Dana's Valley (28 page)

The first phone call came that night. They had arrived safely. Dana was tucked in at the center, and so was Brett. He was going through a few more preliminary tests in preparation for the surgery. The doctors were hoping to proceed the next day.

We were all a bit anxious the next evening. Even Meg seemed to have an ear tipped toward the phone. The call finally came. The transplant surgeries were over. Things had gone reasonably well. The doctors were pleased so far. Brett was just fine, and Dana seemed to be resting well.

Now it was a time for
wait and see.

The bone-marrow transplant seemed to work for a while without Dana's body reacting against the new cells. We had hoped that things were going to be okay. However, she'd needed so much of various medications to fight off any possible reaction that her body seemed unable to cope with anything new. She really was not doing very well.

She was kept in the hospital so they could monitor her closely and also so she wouldn't be at risk for infections. Mom and Dad were back and forth so much I figured they'd wear out the road.

Meg came and went with regularity. Corey and I got quite used to her. Grandma came a couple of times too, but it wasn't always easy to make the necessary plans ahead of time.

In a weird kind of way, it became almost routine at our house to live with interruptions. I think we got used to it, and we assumed that whatever plans were made were sure to be rearranged in some fashion. Or discarded entirely. It got so it was pretty hard to schedule anything at all. You just knew they wouldn't work out. Graham was always so understanding whenever I had to call and cancel an outing with the youth group at the last minute. It made me realize what a special person he was. Our
first date
—if you could call it that—had been over a year before. Mom and Dad didn't really view it as dating, since we always went with the church group or with one family or another. But for me, in a teenage way, I thought of Graham as my special friend. My “steady.” In fact, Graham was about the only truly steady thing in my life.

But even though I was used to the chaos, I was not prepared for Dad's next announcement to the family. He had gathered us together on one of those rare occasions when we were all home at the same time—all except Dana, who was still in the hospital.

I noticed again how weary he looked. But there was something else. His shoulders sort of sagged, and his eyes had a troubled look. He reminded me of our team after we'd just lost an important game. That defeated look. I was sure it was going to be more bad news about Dana.

But after looking over at Mom as though to gain some strength from her support, he let his eyes travel over us one by one, then took a deep breath. “Your mom and I have been doing a lot of thinking—and praying—and we've finally decided what will be best for us all is to …” He hesitated for a moment. I think that it was hard for him to continue. “ … to sell the house.”

I was totally confused. What did he mean? What house?

“We really don't need a place this big,” he went on. “Grandma isn't with us anymore, and Brett is on his own. So this house is really more than we need.”

Corey caught on first. “You mean
this
house?” he burst out. Dad nodded.

“But we can't. All my stuff is
here.
”

“We'll move your stuff.”

“Not my tree. Or the fort. And Max likes it here.”

“We all like it here,” put in Mom. Her voice sounded weak.

“Then why are we gonna move?”

I think Corey expressed the feelings of all of us. Dad ran his fingers through his hair and looked over at Mom.

“It's not that we don't like it here,” he said. “But this place is more than we need now, and the monthly payments …” He paused, then must have decided on another approach. “There have been a lot of extra expenses with Dana's illness. We're getting deeper and deeper into debt. Selling the house is one way we could ease some of our monthly bills. We could find a nice smaller house in a good neighborhood and—”

“But I still couldn't move my tree.” Corey seemed to be the only one able to respond.

“No,” Dad agreed. “You couldn't move your tree. It's too big now. But you might be able to plant a new one. Watch it grow.”

Corey didn't look convinced. In the meantime, my thoughts were swirling one way and another. I had a tree too, though I certainly wasn't as attached as Corey. It would be far tougher for me to leave Dana's little weeping willow or Corey's mountain ash. Though it would certainly be a relief to leave behind all the reminders of Dana's illness and crisis moments. But I did like it here. It was home. It had been home now for almost three years. I liked the space. The view. The feeling of having room to grow. I'd hate to lose this house. I'd really hate it.

Brett sat and said nothing. He didn't even look up. I didn't suppose he'd care much one way or the other because he had his little apartment in town. I felt a bit peeved that he wasn't willing to fight for the rest of us. Wasn't that what big brothers were for?

To my surprise he did speak up. “What if I moved back home and helped with the house payments?”

I was as surprised as Dad looked. Independence had been Brett's chief goal for a very long time. But after the initial shock, Dad shook his head slowly. “I appreciate that, Brett. More than I can say … but no. Even that wouldn't be enough. With what we have invested here, we hope to be able to purchase another house outright so we won't have a monthly house payment to worry about. It's very important that we not put our home in jeopardy with a second mortgage. With a house paid for, we can start to work on some of the other bills. See if we can get them whittled down.”

I hadn't realized that our finances were so bad. That there were so many bills to pay.

“We're sorry to have to ask you to … to give up your home,” Dad went on. “But if we don't make a move—work it out voluntarily—we might be forced to sell eventually. Then … we'd have no control.”

I felt sick inside.

“When?” It was the first word I'd uttered.

“Well … we expect to talk to a Realtor soon. The home could go up for sale by the end of the week.”

“Max won't like it,” Corey insisted, but his tone indicated that he'd given up his fight.

Brett said nothing. Just sat there leaning forward, his elbows on his knees and his fists tucked under his chin. His eyes looked dark. Brooding. I wondered what he was thinking. For the first time in many months I felt sorry for Brett. Really sorry. I wished there were some way I could reach out to him. I could see that he was in as much pain as the rest of us.

“When do we hafta move?” This question from Corey.

