leave deep red marks. 

She leaned down and pressed her body against his back as she extended her arm and dropped the pinwheel on the nightstand.  She started to roll her hips against his back, enjoying the friction it created.  She moaned into his ear to tease him. 

Without warning she rolled off the bed, standing up and walking to closet in the hallway.  She pulled out a table tennis paddle, still in its packaging, and smirked.  She walked back into the bedroom and sat at the edge of the bed, instructing him to lie down across her lap with his ass exposed to her. 

He diligently obeyed as she rubbed his bare cheeks.  Then, she rubbed the paddle against him.  She raised her arm and let it fall with force, delivering the first blow with a loud
smack
that bounced off the bedroom walls. 

She raised her arm again and delivered a second blow.  Finally, she delivered three spanks in quick succession that made his red skin sting all over. 

He was lying over her lap and whimpering into the bed sheets as she rubbed over the red marks gently before nudging him to get up. 

She had him sit on the edge of the bed, which made him wince from his spanking. The fabric of the sheets caused friction that heated up his skin.  Slowly, she took off her pants and panties at the same time before moving to unclasp her bra.

Aria stood there in front of him for a minute as he just stared at her, his eyes raking hungrily over every inch of her body.  She pushed his shoulders so he would lean back against his elbows before climbing on top and straddling him.  The head of his hard cock teasingly bobbed against her wet slit. 

He wondered how long she would tease him before he finally experienced release.  He was shocked when she reached down and grabbed the base of his shaft, positioning his cock right at her opening.  He gulped and looked into her eyes with his own hopeful gaze, longing to be inside her as soon as possible.  Suddenly, she lowered her body down and smacked her ass against his thighs as his cock penetrated her deep.  Her body rolled up and down, moaning as she felt his cock sliding in and out of her.

She leaned forward and grabbed his head between her two hands, shoving it between her breasts.  She rubbed them against his face, never letting up on her rocking hips.

  She grabbed his chin and placed his mouth right over her nipple. Billy wasted no time taking her into his mouth and sucking.  He took this opportunity to try exploring something they had previously discussed. Her receiving the pain.

  Without warning, he bit down hard on her nipple, making her yelp in pain.  He pulled his head back and searched her eyes for a response.  Her cheeks were red and her face was scrunched up in pain. 

“Oh fuck,” she finally said in a broken voice.  He couldn’t tell if that was a good or a bad sign.  She grabbed his chin in a tight grip and placed it over her other nipple.  He bit down, causing her to hiss through her teeth in pain, this time gripping onto his shoulders and digging her nails into him. 

“Oh,” she coughed out. 

Billy grabbed her waist and turned to throw her onto the bed so she was lying on her back.  He crawled up between her legs and positioned himself, thrusting deep into her in one aggressive movement. 

Aria’s back arched off the bed as her hips met his.  He pushed the head of his cock in deep as he circled his hips.  Aria moaned loudly and soon her muscles tensed up as the orgasm racked her whole body.

Billy pounded into her as she felt the butterfly tingles of the orgasm throughout her body. His hips jerked forward as he clutched at her shoulders, his own orgasm exploded inside her.

With a heavy breath he pulled out and rolled onto his side, panting next to her as they both looked up at the ceiling.  He reached for her hand.

“I hope I’m not in trouble for acting out.”  She smirked at his continued playfulness even though they had finished.  She sat up and swung her leg over him to straddle him.  She pressed her hands into his chest and looked into his eyes with a serious expression. 

“You will definitely get the punishment you deserve next time.”  She held his neck as she leaned down and gave him a long, deep kiss.  When she pulled back, they looked at each other with excitement in their eyes. 

Aria stood up and as she walked to the shower she called out, “I did enjoy it though, for future reference.”  With that, she turned on the shower and stepped inside to clean up.

It was Wednesday evening after a rather uneventful day at work that Aria decided to stop by the local plaza for some shopping.  Billy had a business meeting that would likely run late so she was on her own.  She called Kay to ask if she wanted to accompany her, but she already had plans.

Aria went to the plaza by herself to look around the shops and perhaps buy something. She rounded a corner to see Tina standing at the jewelry counter.  Aria briefly flirted with the idea of turning and walking as far away from her as she could, but decided that seemed rather childish.

Instead she opted to continue shopping while acting as normal as possible. Deciding she didn’t want to actually buy anything, Aria started to walk in the direction of the exit and that’s when Tina caught her eye.  Aria didn’t do or say anything except briefly slow down her pace.  Tina quickly gave her a curt nod.  It was her feeble attempt to be cordial in public. Aria returned it before continuing to walk out of the store.