Dom Fever (Devlin Black #2) (11 page)

“I was going to tell you,” he rushed in. “I swear I was.
”

I almost laughed at how gullible I had been. “Sure you were, Devlin. When? After I signed you
r
stupid
contract? God, I can’t believe I let myself believe you.”

“
I was. I just couldn’t find the right time. I’d start to, but…” He came to kneel before me and I jerked my hands away as he tried to grab them. “I love you, Victoria. I swear I do. I never fucked those women and Justine was the only one I had undress. I promise you. Daniel had been here and I was upset and aggravated that I couldn’t have you. I was stupid. God, I just wanted it to be you.”

He could say whatever he wanted. I knew what we had was over. The short amount of happiness I’d been granted would kill me in the months to come
—years, maybe—but I’d get through it. I always did.

As I breathed through the round of stabbing pains
, I knew what had to be done.

“You need to pack your stuff and leave.”

“No.” His head shook, his brow creasing. I could see the hurt and it was enough to give me pause.

“
This is over, Devlin. For good. You should have been honest with me from the beginning, but you weren’t. You lied to me.”

His hands gripped my hips, trying to bring me closer into him, but I pushed back. If he tried to hold me, I’d break down completely. Tears were already blinding me.

“Kitten, please. I swear. I want us to work.”

“Don’t call me that!” The fight within exploded and my legs kicked at him as I fought to get away. His hands were all over me, but never roughly. More, trying to pull my body into his. To restrain me against what I was best at
—running.

“Wait,” he breathed out.

“No, get off! I don’t want you touching me. You lied to me. I knew you hadn’t changed. Get out of my house. From now on, I want you to stay away.” I wiggled more, finally managing to get both of my feet on the ground. If he would move, I could stand from the sofa and go to my room. I needed rest. To lie down and be alone. I felt sick, dizzy, and hurt by his deceit.

“I said, be still, dammit.” His tone was different. Almost fearful, yet urgent
. It was enough to make me stop.

Slowly, he spread my legs and I saw his eyes widen. There was sadness within his feat
ures, but something so much more. Devastation? I couldn’t read it. Couldn’t begin to even know what he was thinking.

My head lowered and
I looked down at the light pink scrub pants, but I somehow already knew. Blood was stained against the inner most part between my thighs. I felt the room sway as I tried to force him out of the way.

“Move
.” I sounded a lot calmer than I felt. Every fear I had was on the forefront and I was drowning in them. Being slowly taken to the dark abyss that I’d once loved to be a part of right before I fell asleep. The place where I always saw Devlin. Dots spotted my vision, but I fought to hold on.

“What does this mean?”
Reluctantly, he gave me space, allowing me to stand.

I moved back, glaring as our eyes connected. I
wanted him to hurt. To tear him apart like he’d done to me on more times that I could take. How, after being with her, could he come to my bed and pour his heart out? Promising me things that he knew were nothing but lies? I didn’t understand it. Couldn’t fathom how easily it had been for him to use her if what he confessed to me was true. In the moment, I hated him. Hated how he could hurt not only me, but Ava. She’d gotten attached. Woke up every morning calling out, da da. Now she wouldn’t have that. Wouldn’t have him around like she enjoyed.

“What do you thin
k this
means
, Devlin? I’m losing the baby.” Tears escaped at the reality. I wanted this child. Wanted the dream of the happy family he had tempted me with. That I had let myself accept. Now, it was disappearing. Being taken from me by the second. “I’m losing it and it’s all your fault!” Even as the instant regret sank in, I still couldn’t stop from lashing out. It wasn’t enough to see his pain. He had to experience more. Feel what I was going through. “From this day on out, you’re going to stay away. You’re not going to call. You’re not going to come by. You’re going to wait for the papers my lawyer draws up and you’re going to comply with them.”

He shook his head and I fought not to double over.
Again, the room began to fade, but I continued.

“When you came to my bed,
you deliberately withheld what you did. You knew how I would feel about you falling back into your old ways, so what did you do? You lied. You broke your promise not to hurt me. Now
I
have the power.
I
control what happens, and I’m telling you to disappear until I’m forced to see you. Any other time, I don’t even want to know that you exist.”

I
started for the room, ready to change and head back to the hospital. Alone, with Ava.

“
You don’t mean that,” Devlin said, following behind. “You’re hurt. You’re searching for an excuse. Don’t let this be it. Yes, I hid the truth about how far I went with her, but I never once lied when I said what I wanted for us.”

Pressure latched onto my arm and I felt him turning me around. The room blurred and I reached out into nothingness. The white walls were
waning and I could feel myself going down. Like lightening, pain branched across my stomach and then…darkness.

To be continued…

About the Author

Alaska is an erotic BDSM author who also goes by the pen names Jennifer
Salaiz and Jenny May. She lives in the SF Bay area...for now. She's a dreamer, and longs for the day when her husband and kids can load up in the car and drive until their hearts’ content. Adventure and discovering new places play a huge role in Alaska's life. It drives her, and feeds the creativity of coming up with new locations for her stories.

Within the last two years, Alaska and her family have drove across the country twice, and also drove the distance from Texas to California three times. Asked, if she could choose one place to permanently settle down, where it would be, Alaska laughed. "Montana, today. Tomorrow, it may be Alaska, again. I go back and forth."

When Alaska’s not dreaming of spontaneously hitting the road to find a new place to write about, she's being a mother and wife. If you're looking to connect with her to learn more, feel free to email her at
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