“That's hard to say. Sometimes a house sells quickly. Sometimes it takes a very long time. Sometimes—on rare occasion—it doesn't sell at all.”

I saw a glimmer of hope lighten Corey's eyes.

“But we are hoping—praying—that this one will sell quickly,” Dad explained. “We really do need the money.”

I shrugged and fidgeted to let my folks know as far as I was concerned the meeting was adjourned. There was nothing we could do about it anyway. But Dad straightened in his chair, looked around the room, and cleared his throat. I knew even before he said it that he was going to suggest we have prayer together. When I bowed my head I clenched my jaw.
Why in the world do we always go through this familiar ritual?
I wondered.
It never seems to do us any good.

On Friday morning a man in a bright jacket pounded a sign into the lawn at the end of our drive. Corey said the jacket was yellow, but I thought it was more of a gold color. But the jacket wasn't what really drew our attention. The sign did. It said our home was for sale.

I thought about it all day at school. I guess I expected to arrive home that afternoon and find packed boxes sitting throughout the house. Or maybe empty rooms with the furniture all gone. But when I walked into the kitchen, nothing had changed. I felt momentary relief. Maybe the house wouldn't sell.

But the sign did not go away. And on the next Monday when I came home from school, I was informed that the real estate agent was bringing someone to look at the house after dinner. Would I please check to make sure my room was presentable?

From then on my room always had to be presentable. Possible buyers tramped through our house on a regular basis. I didn't want to be there. I hated to see them come and go and exclaim about
this
or explain how they would change
that.
One woman even said Corey's tree was too close. She'd have it removed.
Removed.
Without any idea of what the tree was all about, how special it was to all of us.

So I stayed away as much as I could. Mom was often away too. I don't know if she orchestrated it that way or if she really was needed at Dana's hospital. Corey and I, with the help of Meg, managed to keep the house reasonably ready for these intruders. Dad came and went—looking wearier than ever.

During the time people were looking at our house, Mom and Dad were busy looking at other people's houses. It seemed to be a long process without much headway. I wondered if there were really so few house possibilities out there, or if it was just hard to pick one of them after having designed a house for our family and lived in it so long.

At any rate, my parents usually came home discouraged. Then one day they looked a bit more hopeful. They had found one with
promise.
I wasn't too sure what that meant and was hesitant when they wanted to take Corey and me to see it.

I didn't like it. But then I hadn't expected to.

It was a small ranch, pushed up almost to the sidewalk, with dark gray walls and ugly green shutters. The roof came sloping down until you felt you'd need to duck to enter the door. That wasn't the case, of course. It just made you feel that way.

Inside it wasn't much better. Mom walked me through, exclaiming how this could be changed and that could be opened up to let in more light and the bathroom could be enlarged by robbing from the bedroom closet. After where we'd lived, this was not a pleasant house. But I didn't say so. Mom and Dad had suffered enough without my adding to it. I nodded. Even tried to smile. But all the time I was still wishing our home wouldn't sell. That we could stay right where we were. I fervently hoped that Corey was faithfully doing his praying. This was one change in our life we didn't need.

If we did have to move, at least I wouldn't need to be there for long. Like Brett, I'd get my own place. Once I was eighteen I could legally be on my own. Come summer I'd be fifteen and have my driver's permit. Though it did me little good with neither parent available to accompany me on practice sessions.

I was beginning to hope our house really wouldn't sell. I answered the door one night, and there stood the man in the gold jacket. He grinned and extended his hand. I wasn't used to shaking hands with adults—except at church. It made me feel funny.

“Your folks in?” he asked. His voice sounded a bit too cheery. I wasn't used to that either, at least lately.

“My father is.”

“May I see him? I've got some good news.”

Even as I nodded, I had a sinking feeling. I was sure that what this man would consider
good news
wouldn't be good news to me. Or Brett. And especially not to Corey. I silently hoped the buyer was not the woman who was going to rip out Corey's tree.

I nodded again and stepped back so the man could come in. Dad was in his office. I went to get him, leaving the man standing in the entry, his jacket looking very yellow in the light of the hallway.

“The Realtor wants to see you,” I said to Dad as I poked my head in the door. Then I went on to my room. Later I would look Corey up and maybe read to him for a while. Right now I needed a bit of time alone.

It's one thing to pack for a move when you're excited about a new home. It is another matter entirely when nobody wants to leave. This was the case with us. Mom worked for days systematically emptying closets and cupboards and labeling packing boxes. She was getting close to completing the task when the cancer center called again. Dana had taken another bad turn. Mom tossed a suitcase in the car and left, her expression grim, her eyes weary, and her shoulders bent. That left us to finish the last of the packing and make the move.

A sense of mourning fell over our house as we gathered together the last of our belongings and stuffed them into boxes to be whisked out the door and into the borrowed truck. Our nearest neighbor, Rayna's father, had graciously offered his vehicle, and Dad was glad we wouldn't have to rent a moving van. But the modest-sized truck required many trips and certainly made the whole procedure drag out.

The furniture went last, spread over the course of three days. Brett, Travis, and Graham did much of the heavy lifting and transporting. Dad's time was used up between trips to the center and the job that he was doggedly trying to fit in. Travis had completed his first year of college but hadn't started his summer job yet. I think he enjoyed being back with Brett again. As they worked together, Travis was telling Brett stories about his classes and the dorm life. I think, in his own way, he was hoping to convince Brett that college wasn't so bad. He knew Dad and Mom were both really disappointed when Brett had decided to continue his job with UPS instead of leaving for college after graduating from high school.